[Comprehensive] The heroine is difficult

Huang Taijing is a child who has never felt a mother's love since he was a child. Perhaps because of this, he has become afraid of giving to whom.Except for the accident that she fell in love with Gao Meinan.At the beginning, he thought that he fell in love with a man, but he did struggle at first. He developed feelings for a man. At first, he also struggled. He wondered if it was because he felt the coldness brought by the word mother, so that I have lost interest in women, and instead feel in love with the men in the same team.

But soon Huang Taijing accepted this fact, maybe he still had a grudge against the fact that he had never received maternal love since he was a child, so much so that he didn't care about the gender of the other half in the future.

Therefore, he has never worried about whether she is a man or a woman, as long as she is her.

Gao Meili left ANJELL, and Gao Meinan replaced her. No, something happened to Gao Meili the next day. She lost the memory of being with ANJELL, and forgot the existence of Bai Canyu and Uhey. Never met.Because of her special status, she had to ask a private doctor to see her.

Huang Taijing stared at her, seeing her shrinking her body with her lips pursed, looking at him with a pitiful look of fear, feeling irritable for no reason.Gao Meinan blocked his sight in displeasure, and looked at her gently, "Beauty, think slowly, don't be afraid."

Gao Meili nodded timidly, supported her head and thought for a while, she only remembered that she was smashed down by the things on Huang Taijing's cabinet, and then she was sent to the ambulance when she was unconscious, and there was nothing after that memory.

Huang Taijing was stunned for a while, and when he heard her narration, he also remembered that turning point.Before that, he hated Gao Meili very much. He only thought that although she had a good voice, she had a brain that was not working at all, and she was full of mistakes and omissions, which annoyed him endlessly.The change started after she was hit on the head that time, and her whole person became different. Poorly, he thought she had sincerely repented at that time, and concentrated on singing hard, so he was attracted by her attitude , Slowly, he became more and more excited.

"Brother, I...I don't seem to be me. During that time, I was in another place...Maybe, at that time, there was someone in my body." Gao Meimei frowned and recalled carefully, and said seriously.

"I just don't think it's right." Gao Meinan sighed, smiled at her dotingly, touched her head with a look of love on her face: "My sister has become completely different, I thought it was because I haven't seen her for so long that she changed." That big."

"Brother, am I... am I worse than 'her'?" Gao Meili asked with her face raised.

Gao Meinan didn't know how to answer for a moment.He felt that his sister was better than anyone else, but...that girl always looked at him with shocking and longing gazes. Perhaps because of her gaze, he vaguely felt that it wasn't his sister, but he still pretended not to know want to be nice to her.

"It turns out that you are not Gao Meinan, nor Gao Meimei." Huang Taijing murmured involuntarily, subconsciously stroking the MP3 in his hand, he picked up an earphone and stuffed it into his ear, and the song from her album was playing on the MP3." Missing you".

"It's only now that I know that you are the only one, and now I know how much your departure hurts my heart. Oh, mybaby, I'm missing you." Her voice was high and clear, like a soaring white dove, and the sound of flapping wings could be heard.Every syllable of hers is full of power and emotion, as if she were saying goodbye, and the emotion of parting is broken in every word of her words.

Unknowingly, Hwang Tae Kyung burst into tears.

Since he was a child, Da Huang Taijing has only shed tears for one woman, and that is his mother.And as he grew up, he thought that he had worn away his feelings for the woman who took the title of "mother", and thought that he would never cry for anyone again, but after all, he still overestimated himself.In this world, there is only emotion, which cannot be controlled.

He knew without a teacher that the woman he loved would never come back.He confessed his love to her once, and then he refused to say it again, thinking that his thoughts had been fully conveyed to her, she was so smart, even if he didn't say it, she must know everything.He used to be so angry that she knew everything, but she didn't give any response, and even refused with the hateful "I'm not gay".He was such a self-centered person, he actually thought about whether it was bad to just break her up like this - it turned out that she was a woman at all.

Is it because he knew that he would leave one day, so he was so cruel and cruel, leaving no hope at all?

Huang Taijing clenched his arms tightly, and his fingernails dug into the flesh fiercely.

