The accident in my life is only you

Two days later, we got on the bus to Yucheng, and it took less than two hours to reach Yucheng from Lucheng.

The distance is very close, far beyond my expectations.

When we arrived in Yucheng, it was already after [-]:[-] pm. We arrived at the place we agreed with Liu Shu. I sat in the taxi, a little timidly, but Lin Chun had already opened the door, took down the luggage, and finally closed the door.

I saw Liu Shu standing not far from the rear window. She was wearing black short sleeves, and her appearance hadn't changed much. It was still the same as I remembered.

She didn't look at me, but stood under the eaves not far away, looking at Lin Chun who just got out of the car, talking and laughing with her mouth.

After hesitating for a long time, I opened the door and took down the luggage.

Standing by the side of the car, my heartbeat accelerated slightly, and I didn't dare to look back at her. Then I managed to stabilize my mind, mustered up the courage, grinned, as if I was going to see an old friend I hadn't seen for a long time, turned around, smiled, and took my luggage to the Beside Lin Chun, looking at her with a smile.

Liu Shu only glanced at me, then shifted his gaze to look at Lin Chun, chatted and laughed with Lin Chun, and then led us towards her rental house.

He didn't greet me, didn't look back at me, didn't even take what was in my hand, just walked ahead empty-handed.

A trace of grievance and loss rose deep in my heart. I thought she would at least be a little happy when she saw me.

But to my disappointment, she was not happy. Instead, it seemed that she was not welcome, and it was more like my self-indulgence.

I followed her with the suitcase, and the grievance in my heart became deeper and deeper, almost overflowing.

Liu Shu had resigned from Lin He's company for a month, found a new job, moved out of the dormitory, and rented a house outside.

Her rental house is on the third floor of a residential building, at the end of the corridor. The room is not big, but very tidy.

It's just that there are no windows in the room, and the lights need to be turned on day and night, and the time can't be seen.

Lin Chun and I stayed in her small room and lived happily for a few days. During the day, Liu Shu went out to work, and Lin Chun and I stayed in the room to sleep or go for a walk. We waited for her to come back at night, and then we went out together. Go for a ride.

Although Liu Shu didn't say much to me in the past few days, and she didn't do any intimate actions, she looked at me with vaguely dodgy eyes, and took good care of the details of my life, as before. Used to be average.

But just these, there is a slight joy in my heart, I think I must be crazy, I was poisoned by her, very deep, so deep that she just gave me a little pity, but I was very grateful do.

On this day, Liu Shu just got off work and packed lunch for us. After we had dinner, Lin Chun proposed to go for a drive. After all, the house was really too stuffy.

Liu Shu was sitting on the bed playing with his mobile phone, while Lin Chun and I were cleaning up the leftovers on the table.

Lin Chun raised his head and said, "Where shall we go to play at night? Is there a park nearby? I haven't been there yet?"

I didn't answer, although I've been here once, but I'm not very familiar with the surroundings, I try to act cute, I know, she used to like my quiet appearance the most.

"There is a park, but there are a lot of people at night, so let's go there when it gets darker." Liu Shu operated the buttons without raising his head.

Lin Chun was suddenly excited, his eyes sparkling, "Okay, okay, it's great to go out for a walk, then wait for me, I'll take a shower."

After Lin Chun finished speaking, she stood up and took out the toiletries and clothes from her suitcase.

But I vaguely felt that something was wrong, but I couldn't remember it for a while.

I still didn't open my mouth, and wiped the table silently. It wasn't until Lin Chun walked into the bathroom with the clothes that I suddenly remembered that if she went in, then Liu Shu and I would not be the only ones left in the room.

I was going to speak to stop Lin Chun, but I didn't know how to stop it, and if I spoke, it would make Liu Shu feel that I cared about this matter very much, and what should I do if I felt disgusted?

I've been so wronged, I can't make her unhappy about this matter.

I just watched Lin Chun enter the bathroom, and then closed the bathroom door. The atmosphere in the room tightened in vain, and it was eerily quiet.

