The accident in my life is only you

On the afternoon after the college entrance examination, I packed up my things and planned to spend the night in the county town, and then went home by car the next day.

At eight o'clock in the evening, I received a text message from Liu Shu: Yingying, how is your exam?

I didn't intend to reply to her, my heart trembled slightly, and I turned off the phone.

But after a while, another message came in: I want to see you.

I watched the phone screen light up for a moment, and then it went dark again, but there was still no reply.

About 10 minutes or so, another message jumped into: I miss you.

The moment I opened the message, my heart skipped a beat.Although I am used to all kinds of harassment from her, when I suddenly saw this sentence, my heart still tightened suddenly.

For a long time, Mr. Yu, I have been a well-behaved student, and my classmates are just nodding acquaintances.

In my world, true friends are rare, and they all have a cheerful personality. Even Lin Chun, who is a bit introverted, would rarely say such sweet words to me.

But the four words Liu Shu typed, in my opinion, are particularly weighty, and seem to overwhelm me.

I took a deep breath and closed my eyes, looking at those words, as if she was looking at me in front of me, I curled my fingers nervously and held them in the palm of my hand.

What Lin Chun said to me that day has been echoing in my heart.

I didn't tell Lin Chun, why didn't I have a heartbeat, it's not that I didn't see her kindness to me.

But so what, the tragedy that was doomed from the very beginning, why should we start and compose this heart-piercing process.

Knowing it was an accident, all you have to do is stop it from happening and deal with its aftermath.

I said those cold words to her again and again, is she the only one who hurts?

It hurts me too, and my heart hurts even more. No one knows how I said such cold words in the face of her expecting eyes. Even if we can have a little result, I will never do so.

I turned on the phone and replied: I don't want to see you.

A few seconds later, the phone came in with a message: I want to see you now, come out to see me.

After 1 minute, it jumped into the message again: I will go to your place now, you wait for me.

I threw the phone aside, sat on the bed against the wall, hugged my knees with my hands, and buried my face deeply in my arms.

Why do you force me like this? I have tried my best to convince myself to reject you again and again. Liu Shu, why do you want to do this? Do you know that if you continue like this, I will not be able to control myself, and we will all be lost.

Half an hour later, the scary mobile phone message rings again, with a light tap of a fingertip, it opens instantly: I am outside the gate, you come out to see me.

My fingertips trembled and I closed my eyes without responding.

After another 10 minutes, the message came in again: Yingying, come out, I'll wait for you at the door.

My fingers unconsciously gripped my calf, and there was a slight pain from the nails digging into the skin.

I kept persuading myself: Lin Ying, don't respond to her, she will leave by herself after a while, so don't respond to her.

However, half an hour later, the screen of the mobile phone lit up again: Yingying, please, come out and see me.

I pressed a few words with trembling fingers: you go back, I don't want to see you.

Liu Shu replied: I must see you today. No matter what, I won't leave until I see you. I will do what I say.

For the first time, I felt the legendary, heartache that I couldn't breathe, and the nails dug deeply into the depths of my skin, and there was a sharp pain.

I, who was always afraid of pain, discovered that the pain on my skin was not worth one ten-thousandth of the pain on the apex of my heart.

The more the calf hurts, the less pain I feel in my heart.

I closed my eyes and leaned against the wall, feeling like I was falling into an abyss.

I convinced myself to hold on to this last rejection, maybe from now on, she would quit.

One text message would come in about ten minutes later, and I opened one message after another with trembling fingertips.

: Yingying, I'm sorry, please, see me.

: I beg you, see me.

: Yingying, I beg you, let me see you.

: Yingying, I miss you so much.

......

Time passed by my hands minute by minute, and I just sat there completely cold and motionless, with a big stone blocking my chest, and I couldn't breathe.

After eleven o'clock in the evening, the messages finally stopped and no more messages came in.

I fell on the edge of the bed as if I lost all strength. I didn't cry, not a single tear, but I felt that my heart was so painful that I lost consciousness.

My heart seemed to be dug away by someone, and my heart was empty and wet.

I said to myself: Lin Ying, you lost her, you finally lost her, if there will be punishment in the future, it is the retribution you deserve.

I silently leaned against the corner of the bed, motionless, time seemed to stand still forever, and my whole body was cold.

About ten minutes later, I suddenly heard a small voice coming from the wall beside the bed.

"Yingying, are you in there? I know that your bed is against this wall, and there is a window above it. You can definitely hear me talking here."

I suspected that I had hallucinated, I sat upright, looked around, there was really no sound, only a little wind came from the gap left by the window above the head of the bed.

I moved my position towards the wall at the head of the bed again, leaned my head against it, and sure enough, I heard a small sound.

