The accident in my life is only you

In the afternoon we finished a big circle, and it was already evening, and we had dinner together on the side of the road, and finally we went to the famous square together.

Sure enough, there were already a sea of ​​people, and the crowd was moving, as lively as a grand festival.

We played around the square, and after a while, the sky gradually darkened.

The time on the watch showed that it was close to seven o'clock, and it was also close to Xiaoya and Xiaoqiu's working hours, so we had to part ways and go our separate ways.

But because of Qixi Festival, the crowds in the nightclub are relatively mixed and the whole nightclub will be relatively busy. Xiaoya may not have time to look after me, so she suggested that I stay at home tonight and not go out.

I readily agree.

Of course, there were other reasons. I was also afraid that on this special day, I would drink indiscriminately and call Liu Shu again to do something more embarrassing.

It was past seven o'clock, the night was beginning to fall, and the surrounding lights were already on. Xiaoqiu, Xiaoya and I parted at the crossroads, each heading in a different direction.

The street was bustling at this time, and this place was only about half an hour's walk away from Xiaoya's rental house, so I decided to go for a walk alone and walk home later.

I crossed the intersection and walked towards the rental house with small steps. There were crowds of people on the street, almost all of them were couples, and there were even flower vendors.

Those flower sellers decorated this Qixi Festival night with romance and warmth, which reminded me of Liu Shu in the distance unconsciously.

The all-night long talk with Xiaoqiu and Xiaoya last night seemed to pull out some of the obsessions in my heart, and those deep attachments that I suppressed in my heart seemed to have finally become lighter in my only drunken indulgence .

At this time, the nostalgia in my heart was no longer unbearable, and even a little relieved.

Since the summer vacation, the two phone calls to Liu Shu seem to be a bit reckless. After drinking, he can't stand the teasing of missing soon, and still breaks the originally agreed peace.

Thinking of this, I felt a lot of apologies.

I walked to a slightly narrower alley next to it, walked to a deserted place, and after making sure that the noise was isolated from the outside, I dialed the familiar phone number.

This time, it was the first time in a long time that I called her when I was fully awake, but my heart was still beating like a drum, mixed with some tension.

The other side of the phone was quickly connected, and Liu Shu's calm voice jumped in, "Hello, what's the matter?"

Yes, her opening was still slightly alienated.

Of course, this is the case with the phone calls these few times, and I have become accustomed to her tone. After all, this is the result of our agreement.

I smiled slightly, mocking the joy in my heart that was just about to emerge, "It's okay, I just want to call you suddenly, what are you doing now?"

I carefully asked this question pretending to be familiar with her to break the unfamiliar atmosphere between each other, but I just don't know if she will choose to answer.

"I was playing with my mobile phone in the room, and I didn't do anything." The voice over there didn't pause, and quickly answered my question.

Liu Shu's voice was calm, without any emotion, and his voice was well disguised.

After the voice echoed on the phone, what ushered in was silence between us.

I thought about it for a moment, and I was the first to say the purpose of this call, "I'm sorry for the first two calls, I was drunk, and I made a call before I knew it, and I'm bothering you."

"It's okay, I know." Liu Shu's words seemed to be spoken casually, with a hint of relief.

Without thinking, I quickly asked back: "How do you know, I remember I didn't say anything nonsense?"

Liu Shu paused, his voice was a little soft, and slowly penetrated into the other end of the phone, "No, what nonsense can you say, but I just know you've been drinking."

The conversation between these two sentences is like a friend I haven't seen for a long time. Her words broke the shallow timidity in my heart.

The phone fell silent again, and after a long while, I spoke first again, "There's nothing else to do, that's it, I'll hang up, goodbye."

Liu Shu also replied with the same two words, "Goodbye."

My polite phone call completely put an end to the two drunken nonsense behaviors during this summer vacation.

Although I have been forcing myself to forget her and control myself not to contact her, it is undeniable that I still want to be close to her in my heart. That kind of obsession has taken root in my heart, and it is really difficult to get rid of it.

And whether our agreement can redeem each other, or is it just our own self-deception?

I stood in the alley, leaning against the wall behind me with my mobile phone in my hand, listening to the little noise leaking in from the narrow alley, and following my heartbeat, I gradually returned to normal.

Years later, those promised pasts unfolded before my eyes again.

It was the tenth day of the new year, and it was still the same station. I was sitting in the waiting hall with my suitcase.

Received a message from Liu Shu again: What time do you take the car to Jiangcheng today?

