His sweetheart ABO

The tears stopped suddenly.

Mingming's heart was so painful that it was about to burst open, every time he took a breath he felt sick, and he was already embarrassed enough - but the other party still refused to let it go, and dealt the heaviest and most ruthless blow.

You don't have to love me, Lin Yan thought numbly, but you have to believe me...

If you don't even have the most basic trust...they have been together for more than a year, so that he can't control his heart, his secret love but dare not express his sincerity, those beautiful memories that are worthy of being treasured... In the end, it is still worth it. What are you going to do?

Really can't resist the malicious words of outsiders...can't resist the prejudice in the other party's heart?

He is not reconciled!

But even if you are not reconciled... so what?In Chi Zong's heart, he has already nailed him to the pillar of shame, no matter how much he shows weakness and excuses, it's just a futile struggle...he won't listen.

Save some dignity, Lin Yan said to himself, don't bother with this anymore...don't stop, like him.

For a relationship that is doomed to miss, he cannot gamble the future of freedom——

Because it's not worth it.

"...Let's talk about a condition," Lin Yan took a deep, deep breath, almost squeezing out a complete sentence between his teeth.When he raised his head, his expression had returned to calm, but the wet tears on his face still revealed the grief in his heart... But when he looked at Chi Zong again, there was a numb and empty calmness.

The soul seemed to be pulled out, and only reason supported the body and said slowly: "What should I do...you can help me keep it secret."

"Help you keep it secret... let you lie to more people, and finally inherit the Lin family as a matter of course?" Chi Zong's Adam's apple rolled, and he subconsciously avoided the other party's empty sight... Such Lin was disgusted by him. I was scared for no reason, but, but he was obviously the one who was deceived...

Why do you look so sad!damn it!The young Alpha bit his lip, he almost fled towards the door, but the moment he touched the doorknob, Lin Yan's hoarse voice came from behind.

"If you don't have this child, there is no threat to your Chi family... Can you stop talking about it?"

In the familiar scene, Chi Zong stood in the same place, and Chi Yu's gloomy voice suddenly came to mind. He said to tell him to be careful of illegitimate children, he said to tell him not to be deceived... He, he also wants to believe Lin Yan, but at present All the truth revealed seemed to hit him hard in the face again.

Run quickly, don't look at the other person's sad face, don't look at the person's swollen belly... As long as you do this, you won't be sad or entangled...

Thinking so, the young man opened the door and rushed out without looking back.

The door was slammed shut, and the loud sound echoed in the cold ward. Lin Yan trembled instinctively, as if he was suddenly drained of strength, he collapsed uncontrollably, and sank into the bed filled with the smell of disinfectant.

His chest was heaving up and down as if he had been breathing, and his dead heart was beating again, faster and denser... like crazy drumbeats, beating on his brain and every nerve. nerve.Lin Yan's eyes widened, his pupils shrunk to a little bit, he stretched out his arms struggling in violent heart palpitations, and slapped the bell beside him hard...

Immediately afterwards, that hand, as pale as a dying person's, hung down and dangled gently on the side of the bed.

……

After waking up again, and I don't know how long it took, I heard the beeping sound of instruments and machinery, mixed with the voice of people talking... It's not quiet, but it's not too noisy.

Lin Yan has always liked to be quiet, but for him now, only when he communicates with others can he barely maintain his previous demeanor, so he doesn't want to be alone, he doesn't want to face the loneliness and fragility anymore, he doesn't want to... think of that again people.

The heavy eyelids were lifted with difficulty, and the light leaked in, causing pain in the eyes.

You don't need to look to know how embarrassed you are at the moment... But even so, the facial muscles are moving instinctively, and a forced smile is drawn.

"You're awake!" The little nurse hugged the medical record and approached kindly: "Is your head still hurting? How does your stomach feel? Is there any discomfort... You too, have been pregnant for so long Why don't you know how to cherish yourself?" She even shook her head at this point: "At this time, the most taboo is emotional fluctuations, which will affect the baby's development..."

"...I have been injected with Alpha hormone," Lin Yan interrupted her chattering concern with a smile, took a breath before continuing: "Long-term injection...it looks like nearly six or seven years."

"Ah... this..." The little nurse's expression became flustered visible to the naked eye: "I, I'll call the doctor over..."

After she finished speaking, she ran away in a panic, while Lin looked at her leaving back and let out a long breath.

A few minutes later, the attending doctor came, an older woman.She sat down by the hospital bed with a very serious expression: "...you know that things like hormones are banned drugs, right?"

"Forced by life" Lin Yan moved his shoulders. After the previous rest, he was not as uncomfortable as before. Now he sat up slowly while holding the edge of the bed. Tuck a pillow into your waist.

The doctor's brows deepened, "...you know what kind of side effects hormones can bring, right?"

"I know a little bit," Lin Yan said, "so I never thought that I would be pregnant."

"But you're still pregnant...does X live very often?"

The other party asked very directly, which made Lin Yan choke up, "...Only once."

"...that's really the chance of buying a lottery ticket." Although this sounded a bit harsh, the other party did not have any malice: "The pregnancy time...well, five and a half months, although Beta's pregnancy period is longer than Omega's, but now It's already formed..." She raised her head and looked at Lin Yan's face carefully: "Did you never find out?"

