On the Possibility of Zai He with Black Time

After learning about Shimoha's pregnancy, Dazai really abandoned all the bad habits in the past, and entered into a tense life where he had to carefully hold his wife in his palm every day, for fear that she would be damaged somewhere.

Not only does she always ask her how she is, she has to support her when she walks, and she takes the initiative to help her drink water. Even when she sleeps together at night, she pays attention not to toss too much, so as to avoid the weight of her body from overwhelming Shuangye.

However, the early reaction of pregnancy became more and more serious. Shuangye basically climbed out of bed every morning and vomited violently. The stimulating nausea made her lose interest in any food, and even aroused a slight anorexia symptom.

Dazai's sleep was light, and every time this time he would wake up from the dream, get up and follow Shimoba to pat her on the back, and fetch water for her to rinse her mouth.

"I said, little Shuangye, why don't we...don't want this child?"

Walking out of the washroom, Dazai accidentally whispered these words in Shimoha's ear when he wiped away the physiological tears that Shimoha overflowed due to morning sickness with his fingertips.

The teardrops on the fingertips were still warm, but compared with the cold body temperature on his fingers, that completely different temperature seemed to highlight how cold and cruel Dazai's words were at this moment.

His love has always been selfishly given only to Shimoba, who has saved him in his inner world. Compared with the absolutely tilted balance in his heart, Dazai has no intention of generously sharing his love with the so-called 'children'.

If this result is based on the premise that Shimoba suffers damage, Dazai will make a choice without hesitation, whether it is rationally or emotionally.

But at the same time, he also knew how irresponsible words of his would bring harm to Shuangye, who was already mentally unstable.

Sure enough, Shuang Ye paused just after he finished speaking.

The trembling that slipped from her shoulders crushed Dazai's psychological defenses like snowflakes, and it was almost a second in the blink of an eye. Dazai's original plan was all lost, and he resolutely dismissed that irresponsible In turn, she held Shuangye tightly in her arms with great regret and apologized in a low voice.

"I'm sorry, little Shuangye! Just pretend you didn't hear anything! I'm really too weak—"

His soft black curly hair fell on the top of Shimoba's hair, densely covering his disordered breathing buried in Shimoba's hair. Shiroba didn't speak, but just by listening to Dazai's heartbeat at this moment, he can probably understand How restless his heart must be at this moment.

While he was still feeling confused, Shimoha slightly pushed away from his embrace, raised his head and gently held Dazai's cheek, and asked the most crucial question.

"Don't you like this kid?"

Due to the violent morning sickness just now, Shuangye's plain face was inevitably turned a little pale, but even so, she still stared at her lover earnestly through the window of her soul, as if patiently Waiting for his response.

Being watched so tolerantly, the ripples of chaos in Dazai's heart were indeed smoothed out.He looked down at Shuangye, with a bit of confusion in his eyes that he didn't know how to speak, and he seemed to be worried about something.

"I don't hate it... but I don't like it that much either, because of 'it', you have to bear too much for it, little Shuangye."

Dazai lowered his eyes here, subconsciously using that layer of eye feathers to avoid Shuangye's sight with small movements, but he didn't expect Shuangye's next words, but directly forced him back to the corner, there was no way to retreat.

"Also, you're not ready to be a 'good father', are you?"

Shuang Ye held his cheeks and revealed the truth in a light tone.

His original life was a mess of cotton thread. Even a few years ago, he was a single-minded pursuit of death who rejected the future, and he always felt the absurdity that survival gave him.

The essence of human beings is the continuation of sorrow, but he sees everything too thoroughly, he can't take responsibility for himself, let alone imagine that he has a continuation of the future.

"Little Shuangye..." In the end, Dazai opened his mouth, and could only subconsciously choose to call out her name like a lost child.He held the frost leaf in his palm and caressed the back of his face, as if he wanted to absorb the temperature from her body, so as to hold on to the duckweed on the water surface that sustains him.

"nothing."

But Shuang Ye held his cheeks tirelessly, and softly repeated this sentence in his ear: "It's okay, none of the things you are worried about will happen."

"We will have a healthy and lively child with a pair of loving parents who will never be separated, and reliable elders who love him and witness his growth."

"He will grow up smoothly, live in a peaceful and quiet environment, without too many troubles in life, may look more like you, or have a personality like me, and at the same time have an overly smart brain, but unfortunately, from time to time Has the same youthful troubles as ordinary people..."

"Then wait for him to grow up, and we can rest assured that we will spend this short life with no regrets."

