The accident in my life is only you

I was speechless and could only take another step back.

"Are you really so cruel? Are we still friends?"

"I...sorry...sorry, we are...friends."

I faltered and said in a low voice: "I was planning to call you, but I thought it would be inconvenient to answer the phone if you were hospitalized, and I wanted to send you a message later, but I was afraid of disturbing you, so I just... ..not posted."

"Really? Do you really want to send me a message?" Liu Shu took another step towards me excitedly while talking.

My feet trembled suddenly, I hugged the book in my arms and quickly took two steps back to lean against the wall.

Liu Shu didn't notice my embarrassment at all, and took another step forward, pressing his hand on the wall beside me, and the surrounding air suddenly tightened and condensed.

"Yingying, why do you always avoid me? Every time you see me, you just smile and say hello and don't say anything else to me."

I shyly moved to the other side, "Well... I... definitely just say hello. I often meet people who have so much to say. Isn't it embarrassing not to say hello? Let me tell you What? Besides, everyone is so busy."

"So you just avoid me? You look like a fool when you see me."

Liu Shu then said in a disappointed tone: "If you sent me a message at that time, I would be very happy to see it, maybe it will get better soon, and it won't take so long. Tell me, what am I going to do? You will take care of me."

Liu Shu quickly noticed my moving posture, "Where are you going? I'm talking to you, why are you moving over there?"

I found that my throat was a little dry, and I stammered, "You, don't come here, there will be a lot of people coming to school later, it will be very strange to see us talking here, I, I want Go back to the dormitory to get a book, I'm leaving first."

I bypassed her and ran down the stairs quickly, while holding on to the handrail of the stairs, I accelerated my pace and ran down quickly.

After running down the floor, I heard the sound of footsteps going up above, and I breathed a sigh of relief.

Only then did I realize that my back was slightly cold, and it turned out that some sweat had just leaked out from nervousness.

Holding on to the wall of the classroom on the first floor, he managed to calm down, and then returned to the dormitory.

In the days that followed, some snacks still appeared in my drawer from time to time. I covered those hot snacks with one homework after another, for fear that others would discover the secret of the gradual expansion of each lollipop.

I began to regret the answer I gave her on the stairs that day. Why didn't I just reject her directly, saying that we would not be friends in the future.

I secretly annoyed myself: Why did you answer that you were a friend? You clearly promised yourself to bypass her, and without any response, let everything go back to the original way, back to before I saw her play badminton for the first time.

After that, no matter which stairs I took, I would always meet Liu Shu. She seemed to forget the harsh words I said to her before.

She saw me from a distance, sometimes she would stand and smile and wave to me, and sometimes she would touch my clothes with her hands and call my name when I passed by.

And all I can do is keep smiling or act like I didn't see it, just like she said idiot.

My heart was covered with scars, and the hand that I sometimes couldn't help reaching out to her was cut off.

In the public, no matter how she as a girl gets close to me as another girl, she will not attract strange eyes.

In the eyes of others, we are friends, very good friends.

But in my heart, she doesn't know when, she is no longer as simple as a friend, and a word from her can cause waves in my heart.

I was afraid that she had seen through the fact that I knew her secret in my heart, but I was also afraid that maybe she was not in love with me, and I put this dirty thought on her.

I am even more afraid of being discovered by her in the deepest part of my heart, that trace of strange emotion that is about to be extinguished by me.

Every day, I think about how to stay away from her step by step, and how to escape her little by little.

But Liu Shu pressed her every step of the way. When I took a step back, she would take a step forward. The more frequently she appeared in front of my eyes.

I hated this kind of myself helplessly, and heavily suppressed the imperceptible joy in my heart when I saw Liu Shu. This feeling seemed to drive me crazy.My sky is no longer bright, gradually becoming gray.

"Liu Shu didn't come to see you today. I thought she would. She has a thick skin, and she runs a lot recently." Lin Chun looked at me and said with a smile.

"Nonsense, why does she have to come to me, and I'm not hers. What you said, are you my friend or her friend?"

Lin Chun said disdainfully: "It's as if you haven't seen Liu Shu for a long time. You are in the science class. If Liu Shu is not in the science class during recess or lunch break, her people can't wait to sit next to you in class together. "

My cheeks were slightly hot, but I still tried my best to cover it up. I rolled my eyes at Lin Chun and said, "You're talking nonsense again. Why does she come to me every day? What are you looking for? I'm annoyed."

"Isn't it just because you are annoying, so my role as a friend can be reflected."

