The accident in my life is only you

She looked at us, and finally said nothing, but went to the balcony to answer the phone again.

After her mother walked out of the dormitory, I looked up, relieved.

Liu Shu turned to look at me, and said softly: "She is like this, she talks a lot, don't worry, you are fine."

I looked back at Liu Shu sideways, opened the corners of my mouth a little, forced a smile, and secretly smiled bitterly in my heart: How can I be fine, you sit next to me peacefully, watching my getting lower and lower The head, the increasingly stiff body, just asked me if I was okay?

I struggled to pull the corners of my mouth wider to make this smile look more natural, and to cover up the bleeding wound in my heart.

Then I stood up and prepared to leave Liu Shu's dormitory, this place that filled me with depression, because originally I just wanted to see her enrollment today, and I didn't think about staying for a long time, but I didn't know that so many things would happen.

And now I seem to be the source of bad Liu Shu, it is not appropriate to stay in this kind of occasion and become a thorn in the side of others.

I just took a small step, but Liu Shu grabbed my bag and couldn't move. She looked at me earnestly, and whispered anxiously, "Yingying, where are you going?"

"I, I'm leaving, you should have nothing here that needs me"

Liu Shu didn't let go of the hand holding the bag, but turned to look at the balcony, leaned closer to me and said, "Don't go, my mother will leave later, and go back to her hometown, she will be clean after she leaves .”

I originally wanted to refuse, but seeing Liu Shu's hand holding my bag tightly, I still nodded unconsciously with a soft heart.

I sat on the dining chair in the cafeteria downstairs and waited for more than an hour before I saw Liu Shu and her mother walking down the stairs from the other side, arm in arm and smiling.

Liu Shu glanced at me without any lingering eyes, as if seeing a stranger, she swept it away and continued talking and laughing with her mother.

And the moment her mother saw me, her face darkened instantly, and she said loudly as she walked: "Don't make trouble for me next time, study hard, do you hear me, don't play with those messy people, give me I concentrate on reading."

I lowered my head, pretending I didn't hear those sharp words, my heart was full of grievance and loss, I didn't even dare to turn my head to look at Liu Shu, only to hear Liu Shu, who was drifting away, replied with a flattering smile: "I know, I know , I must study hard.”

The chatting and laughing of the two gradually faded away, until I could no longer hear the sound, I slowly raised my head, and turned to look at the direction Liu Shu left.

There was no one in that direction, but there was a desolation in my heart, which gradually spread out, as if something important in my heart had been dug away in vain, leaving an empty hole with a cold wind.

And what makes me even more sad is that I know that the vital thing I have lost, she will never come back, will not look back at me.

I stared blankly in that direction for a long time before I retracted my gaze and closed my eyes in despair.

I waited on the stool in the cafeteria for about 10 minutes before I saw Liu Shu trotting back from the outside.

She ran to my side and smiled, sat down next to me, and said happily: "My mother is finally gone, finally quiet, Yingying, are you okay?"

I forced myself to smile, let out a breath, and pretended to be relieved, "It's nothing, but your mother's voice is really scary."

Liu Shu looked at my overly frightened expression, paused for a moment, but suddenly burst out laughing in a hearty and cheerful voice.

Then he suppressed a little smile, rubbed my hair with his hands and said softly: "There is no way, it has to go through such a life, ugly daughter-in-law always wants to see her in-laws, don't you think so? Look, the wicked mother-in-law is me Mom like that."

When I heard the words she said, my heart trembled slightly.

My heart throbbed for no reason, and my heart palpitated endlessly. I admit that those words moved my heart so much, with an indescribable allure. It was desperately persuading me to hide those pasts and start from scratch.

But those wounded scars are still aching, reminding me that that place will never be able to heal perfectly, and one day it will still be torn open, and the blood that flows out is stronger than before.

While my thoughts were entangled and struggling, I quickly suppressed those unrealistic thoughts and pretended to be angry: "You don't know how to help me, but you know how to play tricks on me."

Liu Shu flicked my bangs with his hand, which was a familiar action in the past.

At the same time, she smiled briskly, and said gently and relieved as before: "Okay, don't be angry, let's go up to the dormitory, it's quiet now, and I don't need to listen to her nagging anymore."

Liu Shu got up first and walked towards the stairs, so I had no choice but to stand up, follow behind her, and climb up the stairs slowly.

At the corner of the stairs, I looked up at Liu Shu who was walking three or four steps in front of me. I remembered the thought of letting go when I was looking at the direction she was leaving, and suddenly felt an inexplicable feeling of reluctance. Emotions come.

Five years ago, she and I were at the same table, and she told Lin Yong in front of her that from now on, I will be the one she covers.

Four years ago, when we left the arts and science class, she said that in order to copy a good lyrics for me, she copied several sheets of paper.

Three years ago, she pressed me under her body. She said, if I can't make me love her in this life, then it's the same to hate her. She wants me to remember her forever.

Two years ago, she picked me up in the car and said she would take me home.

A year ago, she rushed out of the house, hugged me into her arms, and buried her face in the crook of my neck, she said, don't leave me.

But now, those cherished memories seem to have been faded by time, and the once strong nostalgia can no longer be tasted.

Those attachments she once had to me, I believe from beginning to end, that is true.

But now, with the passage of time and the appearance of Aning, those loves have become shallow and even no longer pure, which is also true.

Our ending may still not change, even though the love was once vigorous and deep like water, we will not be able to withstand the years and the test after all.