As Shuangye narrated beautifully and calmly like a fairy tale, the warm picture unfolded in front of her eyes gradually made the black-haired young man beside her relax.

His eyes wiped away a large swath of haze, leaving only moving clarity, but there is still a trace of uncertainty in the center.

"Then, little Shuangye, what do you think of this child?" He asked in a daze.

So after Dazai finished speaking, he could clearly see the appearance of Shuangye smiling gently in front of his eyes, and it seemed that the tone of the whole world became softer for a moment.

"Just like you...we are all looking forward to the arrival of this 'crystal' that belongs to us."

Here, Shuangye gently caressed the corners of his eyes with her thumbs, trying to rub away the last bit of uneasiness in his heart.

"Just like I met you, I have always been extremely grateful that this world can have you coming - our child must also be destined to shoulder the waiting of someone sincerely praying from the heart in the future."

"So I want him to come into this world, not only for someone who is waiting for his birth in the future, but also for you and me, to love everything about you with all my strength."

And all of this includes the continuation of their love.

Dazai understood the meaning of her words, and couldn't help raising his hand to catch Shimoba's fingertips, and after a long while, a somewhat obscure look appeared in his eyes.

"In the end, you still have to tolerate my waywardness... The more I think about it, the more I feel that this man is hopeless and terrible."

He sighed softly, then pressed Shuangye's head into his arms, closed his eyes and rubbed the top of her hair with the lower half of his face.

"Actually, Xiao Shuangye, you are a mother for the first time, and you are far more at a loss than me..." Dazai lowered his head, and made a sincere promise in her ear: "I'm sorry, I won't say such words in the future— —”

"I won't run away like a coward anymore... I will also try my best to love you, take care of you, and—to deal with the debt collector in your stomach, Xiao Shuangye, hmph!"

Dazai turned his head angrily like a child when he said that, Shimoba looked at the childish behavior of the older child in front of him, couldn't help but nodded his cheek.

"Don't be awkward, fool."

……

Because Shimoba's appetite was poor during pregnancy, and she couldn't smell meat, Dazai had no choice but to snatch Shimoba's usual spatula and cook for herself to make food that satisfied her.

One thing to say, Shimoba is actually quite nervous about the matter of Dazai entering and leaving the kitchen, and can't help but start to imagine whether he will bring out some magical dark dishes again.

But in the end, under Dazai's repeated assurances and the condition that Shimoba could watch from the sidelines, Shiroba agreed to this matter.

After all, this is also a rare opportunity for him to show off. As for the success rate of cooking... Well, Shuang Ye said that he still has some opinions.

At that time, Dazai entered the kitchen again, facing the unfamiliar ingredients like a formidable enemy.

Frost Ye, who was sitting at the dining table waiting for her meal, looked at her little husband who was wearing a cute pink rabbit apron and was scrambling around in the kitchen, and couldn't help but smile amusedly.

"It's all because you always liked to secretly take off the 'little umbrella' behind my back. The security measures that lasted 4 years were ruined. Do you see that you have received retribution now?"

"But if you wear 'that thing' to do it, it will be very uncomfortable~ And after being beaten up by you, Xiao Shuangye, you also agreed."

Dazai muttered while holding the spatula, suddenly the eggs in the frying pan made a loud splash, which made him jump back in a defensive posture in fright.

Seeing this scene, Shuang Ye stood up from the dining chair, walked slowly into the kitchen, unexpectedly, she suddenly rushed forward and threw herself behind her boss.

She lazily put her own weight behind Dazai, her face was still buried in the hollow of his spine, this action could not help but make Dazai lean his upper body slightly forward.

"Little Frozen Leaf...?" Dazai, who is rarely seen by Frozen Leaf around her waist in this posture, was a little surprised, but after realizing it, he immediately raised the spatula, and at the same time covered the back of her hand with his hand, trying to make her The appearance of retreating.

"Little Shuangye can't come in! Be careful of being splashed with oil, and the smell of oily smoke in the kitchen is very strong, it will make you unbearable!" Dazai said, turning around and trying to coax his wife out like a child.

The situation of the two people seems to be completely reversed compared to before...

"I'm pregnant and I'm not disabled. It's fine." Frost Leaf, who was a bit novel about this model, rejected his proposal, and reluctantly drove him to turn to continue frying eggs, and then stretched out her hand to cover the back of his hand, Guide him how to cook with his own hands.

"Little Shuangye?" Dazai couldn't help turning around in a daze.

