Desperate

For three days, Zhou Pushen and Cen Lu were almost inseparable.

Cen Lu has never had such a pleasant time in his life. Every day when he wakes up, the person who misses him is next to his pillow, gently waking him up, and a warm breakfast is probably already heated on the table.Cen Lu would stay in bed for a while, and it was not too late until Zhou Pushen was at a loss for what to do.They don't need to step out of the room. There is enough food for two people in the refrigerator for a week. They eat together, read books together, and whisper together in the warm sofa like all ordinary couples.

Zhou Pu sat on the sofa with Cen Lu in his arms, watching him read difficult math books. Cen Lu lay in his arms with picturesque eyes, and leaned on Zhou Pushen's uninjured left shoulder in the most comfortable position, looking delicate The wantonness and pride in his eyes had been spoiled a bit, and Zhou Pushen was so happy that he didn't know what to do if he saw even a little bit of this man's former youthful spirit.

Cen Lu was fascinated by the book, and Zhou Pu was also fascinated by the book. He couldn't help but feel left out. He put the hand around Cen Lu's waist and carefully moved it to the one-line-long function on the book. Ask him: "What is this?"

Cen Lu looked back at him with teasing eyes: "Wilterras elliptic function, why, want to learn?"

"..." Zhou Pushen was a little ashamed, "How many lessons do I need to make up before I can understand this?"

"Well, let me see." Cen Lu sat up from his arms, but he was still surrounded by people, "You have only studied calculus so far. To understand this, you must at least supplement differential equations and functionals. Analysis, and then I have to make up for it and re-analyze." His delicate eyes turned to Zhou Pushen's face, looking at that heroic face with a rare guilty look, the beautiful little boy five years ago suddenly appeared in his mind. baby.

It seems that since a long time ago, since this man was a lonely child, he has been looking at himself with such eyes, timidly, dependently, quickly glanced and then looked away.

Cen Lu didn't know before because he didn't care.But now, he seems to be dazed, and there is an urgency in his heart that forces him to look into Zhou Pushen's eyes. He wants to make sure that this person is real and has never changed.

Sure enough, as soon as he met Cen Lu's almost aggressive gaze, Zhou Pushen turned his eyes away as if he had been burned, and turned his head to kiss his face.

But Cen Lu didn't allow him to run away. He pinched Zhou Pushen's face with his hands, carefully looked at those evasive black eyes and white earlobes so red that they could bleed, and asked him: "Zhou Pushen, tell the truth, are you Didn't you start looking at me when you were in Kanbar Mountain?"

Zhou Pushen was forced to look at him, his face seemed to be painted with red paint, his chest was pressed against Cen Lu's, even though he was holding his neck to the end, the thunderous heartbeat was still utterly betrayed his answer.

Zhou Pu thought deeply, so what is it like to be fancy, it is because he has already fallen in love with you.

Like a madman.

Seeing that he didn't speak, Cen Lu rarely forced him to speak, but let go of his face, crawled his fingers through the thin home clothes, stuck to the place that was throbbing violently and did not move.

He sighed: "Why didn't you say it back then."

Zhou Pushen didn't know how to answer. What should he say? The other two people between Yun and Ni were both men. He never thought of telling him what was on his mind. Still five years later.

He was afraid that after Cen Lu knew his thoughts, he would think him dirty.

Cen Lu seemed to see through what he was thinking at a glance, pressed against his chest and said sullenly: "If I didn't fall in love with you, are you going to hold back forever? Zhou Pushen," he pointed at his chest , "You are such a complete coward, you have no energy, no guts," he really hated him when he said this, "everything else is scrambling, but for me... I won't push you You don’t dare to move forward at all, Zhou Pushen, sometimes I really hate you.”

Ah, so it is.

It turned out to be the case.

Zhou Pushen was pushed onto the sofa by him. The thick math book fell on the carpet with a "clack" and no one cared about it. The lingering lips and tongue were so gentle, he stretched out his hand to support Cen Lu's waist and hips that were about to slide down, and propped him up slightly, Cen Lu's eyes were already full of moisture, Zhou Pushen's big hand gently stroked his eyes, and asked He: "Did I scare you?"

"It makes you feel like I'm about to withdraw at any moment."

Cen Lu got angry, pouted and rolled over from him, and fell asleep on the back of the sofa, pointing the back of his head at him.

"You still come to ask me." He was angry.

Cen Lu put his hand in front of his waist, but there was a coquettish and consummate pinky finger that silently came up, hooked the ring on his ring finger and stroked it.

Cen Lu shook off that hand, but Zhou Pushen entangled him relentlessly. No matter how he tried to mess with him, Cen Lu always turned his ass towards others. Zhou Pushen had no choice but to follow him and lie down on the sofa. Come down, such a narrow single sofa, Zhou Pushen had to hug him tightly so as not to slip off the edge of the sofa.

Cen Lu's temper flared up again, and he couldn't stop writhing like a water snake: "Go down." He said awkwardly, "Go down, you'll be squeezed to death!"