Liu Shu was still sitting on the bed playing with her mobile phone, and didn't notice anything unusual. I thought to myself: Should I say something to her, or should I sit awkwardly, or sit beside her?

Thinking of this, my cheeks seemed to be a little hot. In order to hide my embarrassment, I buried my head and dared not look at her.

After finishing a game, Liu Shu finally realized what was wrong. She looked up at the closed door of the bathroom, then turned her head to look at me who was still wiping the table. At that time, she withdrew her gaze, lowered her head and continued to play the game.

I felt her leaving eyes, and I was disappointed in vain. I looked up at her, and I looked at her for a long time, but she didn't look up.

Maybe she had discovered that I was looking at her a long time ago, and she also chose to ignore it, ignoring everything in my eyes.

I turned my head back sadly, and the sadness in my heart became deeper and deeper. What made you, who originally liked me, turn into disdain for me.

It was you who said that I liked me, it was you who said I was worth it, it was you who said sorry for offending me now, but when you offended me, there was only one sentence of sorry, what about me?Whose is the heartbreak of the day and night?

I decided to look for an opportunity and make the last effort. I thought humbly, I don’t want any possessions, I don’t want any status, just stand by her side, I want to see the starlight in her eyes when she looks at me, I want to see The way she looked happy when she saw me was nothing more than that.

A few days later, when Lin Chun went out to buy lunch, she passed by a restaurant and found that they were recruiting a part-time waiter. She went up for an interview. Fortunately, she passed the interview and could stay as a part-time worker.

When she came back to tell me the news, I was happy for her on the one hand, but sad on the other.

If Lin Chun leaves Liu Shu's rental house, then as a classmate, I have no reason to stay in Liu Shu's room alone. After all, she did not admit that I am her lover, nor her girlfriend. No, it's just an embarrassing existence.

In the evening, I suggested drinking to celebrate Lin Chun finding a job. More importantly, I wanted to test Liu Shu after drinking. Of course, it was not the temptation you imagined.

They readily agreed, not feeling strange.

As night fell, Lin Chun and I bought some beer and snacks. After dinner, the three of us sang to each other, asking how life is.

I don't know how much time has passed, there are more and more empty wine bottles on the ground, Lin Chun's eyes have been blurred for a long time, and his speech is a little awkward, but at this time I am still awake.

Of course, I don't drink much, and I've always been a good drinker.

Liu Shu was also a little drunk, she didn't speak, she sat on the bed with blushing cheeks, as if she was about to fall down soon, but in fact, she also fell down on the bed after drinking the last sip from the bottle.

I tidied up, moved Lin Chun and Liu Shu, who were stumbling around, to their sleeping positions, then turned off the light, turned on the night light in the toilet, climbed to the innermost part of the bed, and lay down next to Liu Shu, with their backs close together The wall, facing Liu Shu.

My consciousness was so clear, in the dim light, I counted Liu Shu's breath, looked at her profile, and thoughts poured into my heart like a tide.

For a long time, I closed my eyes, waiting for Liu Shu to wake up from the twilight, waiting for her reaction when she saw me next to me.

I gradually fell asleep, but my consciousness was awake. Liu Shu turned over several times in the middle, but didn't wake up.

Until the dawn of the day, when Lin Chun on the other side of the bed was still in a deep sleep, Liu Shu woke up, I heard a slight movement next to me, I didn't open my eyes, but listened carefully to the sound to identify Liu Shu's movements.

She sat up, didn't move for a long time, or looked at me, or still closed her eyes, in short, she didn't make any movement, then she got out of bed, put on her slippers, went into the toilet, and closed the door of the toilet.

I opened my eyes and looked at the closed door of the toilet in the dark, feeling even more disappointed in my heart.

She must be tired of me, even if she wakes up and sees me so close, she doesn't move at all.

In the past, when she woke up, she would help me tuck the quilt, stroke my hair, with nostalgia and reluctance, but now she really has nothing, so why should I continue to make temptations and humiliate myself.

In the dark, I really want to cry, but I know I can't cry, I don't want to leave my last dignity here.