"Yingying, come out and see me, I promise, I will go back to sleep immediately after seeing you, and I will never disturb you."

"I've been talking here, and when your relatives hear it later, it's hard for you to explain. Come out and see me, Yingying, I beg you."

I laughed like self-deprecating: It's all like this, and you still don't forget to threaten me.

"Yingying, I beg you."

"Yingying, just come out and meet me, Yingying."

"Yingying."

"Yingying."

......

With my eyes closed, I kept leaning against the wall in a dull manner, listening to Liu Shu on the other side of the wall calling my name softly, each sound more helpless and pleading than the last.

A sound spread into my heart, pierced my heart, dripping with blood.

When it was early morning, I was still leaning against the wall with my eyes closed and motionless, letting the blood in my heart flow freely, drowning me.

Liu Shu outside did not leave either, but sat directly on the ground leaning against the wall, murmuring the word Yingying from time to time.

It's just a wall, but I can't, I've pushed myself here, I can't, I won't give up.

She is so good to you, you must not give up, if you give up now, one day in the future, she will blame you hysterically for ruining her life.

I seem to have fallen asleep, but my consciousness is awake again, and I can hear the calls clearly.

Until another voice appeared, "Hey, little girl, why are you here so early? It's only six in the morning. What are you doing here?"

Liu Shu's pretending relaxed voice came into my mind: "It's only six o'clock in the morning, I thought it was late, I just passed here..."

I didn't finish listening to what Liu Shu said later. I suddenly opened my eyes and picked up the phone. The screen of the phone suddenly showed that it was six o'clock in the morning.

I sat up in a panic and was about to get out of bed, but the calves of both feet were already numb, and the side against the wall was already stiff, and I hadn't moved all night.

I stumbled and stood up against the wall, rubbed my unconscious calf vigorously, and beat my paralyzed body.

After a while, I felt my body regain a little consciousness.

I immediately held on to the door frame, put on my shoes in a panic, and staggered towards the door.

I walked to the gate, took a deep breath, managed to calm down, and walked out of the alley like I usually walk.

I knew that if Liu Shu wanted to leave, he had to turn around the wall at the back and walk back to this alley, and then go out from this alley to reach the road outside.

Sure enough, at the alley where I was going to turn, I saw Liu Shu walking from there with his head down.

I saw that her hair was a little wet and sticking together one by one, only to find that the ground was also full of water stains, some places had dried up, leaving a little light color imprint, and there were some depressions. The sewage is not dried.

It turned out that there was a thin drizzle in the morning, but she didn't hide, she was still sitting on the ground outside the wall and calling my name.

I think of that heart-wrenching picture, my heart feels like being torn apart, the pain makes me feel like I'm going to die soon.

My feet also began to tremble, and I couldn't take a step. I could only watch her approaching me step by step.

Liu Shu approached for a short distance, and then found that I was standing at the corner of the alley looking at her.

She approached me slowly, with a feeble smile on her face, the corners of her mouth clearly pulled.

"Yingying, you finally appeared. You are so cruel. I waited outside all night, but you didn't come out. You listened to me calling you one after another. Wouldn't your heart ache? You Why is my heart so cruel?"

As she spoke, she took a small step towards me. My heels were numb and I didn't move. My fingernails made a deep impression on the palm of my hand.

I didn't speak, and listened quietly to her soft words casually, but those sentences were as sharp as a knife.

She continued in a weary tone: "I don't mean to blame you. I'm already very happy that you came out, but I'm really sad. Why are you so cruel to me?"

After a pause, he continued: "I'm a little tired, so I'm going back first. This is for you. It's what I've always wanted to give you. If you don't want my photos, just throw them away. Also, there are some The letter you wrote to me before will also be returned to you."

I took a small paper bag in her hand, held it in my hand, watched her turn and walk past me, and then walked slowly towards the entrance of the alley.

My eyes hurt, but still no tears came out. I think I am such a hard-hearted person, and no one can impress me.

Looking at her back, I opened my mouth and found that my throat hurt so bad that I couldn't make a sound at all.

My calf is still weak and I can't walk at all.

It wasn't until her figure was far away that I limped and supported the wall next to me and took two steps back. My legs were still sore, so I had to lean against the wall and look at the direction she was leaving. The pain in my heart was getting worse. It's a little hard to breathe.

After I coughed hard several times, the pain in my throat lessened and I started to make a sound. I walked towards the door step by step while leaning on the wall.

A small voice in my heart said to me: Lin Ying, you finally lost her.

The author has something to say: Thank you for watching, and Liu Shu's self-narration will be more exciting in the next section.Candies in glass slag, please enjoy slowly.