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Yin Li didn't sleep well that night. In his dream, there were repeated scenes of bleeding, mixed with the sound of breaking glass.

At five o'clock in the morning, he finally got rid of the bright red, and rushed to the bathroom to retch.

Yin Li brushed back his hair and looked in the mirror. The wound on his forehead was almost healed, the dark red blood scabs were gone, leaving only faint traces of light pink.

On the Wednesday when he returned to the suburbs two weeks ago, Meng Yongqian, his mother, pushed him down in front of the bookcase in a trance, and just rubbed his forehead against the doorknob of the cabinet.

It seems that the woman is stronger than many men when she goes crazy.

Yin Li washed his face and lay on the carpet, unable to fall asleep again, the moment of waking up from a nightmare, the moment of dawn, seems to be the moment when he least wants to live.

He stared blankly at the ceiling, which was as white as the walls of heaven.

He has been imagining the appearance of heaven since he was ten years old. In the end, he only remembered that heaven has very white walls, the kind of white that will not get dirty no matter how many things are dropped. The soup splashed from the broken bowl can't be wiped clean no matter how much you wipe.

When he was ten years old, he lost a gentle and gentle father in exchange for a crazy mother.

When he was ten years old, his father took another woman's hand, and his mother slipped a knife towards his wrist.

Thinking about it now, I only remember seeing a lot of blood when I entered the house after school, and my mother looked at him with her eyes wide open and trembling all over.

Yin Li, who had just turned ten years old, knocked on the opposite door with the tumbling in his stomach, unable to speak like a child with aphasia, and only pointed to the door of his own house in a daze.

In the first few years, she took most of it in normal times, and she would cook for him, and she would not put too much salt and soy sauce. Eighteen years later, Meng Yongqian became a complete lunatic.In the panic and fear day after day, he gradually lost his expectation of life.

His mother used to be worthy of the words "Xiu Wai Hui Zhong", and he had also been a child for ten years.

But now I close my eyes, only the blood on the ground when I was ten years old and a mother with eyes open like a ghost.

He grew up indiscriminately, and when he was a little older, he deliberately lived in a different way from before the age of ten, not eating well, not sleeping well.

Of course, later on he really couldn't sleep well, and the sleep disorder made his rest periods difficult and irregular.

Living blindly, he even lived to be 28 years old.

When Huo Zhi received a call from Xing Yuanbai, his first reaction was that he didn't want to answer it.

The second young master of the Xing family has called him several times since the celebration, and this time another classmate also opened his mouth. The top three taxpayers in the city, two-thirds of the successors invited him, and he really couldn't refuse. Huo Zhi had no choice but to agree.

In order to show sincerity, the other party even set the meeting place at the small bar on the road opposite his house. You must know that those big Buddhas have never set foot in places where the consumption level is lower than five figures.

After get off work, Huo Zhi went home and changed into a neat casual windbreaker. With the clothes on, he remembered the day when he saw Yin Li's performance for the first time.

It's been ten days, it's been ten days since the performance on May [-]nd.He remembered very clearly that when he left his business card in the hospital that day, Yin Li saw it, so maybe he just threw it there.

Sure enough, it's just that I have been being self-indulgent all the time.

Annoying.

When I went out and arrived at the location, I was even more annoyed when I saw those people.

"Hey, isn't this the son of the mayor's family? I heard that Xing Yuanbai called you three times, and today I finally got some face." Zhao Qin, another classmate on the phone, raised his voice deliberately, as if he was afraid that no one would hear him.

"It's not that I'm lazy, it's because I'm busy with work and can't find time." Huo Zhi still had to deal with it hypocritically.

Huo Zhi was only concerned about his bad mood, and didn't bother to move his eyes, staring blankly at the missing piece of light sign at the entrance of the bar.

If he looked up, he would see a brokerage company next door to the bar, and an artist named Yin Li was standing at the door of the brokerage company.

