The accident in my life is only you

While I was thinking about these things intermittently in my mind, the barbecue Liu Shu ordered was quickly brought to the table.

Liu Shu got up and took out a bottle of Coke from the boss's freezer, and also brought me a bottle of fresh orange juice, then took apart a pair of chopsticks and put them in front of me, and then took apart a pair of chopsticks and grabbed them in front of me. hands.

Her movements were natural, without embarrassment, and even the fresh orange juice that was handed over was a bottle cap that had been unscrewed.

Maybe it was because of the cover of food, Liu Shu began to talk slowly, and spoke more.

"Yingying, have you ever eaten this dish? It tastes like barbecue."

I smiled, and answered honestly, "Don't underestimate me, I've eaten it, and I know it's leeks, and I'm not a child."

Liu Shu was amused by my words. After laughing for a while, he pointed to another thing with his chopsticks, "Then have you ever eaten this barbecue-flavored eggplant? I remember that you hardly eat barbecue?"

Yes, in the past, I did not eat it, but in the days and nights you don’t know, I also carefully tasted the tastes you tasted, and made up for them as regrets.

"I ate it last summer." I smiled calmly.

Liu Shu seemed unwilling to be defeated like this, and pointed to other foods to joke with me, and then slowly said.

This time she didn't ask me, but treated me like a child, broke down the food that I had never eaten easily before, told me one by one, and then put it on the plate in front of me.

She may think that I am still the same Lin Ying who was shrunk in her own little world, naive and ignorant of the world.

Or maybe she thought that I was still the Lin Ying who would stand behind her and wait idly and had no choice but to be simple and stupid.

But in the countless days and months without her, Lin Ying has gradually cultivated a tenacious and firm heart, and even accumulated enough disappointment and grievances, ready to accept her departure at any time.

I didn't break through the illusion she created for myself, and even showed her acting skills, smiling from time to time, being polite and distant from time to time.

We chatted one after another like this, and my tense nerves slowly relaxed like this. As time went by, the atmosphere between us finally eased down.

After a while, the food on the plate was swept away by us.

Seeing that the time was getting later and later, there were no pedestrians on the street, and the boss might close soon, so I had to stand up and prepare to go up to pay, but Liu Shu grabbed the money in front of me and handed over the money to boss.

When the boss gave Liu Shu the change, I realized that there were only a few tens of yuan in my wallet. Then I remembered that I was running out of time just now, and I didn’t think to check the cash in the wallet. Usually, there is a cafeteria in the factory. When you swipe your card with a small shop, you don’t have much time to use cash, so you seldom carry cash with you.

I had no choice but to sneak my wallet back into my bag, praying that there would be no place to spend a lot of money later.

Liu Shu collected the change, walked out of the barbecue booth, and stood looking in the direction of the gate of our factory, "Is this your factory? It's quite big."

I stood behind Liu Shu and said casually: "Yes, there are three or four buildings behind this building, and there are dormitories in the last row, and there..."

"What time is it?" Liu Shu interrupted my eloquent introduction, and suddenly asked a sentence that had nothing to do with the topic just now.

I was stunned and didn't react for a moment, but I still took out the mobile phone in my bag and took a look, "It's almost ten o'clock."

After a pause, I remembered to start thinking about where Liu Shu was going tonight, "It's so late, where are you going? I guess there is no car."

Liu Shu turned around suddenly, with a slight aggrieved expression, and said with a sense of loss: "Yes, it's so late, there is no car to go back now."

My head was still a little confused, and I didn't turn the corner. I didn't doubt Liu Shu's meaning, "What should I do? Are you going to sleep in my dormitory? There are four roommates in my dormitory. I Can......."

"Is there a hotel near here?" Liu Shu once again planned my solo fantasy.

"Yes, that's right, look there." I turned and pointed to the roof not far behind me, where there was a brightly lit signboard saying something about the hotel.

After Liu Shu saw the sign, her expression didn't change much, as if she had seen the light sign a long time ago, and knew that there would be a hotel that turned out to be in that place, she looked in that direction and said: "Oh, I saw it, indeed It's a hotel, let's go."

After Liu Shu finished speaking, he took the lead and walked towards the hotel.

let's go then

Is that she walking alone?Or shall we go together?

I was entangled in these unanswered questions, and my mind was even more chaotic than when I was going to pick her up at the stop sign. I didn't know whether I should stay in the hotel with Liu Shu at this time, or choose to return to the dormitory.

When I hadn't figured out the problem in my mind, the two of us had already arrived at the door of the hotel. Without hesitation, Liu Shu took a few steps forward, pushed open the glass door and walked in.

I followed her not far away, looked at the big shiny characters at the door, and finally made a final decision in my mind, no matter what happens today, I can't leave her alone like this strange place.

I gritted my teeth, still pretending to be calm, and followed in.

When I opened the door and entered, Liu Shu had already walked to the front desk and was asking about the price of the room.

And because of my lack of money, I didn't get too close to the front desk. Of course, I also knew that Liu Shu would not ask me to pay for the room, it was just my own intentions.

But when I thought about being alone in the room with Liu Shu next, my whole head became a little dull.

I just watched Liu Shu pay in a daze, picked up the room card, and walked in front first, then I foolishly followed Liu Shu into the elevator, and walked into the hotel room together.

My memory started to come and go, until I sat on the bed in the hotel and couldn't remember how I just got up in the room.

