The accident in my life is only you

We often make appointments to hang out, chat and go out at night together, and we are inseparable.

Once we went to buy milk tea together, the boss asked us if we were twins and why we looked so alike.

This made me laugh, but there was joy hidden in my heart. It was God who destined us to be together. There are thousands of people in this world. Why she looks like me must be due to fate.

I firmly believe that fate is suggesting something to me, and I will definitely live up to this arrangement.

That night, as usual, I invited her to my house to play. She didn't refuse, and she asked her family to stay overnight at a friend's house.

We lay side by side on the bed chatting about interesting things and things about each other's schools.

While she was still thinking about the details in her memory, I rolled over and held her down.

Before she could react, I kissed her lips. I thought she would resist violently, but in fact, she only struggled a few times before returning to calm.

This kind of tranquility seems to be the surface of water as calm as dead ashes, without any waves or any response.

I moved away from her lips and looked down into her eyes, trying to see some emotion in them.

But there was nothing in her eyes, as if I just hugged her lightly just now, but her cheeks were still slightly flushed, a little restless.

I organized my words, for fear of scaring her, "Try to be with me, I will treat you well, so maybe you will soon forget Yingying, just as she hoped."

Liu Shu didn't answer, just looked at me absent-mindedly, with a gleam of sadness in her eyes, as if the word Lin Ying poked the pain in her heart.

I then bewitched: "I don't care that you still have Lin Ying in your heart, I believe that after a long time, you will fall in love with me."

Liu Shu finally said two words with difficulty, "But..."

I knew her hesitation, so I quickly replied: "It's okay, let's try together first, okay? You don't need to respond to me, just let me treat you well?"

After a while, I thought of Lin Ying who she cared about the most, so I hurriedly added: "I won't tell Yingying that we are together, don't worry about that, if you find that you still don't like me, you still like Lin Ying, I will definitely Don't get entangled, okay?"

Liu Shu didn't answer again, still frowning, looking at me absent-mindedly.

I was a little anxious, but I still patiently and gently said: "Then if you didn't refuse me, it will be regarded as your agreement."

Liu Shu still didn't answer, but my heart was jumping for joy, because at least I took the first step, and I could stand by her side, even though I was nameless and had no role.

I wanted to kiss her again, but it seemed very abrupt. I was afraid of scaring her, so I deliberately brought up the kiss just now, "I kissed you just now, do you think you can't accept it?"

Liu Shu stammered and replied, "It's okay."

After she finished speaking, the redness on her cheeks hadn't faded away, and her chest heaved slightly, as if she was a little nervous.

I moved closer to her lips again, and turned gently. This time she didn't struggle, but she didn't respond either, she closed her eyes calmly.

In the days to come, she was often inseparable from me, and I tried to leave my mark on her.

I have sucked her fingertips, left hickey marks on her chest, stroked her warm skin, combed her soft black hair, I want to make every inch of her mine, but I always In the end, she couldn't replace Lin Ying's position.

Lin Ying has not answered my calls many times, and she also did not answer Liu Shu's calls. She became a little anxious and asked if I had told Lin Ying about our affairs?

I categorically deny it, but my heart is sour. Are you so afraid that Lin Ying will know about us?

But I am powerless to argue, because I promised first not to interfere with everything between her and Lin Ying.

The last time I met Lin Ying, she said that she would resign in a few days and go home to rest for a period of time. By the way, she was sorting out materials and preparing to report at the university. I invited her to be a guest at home after she resigned.

She applied for a university in Jiangcheng, which is very close to her hometown, but I chose another province, and it takes an overnight journey to my hometown.

Liu Shu stood behind Lin Ying, didn't speak, and listened to our chat quietly. I saw her so cautious and careful, and my heart was full of distress.

The person I hold in my hand is so humble in front of Lin Ying, I am suddenly tired of this hidden feeling, one day, I want everyone to know that the person standing next to her is me, including Lin Ying .

A few days before going to school in other provinces, we stayed together every day and cherished the last time we were together.

She still hasn't responded to my intimacy, and every time this happens, the disappointment in my heart accumulates deeper and deeper, but I have no way to complain. I said I don't care, so what right do I have to complain about now? Woolen cloth.

On the day I left, Liu Shu sent me to the station. The corners of her mouth rose slightly, and she stood outside the car and waved to me, as if saying goodbye to an old friend who had been reunited for a long time, without much nostalgia or reluctance.

I almost cried, how can I treat you well so that I can walk into your heart and replace the person deep in my heart.

But God is kind to me. Half a month into school, during a phone call with Liu Shu, she told me that she didn't want to study, was very confused about the future, and didn't know what to do next.