Lin Chun paused, then continued casually: "Liu Shu gave me a prickly pear a few days ago, and asked me to help her take care of it so that it doesn't die."

I concealed the sour taste in my heart, "Why did I give you a prickly pear, she can also grow prickly pears, tsk tsk, I can't tell."

Lin Chun didn't answer, just took a step towards me, looked at me and smiled ambiguously.

I got goosebumps when she looked at me, "Lin Chun, what is your expression, why are you looking at me like that?"

"Then let me tell you a secret, don't say you know it, or Liu Shu will kill me."

I disdainfully said: "You like to talk or not, hum."

"Actually, Liu Shu originally wanted to give you this prickly prickly pear, but she didn't dare to give it away because she was afraid you wouldn't want it. Later, she asked me to help her raise it."

"She didn't mention it to me either. Besides, how did she know so well that I wouldn't want it?"

"Which thing did she offer you that you didn't refuse?"

Lin Chun paused, with a soft voice, "You are actually very important in her heart, really Yingying, I didn't lie to you."

Seeing that I didn't speak, Lin Chun continued, "She told me before that one time when you left school at noon, she wanted to go up and talk to you, but she was afraid that you would ignore her, so she followed you all the way and watched you go When you look at pens in a stationery store, she looks at you at the door, and after you leave, she goes in and buys the pen you looked at."

"Later, she followed you all the way to the bookstore and watched you flip through a few magazines at the door. After you left, she went in and bought the magazine you read the longest, and finally followed you all the way back to school."

"She originally wanted to give you that magazine, but she didn't have the courage. In the end, she bought you a lollipop and secretly put it in your drawer when you went back to the dormitory to pick up things at noon."

"Yingying, you see that she wants to be friends with you so sincerely, why do you always treat her like this?"

After listening to what Lin Chun said, I felt a little dull and trembling with pain in my heart.

I closed my eyes slightly, afraid that Lin Chun would see the emotion in my eyes.

Liu Shu, why do you do this, I don't deserve you.

I sighed lightly, and replied indifferently: "Lin Chun, I can't."

"Can't what?"

"Anyway, you'll understand one day."

The winter vacation passed by in a flash, and the students in the third year of high school didn't have a few days of winter vacation, and almost all of them were spent in tutoring.

School starts in a blink of an eye, and spring is here.

When I signed up on the first day of school, I was going to report to the class, and the information came in from my mobile phone, so I stood on the playground and looked at the information on my mobile phone.

As soon as I turned around, I saw Liu Shu walking towards me not far away in the crowd. I wanted to leave, but I felt that if I turned around suddenly and left, Liu Shu would definitely call my name, and other students would find out the relationship between me and her. different.

So I pretended I didn't see her, didn't leave, and started talking to the classmate next to me.

Liu Shu walked up to me, smiled and said, "Yingying, you came to report so early?"

"Ah."

"Have you ever been to class?"

"No."

"Have you changed dormitories this year?"

"No."

"Then you still live there, right?"

"Ah."

No matter what she asked, I answered as briefly as possible so that she could understand my deliberate alienation.

But she ignored my indifferent tone and still asked tirelessly.

"Then..." She was about to ask something more, but before she could say anything, she heard Chen Jing calling her from a distance, probably to tell her to report to the class together.

"I'll come right away!" She shouted towards Chen Jing.

Then she turned her head and said to me, "Yingying, then I'll be leaving first."

I was expressionless and didn't answer her, but she didn't care, so she turned around to look for Chen Jing with a smile.

I stood where I was, looking at her back for a long time, my heart was itchy and painful as if it had been scraped by a blade.

One month has passed since the beginning of school, during this period, Liu Shu will still ask me to borrow books, but the frequency is less than before.

Sometimes I borrow it by myself, and sometimes I ask Chen Jing or Lin Chun to borrow it from me, but I know that it will actually end up in her hands.

Because every time the book comes back, there will be something extra, such as an extra sentence in the book, or a sad quote on a certain page, or an extra page with some lyrics on it.

It is completely a trick that has been used before, but this time the content is mostly sad content, without some warm words.

Those words crossed my heart, leaving a little bit of waves, which never let go.

After a long time, I gradually got used to her harassment of me.

The fire that was so hard to extinguish in the depths of my heart seemed to be ignited again, and I started not to suppress it hard, and let myself go.

I always believe that as long as I don't respond to her and I continue to treat her indifferently, one day she will get tired of my rejection and turn around and leave.

And me, even if the spark in my heart turns into a flame, I can suppress it again and let it become my own secret.

The author has something to say: Thank you for watching, Lin Ying will be kissed forcibly in the next section.