After opening the door, the soothing relationship we had built up by eating barbecue together seemed to be losing bit by bit, and the atmosphere gradually became condensed and restrained.

Liu Shu's gaze also seemed to be slightly dodged, she put her bag on the sofa in the room, coughed lightly, and said softly: "Then I, go wash up first, you, why don't you watch TV first?" .”

"Well, good." My voice was still a little unnatural under my forced composure, and the tension in my heart slowly crawled out.

Liu Shu heard my answer, and quickly dodged into the bathroom, as if I would eat her behind me.

But at this time, although I was a little nervous, I didn't actually have too many thoughts about taking the initiative.

Of course, I pushed open the door of the hotel not long ago and chose to stay with Liu Shu, so I knew something might happen tonight.

And when I was mentally prepared, walked into this room, and sat on this bed where a story might happen, I surprisingly didn't have much expectation in my heart, and even the elements of joy were hardly noticeable.

I have already understood in my heart that the past is still the past after all. Even though something may happen to us tonight, it cannot save this already riddled relationship.

This relationship may only ease our previous stalemate relationship, but it does not mean that the countless wounds that have been torn apart will be repaired overnight.

The ending is already doomed, and these struggles are just adding some twists and turns to the process.

Liu Shu soon came out wearing the slippers in the hotel. She didn't take a bath or change clothes, but just washed her cheeks, hands and feet slightly, but her whole body was bright and gentle.

Through her, I saw Liu Shu from six years ago, sincere and warm, walking towards me with a smile.

I also raised the corners of my mouth and gave her a gentle smile, as if traveling through time, giving my smile to Liu Shu who once filled Lin Ying with his whole heart.

Then I stood up, put my bag and her bag together, put them on the small sofa next to me, and got up to go to the bathroom.

I only washed my cheeks, hands and feet in the bathroom. After cleaning up, I stood in front of the mirror, looked at the strange self in the mirror, and smiled slightly at the corner of my mouth.

Lin Ying, you gave me the opportunity, it's been six years, otherwise, forget it, there will be no more results.

Yes, Yingying, forget it.

forget it.

......

When I came out of the bathroom, I didn't expect that Liu Shu was already sitting on the bed, pressing the buttons on the phone with his head down, with a soft and indifferent expression.

She heard the sound of me coming out of the bathroom, she just raised her head and smiled at me, then lowered her head and continued to play with her phone.

In order to hide my embarrassment, I had no choice but to go to the other side of the bed, quietly lifted the quilt, and sat on this side of the bed, with a distance of more than half a meter between Liu Shu and Liu Shu.

I only sat there for a while, not knowing what kind of expression I should face Liu Shu, so I simply pulled off the quilt, lay the whole body under the quilt, turned my back to her, and turned sideways outward.

When I was just about to lie down under the covers, Liu Shu turned off the phone in my hand and was about to put it on the bedside table, but when she put the phone away and turned to look at me, I was already lying down with my back to her.

She seemed to be stunned for a moment, then reached out and turned off most of the lights in the room, leaving only the small light at the entrance and the faint light in the toilet.

After these lights were turned off, the whole room suddenly darkened, and the tension that had just calmed down in my heart secretly increased a little, and my back gradually began to stiffen.

But in order to hide my nervousness and embarrassment at this time, I had no choice but to lie sideways in the bed and dare not move.

After turning off the lights, Liu Shu seemed to sit on the bed for another half a moment, and then I felt the sound of the quilt being lifted behind me, and heard the sound of her moving her body down.

Afterwards, Liu Shu didn't make any noise. For a long time, I thought Liu Shu had fallen asleep, and then I heard Liu Shu turning her body behind her. She seemed to be lying flat and pulled up the quilt on her body. , as if she had been lying on her side before.

It was a long, long time again, this time Liu Shu really didn't make any sound, not even the sound of long sleep breathing.

An indescribable emotion overflowed in my heart, whether it was disappointment, grievance or happiness, I will not explore it anymore.

In a daze, he seemed to be asleep, but he didn't seem to be asleep. When he opened his eyes again to look at the sunlight leaking in from the curtains, the time displayed on the phone was already seven o'clock in the morning.

I was still lying on my side, most of my back had become stiff and unconscious.

It wasn't until Liu Shu behind me sat up, lifted the quilt, put on her slippers, and walked towards the bathroom, that I turned around with difficulty and looked at the shadow on the ground reflected by the light in the bathroom through Liu Shu.

At that moment, my heart didn't feel too much sorrow and despair, and there wasn't even much turbulence in my heart, as if all creatures in this world had lost their vitality and all the lights had disappeared, like a pool of stagnant water.

Like a divorced couple, in the early morning when they parted ways, they gave each other the last slightly warm gaze, and what flowed in that gaze was the end of all the love they once had.

It is saying, that person, I once loved.

I counted the time for Liu Shu to wash, and when she was about to walk out of the bathroom, I put on my slippers, walked to the door of the bathroom, met her eyes, smiled at Liu Shu who had just raised her eyes, and walked past her.

When we walked out of the hotel together, the sun was already high outside, and the sun was exceptionally warm.

But when I looked at everything that was alive and well outside, I had the illusion of being born again.

In the end, I didn't say goodbye to Liu Shu, but walked to the gate of the factory with her, smiled at her calmly, waved my hand, turned and walked into the factory.

After that, I never contacted Liu Shu again, and Liu Shu also never contacted me again. We finally ran towards our respective directions like two parallel lines that did not intersect.

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