The accident in my life is only you

Chen Jing patted my shoulder, "Liu Shu is back, so I'll go in first. Remember to return the book, I'll use it this afternoon."

I didn't answer in a daze, my eyes looked in Liu Shu's direction, and the fear in my heart deepened little by little.

Liu Shu ran up to me, grabbed my fingers, her face was a little flushed, maybe it was a little hot from running all the way, after she stopped, she took a deep breath.

"Yingying, you came to see me? You rarely come down, what's the matter?"

I looked at her joyful expression, as if she was revealing some kind of information, I leaned on the wall with one hand and involuntarily took a small step back, and pulled out the other hand that was held by her, my chest became tighter and panicked, "No , It's okay, I just came to borrow a book, Chen Jing already lent it to me just now, so I'll go up first."

"Yingying, hey, I just came back."

I pretended I didn't hear her calling me, took another two steps back, turned hastily and ran towards the stairs not far away.

My heart twitched more and more, maybe I was a little anxious to run, but the words Chen Jing said to me kept echoing in my heart.

I thought of the joyful expression on her face when she looked at me, her heart was overwhelmed, and a tsunami of panic flooded my thoughts.

Although I have never rejected her kindness to me, I resisted and rejoiced when she approached me, but because she is a girl, I never thought about the reason behind it.

Thinking about it now, everything seems abnormal, just like what Chen Jing said, everything between us seems to have exceeded the original scale.

The scenes of us being together once flashed in my mind, the eyes like stars, the reddish side face under the fireworks, the soft tone when he said that he received my love letter, and the smile at me at that time.

Is she different to me too?Treating someone well like this without sparing any effort, thinking about her all the time, is this a liking?Is it even love?

what about me?Am I in love with Liu Shu too?I thought of my slightly sore heart that time in the dormitory, and the deep sense of loss suppressed in my heart at the door of the laboratory.

A tidal wave of panic rushed towards me, and my heart was in a mess.

The thought that made me despair was repeated in my heart. I turned out to be in love with Liu Shu...

Is this feeling like liking?When I wanted to alienate her, deep down in my heart I wanted to get closer to her, a little closer.

When I don't want to miss her, her smile can't help appearing in my mind, and when I think of her, I feel a little joy for no reason.

Is this really like?I never seem to feel this way about anyone, gosh I must be crazy.

Suddenly, my brain has a strong will to stop my thoughts: no no no!I don't!I'm not!That's right, she didn't fall in love with me, and neither did she, we are good friends, friends, yes!We are friends, we are best friends!

I resisted this suffocating thought in my heart, and kept comforting my beating heart.

During class, I always listened and then lost my mind. The scenes in my head came back again, and I remembered the way she looked at me just now, I remembered the fireworks that night, and I remembered her calling my name one after another in my ear.

I seemed to have fallen into a quagmire, sinking continuously, and the dirty mud was about to cover my face, and my whole body was cold.

Finally, when get out of class was over, I packed my things and walked outside the school.

Come to the Internet cafe where we surfed the Internet together before, find the corner of the computer and sit down in front of the computer.

After I looked around and made sure I didn't know anyone, I turned on the computer, opened the browser, entered those three words, and clicked search.

The content of the full screen was squeezed into my eyes, and my heart was beating hard.

I opened the first one and saw a story where they ended up scarring each other, family members and friends because of falling in love.

I opened the second article and saw another story. They became aliens in the eyes of others, became talking points in others' mouths, and finally lost their reputations.

I opened the third article, and saw another story. Their friends and family members left one by one. They became perverts in others' mouths, but they didn't get together in the end. They each became a stain in each other's life. They... ...

I remembered that I also liked a certain handsome boy, I also admired a certain schoolboy, and even among the stars I liked, boys accounted for the majority.

I vaguely remember that feeling, that is the normal liking!

right!The feeling of admiration is liking, the so-called love.

I opened one by one, my chest seemed to be blocked by a big stone, I couldn't breathe, my hands were shaking uncontrollably.

It's a genetic?No no, it may change the day after tomorrow. Have I fallen in love with her?

no no!Lin Ying, you have to control your thoughts, you can't think like this, you are just friends, right!Just friends, be friends.

No! ...... Lin Ying, Lin Ying, wake up, you can't get close to her anymore, this is just an accident, you have to adjust your mentality, otherwise you will become a stain in her life, and one day she will Hate you, you will ruin the lives of both of you.

I just opened one after another until the payment time of the computer arrived, and the computer screen suddenly turned off automatically, and then went black.

I leaned on the table and stood up tremblingly, only to find that my calf was a little numb. My heart was desolate, and I couldn't feel any warmth.

I looked at the darkened sky outside, wanting to cry without tears.

Then he walked out of the Internet cafe and walked towards the school step by step with difficulty.

On the second day, I changed the route to the class, walked around the playground in a big circle, walked from one end of the classroom on the first floor to the other end of the classroom, and then went up the stairs in the corner to the classroom, successfully bypassing all Liu Shu's possible appearances. The place.

