[Red Lotus] It is impossible for a lemon essence teenager to soak in Miss Bai Yueguang

Suggested songs to accompany with food: flamingo, Chunlei

"I really want to touch your velvety eye ends and your slightly cold smile."

At one o'clock in the morning, he had just come out of the Internet cafe, and the drizzle under the street lamps was dancing in the dim light.The asphalt road surface became darker because of being wet by water, as if it wanted to blend in with the endless night. The 24-hour convenience store was lonely and lit on the deserted street. He thought for a while, whether to go Buy a bottle of beer, just don't know if the sleepy cashier still counts cash.

The friend who came out to hang out with him was arrested by his girlfriend when he came to the Internet cafe two hours ago. The little girl who rushed in aggressively had red eyes, and the sentence Wu Liuqi suffocated from her throat was still trembling with sobs. , the guy sitting next to him immediately comforted, coaxed and hugged in a hurry.This is good, the girl who was originally worried about whether Wu Liuqi was tied up by someone else saw her boyfriend sitting in an Internet cafe intact and playing csgo with others, she was so angry that she pushed Wu Liuqi away and rushed outside , His cronies also chased after him. I don't know if it was intentional or not, and he didn't pay the Internet fee.

He sat alone in the Internet cafe for a while, the computer was turned on there, the people who were playing together had already left, he had smoked two cigarettes, and he didn't know who he was waiting for.

Thinking of this, he lit a cigarette again irritably. It was raining too much outside, so he had to go to the convenience store to smoke. Just as the cashier brother was about to speak, he glared at him viciously with scarlet eyes and shrank back.

"Ah Quan, how many times have I told you not to smoke?" The senior sister gently but irresistibly pulled the cigarette out of his hand, he let out a long breath, the girl's brown eyes sparkled in the white smoke , dazzling but charming.

Shut up, I want you to take care of it.

You really care about other people anyway, don't you?

He laughed, which was self-deprecating.

Met you, I deserve it.

Also, he is not Ah Quan, so don't call him by the old title from ten years ago.

Just fear him like others, just hide him away, just call him Chiya, isn't it good?

This was already the second night that he wandered alone in the streets at night. He wandered for two nights as if he was looking for something, but found nothing.I don't know what the senior sister who is staying at home is doing now?Are you sleeping peacefully with the sound of rain on your pillow, or are you staying up late to study, or are you sending messages to your sweetheart?Even if it's just a momentary thought, have you ever worried about him?But if I go back now, I will definitely be lectured again. It would be great if those chattering lips could be closed.Only when the senior is quiet, the closed lips are like a beautiful leech link, just watching, you will feel calm.

But in this calmness, a strange longing was born.

It's a pity that her sweetheart is not you.The future of your future relationship is bleak, and it will probably end without a problem.

Chi Fang violently kicked the beer can at his feet, and bumped into some drunk man. The drunk man rushed up and grabbed him by the collar. Wine stinks.

"You kid, don't you want to live anymore!"

"Huh?" He looked up slightly, with impatience written in his eyes.How unlucky to step on shit in this shit weather.

"Hey!!! What a fucking attitude you have!!" The drunk man swung his fist at him as he spoke, but he grabbed it tightly and moved the fist away from his eyes. A smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, The original disdain and contempt did not decrease by half, and he said provocatively:

"It just so happens that I'm in a bad mood. If you want to fight, I'll accompany you."

At three o'clock in the morning, he returned home with a wound on his arm that was still dripping blood and a wet body. His crumpled shirt was stuck to his body. He looked like a stray dog ​​in distress.

"Cut, I didn't expect this bastard to bring a knife, damn it... But it's just like that with a knife, it's a real dish."

He turned on the light while cursing in a low voice, only to see that the senior waiting for him had already slept on the dining table facing the door.The soft long hair slid from his waist, hanging limply in the air, and even his heart softened, and all the previous resentment and jealousy were thrown away.He didn't want to make any noise, took off his shoes and walked barefoot in front of the senior sister. His crescent-shaped eyes and thick eyelashes seemed to be half-opened, like a sleeping angel who fell into the mortal world. The nightgown turned into a scar on his heart, he turned his eyes away, unable to approach, unable to touch, the subtle sense of distance across the small space of only a few inches, mocking him ruthlessly and silently wishful thinking.

