Cannon fodder partner dressed as a disabled villain

On the way back, Yun Yan noticed Shen Shuheng's unusual silence.

He is usually silent, but today's silence is especially different, he seems to be thinking about something silently.

It was only then that Yun Yan realized that his mind was on his mother today, but he ignored Shen Shuheng's emotions.

The orphanage is a cruel place. Most of the healthy children without parents have been adopted, and most of the remaining children have disabilities or diseases to varying degrees.They are like those crippled fruits on the fruit stand, watching themselves being left in the basket and no one cares about them.

The incomplete fruit may not envy the beautiful fruit being picked away, but the children will.

This is why Yu Jingxiao told her husband not to bring Yu Xiaoyu to the gate of the orphanage.

Yun Yan did his homework before going. Some people said that if you can’t guarantee to go to the orphanage often, don’t establish emotional links with those children. Very cruel thing.

On the way in the past, he and Shen Shuheng had an exchange on this point, and Shen Shuheng obviously agreed with this statement and was deeply moved.

So Yun Yan did not expect that he would take the initiative to go to the activity room of disabled children in the afternoon to get in touch with those children.

In fact, at noon, when Shen Shuheng was feeding those handicapped children with him, there seemed to be something wrong with his expression, he seemed to be patient, and at the same time seemed a little confused.But it was not suitable to ask more questions at that time, so Yun Yan gave up.

Yun Yan thought to himself that Shen Shuheng might feel that, to a certain extent, he and those children share the same disease.

This is about the first time in these years that Shen Shuheng has shown initiative in non-profit contacts with strangers.

"How was your day this afternoon?" Yun Yan asked him.

Shen Shuheng recovered from his contemplation, nodded, but still had no intention of saying more.

Yun Yan didn't want to give up, so he stretched out his hand to clasp his fingers, and asked him, "Can you tell me?"

Shen Shuheng hesitated for a moment, but still opened his mouth and told him what he saw and did in the afternoon.

The disabled children's activity room in the Children's Welfare Institute is not large, but it is divided into several areas, which are in charge of different teachers. Shen Shuheng and other volunteers only appear as assistants.

The main task of this afternoon is to conduct rehabilitation training for these children.

Rehabilitation teachers are very limited, and the conditions of the children are different, so it is difficult to take care of them one by one. These assistants can only help the children do some simple exercises under the guidance of the teachers. These exercises are very helpful for the children's recovery. Help, but in Shen Shuheng's view, it is not enough.

Some children are also physically disabled, and he almost empathizes. Looking at those children, he thinks that their problems can obviously have a better solution, but because of the limited conditions, they can only stop here.

This was the first time he had a desire like "wanting to help others", but he couldn't tell whether it was sympathy or his own perfectionism.

But in any case, he very much hopes to change those things that "obviously can be improved".

He knew that he could not be the savior of those children, and he even vaguely rejected the approach of those children, but when he saw a rehabilitation teacher instructing a child with a disabled leg, he still couldn't help correcting it—over the years, He has been rehabilitating under the guidance of top rehabilitation therapists, and he has read a lot of relevant materials and literature, and has a lot of experience in this regard.

He could see that the teacher was very attentive, but his methods and knowledge were old and limited. The teacher's method might help the child, but another method might be better.

After teaching the child proper posture, he also discussed it with the teacher and agreed to refer his physical therapist to the teacher.

Before that, he had been silent, and the child he helped was also silent.The child seemed to be a teenager, very shy and afraid of him, and hardly dared to look at him. However, after he taught the child, the child obviously got closer to him.

At the end, when he was about to leave, the child finally asked him: "Brother, will you come again?"

This is the sentence he is most afraid of being asked.

Yun Yan was fascinated by this, and asked him when he heard this: "Then how did you answer?"

Shen Shuheng was silent for a while, and said, "I said, 'maybe'."

They might go again, but he wouldn't make that commitment lightly.

Yun Yan smiled and squeezed his hand tightly.

"After that, we will go together."

A few days later, Shen Shuheng showed Yun Yan a house and asked him if he wanted to move his residence to the urban area.

Yun Yan flipped through the pictures and other related materials of that villa in surprise, and asked him, "Why did you think of moving?"

"It will be more convenient to move there." Shen Shuheng said.

In fact, apart from his own reasons for choosing this manor, it was also because of its large area and freedom of expansion, which was suitable for building an experimental base.

The core part of Boling Technology is here, while the marketing and operation departments are in the bustling area of ​​the city. Except for the occasional executives who need to come to meetings, his mother is often in charge of it, and he himself has never been alone. Where you want to be.

He has also been very himself over the years, almost never considering other people's feelings.