I used to rarely go that way because it was far from my classroom and the way to my dormitory.

I had to walk across the entire playground and through all the corridors on the first floor to get to this stairway.

As soon as the bell rang in the middle of the class, I tidied up my desktop and ran down the stairs as fast as I could, lest Liu Shu would see me from another corridor.

After going down a few steps, slow down and go down. After reaching the first floor, walk from the corridor on this side to the corridor on the other side, and then walk back to the classroom. It is almost time for class.

After several days of repeating this, I did not meet Liu Shu again. The stone in my heart finally fell slowly, and the depression inside slowly dissipated.

The last class of this morning, I counted the time, and it was almost time for the bell to ring for class.

There were hardly any students near the stairs, so I slowly climbed up the stairs with small steps.

Climb to the last stairway, turn around and you can see the classroom corridor. I saw Liu Shu standing at the intersection of two corridors and looking at the stairway I was going up.

As soon as I turned a corner and stepped up a step, Liu Shu walked towards me.

I watched her walk down the stairs step by step, getting closer and closer to me, and a trembling voice in my heart said: Don't get close to her, don't get close to her...

I took a step back involuntarily, like a child who has been caught making a mistake, nervous and frightened.

When Liu Shu saw my foot that had taken off the steps, he suddenly accelerated and ran towards me.

"Where have you been, Yingying? I haven't seen you for several days. What's the rush? I run downstairs every day after class." While talking, she moved her face closer to me.

At this moment, my head was in a mess, I didn't know whether to laugh or what expression to put on, so I had to answer indiscriminately.

"It's okay, I'm just going to the toilet, and I'm in my third year of high school, so I feel a little stressed." I pretended to be calm and said a complete sentence, and quietly moved back a little.

"Are you looking for Yang Han? I haven't seen you for several times. I put a lollipop in your drawer, have you seen it?"

jingle jingle jingle jingle....The bell rang suddenly, and I seemed to see a life-saving straw.

"Liu Shu, go back to class quickly, the bell is ringing, you will be late." I was anxiously preparing to go around her and run to the class while talking.

Liu Shu stretched out his hand to stop me, "I won't let you go if you don't answer, so what if you're late."

"Liu Shu, stop making trouble." I was anxious and annoyed to push her away, but she was so powerful that she pushed me back, and the back of my head hit the landline on the wall.

I covered the back of my head in pain and lowered my head, only to hit her head directly again.

The two yelled in unison: "Oh, it hurts so much."

I concealed my flustered expression, and pretended to look at her angrily: "Oh, Liu Shu, you have something wrong, it hurts so much. I won't tell you anymore, I'm really mad at you."

I didn't dare to look at her, so I quickly climbed up the stairs without Liu Shu clutching her forehead, and ran directly into the classroom.

During the lunch break at noon, I deliberately went to class half an hour late, and I still saw Liu Shu at the intersection of the corridor at the door of the classroom.

She was talking to a few classmates in our class, pretending to see me by accident, and didn't look back.

I didn't dare to look at her, and slowly approached her with my head down, my steps getting slower and slower, ready to walk past her silently.

As soon as she walked behind her, she heard her say to several other students: "Okay, let's not talk about it, I left a pen with Lin Ying last time, I'll go get it."

"Isn't Lin Ying behind you? Just walked over."

"Yeah, it's because I saw her that I remembered that the pen I had last time was still with her."

She turned around and followed me into the classroom, sat next to my seat and looked at me with a half-smile. My heart beat faster and faster, and the side of my body that was close to her gradually became stiff.

I took a deep breath, trying to stabilize my mood, then turned my head and pretended to be careless and said: "When did you have a pen with me, talk nonsense."

"That's right, I'm talking nonsense, you just know it, and you don't need to explain."

I let go of my fingertips that were tightly pinching my palms, and prepared to talk to Liu Shu, "Liu Shu, let's go outside the corridor, it's too hot here."

As I spoke, I stood up and walked outside the classroom, and chose a place where no one was there to stand. Liu Shu followed me out of the classroom, and stood beside me, staring at me intently.

"What are you looking at me for? Don't you want to go to class every day? Why do you keep coming to me? The college entrance examination is less than a year away. Is your liberal arts so easy? Come to me less in the future, and be good." Study and improve every day." I deliberately gave her a firm expression.

Seeing me like this, Liu Shu was stunned, and suddenly laughed out loud, "Yingying, are you bewitched? Why study hard and make progress every day. You are not stinky, and whoever comes to you, I know you in your class, by the way Looking for you, did you know by the way?"

I looked at her nonchalant look, and I was suddenly annoyed.

"Anyway, you will come to me less in the future. Don't laugh, I'm serious. The college entrance examination is coming, and I don't have time to chat with you."

Liu Shu looked at my gradually serious expression, and gradually stopped laughing. He lowered his head and replied in a low voice: "Got it."

The author has something to say: Thank you for watching, and Liu Shu will be abused next time.If you have any questions, please leave a message.