Suddenly there was a knock on the door, and an eagerly familiar female voice suddenly sounded—"Beautiful Oppa!" After she yelled out, she realized that it wasn't the beautiful Oppa she was looking for. She wandered her eyes blankly, and finally settled on the bed On the lying Gao Meimei, her eyes focused and suddenly became brighter. She rushed forward in two steps in three steps, and suddenly grabbed her arm: "Beautiful man oppa... No, it doesn't matter whether you are a beautiful man or not." Oppa, I forgive you...I forgive you...you, you..."

"This...is Uheyxi?" The girl on the bed looked at her in a daze, and tilted her head innocently.

Uhey's fingers that were holding on to the other party suddenly loosened, and she took a few steps back in a daze. She stumbled on something under her feet, sprained, and fell to the ground immediately.

She propped her hands on the ground, her eyes glanced at her fingers blankly, as if she was wondering why the person she liked didn't reach out to catch her, and also as if she was wondering whether this person who was so close at hand, was she ever loved? The beautiful boy oppa.She couldn't wait to look up and stare at the tall beauty with a puzzled face, carefully scanning every trace of expression on her face, until the other party lowered her eyes uncomfortably to avoid the two looking at each other, then suddenly cried out loud.

"So...he didn't lose his memory, he left, right!" She cried and grabbed her hair, tears gushed out of her eyes, and the bottom of her eyes was full of despair: "How dare he do this—!" Uhey used The personal pronoun is still "he", and she still can't accept that the other party is a woman, or in other words, since she fell in love with her at the beginning, she has wishful thinking that he is a man, even if she knows the truth, she still stubbornly thinks that he is a man. male.

"I haven't even forgiven him! How can he leave! How can he do this... Then what should I do! What should I do!" Uhey put his hands on the ground and cried loudly, like a child who lost his way .

"I haven't told him that I like him! I haven't told him, I don't mind anymore, girl I like him too, I don't mind anymore! I have forgiven him, as long as he likes me..." Uhey words Repeatedly chaotically, with tears and snot pouring down her nose, at this moment she has truly lost the last trace of her disguised image, she cried without image, as if she lost the whole world.

Looking at her slumped figure alone on the ground, Huang Taijing suddenly felt a pang in his heart.He suddenly envied Uhey who was still suffering like this, and he had to bear the bitterness and despair together.Because his self-esteem has been shattered, if he does not maintain this last bit of self-esteem, he will have nowhere to go.

Taking one last look at the bewildered and bewildered Gao Meimei, and ignoring Uhey who was still crying, he turned around and left without any regrets.

Do you think that if you leave, my life will not continue.I tell you, I can stand on stage and sing without you—even without you.Huang Taijing straightened his back proudly, even though his eyes were still red, showing the fact that he had just shed tears, but he just clenched his hands and left this place step by step.

Not long after, Gao Meinan temporarily left ANJELL for the reason of military service. Before leaving, he also said with red eyes that he would miss everyone.The so-called fans are the farthest away from their idols. They stare at the gleaming Gao Meinan on the stage, but because they wear a little thicker in winter, they can't tell the difference between him and the previous him. Instead, they feel that he is more manly. Even more handsome, but he didn't realize that his modest and gentle smile was completely different from before.

That's fine, no one but us has ever known the traces of your existence.These sad memories are so stubbornly lingering in Huang Taijing's mind, lingering.Perhaps, just like the deep glance of her in his memory, it made him never forget the past time.

But I will still live on my own, manage ANJELL into the best band, stand in the dazzling world of spotlights, become the brightest star, and stand higher than anyone else.

Huang Tae-kyung is more and more strict with himself. He manages his voice well, adjusts the practice time, and strives to do it perfectly by himself, write songs by himself, practice by himself, and play the piano by himself.There will no longer be a person humming softly with his piano sound, no longer someone will smile at him after a piece is over, "We made a great sound when we played together", and no one will sing his future The syllables that can be sung perfectly complement each other perfectly, and no one will strive to achieve the ultimate accuracy and perfection in every movement.There will never be another person who is completely compatible with him, a perfect combination with him.