I don't want to be alarmed, but it's not a problem to let her sleep like this here. The paranoid and stubborn character is engraved in her bones, and it is shown in every move of her so casually.He had no choice but to take out the blanket from the room first, and put it on her body like the most precious and fragile gem, but who knew that the knuckles still trembled, and she opened it as if she had sensed something. eyes.

"Ah Quan? You're back?" There was still some tiredness in the crisp voice.

"Ah, um." He froze for a moment, hid his injured hand behind his back, and put on a perfunctory attitude.

Then, as if she had noticed something, the senior sister closed her eyes and moved closer to him to sniff.

"You went out to fight again," she said in a voice that was still warm, "you were injured, right?"

"I... don't worry about it, go to sleep." He took a step back, not wanting to face the aggressive lips again.

"Which day did you let me worry about it!" Her volume suddenly increased, "Ah Quan, first you didn't come home all night last night, and then you ran out to fight with others tonight, you..."

"Shut up!" Chi Ya turned his back to not look at those eyes that must be full of disappointment towards him at the moment, those eyes must have been overshadowed by him, he didn't want to look at them.

He thought, he really had enough, this tiresome, rambling lecture was exactly the same as the dean who had called him back to the office countless times.That's not what he wants to hear, what he wants to see is—

Forget it.

He fled, and as he realized it all, painful love ran through him again.The door that was closed heavily was like the Chuhe-Han boundary drawn between him and the outside. He hid in a corner of the closed space, and finally got a chance to breathe. The screen on the phone was pale, Wu Liuqi was late Birthday wishes stuck in a pop-up window on the lock screen, and it's four in the morning.

He was full, legally speaking he was a serious adult, but he didn't get the slightest sense of growth.Although his height is a full 1.8 meters [-], his Adam's apple is clearly visible, and the facial features on his face are fully opened. During the rebellious period, the long and narrow red phoenix eyes, shaved eyebrows, long nails, and chocolate for girls Love letters can fill his desk, and every smile can lead the sight of unknown strangers on the road.Even in order to flaunt this growth, he even forced the people around him to change their address from 'Ah Quan' to 'Chiya'.He still felt that he was just the little kid with a runny nose and tears holding a melting lollipop stumbling behind the senior, and the distance between him and the senior had never been shortened by an iota.Since he was led by his mother to see her for the first time when he was eight years old, her black hair fluttered in the wind, and she held him who was about to fall with her hand, and the pink petals fluttered in the air and caressed her velvety body. In the corner of her eyes, the senior sister at that time didn't say anything, just shining silently like this.The hazy feelings took root in his heart, and the senior sister who appeared in the spring set off a spring storm, a storm full of vitality, a storm that awakened him.As a child, he swore in his heart that he would follow in the footsteps of his senior, and at that time he would tell her loudly that he liked her.But now, he can only look at the back of his senior, and see her stepping into the gate of the new world in autumn after graduating this summer. The difference of only a few years is enough to make him feel so excited powerless.

All he did was to get a response from his senior, because he needed this response, he needed love to warm his body and mind from the sour and biting growing pains left after the high altitude and showers.He thought that the senior must also need love. No matter how strong Adam was, he asked God for a rib to be his partner, not to mention the senior who had lived alone for so long, but every time he wanted to reach out, then The wordless back and tied front hair revealed such a firm refusal that made him retreat.

They both need love, but they can't give it to each other.

Perhaps it was just his own self-indulgence. One summer night, he saw his senior sister secretly preparing some unknown surprise under the desk lamp.He pretended to mention it inadvertently, hoping that the senior would tell him everything as frankly as in the past, but he was wrong, and all he was left with was concealment and the erratic blush on his face. He understood everything in an instant, and an unknown person stepped in before him, taking away the love he wanted.That bitterness hit him overwhelmingly in an instant, and he put it in his pocket calmly, becoming his second secret.

How ironic, he recalled the wish he had made in his heart when he was a child, and the first thing he taught him when he grew up was that nothing comes true in the adult world.

Go to sleep, go to sleep, it will be dawn in two hours.

During the lunch break, he and Wu Liuqi walked past the students on duty at the entrance of the cafeteria with a bowl of lunch. The iron gate, the rooftop rarely visited by people, is probably the rare clean place in this school.