Shuang Ye looked at the sizzling sound in the frying pan calmly, and signaled him to concentrate: "Don't look around, I'll teach you how to fry it well."

"Uh-huh!"

Ordinary and warm daily life is generally like this, mutual support and interdependence.

Fortunately, a man like Osamu Dazai who came out of the darkness still has enough time to learn how to describe happiness hand in hand.

……

With the passage of time, the news about Shuangye's pregnancy gradually spread to the ears of everyone she knew.

After Shuangye's early pregnancy reaction stabilized a bit, at her suggestion, the two decided to make up the wedding that had already been planned before the pregnancy was obvious.

At the wedding, insiders sent congratulations to the two newlyweds.

For example, Oda Saku and Atsushi's butei friends who met in many incidents, as well as Mr. Mori from Hong Kong and Heilongjiang, and Nakaya Momiji, Kakuji and their former bosses and former colleagues, and even those who had obtained Shimoba before. The guerrilla boys who were taken care of, all the tall and burly men in suits were moved to tears here.

In addition, there is Shuangye a long time ago, so long that almost ten years have passed, the person who brought her back home when she was wandering outside.

"I said Lin Ye, next time remember to put it away and stop messing around in front of Jingxiong, so that when I see you again, I find that you are so miserable that you can only sit in a wheelchair. And... even if Celti is now I don’t want to get my own head back anymore, so don’t just throw other people’s heads around. God knows how much psychological trauma I felt when I opened the refrigerator and saw a human head in it when I visited your house last time... ..."

Once a person grows up, when he meets old friends, he will always chatter, as if he has endless words.

Seeing the reminiscing Shuangye talking uncharacteristically in front of him, the handsome young man who was invited to the wedding and put on a black formal suit couldn't help showing a helpless look.

"I feel like you've become a lot more verbose, Little Shuangye... Is it because you have a child? There's a bit of a maternal aura at play here." Lin Ye's lips curled up in a vicious arc as he faced her, "If you don't It will work on my head."

Although this man was born with sarcasm in every sentence, after so many years, Shuang Ye has long adapted to this rhythm, and reminded him calmly: "Ah, so, next time you will be missing arms Remember to tell me about the legs, and I will send a congratulatory message on time."

"puff……"

While the two were talking, the groom at the wedding came to them and couldn't help but let out a chuckle.

"Well, Xiaoshuangye and I have lived a new life anyway, even if I want to find time to meet you and recall the past, I can't help it—"

The bright light penetrating through the panes of the church transitioned to his face for a moment, blurring the handsome profile of the young man as if through an afternoon filter.

"Azhi..." Shuangye turned her head and softly called the visitor's name.

To match this wedding, the black-haired young man in a white suit pushed one side of his hair behind his ear, and the delicate white roses on his chest pocket made his smile against the frosty leaves extremely gentle.

"I'm here." Dazai held the fingertips of Frosty Leaf on his palm, and at this moment, his right hand gently pushed aside her holy hollow veil.

As the bride's veil was removed, one could clearly see the side face with bright makeup revealed under the beautifully braided hair dotted with pearls.The tenderness that is no longer cold and cold is reflected in Dazai's eyes, and then he slowly blooms the same happy smile as him.

This time, it is no longer any scene in the illusion, but actually happened in reality, which only belongs to the wedding of two people named Osamu Dazai and Shimoba.

From then on, they will become each other's other half souls, replacing the loneliness and warm sun in their respective worlds.

"I didn't expect that you would actually be able to make it this far..." Lin, who was watching the two of them, seemed to want to say something, but he paused in the middle of speaking, and finally let the words be swallowed back into his stomach the end.

"never mind……"

The young man with the soft black hair shook his head, and then he turned his gaze to Shuangye, his usual casual expression lowered as if compromising, and he rarely showed a pure smile at her, "I haven't kissed you yet." Speaking of you——I wish you a happy wedding, little Shuangye."

This sentence seems to be an end to the regret of the past adolescence that ended without a disease.

Following Lin Ye's words, the blessings gathered around gradually swept ashore like a warm tide.

"Happy newlyweds—"

"Happy Newlyweds, Little Shimoha, Dazai—"

"Be happy!"

The faces of acquaintances such as Odasaku, Chuya, Momiji and Alice flashed before his eyes one by one, including the reserved congratulations from Mr. Mori and Ango.

In the past, the undercurrents of the three parties did not take into account their respective positions. At this moment, they simply gathered here as friends of the newlyweds to send blessings to the two.