Zhou Pushen grabbed his left hand and held it in his palm. It was rare to use his strength as a soldier to restrain him. To him, Cen Lu's little strength was like a fly shaking a tree. Cen Lu was angry and turned to face him. The man's Adam's apple was scratched and bitten, but Zhou Pushen remained motionless, but when he turned around, he quickly grabbed Cen Lu's lips and kissed him as if to suffocate him.

Cen Lu had no strength anymore, so he could only passively bear the man's kiss with his head held high. Zhou Pu kissed him deeply, looked at his dodging and resisting eyes, sighed and pressed him into his arms: "If I am ready to leave at any time, How can I give you a ring?"

Hearing this sentence, Cen Lu, who had been thrashing all the time, stopped moving.

Zhou Pushen could feel his hands resting on the wound on his shoulder, which made him feel nervous for no reason, as if Cen Lu could kill himself at any time, but in fact it was the same, as long as Cen Lu thought, he could Can stop breathing on his hand, willingly.

Zhou Pu rubbed his hair deeply: "I didn't want to give it to you...I was afraid of going away...Why should I restrain you." Sensing that hand tended to pinch him, Zhou Pushen hurriedly followed: "But later... when I saw the helicopter of the Knights of the Round Table, I regretted it again."

"I thought, what if I can come back. If I come back, even if I only have one breath, I will come back, come to you again, and ask you personally..." Zhou Pu's deep Adam's apple trembled: "May I Don't want to give all the time left to me."

Cen Lu buried his face in the man's broad embrace and did not respond.

"So I put the ring in the magazine." Zhou Pushen said here, his voice was a little choked, "The ring was melted from the platinum necklace left by my mother, mother and gun, they were me before I met you , the only thing in this world that has protected me, and then I have you..." He hugged the person in his arms tightly, "I have nothing else I need except you."

"Brother, before you left, ask me if I have any wishes." Zhou Pushen said softly, with a smile on his lips that seemed to be filled with tears: "My wish, from the beginning to the end, is only you."

"Are you willing..." Zhou Pushen mustered up his courage, and it seemed that it took all his strength to speak out: "Are you willing to fulfill my wish?"

He could feel the trembling of the body in his arms, and Cen Lu's suppressed crying voice reached his ears, and he scolded him: "Stupid...fool..."

Zhou Pushen gently touched the hair on the top of his head, and said softly, "I know."

"Why didn't you say..."

"It was my fault."

"If you had been earlier... why would we miss so much time..."

Zhou Pu's heart ached deeply: "At that time... I didn't know that you would love me..."

"Don't put gold on your face!" Cen Lu suddenly broke free from his embrace, and looked at Zhou Pushen with gray eyes full of tears. He was so angry that his eyes and lips were trembling, and big tears flowed down His eyelashes fell down and hit Zhou Pushen on the back of his hand: "Who loves you, have you heard me say that? You bastard, I hate you for being too late."

Zhou Pushen covered the water stains on the back of his hands with his palms. He recalled it carefully and found that Cen Lu had never said that he loved him.Zhou Pushen suddenly became a little pitiful, like an abandoned puppy, he lowered his eyes and asked him: "Then do you love me?"

Cen Lu was really so angry that he was dizzy, so he just bumped his head on Zhou Pushen's shoulder. Because he was too caught off guard, Zhou Pushen let out a cry of pain, and Cen Lu bumped him into the handle of the sofa. His lover pinched his chin, knelt between his legs with one leg, and said to him in a condescending, absolutely unquestionable manner:

"I love you."

Although his eyes are still soft red.

"Zhou Pushen, I've been in your hands for the rest of my life."

Although his body is so fragile that it looks like a plate of sand that will be blown away by the wind.

"I promise you, in this life, I will give you everything for the rest of the time." Cen Lu made up his mind to go to hell for three days and let Zhou Pushen run alone. The man was dragged back, how could he bear to be separated from him again, even if he had to bring Zhou Pushen to pieces, he would admit it.

He couldn't take it anymore, he finally forced Zhou Pushen to admit with himself that they couldn't live without each other.

Cen Lu's face and eyes were frighteningly red:

"Zhou Pushen, if you run away again..." Cen Lu lowered his head, staring fiercely at the other party with hatred and tears in his eyes: "I will simply kill you and bury you in my Cen family's tomb , and then jump down himself, if we can’t live together, we will die together.”

Zhou Pushen's nose was sore from what he said, and he was about to kiss him, but saw Cen Lu's eyes suddenly went blank for a moment, he raised his head, stared at the ceiling, and fell back straight like that go down.

Zhou Pu was so frightened that his heart almost stopped beating, he quickly bent down/body to grab the back of Cen Lu's swollen head, picked him up distressedly, parted his hair and blew on the bulging place, but the other party Without realizing it, he lowered his head and didn't know what he was thinking.

Just when Zhou Pushen thought that his brother had been stunned just after confessing his love, the sadness came from his heart, but he saw that Cen Lu, who had just stayed there for a moment, suddenly regained his spirits. He looked at Zhou Pushen and said word by word:

"Xiao Shen, I understand."

"I finally understand the meaning of the will my mother left me."

The author says:

The final climax of the plot is coming~ Gu Yaoming’s manuscript can finally appear, and it will become moldy if you hold it again (shame