Since he moved in here, he has continued the habit of previous years. Except for some festivals and special dates, he has never taken the initiative to visit his grandfather and mother. Instead, his grandfather and mother began to show kindness to him, and came to see him regardless of the traffic. .

He also hardly considered the working distance of employees. At first, of course, some people complained that they were too far away from home, and many people even offered to resign. However, he solved this problem neatly with the new salary system and bonuses.

After marriage, Yun Yan was actually accommodating him. Every time he had to go out on business, Yun Yan had to get up very early. Although there was a driver to pick him up, he still had to spend a lot of time and energy on the road.

But now, Shen Shuheng decided to change this status quo.

Yun Yan agreed to his suggestion almost immediately. He was very happy, but he was still a little worried that Shen Shuheng would not get used to it: "Then let's move and try, if you don't like it, we will come back to live."

Shen Shuheng hugged him and nodded.

The property was originally under the name of Shen Shuheng, and it was already well-decorated when it was bought. Naturally, the house is not as big as the manor here, but it is big enough. It has all kinds of facilities and event rooms. There is a Small yard and even an indoor pool.

In the previous house, Shen Shuheng would never consider the swimming pool, but now, both of them are looking forward to this swimming pool.

One evening before moving, the two walked along the road outside the manor.

The sky was gray and there was no wind but the chill was piercing. Yun Yan wore a thick and soft scarf to wrap himself tightly, but Shen Shuheng insisted that he didn't need to be so bloated. He wore a windbreaker and a thin scarf. I bought a scarf, but not long after I went out, my ears turned red from the cold.

Yun Yan laughed at his stupidity, and took out his warm hand from the glove to cover his ear and rubbed it back and forth. Afraid that his hand would be cold, Shen Shuheng took his gloved hand out of his pocket and covered it on Yun Yan's ear. hand.

Yun Yan's heart moved slightly, he held his face and gave him a long kiss.

He didn't laugh until after the kiss, feeling silly.

"I have a hat," Yun Yan smiled and took off his big scarf and wrapped it around Shen Shuheng. The cold wind whizzed into the neckline, and he shrank his neck.

Sensing his body temperature, Shen Shuheng felt warm in his heart. He also took off his thinner scarf and wrapped it around Yun Yan, carefully wrapped it in a circle, and finally stuffed it into his clothes, and then helped Yun Yan put it on Furry hat, wrapped like an Eskimo.

There are no flowers in the mountains in winter, but walking along the path, there is a greenhouse flower garden.

Before Shen Shuheng moved here, my grandfather asked someone to build a flower garden here, saying that when he lived here in the future, there would always be some decorations and something new in the house.

Yun Yan had discovered this a long time ago, thinking that the old man's thoughts really coincided with his own.

The flower garden was as warm as spring, and all kinds of colorful flowers bloomed just right, none of which was more delicate and beautiful than the bouquet of wild cosmos that I gave to Shen Shuheng back then.

But nothing compares to the splendor of his handful of cosmos.

"When we move, we will plant a cosmos in the yard next spring, okay?" Yun Yan asked Shen Shuheng.

Shen Shuheng nodded with a smile, paused before saying, "Actually, I still keep the handful you gave me back then."

"What?" Yun Yan opened his eyes wide: "Isn't it broken...or did you make dried flowers?"

Shen Shuheng shook his head: "After freeze-drying, seal it in a glass cover, and put that ring together."

"You kept that straw ring too?" Yun Yan felt a little guilty for a moment: "I thought you had thrown it away long ago, and mine was gone long ago..."

How long can a straw ring last?After wearing it for a short time, he rubbed it badly and threw it into the trash can at night.

But it's strange to say, "Why did you think of keeping that bouquet?"

Shen Shuheng's expression was a little embarrassed: "In order to deal with grandpa, I think he likes it very much, and I'm afraid he will ask me... Otherwise, I will probably lose it."

Not romantic at all, but genuinely cute.

Yun Yan laughed out loud.

Although not as meaningful as that bouquet of cosmoses, the flowers in the garden reminded Shen Shuheng of another past event.

"Do you still remember, when you were in high school, you always brought me flowers?"

Yun Yan laughed and looked at him teasingly: "Do you know that I brought you flowers?"

Shen Shuheng didn't speak, and coughed lightly, but her cheeks were slightly red.

Back then, after Qiao Siyu persuaded the teacher to change to Shen Shuheng's class and sit next to him, he found that there were always many eyes cast on him every day.

At first, he thought he was looking at himself, after all, his behavior of directly changing shifts was weird enough, but later he discovered that in fact, more people were still looking at Shen Shuheng, which had nothing to do with him.

