[Comprehensive] The heroine is difficult

At first, it was just pure longing.When did it start to evolve into an unspeakable possessive desire?It probably started from that time when I intentionally talked to my senior during dance practice.

The appearance of the senior concentrating on dancing is so beautiful, in fact, Bai Canyu didn't want to disturb at all at first.However, there are always all kinds of people around the senior, trying to get the attention of the senior, it is really clumsy.He subconsciously didn't want his senior to be snatched away, and he was ashamed of his secret and unspeakable thoughts. Before he could think carefully, he called out his senior's name first.

"Senior!" Look at me!Please look at me please!This kind of mood is ready to come out, when seeing senior's surprised eyes, it turns into a warm current, which makes the heart very comfortable, and those eager desires finally subside.Ah, only this person, being watched by this person, can feel so at ease.

Senior, I always wanted you to watch me forever.

Therefore, when Huang Taijing made a sarcastic statement, he was driven away by his words.Out of a sense of the same kind, Bai Canyu keenly noticed that Huang Tae-kyung also had some thoughts about the senior he liked. While he was on guard against the other party, he repelled anyone from approaching the senior with other purposes.

At first, he only thought it was a guardian.Senior, let me protect you, you will live forever in a pure and clean world, singing with a bright and clear voice.Bai Canyu originally thought this way, he is a guardian, which is different from Huang Taijing.

He will protect the senior. If the senior has someone he likes, even if he is not happy, he will let him go and bless the senior.

But it wasn't until he was filming the MV for his seniors that Bai Canyu realized that he thought very well, but he couldn't do it at all.He couldn't let go, he couldn't bless senior and others, even... a dark emotion grew in his heart, he wanted to make senior belong to him, and he wanted to drive those who had other thoughts about senior out of senior's world!

senior!Seniors don't like others, okay, seniors only like me, okay!

He clearly knew it was capricious, he knew it was nonsense, he knew he was jealous, but he couldn't stop.

Such a dark, malicious person, how can I be worthy of Senior Wugou.But I like this kind of emotion, I can't control it, I can't stop it.Even I am afraid of such a malicious self, so I stand far away from my senior, but my eyes can't stop caring about my senior. When my senior is sick, my body betrays my reason, and I can't help wanting to take care of my senior.

How much I want to be useful to my seniors, so I have been doing my best, hoping to be a little closer to my seniors.However, before I can become someone who can also help seniors, seniors have already left.

When he knew that his senior was a woman, Bai Canyu didn't know whether it was more painful or more happy.The senior is a woman, but the obstacles between them are still there. The senior stands too high, and he looks up for too long.The senior is a woman, the one he was jealous of, wanted to replace, and wished to be replaced by a girl, Uhey will no longer be a threat, but at the same time, there are so many people who like the senior, they all stand on the same line as the senior, They are senior's partners, they are people who are valued by senior, they are people who are nervous and afraid of being disliked by senior. Bai Canyu is jealous of them, but he can't help comforting senior.

Senior, I will always like you, please come to my side.He never dared to say these words. He has always been an overly proud person, proud of his own talent, proud of his own abilities, but when he met his seniors, all these prides turned into inferiority complex.Not enough capital, not enough experience, not even old enough to stand beside the seniors.

"Chanyu xi, don't lose that you are still so young, the future will be infinitely predictable." Bai Canyu recalled the scene when he sang "Ihearyou" with his seniors, because his vibrato was too obvious, and was called "too much" by the sound engineer. Focusing on technique and ignoring emotion", this made him feel overwhelmed and depressed, and even began to doubt his self-confidence all the time.

The senior at that time was like this, stuffing a cup of hot coffee into his hand, smiling and saying this to him.Bai Canyu was even more disappointed. He didn't want to lose face in front of his seniors. He wanted to be the best version of himself in front of his seniors, so he kept telling himself that he could sing better and more perfectly. Chorus, how can you lower the style of your predecessors because of yourself.

Because I paid too much attention to these things, I forgot to integrate my emotions into this song, the original intention of singing, and...