After Liu Shu got out of the toilet, she still lay down next to me, but moved her position outside, a little further away from me.

I waited for her breathing to be long and even, and then I opened my eyes and looked at her side face, my heart ached, it was time to leave, and I left with the final dignity.

Early in the morning, Lin Chun finally woke up, but Liu Shu was still asleep.

I waited for Lin Chun to wake up and sit up, so I pretended that I had just woken up from a dream, and sat up too, looking at the bewildered Lin Chun.

"Yingying, I feel a little confused. When did I sleep yesterday?" Lin Chun said, scratching the back of his head with his hands.

Because I didn't have a deep sleep all night, my throat was a bit dry and hoarse. I suppressed my voice and replied softly: "You fell asleep after drinking too much. I will move your position for you."

"I'm already drunk, but you're not drunk. Comrade Yingying is hiding something?" Lin Chun teased with a smile, and coughed a few times after speaking.

The two of us talked to each other without controlling the volume, which woke up Liu Shu who was sleeping.

Liu Shu sat up and leaned against the head of the bed, without opening her eyes, "What are you arguing about, disturbing people's dreams early in the morning is a serious crime, you know?"

We immediately silenced and did not speak again.

Liu Shu picked up the mobile phone next to him and glanced at it. He raised his forehead and said, "Lin Chun, you are sick. It's only seven o'clock. Are you so loud?"

Lin Chun got up angrily, "Why do you just scold me, I'm not talking to myself, I said it with Yingying, you're biased."

She got out of bed and went into the bathroom without looking back.

I sat on the bed blankly, apologizing, and was about to leave soon, not wanting to cause any unpleasantness.

Liu Shu didn't say anything, and didn't look back at me, she just sat on the edge of the bed, bent over to put on her shoes.

And Lin Chun quickly came out of the toilet, ready to continue teasing her.

Liu Shu put on her shoes, ignored her, took the towel and walked to the bathroom. I was about to enter the bathroom, but I gritted my teeth and said to leave.

"Lin Chun, I want to go back to my hometown today, and I want to leave later."

Liu Shu's back froze slightly, but soon stopped and went straight into the bathroom.

Lin Chun strode to the bed and sat down, "Yingying, why did you leave so soon, stay for a few more days."

I looked at Liu Shu's back in the bathroom and listened to the sound of running water, the bitterness in my heart slowly emerged, making me more desolate.

I twitched the corners of my mouth and pretended to be nonchalant, "You have already found a job, what am I doing here, do you eat and drink for nothing? Forget it, I'll go back to my hometown."

"Yingying, don't you think about it? Think about it again?" Lin Chun said with a hint of anxiety.

I looked at the busy figure in the bathroom and lowered my head, "Forget it, Lin Chun, I want to go home."

Lin Chun looked at me hesitating to speak, but in the end he still didn't keep me, and Liu Shu didn't keep me from beginning to end.

After we washed up, Liu Shu tidied up and was ready to go to work. Lin Chun and I sat on the bed and chatted every sentence.

Liu Shu opened the doorknob, paused, without looking back, "Yingying, I'm going to work, so I won't see you off, Lin Chun, if you're free, I'll send Yingying off."

When Liu Shu heard Lin Chun's response, he closed the door, and the footsteps became farther and farther away, as if stepping on my heart, and finally returned to calm.

I stared blankly at the door, unable to speak for a long time, but my heart could not be peaceful, as if those footsteps had crushed my heart.

In the end, Lin Chun didn't see me off either, she sent me downstairs, and I took a taxi to the station by myself.

I've been here once, and this time I know the way.

Last time there was a person who loved me, she was here reluctantly watching me leave.

This time it was the same person who once loved me, she didn't send me here, and let me leave alone without looking back.

I sat on the bus for seven hours and finally returned to my hometown. I got out of the car and walked on the familiar road.

I remembered the last time we were in this place, we were breathing the same air, and she said she was going to take me home.

I walked on my own, regardless of the shadows that can be seen everywhere, suppressing the pain in my heart, and pained all the way.

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