After all, Shen Shuheng was a former school grassroots student. He was already eye-catching, and it didn't diminish even after his disability. On the contrary, those gazes became more complicated because of his disability, wheelchair, and the past of being humiliated by Wang Che in public. More curiosity, pity and pity.

And what Shen Shuheng needed and hated the most was these curiosity and pity.

Not only the students in their class, but also many students from other classes, when passing through the back door of the class or coming to their class to find someone, they always focus on Shen Shuheng intentionally or unintentionally.And Shen Shuheng could only sit in the last row due to physical limitations, and had almost nowhere to hide.

Many times, Qiao Siyu saw Shen Shuheng silently enduring under the eyes of others, absent-minded, tense all over, and even the knuckles of the fingers holding the pen were slightly white.

He felt that it might be the first time he felt sorry for someone.

At this time, he would always coldly meet the eyes of those who looked at Shen Shuheng coldly, and when those people saw his eyes, they would look away in embarrassment.

But this is not enough.

Originally, he was sitting on the left side of Shen Shuheng, and the back door of the class was on the right side of Shen Shuheng. Later, after thinking about it, he changed the positions of the two desks after school one day.

Shen Shuheng found out when he came to class the next day, and silently accepted the change without saying anything.

But the two of them were in the last row after all, even if Qiao Siyu sat beside him, it was impossible to completely block those gazes.

So... One morning, Qiao Siyu brought a bouquet of flowers and a vase, and as soon as he got to class in the morning, he took out the vase and filled it with some water, then put the flowers in it, and placed it between the two of them's tables .

When it was placed there, Qiao Siyu touched him and said, "This one is a bit big... Let me borrow your table."

Shen Shuheng was noncommittal, so Qiao Siyu put the big vase in the middle of the table where the two were connected.

Some classmates cast surprised glances, and Qiao Siyu stared back directly: "What are you looking at! Have you never seen such a beautiful flower?"

When a teacher asked about the flowers, Qiao Siyu explained: "I'm in a bad mood recently, and I feel good when I put a bouquet of flowers, and my study efficiency is high."

The big bouquet of flowers helped Shen Shuheng block a lot of sight. At the same time, if someone looked over, he couldn't be sure whether that person was looking at the flowers or at him. He simply understood that he was looking at the flowers. Gradually On the contrary, I feel a lot more comfortable.

Shen Shuheng still remembers that there was a strelitzia in the first bunch of flowers, also called bird of paradise, that flower was so proud and beautiful, as if it should never wither.

But they are flowers after all, and they will decay sooner or later. With their decay, Shen Shuheng found that there was a trace of regret and panic in his heart.

Unexpectedly, a few days later, Qiao Siyu brought another bunch to replace the previous one.

In Shen Shuheng's memory, the first time he spoke to Qiao Siyu, he asked him, "Where did you get so many flowers?"

When Qiao Siyu heard his words, she seemed to be shocked for a moment, and then asked him a little nervously: "You don't like it?"

He was silent for a moment and said, "No."

Qiao Siyu laughed, and it was the first time Shen Shuheng saw this young man with a cold face laughing, only then did he realize that he was actually very cute when he smiled.

Qiao Siyu didn't explain, just said: "Then I will continue to bring it in the future, but I am afraid that I will continue to occupy your table."

If you occupy it, you will occupy it——Shen Shuheng thought to himself: half of each person is just right.

Many years later, Shen Shuheng asked him again: "So, where did you get the flowers?"

Yun Yan was silent for a while, and smiled wistfully, "At that time, my father gave it to my mother."

Shen Shuheng was startled.

"My mother said that since they got married, my father found a flower shop, ordered flowers, and sent a bouquet every other week to represent his love for my mother. But... after many years, that has It has become a habit, my dad can't remember the year he paid for the flower shop, my mother cherished the flowers at first, but after the relationship between the two of them became bad, my mother was bothered by looking at those flowers, so she let the nanny Put it in a study that you don’t frequent.”

"Later, I thought... Since they don't like it, why don't I bring it to school, maybe you will like it."

Instead of letting those flowers wither away in no one's place, it's better to let them change to another place and regain their vitality.

Yun Yan looked up at Shen Shuheng, and asked him: "So...do you like it?"

He didn't mention those eyes that came and went back then, and didn't ask him if he "needed it", but only asked him if he liked it or not.

The once depressing and even humiliating past seemed to become brighter in the bunches of flowers.

"Of course, I like it very much." Shen Shuheng hugged him, kissed him among the flowers, and said the words that he owed him for many years: "...Thank you."

This time, Yun Yan did not refute.

He knew that this sentence of thanks was Shen Shuheng's relief from the past.