"Singing with me, aren't you happy?" Seeing that he lowered his head and didn't answer, the senior reached out and patted his shoulder with a concerned expression.

Bai Canyu raised his head and stared at those black eyes with some soft brown, like a pool of autumn water, gentle and soft, this moment of nodding his head slightly, was so meaningfully engraved in his memory, at that moment, He almost couldn't help but want to kiss his senior's eyes.

Fortunately, he thought that he wanted to protect his senior. Since he liked him, he should become a person worthy of him. Then he would tell his senior what he wanted, so he controlled himself.

At that time, Bai Canyu nodded in a hurry, and said eagerly: "How can I be unhappy, it is my dream and honor to be able to sing with seniors——"

The senior interrupted him gently, and smiled, with lines of joy in the corners of his eyes, and his soft brown eyes slightly rippled, "Then let's sing happily together, and don't think about anything else except singing happily."

"I want to hear Chanwoo's sincere and happy singing voice."

Staring at such a senior, Canyu suddenly remembered a very silly sentence.At that moment, it seemed that I heard the voice of the flower blooming in my heart, and it bloomed with infinite joy, as if it had been waiting for so long for the arrival of this person.

At that moment, Bai Canyu just wanted the person around him to see his best self.

They sang beautiful music together. He could feel the notes floating in the air, the white dove fluttering its wings and feathers falling, and the sun rising from the dark clouds. The tip of the nose seems to embrace the whole world.

It was the senior who brought him such a feeling.

"I never thought it would be such a wonderful thing to sing with someone, it must be..." Bai Canyu stared at the senior, a long-lost shyness rose in his heart, but he insisted on saying-"It must be because, the object is The relationship between seniors. It is because I sing with seniors that I feel so happy."

At that time, he only thought that one day he could form a partner with his senior, and be together and sing together for the rest of his life, so he hated ANJELL, but he didn't expect that one day, he would never find his senior again .

If only I had confessed my love to the senior, it would have been fine if I had told the senior what I wanted, if I hadn't been so inferior, I would have bravely told the senior——

He has regretted countless times and suffered countless times, but the past cannot be chased back. He suddenly thought, even if he hides his feelings for the rest of his life, even if he can't be with his seniors, as long as he can see his seniors, he can use his longing again. Even if the senior has someone else he likes, he can always be by the senior's side, and from then on... never be separated again.

Bai Canyu once resented ANJELL, the seniors disappeared, how dare they continue to carry out activities, replace the seniors with Gao Meinan, as if the seniors never appeared!Obviously, it is the senior who is working hard for Gao Meinan, for ANJELL, it is obviously the senior... It is the senior's singing that moved him——

It's not Gao Meinan, nor Gaomei, it's not the so-called vocal cords, it's because the senior is the senior, the senior is singing with his own emotions, his own heart, her voice is so lofty, as if a brand new picture scroll is unfolding in front of him world!Only the predecessors are unique!But... how dare they forget their predecessors!Forget about the fans, even though they were lost, they believed that Gao Meinan would come back, but they didn't realize that the person they liked before had completely disappeared.

It's not Gao Meinan, a senior is a senior, a senior who is different from others, a senior who cannot be replaced by anyone...

Although I feel angry, I feel a little secretly happy.It turned out that their liking was nothing more than that.

Therefore, I feel at ease that I am the one who likes seniors the most.senior!It's me who likes you the most, it's me who wins.But, so what if you win, the senior is... gone.

What used to be the vane, gently guiding him, making him yearn for the goal he looked up to, his belief, just disappeared, as if there was no trace left, as if it never existed.

Very unwilling.

Senior, I still don't want you to be forgotten, so I will always remember you instead of them.

After ANJELL's concert ended, Huang Tae Kyung's voice was hurt because of too intense and high pitched singing, Bai Chanyu couldn't help scolding that he deserved it.If it wasn't for the senior who endured a lot of pressure for you, with your voice, how could it be possible to hold on to the entire concert? If the senior hadn't acted as your shadow and made up for your defects in the treble, how could you have performed so perfectly Voice, how could it be the NO.1 that is sought after by fans.