Yes, it was such a coincidence that when I was waiting for the bus, I received a message from Liu Shu.

I vaguely remember the day when I was about to leave for Jiangcheng to go to school two or three years ago, I also received a message from Liu Shu when I was waiting for the bus at the station. I remembered that she said at that time: Anyway, you are mine, I must leave something for you , let you remember me.

Thinking of this, I suddenly laughed out loud, it was just a fruitless relationship, let us go round and round and finally return to the original point.

I stared at the text message in a daze, and forgot to reply to the message for a long time.

Not long after, another text message came in. The ringtone of the text message woke me up from my memories, only to realize that I had been staring at that text message for a long time.

So I quit this text message and clicked on the new incoming message again, and the content soon appeared in front of my eyes: Are you in the county now?

How did Liu Shu know that I am in the county now?How did she know that I was going to Jiangcheng today?

Oh, I finally remembered that when Aning returned to Jiangcheng for the second time, she seemed to ask me about the start time of school, and even complained to me that their school start time was earlier than mine.

I stared at the text message for a while, trying to make up some reasons to prevaricate Liu Shu.

Just when I was still thinking about whether to lie about the departure time or pretend not to find her text message, Liu Shu's call came in.

The phone rang continuously without any intention of hanging up, and even skipped to the last syllable of the ringtone, and the whole song started again. This continuous sound was especially obvious in this empty waiting room.

I thought for a moment, let out a breath, and picked up her phone.

I admit that even if I didn't intend to answer her phone call, the longing in my heart is always around the corner. Those obsessions have taken deeper and deeper roots in my heart, as if reminding me not to forget Liu Shu all the time.

Liu Shu's voice was mixed with a little complaint, coming from the other end of the phone, "Why, you didn't reply to the text message? I thought you didn't plan to answer the phone either."

"No, I just saw the message, what do you want?" I don't know why, but I actually opened my mouth to explain, although this explanation is also a lie.

"Then where are you now? It's a bit noisy over there. Could it be that you're already at the station? Why don't you tell me you're going to Jiangcheng?"

The little tension and concern in Liu Shu's tone softened my already rock-solid heart.

"I thought you knew when I was leaving, so I didn't say anything. Besides, it doesn't matter when I go to Jiangcheng."

Before I knew it, I explained another sentence. After I finished this sentence, I suddenly remembered those humble pasts, and I was very annoyed by the behavior I just explained.

So he opened his mouth coldly and continued: "Didn't you also not contact me? Why did I take the initiative to tell you? Do you want to go with me?"

I still couldn't help mocking Liu Shu at the end of the sentence.

Liu Shu over there seemed to be really irritated by me, and his tone became a little colder, "Are you blaming me for not taking the initiative to contact you?"

She paused and continued, "Didn't you say you didn't want to see me? Did you tell me not to look for you in the future? What? You regret it now? Instead, blame me for not contacting you?"

It was as if a gust of cold wind had poured into my heart, and it was completely frozen, as if it was stuck in my throat, and I couldn't say anything else.

Maybe it's because I'm used to Liu Shu's soft words to me, or maybe it's because I never thought that one day she would treat the person she said she loved with cold words.

And the rhetorical questions she uttered suddenly made my heart lose temperature in an instant, and I was at a loss as to what to do.

The few words she said now, to me, seem to be mocking me for losing my own principles, going back on my word, mocking the humble behavior I once did to get close to her.

I lowered my voice, almost calmly, "Yes, I said it, so now, I don't want to hear your voice anymore."

Liu Shu over there was about to say something when I hung up the phone suddenly, and I cut off her voice abruptly on the other end of the phone.

After I hung up the phone, I was filled with remorse and remorse again.

The reason I picked up the phone was not to argue with her, but to hear the voice in my missing, but I couldn't help but have some unpleasant quarrels with her, unconsciously and uncontrollably.

What disappointed me was that Liu Shu, who had been tolerant of me many times, also began to speak coldly to me.

What made me even more disappointed was that Liu Shu's phone calls and text messages really disappeared like this, and they never came in again.

These unprovoked quarrels pushed the little temperature between us to a cold spot, and the love between us seemed to be getting weaker and weaker because of the hysteria between us.

I thought that if we didn't communicate with each other like this, Liu Shu must have been tired of my attitude.

And because I was annoyed at Liu Shu's impatience with me, I stopped contacting her in a fit of anger. This was originally a promise I made to myself in my heart. With Liu Shu and his own stubborn anger, he really never contacted Liu Shu again.

But not long after school started, he still received a message from Liu Shu.

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