Huang Taijing threw the score on the ground viciously, inserted his five fingers into his black hair, his black eyes trembled violently like an earthquake, and the eyeballs rolled uneasily. He murmured to himself, "Why...why did this happen! Why? I just can’t sing! Why is it almost something!”

He didn't feel any pain, it was just that Gao Meinan had left—no, she wasn't Gao Meinan, she wasn't anyone at all, she didn't even tell him her name, she was just a liar, a shameful liar... Liar Take away his trust, cheat his heart...and leave without looking back!Liar liar liar liar liar liar!

Huang Taijing told himself countless times that he had already decided not to be sad for such a scumbag and such a liar, it was not worth it, but it would be great if his feelings were as clear-headed as his reason, if he could get out so easily, He should have woken up when that liar used such lame excuses as "I'm not gay."

But he couldn't help, couldn't help missing her, couldn't help missing their ensemble, couldn't help thinking of those times when he played the guitar and she played the electronic organ together in the recording studio, couldn't help missing her in the air The beautiful voice made by the vibration of the vocal cords, and the way she smiled, with the corners of her eyes curled up, talking happily to him.

Huang Taijing sat alone in the recording studio like a frozen statue. He was silent. Suddenly, in the quiet room, the electronic organ issued a monosyllable "duo", just like his deep and depressed heart sound.

Huang Taijing woke up and found that he was standing in front of the electronic keyboard, with his index finger resting on the keys, and the sound was made by him.

The sound of "Duo" seemed to open the door of his heart, and suddenly a flash of inspiration flashed in his mind. He sat down uncontrollably, picked up the score again, and began to write songs "scramblingly".

In ANJELL's concert, without Gao Meinan, the three of them sang again.This time it’s another new song written by Hwang Tae Kyung. The song is full of tension, as if it’s about to vent something. It’s a bit different from the usual style.Standing on the stage, Huang Taijing screamed heartily, as if wanting to shout out all his unwillingness, all pain, all heart-piercing——

The audience followed his singing and became intense. He stood under the starlight and raised his hands. The spotlight was so dazzling. Standing under such dazzling light, he felt like he was about to melt.

"I'm already standing so high, why haven't you seen me——Didn't I tell you! I'm not good at finding you in the dark! Stand where I can see!!!" The song ended, Huang Taijing suddenly shouted loudly with the microphone, his eye sockets turned red, and under the spotlight, his eyes seemed to be shining with dazzling light, it was tears in his eye sockets that lingered for a long time.

"Hwang Tae Kyung seems to be about to cry..."

"Did you cry..."

"Taijing oppa don't cry! Otherwise, we will cry too..." The audience was suddenly quiet, and suddenly there were discussions.They didn't know who the protagonist in his words was, but they couldn't help but look at each other because of Huang Taijing's pain.

Until the end of the concert, Huang Tae Kyung was dragged off the stage by Jiang Xinyu and Jeremy calmly.Huang Tae-kyung closed his eyes, with a tired face, President An came forward with a complicated face, before saying anything, Huang Tae-kyung stepped forward, "President An, I'm sorry, I lost my composure."

President An froze in place, not knowing what to say.

But Huang Taijing just grinned mockingly, inserted his fingers into his hair, and laughed wildly.

"Haha... still abandoned."

He insists on things that he refuses to admit, he stubbornly thinks that as long as he is not sad or in pain, as long as he lives without her, he is fine, and he deceives himself and tells himself that he is happy without this person. If everyone is happy, he can deny this fact.He kept deceiving himself like this, just because he didn't want to admit being abandoned.

From being abandoned by his mother when he was young to today when she left without a sound, he seems to have always been the one left behind.So... tired, I don’t want to follow you anymore, begging for your return like begging for alms, I want to have a little self-esteem, I want to tell myself that I am just a woman who abandoned you, so don’t hug me anymore There is hope, she abandoned you first and left you, so just don't let her go.

... But, why can't it be done, why can't he do it after trying for so long! ! ! !

As long as you come back, I will forgive you for abandoning me.

As long as you come back, everything will be fine.

I stood so high that you came to look for me, why haven't you come back to look for me.