The man's voice was too loud just now, and Yin Li, who was present, heard that sentence verbatim in his ears.

Young master of the mayor's family, it turns out that this person is such a big second-generation official.

The only thought in Yin Li's mind at that moment was that it was troublesome to be different from ordinary people.Those people, when getting along with others, will probably pretend to be polite at first, and then lose patience and will bring out their identities to be scary.

He can't afford such a fan, let alone make friends with such a person. Everyone knows that wealthy families have a lot of money and officials have a lot of power, but no matter what, Yin Li only knows one thing in his heart - talking to such a person It would be troublesome to have a relationship, and he hated trouble the most.

His eyes ached from staring, Huo Zhi pressed the center of his brows, and after a few blinks, Yin Li's face became clearer in his pupils.

Hallucinations don't appear for so many seconds in a row.

In the next second, Xing Yuanbai and the others wanted to call him in, but Huo Zhi said that he would make a phone call and let them go in first.

Huo Zhi walked towards Yin Li, but Yin Li looked at him not only without warmth, but also with some disgust. Before he could figure out why, Yin Li walked towards the company as if he didn't know him at all.

Huo Zhi thought that Yin Li might have heard their conversation just now, but does this identity make Yin Li so mindful?Huo Zhi didn't understand, and chased after him to ask what was going on.

"Yin Li."

Yin Li didn't stop immediately, but still walked forward on his own.

"Yinli!"

This time it was louder.

Yin Li was afraid of attracting attention, so he stood there and waited for him.

He ran over and pulled him, and apologized after pulling him.Huo Zhi faced him, observed the emotion on his face, and called again tentatively: "Yin Li?"

"Young Master Mayor?"

Sure enough, I mind this.

"Yeah." Huo Zhi could only accept this ridiculous identity first, and then thought about where to start to explain this matter.

"Mayor Li Lichen is indeed my father."

Only then did Yin Li look up at him, and Huo Zhi saw that he had many doubts.

"My father and mother divorced when I first entered high school, and I later took my mother's last name."

Yin Li didn't respond, so Huo Zhi had no choice but to change the subject: "By the way, have you recovered from your cold?"

"Almost." Yin Li's complexion was always bad, his lips were dry, and he still looked like someone who had just caught a cold. Such a person would not zip up his clothes in windy days, and the T-shirt inside was hanging empty on his body.

Huo Zhi really can't stand his attitude of disregarding life and health. Some fans have the mentality of an old lady who is worried about idols, and there are also teenagers who feel distressed about the object of their affection.

Unable to bear the pain, he stretched out his hands to the zipper of Yin Li's coat, and wrapped his clothes around him unnaturally.

Because Yin Li was avoiding him, that gesture was very resistant.

"I really don't mean anything else, I just want to make friends with you."

"Okay, your friend is waiting for you inside." Yin Li pointed to the bar, "People outside, just be passers-by."

After finishing speaking, he turned his head and left, Huo Zhi never had the courage to stop him.

Huo Zhi didn't know what happened to Yin Li suddenly.

Huo Zhi's expression became very bad from the moment he entered the door, and everyone noticed.

"Who did you call to make Huo Er so unhappy?"

Yin Li just said that the people inside are his friends, and he probably thinks that playboys are his true colors.

Fuck, the more I look at these people, the angrier I get, the more I don't want to talk, and I accidentally drink too much.

After several people finished drinking, they called the driver to pick them up. Xing Yuanbai called Huo Zhi and asked him whether he should go home immediately or play later.

Huo Zhi didn't look back, he walked to the next door when he left the door, but he hesitated when he reached the door, he didn't dare to go forward.

After Xing Yuanbai settled the other people, he saw Huo Zhi standing in front of the glass door with an aggrieved expression on his face: "Huo Er, I got dizzy from drinking and went the wrong way."

Not knowing how drunk he was, Huo Zhi looked at Xing Yuanbai without being so annoying, and replied in a low voice: "That's right, he's right here."