"Yingying, what are you thinking while standing there?" Liu Shu's voice pulled me back from my contemplation.

I raised my eyes to look at Liu Shu from a high place, she turned around and looked at me, against the light, standing in the breeze, as if stepping on time, as if she had never changed, she was still Liu Shu in high school , sincerely and warmly in love, stood in front of me, and told me that he wanted to elope with me.

But I know that time, after all, has inserted an irresolvable gap between us, which cannot be dissipated and cannot be forgiven.

I smiled and said nothing, but climbed up the steps and returned to the dormitory with her.

Finally, I helped her make the bed. I didn't pack up my things until the other roommates came back one after another, and went back to school alone.

Time passed by in a trance, and a week passed quickly. In the evening, I just came back from the cafeteria, and my phone vibrated for a while, and a familiar call popped out on the screen.

That is Lin He's phone number, which has not been changed for several years, and the number of times I have spoken to Lin He is actually very small, and most of them are on Koukou. I actually know the purpose of her call this time, it is nothing Hastily called.

Because another child in Yucheng is getting married, we have been notified of the engagement date as early as a month ago, but except for her and Lin He, the rest of us are all studying in school, so we did not promise that she will definitely get married. go.

"Xiaohe, what's the matter? Why call me when you have time?" I smiled and teased her.

Lin He over there laughed out loud when he heard my teasing, "Why are you talking like that, I can't call you if I have nothing to do."

"No, I'm joking, welcome to call, welcome to call."

After a pause, I spoke with a smile in my tone, "Then what do you want to tell me, little beauty?"

Lin He didn't answer, but on the other end of the phone, he was trembling with laughter. After laughing for a while, he stopped to answer, "Our big beauty is getting married, will you go? Do you have time? Come back in time ?"

The big beauty that Lin He mentioned is another nickname of Yucheng, who has a small melon seed face, fair skin and beautiful appearance, we all call her big beauty.

And the you Lin He is talking about, of course, include Aning, me, and other Fa Xiao students who are studying.

Thinking of Aning, the joy I had just received from Lin He's call dissipated inexplicably, as if my heart was covered with a thin layer of fine sand, a little depressing, even a little hard to breathe.

I pursed my lips and replied happily, "I don't know about them, and I haven't contacted them, but I should be able to go. I have arranged my time. Don't worry, my little beauty."

"That's great, we haven't seen each other for a year, then I'll see you at the big beauty's wedding, you promised me, you must come." Xiaohe's sweet voice came through the phone, Blow away some of the fine sand covered in my heart.

But soon I remembered that at this wedding, I might meet Aning, who I hadn’t seen for a long time, and seeing Aning would undoubtedly open up our past again, but I still had to face everyone in front of everyone. Make small faces, pretend that nothing happened, pretend to be indifferent, and even pretend to be happy.

Thinking of this, I started to feel a little bright just now, but it became gloomy again in an instant, but I still maintained a happy tone and replied, "Okay."

I was silent for a moment, and finally asked the question that was stranded in my heart, "Will Aning go? She is so far away."

Lin He put away the smile in his words, and responded in a calm tone: "She can't go, H Province is so far away, she said before, she can't go."

I thought that when I heard Lin He say that Aning would not appear, I was at least a little happy in my heart, but when I heard Lin He's answer, I didn't feel any joy in my heart, and even felt an unspeakable sense of sadness.

Aning used to hold such a revered position in my heart. It was I who personally destroyed the friendship between us and pushed the three of us to where we are today step by step, and those feelings of admiration and awe when we were young have since disappeared without a trace. , leaving only some empty places, I don’t know what to place, it’s not a good feeling.

I mumbled a hmm, and didn't say anything more.

I thought our conversation would end here, but unexpectedly, Lin He just paused, put away all the emotions in his voice just now, and asked calmly: "Yingying, how are you recently?"

I knew what Lin He was asking about, and her words quickly induced the grievances that had been suppressed in my heart a few days ago.

"I'm fine, what can I do, I'm fine." I said with a hard smile.

But Lin He could still hear the pretense in my words, and asked Chi Chi: "I heard that Liu Shu went to study in Jiangcheng. Have you seen him?"

"I've seen it, I saw it a while ago."

Lin He hesitated to speak, but finally persuaded, "Yingying, the big beauty is getting married, we are too old to afford it, Yingying, why don't you just forget it."

Those sourness and grievances quickly came to my eyes, as if the embankment would burst in the next moment, "Xiaohe, I know, I know what you said, compared with men, there are many things she can't give me, I know that .”

"Yes, Yingying, the reality is like this, as long as you understand it, if you still choose her, you will know in the future how difficult this road is, and there are very few things she can give you, Yingying, Forget it, people like us are incapable of fighting."

This is not the first time Lin He persuaded me, and Lin He is not the first person to persuade me. I don't understand what they said, because I understand. At the beginning, I turned a blind eye to Liu Shu's dedication , fell on deaf ears.

But how can I let go of such a deep attachment in my heart, the pain that has accumulated in my heart seems to be far from enough, unable to pour out the extravagant desire in my heart.

"Xiaohe, thank you, I know, I know." I replied weakly.

"Oh, Yingying..." Lin He sighed, paused for a while, and his voice regained a trace of vitality, "Okay, let's not talk about this, the big beauty is getting married, you must come, Don't miss the appointment."

"Okay." I agreed with a smile.

The author has something to say: Thank you for watching.I just want to say, Comrade Liu Shu, you will be slapped in the face.