Shimoba, who was snuggling up with Dazai, couldn't help being slightly startled when she saw this, and then smiled sincerely at everyone.

"Thank you—" she said heartily.

Thank you for the little things she has gained in life, thank her for her persistence, so that she can trek through the dark road until dawn, and thank you for everyone she met after she came to this city.

Of course, there is also the person who saved each other from the boundless loneliness.

Surrounded by the sound of blessings, the two people smiled at each other at this moment, and then walked out of the church with the crowd and came to the wide outdoors.

The beautiful wedding march, combined with the bells hitting the top of the church, gradually melted into the middle of light and color, as if playing a romantic atmosphere comparable to heaven with flocks of white doves.

The moment when the milky white halo in the eyes and the sky coincided with each other, Shimoba and Dazai clasped their fingers together, bathed in the sight of everyone, smiled and threw the bouquet of flowers representing "happiness" in one fell swoop. half empty.

***

As the month got bigger and bigger, Shiroba's lower abdomen began to bulge visible to the naked eye, and Dazai stuck to her side nervously to protect her every day, just like observing the changes of some dangerous objects.

To celebrate the upcoming birth of their child, friends sent many gifts, such as children’s clothes sewn by Hongye, a crib from Ango, Lolita skirts provided by Mr. Mori, and even a lot of books and gifts. Smart toys and stuff.

Zhong also has no experience in dealing with children, and after scratching his head and pondering for a while, he decided to send Shimoba a carload of maternal and baby supplies with great wealth, and Dazai immediately expressed that he had something to say.

"Is it possible that Chuya thinks that I can't afford my son's diapers? No, I can't lose to him either!" So Dazai unconvincedly called two cars.

These two men are obviously 22 years old, but once they meet one, they will collide with two shiny stones, sparking a fierce rivalry, as if they insist on fighting for something .

As a result, Shimoba looked at the things in the three big trucks parked at the door of the house, and immediately pinched the soft belly of the troublemaker Dazai Osamu next to him expressionlessly.

"I think you want to be beaten again. How can there be so many houses? Hurry up and return half of it to me obediently."

"Hey, little Shuangye, lighten up, lighten up!"

Although Shimoba no longer had the trouble of morning sickness, and her appetite became brighter day by day, but Dazai's heart was covered with new troubles again, that is how to give her and the baby in her belly better nutrition.

"Odasaku, do you think it's not enough to put only fish in the porridge? Why don't you pour some milk powder into it?" Dazai, who was worried that the nutrition might not be enough, couldn't help asking another friend in the kitchen for advice.

In order to solve the problem of cooking, Dazai started a discussion together when he invited friends to come to his house for a reunion.However, although Dazai's cooking skills have been greatly improved with the increase in the number of times he cooks, he always comes up with many wonderful ideas, which make people feel ashamed.

And Odasaku also fell into a rare silence at the moment, and after a while he discussed the matter blankly: "Is the milk powder...is it to increase the intake of protein?"

"Yes~" Dazai replied cheerfully, "And it can also supplement a lot of trace elements, if it is put into porridge, it will definitely be very sweet~"

"Yes, yes." Odasaku nodded frankly, as if he didn't think too much about it.

After getting Odasaku's affirmation, the more Dazai thought about it, the more he felt that this idea was not too good. Unfortunately, at this time, the red-haired young man behind him started from the perspective of a normal person, and poured cold water on him in a very unpleasant way.

"Huh? Are you serious? The sweet (innocence) should be Dazai's brain, right? Putting milk powder in the porridge will definitely make it taste super weird, okay?"

"Tsk, you were there, Chuya."

As if he had just discovered someone else, Dazai gave him a look of mercy, which immediately ignited Chuya's anger.

"Hey! I've been here all the time! If Shuangye didn't ask me to come, I wouldn't want to see you!"

"Okay, okay." Dazai waved his hands perfunctorily, and looked at him with vacant eyes, "Then since you said adding milk powder is not okay, what's your opinion?"

So Zhong Ye was immediately stumped by this question, his handsome face was full of hesitation at this moment, and he pressed his hat awkwardly and truthfully said after a while: "How could I know this...I didn't do it. Fanpai, by the way, if you don’t know how to do it, wouldn’t it be good to just hire a nanny to take care of Shuangye..."

There is nothing that cannot be solved with money, Zhongye's brain circuit is so simple.

When Dazai heard this, he shook his head as if he was complaining about his IQ, and sighed with great regret: "Really, to take care of a pregnant wife, of course you have to take care of it yourself to show your love, alas... the image is also This kind of single dog really can't understand..."

