[Wen Ye] Dazai so you cry too

1.

Today Azhi not only brought a flower, but also a woman and a non-human.

That woman should probably be called a girl.She is a delicate and beautiful rose in full bloom.The flower stems have thorns and no one picks them.She grew up on the edge of a cliff, despite the wind and rain, she has her own world

I once aspired to be such a girl, and although I tried hard for it, I failed in the end.

That inhuman, to be precise, should be Sword Fusangshen.He guarded Aji with the attitude of a guardian.As long as Azhi has any disrespectful behavior, he will draw his sword.The roses, which were not easy to pick before, now have beasts that bow their heads and smell the fragrance.

What a blessing.If described in modern terms, I should be a sour lemon essence.

So good, I looked greedily at this girl.I like everything about her, maybe this is the eye.She should be much older than me, and she dresses with maturity and intellectuality.

But I know it's a layer of defense, and she doesn't care about Azhi and that fusangshen.But Fu Sangshen is much better than Azhi, after all, she has him in her eyes.That kind of bloody misunderstanding where a loved one brings a newcomer to an old one will never happen to me and Azhi.

"When it's over, we'll write it off."

That girl definitely saw me, she knew that I still existed and existed in this world in such an illusory form.But what did it matter to her?

Just like many years ago, the sun was still warm that afternoon.My mother was playing with flowers beside us, and my brother was sitting on the rocking chair, smoking the unlit cigarette in a slightly uninhibited way.My father sat beside me and told me the rules of this world through the yellowed booklet.

"In this world, even parents are irrelevant people. You just need to remember that you are your own. Being wise and safe is the greatest sophistication."

"Then what if you want to kill Wei?"

Now that I think about it, maybe it was the first appearance of my brother's rebellion.He was provoking the father who was seen as the patriarch and manager because of his ethics.But my father still...

"Then kill us! Give up all thoughts, just live. So kill us, even if we are the so-called parents."

I have nothing to do with girls, and girls have nothing to do with me.People on two lines will never meet, and one beam of light will never shine on two people.

"Miss Dongyi was joking, there is no account book between us."

Aji was still as usual, smiling and responding to the girl named Dong Hiiragi.

"do not regret."

After saying this, the girl waved her hand in my direction.At that moment, I felt a certain oppression, as if I was returning to my mother's womb and was about to leave this warm and simple nursing home.

Dong dong dong

My heart is beating.I can clearly feel the heart beating strongly in the body under the soil, I am alive again, I have a body.

2.

My name is Yui Kurosawa.23 years old.I don't have anything I particularly like, and I live peacefully in this world.

I often follow the flow of people until I stray from the correct course.Although the streets at night are undercurrents, I love the calm and clean world at that moment.

8:00 am

I went out of the house and met my neighbor Mr. Dazai.He always talks to me in a coquettish and familiar tone, and always asks me to call him Azhi.But Mr. Dazai is just a passer-by in my life, such an intimate way of greeting will only bring unnecessary trouble to each other.

13:00 noon

When I was about to take a lunch break, Mr. Dazai's cat jumped into the balcony of my house.That one is said to be a raccoon cat with black stripes on a white background, it looks like a tiger cub.It hummed and chirped, it was too good at acting like a baby.I couldn't help but soak the calcium milk biscuits in water, and put them in the dish after they softened.

I touched the soft fur, and I couldn't help but feel a lot better.Today's TV series "If You Can Do It Again" has come to the tear-jerking plot again.I'd really like to hand over the blade to its original author if I could.

18:00 pm

Mr. Dazai finally remembered his kitten.He was sitting at the dining table eating the crab that I had just steamed, and the cat named Atsushi and the dog named Ryunosuke were also wagging their tails and eating pet meals.

22:00 at night

Mr. Dazai seriously disturbed the people.He stood on the balcony and played the serenade.Just as I opened the balcony window and wanted to complain a few times, the white camellia flashed my eyes.I silently retreated into the house, sat on the floor and listened to this rather pleasant piece of music.The white camellia tonight is really beautiful.

The world is black.

I don't know how much I've been locked in this false world.Only when Aji comes, will the world be colored, and all dead things will become real.

This is the world Aji wants, and I am a tool for him to play.Just like a normal galgame, I am the object of Aji's game, a dead thing that serves his existence.I clearly know where the world is for me.

But what can I do?I can only play unfriendly and unfriendly games with Azhi again and again.

Finally one day, Aji knelt in front of me holding a bouquet of 1001 white camellias.It's an endless game, so I put my hand out and put it on it.That night, Azhi hugged me tightly and kept saying, "I love you, I love you, I love you."

alright.I know you are so lonely, so you want to play games, right?But……

I'm tired.

I was constantly killed by Aji in this world, and I was constantly forced to go to the BE line.Such a boring world is nothing but a mask.What I love is the living world, and those living people and things.

After being Aji's shadow all these years, the so-called love that was cultivated unilaterally has been exhausted in this world.

Every relationship has an end.Like my father thought I could kill them all.

Now I am wearing a white wedding dress, which should look like the white camellia flower on the table.

"Aji, I love you."

This is the first time I call him Aji in this world.There is light in Aji's eyes? !This false and ethereal world would actually satisfy him.It's hilarious and scary.

"Goodbye, Aji."

I am not a bird with a broken wing, I am a bird born with underdeveloped wings.

Now I'm flying, at least in my eyes.I'm about to approach the clouds, about to be completely swallowed by black.

I called out to the adult whom I called a god whom I had seen in awe when I was young.

Azhi, who was wearing a wedding dress, was lying on top of me in a embarrassed posture.His tears turned out to be warm.It turned out that he would cry too.

But this is no longer important.I don't want to play this boring game with him anymore.Maybe I shouldn't have had such silly fantasies in the first place.

My god, I'm heartbroken.

My heartbeat finally stopped at this moment.

The author has something to say: This is the end of Azhi's article.In fact, this is an unopened text if line that came out of nowhere.A pretty cheesy story.If it can make everyone empathize, I will be considered a success.

Wei is the light that illuminates Azhi, and why is Azhi not the only light?The child's jokes made Azhi remember for a lifetime.Wei actually observed Aji from the perspective of a girl after death, and Aji fell in love with him.But everything in this world has a shelf life.