It's all because of the seniors that you have you!How dare you just go on stage so shamelessly!Bai Canyu felt infinite resentment in his heart, until President An proposed to let him take over the position of his predecessor, and temporarily become a member of ANJELL before Gao Meinan came back.

President An hesitated before saying this, maybe he was also considering whether to let him join, after all, it was only temporary, one day Gao Meinan would come back, one day, ANJELL would still be the four of them.

But Bai Canyu agreed without thinking.

Because this is the group of seniors, it is the painstaking efforts of seniors, and it is the band that seniors want to support so hard, so I joined, not for anyone, I just want to protect seniors.

Even if everyone doesn't know the existence of seniors, that's okay, I know, I remember, I will always remember, that's enough.

"I don't need another lead singer." No, it was Huang Taijing who coldly rejected the proposal: "My partner is only Gao Meinan." After saying this, he was silent for a while, and suddenly curled his lips ironically Horn, "In the end he ran away."

Hearing this, Bai Canyu finally couldn't help it, and shook his fist at Huang Taijing's face.

"Senior didn't run away!!!" Senior will never run away!Senior just... senior just left helplessly, if possible, senior would definitely not leave!

Then the two of them fought fiercely, and neither of them showed any mercy, until the faces of both sides were stained, and he and Huang Taijing were pulled away by Jiang Xinyu and Jeremy one by one.

"Enough! Stop!" No one would have thought that it was the always gentle Jiang Xinyu who said those words.Someone once said that "gentle people are especially terrifying when they get angry", and this sentence is especially vividly reflected in Jiang Xinyu.His eyes swept across the faces of the two of them like a knife: "Our faces are for the audience to see, is this your professionalism!"

Bai Canyu couldn't help being taken aback.With such a serious attitude towards career, I can’t tolerate even the slightest mistake. I must practice my dancing posture until every movement is accurate, and there will never be a millimeter of deviation. Strict to himself to the point of cruelty - this kind of attitude is obviously unique to the seniors, but it turned out to be Jiang Xinyu.

"You are the happiest two people." Jiang Xinyu glanced at the two of them coldly, and suddenly let go of the restraint on Bai Canyu. His eyes were cold: "If you continue to fight, even if your face doesn't get better, you won't be able to go on stage tomorrow." , if it doesn't matter, you guys can fight."

"Don't be so self-righteous, as if only the two of you love him." Jiang Xinyu looked at the two of them contemptuously with a terrifying expression, then turned and left.

Such a completely different transformation of him is simply astonishing, but Jeremy did not show the slightest surprise, his past jumps were gone, he let go of Tai Jing's arm silently, and said: "Brother Tai Jing, I I have the same idea as Brother Xin Yu, so you can do whatever you want."

In the past, the lively and cute ones, the seniors accepted everything they said, and the golden-haired young man who foolishly believed even if they tricked him, showed a complex and indescribable expression on his face, took a deep look at them, then turned and left.

Bai Canyu pinched his palm fiercely, and unspeakable pain raged in his heart.

I thought that I was the only one who still remembered and liked seniors. The way to occupy the seniors, but...why is there still someone else.Why, there is always someone else between me and senior, even if senior disappears, it will still be like this.

Huang Taijing glanced at him, lowered his fist, turned and left without saying a word, the atmosphere between them was as dull as dead silence, there was no way they would cooperate well to form a band in the future.

Even if they like the same person, even if they are suffering because of the same person, they cannot understand each other, or are unwilling to understand each other at all.I don't even want to share the pain I feel because I like my senior. This is what my senior gave me, and it is unique.

Even though senior has disappeared, I still hope that it is enough for me to be the only one who likes senior.But if senior likes someone else, it doesn't matter to me, because I just hope to see senior again, look up at senior, look forward to senior, and just stand in the position of staring at you from a distance for the rest of my life.That way, at least you won't be rejected for the rest of your life.

Senior, I never begged you, it's just such a request, so, senior, can you promise me this time.Senior, please let me watch you, okay.