"Hey, Yazi, how did you go back that day?" They sat down side by side, and Wu Liuqi immediately leaned over, with a hint of teasing in his voice.

"What? What else?" He rolled his eyes and knocked Wu Liuqi's chopsticks out of his bowl. "That's it."

"Don't just put things in other people's bowls, you bastard!"

"Cut..." Wu Liuqi sighed, the word boring was written in the drooping eyes and the dark circles under them.

"What kind of expression do you have!" He frowned instantly, "Wait to see my joke!"

"Senior Jiang, she has someone she likes."

"Yes." He took two big mouthfuls of rice out of the lunch box as if venting his anger, then turned his head away as if nothing had happened, "None of my business."

"Ah." Wu Liuqi was taken aback.

"how?"

"It's nothing." Wu Liuqi grinned, "I'm very honest with Miss Mei."

"Heh, let me ask who would set off fireworks at school during evening self-study when confessing. She almost killed you when she found out."

"Oh, my father-in-law can't beat me."

"Good for you."

Chiya took a mouthful of Coke, and the clear sky after the rain was always cloudless, but the dark clouds brought by the spring thunder that sounded in his heart still permeated his heart and could not be dispelled.

Be open and honest with each other.

He has been preparing for the day when he catches up with his senior and expresses his heart. At that time, whether it is what to say, what expression to make, or what to do when kissing, he even tore off his left ankle. Only the bracelet was brought down as a gift for the senior, and everything had already become a script that he had programmed countless times in his mind, but he had no way of knowing the ending, nor did he know when to start.It's not that he didn't worry that he would be brutally pushed away by those hands. When he was rejected, he would definitely be... at a loss.

However, there is no need to worry now.He will 100% be pushed away.

Because what senior sister is looking for is not his love, and the person senior sister wants to give love to is not him.

Damn it, he actually doesn't even know the name of that bastard who interfered.

Thinking of this, the expression on his face suddenly darkened, the food in his hand made him lose his appetite, and his mood, which was not so good at first, became even more gloomy.

"Let's go." He hastily cleaned up the trash and walked downstairs without looking back.

Hearing whispering voices from the corner, and the smoking tumor hid in the corner joking and chatting, he didn't pay much attention at first, so he planned to pass by like this.

"You know, the one from the previous session, who was always a bitch with a serious face and always caught others violating discipline," Tuozi scratched his ear, shaking some cigarette ash out, "pretending to be pure and innocent, now it seems that he is talking to others Let's talk."

"Ha! She was considered a popular goddess back then. She has a long face. The university couldn't resist showing her true colors. I'm afraid she's become a broken shoe after talking about it for a few times? I don't know if the dreams of those licking dogs have been shattered. Oh." Another tumor echoed.

"That's right, that bitch is called Jiang, what is Jiang..."

"Jiang Huilian."

"That's right, that's right, that's Jiang Hui... Ugh!" Before Tuo Zi could react, he was beaten to the ground. The green-haired boy squatted down and lifted his collar, with an angry expression on his face that was almost distorted, "You don't deserve it!" Call her by name, Lesel."

“哈、”瘤子摸了下脸上被揍出的鼻血，“难不成你也是那婊子的小舔狗？”他露出嘲讽的笑容，“看啊，这头顶还真是和你的发色一样It’s so green!” Not to be outdone, he pulled away Chiya’s hand that was grabbing his collar, punched back and was avoided by Chiya’s head, and then he was firmly restrained again, Chiya grabbed his throat, The head of the tumor hit the floor and made a muffled sound that it was almost smashed into pieces. His hands were constantly tightened. The anger made him lose his mind, leaving only the instinct of struggle screaming in the blood, and even the people underneath were pinched to the ground. I didn't even know it when I rolled my eyes.

"Let me tell you one last time," he said in a low, hoarse voice like the whine of a wild beast attacking its prey, "she's mine."

The scarlet pupils were burning, and the unresolved anger and jealousy intertwined and burned, and the anger and jealousy ran in every inch of his cells, and the incomprehensible loneliness corroded his broken bone marrow.

Damn, that bastard, what is so good about it.

What qualifications does he have to let you abandon me?

Obviously he can't even protect you like this.