Zhong Ye: "..."

What's the matter with feeling extra hot!

Immediately afterwards, a new round of war broke out in the kitchen, and outside of this, Shimoba was sitting on the sofa in the living room, chatting with Akutagawa next to each other about their recent situation.

Akutagawa has grown a lot taller over the years. The formerly thin and thin man has grown taller, and he has become handsome and tall. He is a few centimeters taller than Dun, who lives next door.But speaking of this, Shimoba found that when Akutagawa faced the silver-haired boy who was always timid, his competitive spirit seemed a little unusually strong.

"How have you been with Yin lately?"

For example, when Shimoba asked about the situation of the two siblings in this way, Akutagawa would turn the topic to that person from time to time.

"My sister has been successfully appointed as the captain of the assassination team a few days ago. This time, because of her heavy tasks, I have asked you to greet me for the time being. And I have never slackened in my homework. Please don't worry, Miss Shuangye."

The ruthless young man in black said in a deep voice beside her, "I will definitely not fall into the cultivation of Mr. Dazai and Miss Shimoba, and show it to you on the condition of defeating that arrogant human tiger."

I always feel a bit like comparing whose children have a better sense of sight...

Akutagawa's words made Shuangye quite dumbfounded when she heard it, so she reached out and rubbed the soft hair on the head of Akutagawa's child.

"Well, I'm looking forward to it."

The lop-eared rabbit accepted the reward of touching the head with peace of mind, and then, as if to show his good mood, Akutagawa's Rashomon quietly came out from behind, wriggling in a strange shape.

Seeing this, Shuangye couldn't help asking him curiously: "What are you doing?"

"I'm training how to make gifts for your future child, Miss Shuangye."

Akutagawa calmly replied that although it was his first practice, he became more and more proficient at manipulating abilities. Not long after, a small and cute black pony appeared in front of Shuangye, separated by the hem of his clothes. Then she held it in her palm.

He who had just finished making this gift looked a little unnatural at this moment, coughed lightly, and said slowly: "The first finished product is still a bit clumsy, Miss Wang Shuangye, please don't dislike it."

It wasn't until several seconds passed that Frostleaf realized that he was giving her a celebratory gift. She belatedly shook the tightly knotted head of the pony with her fingertips, staring at it involuntarily. smiled.

"You have a heart."

"……Um."

Hongkong and Butei both had busy work, Odasaku and the others left after a short stay, leaving the couple in the house to taste the new products that Dazai worked on for a long time.

After taking a sip of the porridge made by adding milk powder in Dazai's hands, Shuang Ye suddenly raised her eyebrows to look at him in surprise, "It's actually quite delicious, isn't it?"

"Of course." Dazai is a man who behaves well when he gets a bargain. When he heard the compliment, he immediately raised his playful tail and swayed from side to side. He leaned his head over to rub the tip of her nose, boasting extremely proudly: "You Husband, I'm a genius who can 'succeed in anything'~"

This rhetoric inevitably made Shuang Ye laugh, and because of the extremely close intimate distance between the two, the sweet milk scent lingered between the two at the same time.

After finishing the bowl of ironed porridge, Shuangye was quickly coaxed by Dazai into a chair for a nap in the morning.

He put his ears on Shuangye's stomach, and covered it with his palms lightly, as if he was listening to the little life that was being conceived under the skin.

"Hey, little Shiroba, is it really okay for me to be so happy?" Dazai suddenly said softly, "Looking back on the days with you, I feel like I'm in a dream."

Shuang Ye couldn't help being a little startled when she heard the words, then relaxed her shoulders, and gently covered her lover's head with her hands.The temperature conveyed by that palm gradually conveyed to him the same gentle treatment as the child.

"Okay." She definitely responded.

This particularly obvious bond between the two shattered all insecurities once again.

Dazai raised his head slowly, catching the voice above his head, and he gradually showed a bright and sweet smile while staring at Shimoye never moving away.

"Speaking of which, Oda Saku has written another volume of novels, Xiaoshuangye, go to sleep, I'll read you and the brat in your stomach a bedtime story~"

The black-haired young man urged his wife to lie down again, until she obediently closed her eyes at his request, then he tucked the corner of the thin blanket again, took a brand new manuscript, and read the words on it softly .

The sunlight coming in from the window is in full bloom, lazily falling on the woman who is taking an afternoon nap and the man next to her who is reciting a bedtime story with that clear and bright voice.

The temperature of the sun is the same as every day they have spent in the past, it is so peaceful and warm.