I suggested that she come to H province for a visit, but she agreed readily, so we made an appointment and waited for the day to come.

H Province in mid-September is getting cooler day by day, with a large temperature difference between morning and evening.

At night, I finally waited for Liu Shu at the exit of the train station. She came from a distance with a suitcase, stepping on my heart with every step.

Her clothes were thin, and she was alone in the cold wind. I stepped forward and hugged her, holding her cold body in my arms.

After a long time, let her put on my coat and take it back to my dormitory.

In the next few days, as soon as the rest time came, I took her to eat, drink and play around.

I want to give her the best and let her know that only I am the best for her.

However, Lin Ying is what she never forgets in her heart. Even if she didn't say it, I just know it, but we all have a tacit understanding and didn't mention it.

That day I went to the bank to withdraw money with her, and I stood outside the door waiting for her.

After a long time, she walked back to me dejectedly. After asking, I found out that she didn't tell her mother when she left school. Now her mother found out and froze her bank card.

I held her hand and comforted her while walking towards the dormitory, while she lowered her head and looked at her toes.

I persuaded softly: "It's okay, then you still have me, so stay with me for a while."

Liu Shu, who had been silent all this time, suddenly raised his head and asked, "Do you want me to stay here all the time?"

Without thinking, I immediately replied, "Of course, if you are willing to stay, of course I am the happiest."

Liu Shu's eyes gradually darkened, as if looking at another place through me, and then asked softly, "Don't you want me to go home?"

"If you want to go home, go home, if you want to stay, stay, I support you." I think I gave a perfect answer, impeccable.

But Liu Shu didn't answer for a long time, and then a voice came suddenly, those words pierced my heart, leaving a hole, leaking all the warmth.

She said: "If it was Yingying, she would persuade me to go home, persuade me to compromise with my mother, and persuade me to go to school. You are different from her."

In the next few days, I pretended to forget what she said that day, and continued to treat her tenderly.

I think I am a qualified lover. Once I fall in love, I will spoil each other infinitely. This is the way I love, and I hope this is the way others love me.

And Liu Shu didn't seem to realize how sharp that hurtful sentence was. It cut the tip of my heart and left behind something, maybe she wouldn't worry about it either.

We are so dependent on each other, there is no difference from other lovers, only I know that we are different, there is a shadow of someone else between us, and there is no way for me to surpass the shadow at present.

I know that this long-hidden contradiction will one day explode in a sharper way.

But I took care of everything carefully, and I understand that maybe by that time, everything I have now will be wiped out.

But everything in this world is not as expected, the more you worry, the faster it will come.

At noon that day, Liu Shu and I were reading on the bed in the dormitory when the phone rang suddenly.

Liu Shu saw the number jumping on the phone and didn't speak, but a trace of panic flashed in his eyes.

My heart also tightened in vain. Lin Ying's sudden phone call always made me feel uneasy. The last time Lin Ying's phone rang suddenly, it was because Liu Shu ran away from home suddenly and called me to look for it. So what about this time?

I pretended to be calm and picked up the phone, looked at Liu Shu next to me, thinking about how to deal with Lin Ying's next question.

But the tone over there was relaxed, "Is it Lin Xining, guess who I am?"

I secretly breathed a sigh of relief. As for why I was nervous, I don't know.We exchanged simple greetings, as usual, and then hung up the phone.

But I was vaguely uneasy in my heart, and I couldn't tell what it was.

The next night, Lin Ying really called again.

I just picked it up, and after I finished speaking, before I heard Lin Ying's answer, Liu Shu behind me suddenly turned around and said something to me in a low voice.

I didn't hear it clearly, but my heart tightened for a moment, because the voice seemed clear and sudden in the quiet dormitory.

I hurriedly made a quiet gesture to Liu Shu, indicating that the person on the other end of the phone was Lin Ying, but there was no panic in Liu Shu's eyes. I don't know if I misread the look, or she was pretending to be calm.

After a long time, Lin Ying's peaceful voice came, without much disturbance: "The one next to you is Liu Shu?"

My heart was hanging in my throat, I calmed down for a moment, and I still agreed softly, and then asked her if she wanted to talk to Liu Shu.

But before I had time to hand the phone to Liu Shu, the other party had already hung up, so I had to shrug my shoulders towards Liu Shu in apologetic manner, but Liu Shu only glanced at me, then lowered his head and continued to flip through the magazine in his hand.

But I always feel that Lin Ying's sudden phone call will have an introduction, because everything will not happen for no reason.

And what this introduction is, I still have no way of knowing.

The author has something to say: Thank you for watching. Most of the following Aning's stories do not overlap with Lin Ying's. They are other stories that happened at the same time.

The above articles overlapping story time takes place in chapter 39.