Xing Yuanbai glanced at the company's brand name, always feeling a little familiar, hey, isn't this the company his brother founded before he got married?At that time, everyone was wondering why his brother suddenly opened a brokerage company that had nothing to do with his business.

I didn't expect that after all these years, it still hasn't closed down.

"Huo Er, is it okay? Why don't you go to my brother's office for a rest first?"

Huo Zhi was actually drunk, at least he didn't rush in to find Yin Li to ask what's wrong.

Why can't we be friends.

He was so preoccupied that he didn't pay attention to what Xing Yuanbai said later, so he followed into the building in a daze.

After entering, the building's air conditioner immediately refreshed him, and he happened to see Sui He who was about to go out.

Sui He had just arrived and didn't know Xing Yuanbai, so he just nodded to Huo Zhi.

Huo Zhi stopped him suddenly, then turned his head to look at Xing Yuanbai, the second son of the Xing family is so smart, he immediately said "the biggest office on the third floor is waiting for you" and left.

"You are the one..." Sui He has a poor memory and forgets his name immediately.

"Huo Zhi."

"Oh, yes. Why are you here? Why did the security guard let the fans in?"

Huo Zhi's mind was in a mess all night, and he didn't have time to think about how he got in, but since he got in, he couldn't come in for nothing: "Where is Yin Li, are you there?"

"Yes, but I seem to be in a bad mood today."

Huo Zhi wasn't sure if it was because of himself, but felt that there was something he wanted to clarify with him: "Can I go and see him?"

Given that Huo Zhi had just helped before, he looked like a good person, and Sui and a newcomer were not vigilant, so they brought Huo Zhi to Yin Li's studio within a few seconds.

Yin Li was surprised that Huo Zhi appeared here, after all, the company's security has always been reliable.

Sure enough, he lost his patience and planned to use his background to suppress others?

Seeing Yin Li frowning, Huo Zhi took a tight breath, and found that he smelled heavily of alcohol, and suddenly regretted that he was a little impulsive.

Sui He, who had a bad nose and a particularly big heart, left without saying a word, leaving the drunken fans in a room alone with the idol.

Huo Zhi stood a little further away before speaking: "My dad is indeed the mayor, I can't deny that."

"But look at me, I don't have the arrogance of an official young master."

Yin Li thought for a while, and had to admit that Huo Zhi was quite approachable.

"Those people you saw just now were my classmates in high school. At that time, my parents had just divorced. I felt uncomfortable and hung out with them for a while."

"But for a while, I didn't do anything outrageous. Later, I went to university and worked normally. In order to avoid special treatment for everyone, my uncle's family thought of a way to hide it when I entered the unit, so this matter in my family People in our unit don’t know, they just want to live an ordinary life.”

"Can you keep this secret for me?" Seeing that Yin Li's expression returned to normal, he asked cautiously.

Yin Li didn't know why he nodded, it was obviously impossible for him to have the opportunity to go to the office of the Propaganda Department.

"Then it's a secret between you and me."

Yin Li has never seen this kind of porcelain touching technique.

Yin Li actually envied Huo Zhi's frankness, because it was very difficult for him.His family, he can't talk to anyone.

Maybe in the eyes of others, he still has a specialty that can be used, but in Yin Li's heart, he comes from a bad family, and he himself is a very bad person.

So since he was a child, the expressions he does seem to be for others to see, and sometimes he even tries to deceive himself.Every time someone praises him, he wants to say that I am not what people see, you don't understand.

Yin Li lowered his head and frowned, not knowing what to say.

Huo Zhi thought that the misunderstanding had been resolved, and Yin Li was just digesting the information at the moment.It turned out that the other party was actually thinking about how to scare him away.

Although Huo Zhi is a frank and sunny person, Yin Li really doesn't want to have more contact with Huo Zhi. One is that his identity is different, and the other is that it is unnecessary, so he just said: "Then I will confess to you too. Well, I'm gay."