"...too busy with work, careless." Lin Yanzhen didn't know how to answer... All of this was too unexpected for him, like a bad joke made by God, until Now, he couldn't really digest it either.

The doctor made a note in the medical record, "Do you still have hormone injections after pregnancy?"

"……Have."

"about how long?"

"Once a month... once."

"Never broke?"

"No."

"..."

After a long period of silence, she continued: "Did you know that hormones can affect the development of embryos?"

This point was written in the instruction manual - but Lin Yan didn't take it to heart at all, because he didn't know that he would be pregnant at all.

"To what extent will it be affected?" Helplessly, he could only continue to ask.

"There will be a high chance of causing birth defects. The most serious...may cause fetal deformity or death." The doctor seemed a little unbearable when he said this: "But you haven't miscarried yet, which means...his desire to live is still there. Very strong."

"...But the possibility of stillbirth or deformity cannot be ruled out, right?"

"...Yes, but if you stop taking the medicine from now on...maybe a miracle will happen."

...a miracle?

Lin Yan lowered his head numbly, looking at his slightly protruding lower abdomen wrapped in a hospital gown... The appearance of this child was already a rare miracle, but it was just at the wrong time...it turned out to be a mistake.

Why choose me?He almost thought sadly, if it wasn't for me...if it was any family that longed for the birth of a new life, at least he could be born safely without suffering from deformity or mutilation.

But why is it me—I can't even protect myself, I... I don't deserve to have a child at all.

The grief that had been deliberately forgotten before flooded up again, and Lin Yan only felt his nose sore, and his temples hurt as if he had been shot... But he didn't cry, the tears seemed to have dried up, only the swollen eye sockets were slightly tingling.

"Doctor...I..." The moment he opened his mouth again, it seemed that the choice was already doomed, but instinctively, Lin couldn't bear to say it, and it ended up being a question: "Am I...killing... Better?"

Yes.

He answered himself like this in his heart - the indifferent and unreasonable answer is the best choice to avoid at the moment.

Even if he is soft-hearted and saves the child for a while, he can't guarantee the follow-up treatment... The matter of pregnancy can't be concealed by just telling the truth. If the Lin family finds out, there is only a more miserable fate waiting for him... Even if he is lucky, Persisting until the childbirth, there is no guarantee that the child will be healthy... If it is a stillbirth, it is just an empty dream, but if it is disabled or deformed... that is the real hell.

For him, and for the child.

What's more, Alpha's hormones can't be stopped, there are still two years before the agreed period, and in these two years, he still has to take on the role of "shield"... A Beta who was born as an illegitimate child is not qualified to step into a celebrity, if he wants to Freedom, you can only continue to fulfill the contract...

But even if he gave up the accumulation of 20 years, he still couldn't get the happiness he wanted.

Even in the end, if the child is miraculously born, what will he use to raise him?He has had enough of the pain of being an illegitimate child, is he going to brand this name on the next generation?

...he had no choice.

No matter how you look at it, it is a cliff of despair. A desperate gamble will not bring about a bright future, but will only be smashed to pieces in the dark.

Such a mistake... Such a stupid thing, will he repeat it again?

Even if he gambled the rest of his life...was he betting on the life of the fetus in his womb?

No... Such a bet is too heavy, he has already lost everything, and he can't afford to gamble.

Just when his thoughts were turning back and forth, the doctor hesitated and said, "Maybe you can... ask, the father of the child?"

Like a basin of cold water falling from the sky, Lin Yan shivered from the cold, he resisted the chill that seeped into his bones, and showed an expression that couldn't be called a smile.

"...No need," Lin Yan said, "He doesn't have a father."

The final answer does not need to be strict.

Under his strong request, Lin Yan was soon pushed onto the abortion table... He hardly gave himself time to hesitate, so that the moment he lay down, his whole body was so frightened that he couldn't control himself and trembled.

The teeth were fighting in the mouth, and the sound of the collision was like a countdown to hell. Lin Yan kept telling himself to calm down...he had made enough mistakes, and...he couldn't turn back, but at least he had to stop in time damage.

That's right... If I left early on the rooftop, wouldn't the things that happened afterwards not happen?

He had never regretted it so much.

It would be nice if you didn't come across it.

It would be nice if there were no indulgences.

It would be fine if... you didn't fall in love with him...

All the remorse, grief, resentment...all turned into the eternal nightmare of Lin Yan's life at the moment when the cold instrument entered his body. What little dignity he had left that could not be maintained was crushed into slag by the intense sense of shame. ... Tears flowed down uncontrollably, it was so embarrassing.

In the chaos, he seemed to hear Chi Zong's heartless words again... His sweetheart, the boy he admired, said condescendingly that he was disgusting.

So the remaining bit of tenderness also turned into ashes, and died completely along with all the beautiful and warm memories.

It was as if a piece of his chest had been dug out, with blood and flesh involved, blood vessels and nerves involved, leaving an empty hole...

It is very clean.

There is no entanglement, no fluke of hope...

There is only cold, bloody, cruel but cruel reality.

This is good.

Because only in this way can the soul that is intoxicated by greed be awakened, and the heart that harbors extravagant hopes can be broken.

...This is the last time.

While unconscious, Lin Yan thought calmly, the warm liquid dripped into the corner of his lips, slightly salty.

This is the last time... to shed tears for that person.

In the future... there will be no more.