I debuted on a talent show with my ex-boyfriend

When Kan Junhuan drove the car away from the Affiliated Hospital of F University, he received a video call.

He put his phone upright on the rack in the front window and smiled.The person on the other side of the screen is the youngest of HopE. Behind him is a blue sky and white clouds, golden sandy beaches and deep emerald palms. With the rotation of the camera, the sea under the sun is full of blue waves, and the strong-toned scenery blooms a vivid tropical style. .The young man in the video is half topless, showing his wheat-colored abs, with a garland of flowers hanging on his chest, and wearing a pair of fancy beach shorts.

"Brother! I just finished filming the MV, and I have a lot to say to you. Hey, let me show you first, the shells I picked up on the beach..."

Kan Junhuan heard him babbled a lot of rambling words, his delicate and handsome face was full of surprise and curiosity, and he asked with a smile while the youngest lined up a dozen shells on the beach. : "How are you preparing for solo? Is there anything you're not used to?"

"No, no. I really dream about the day of solo. There are many, many songs to be sung for fans. This world tour has been postponed. I just have time to prepare the album. The progress is gratifying. I will return later There is an fm, the fans in Southeast Asia are so enthusiastic, I cramped on the plane and learned a few words of local dialect, let me tell you..." The young man over there unabashedly conveyed the scorching sun Passionate, Kan Junhuan drove, so he listened a lot and answered less, but he always had a gentle smile on his face.

The group has stood at the top for a long time, and the younger generations are chasing after each other, and they are seeking transformation.The child was the first person to issue a solo activity statement. Before that, the company had been reluctant to let them go. They seemed to be a life-saving straw that was tightly grasped. They were unwilling to give up until they squeezed out the remaining value of the entire group.But at least in this matter, Kan Junhuan saw the compromise of the high-level, and he didn't want to have a second Yu Fei by his side.

"Fm have fun." Kan Junhuan said, the sun in the video is so dazzling, the people under the sun are so happy, the boy on the beach compared his heart to him, and shouted loudly to the blue waves and blue sky: "Brother! I love you, we want Always together." Kan Junhuan laughed out the wrinkles in the corners of his eyes, like a parent who sees their child on the podium.Before hanging up the phone, he replied: "I love you too."

There was laughter on the other end, and the screen sank into darkness.

The only sound left in his ears was the roar of the engine, and that happy sound seemed to have cut his eardrum deeply, leaving the faint traces unabated.

It's been less than a month since the last comeback, only he has fallen into a complete blank period, a member with a strong sense of variety has been an MC on a music chart show, and got a resident guest spot on a reality show, and the appearance of being good at dancing has arrived As a mentor for a hip-hop talent show, she often smiles in front of the camera.He was the only one who turned down all invitations to musicals, stopped all performing arts activities, and disappeared from the public eye.

He did a lot of things that he never thought of doing since he became famous.Adopt a pet, attend an exciting music festival, sneak into the backstage of a talent show, cheer on a supported trainee, and—invite someone you like to a meal in your home.

Those unimaginable crazy things are still happening. He escaped from the hospital appointment, turned the steering wheel of the car without hesitation, and went to the appointment regardless of the consequences.In fact, the sun never shines into his heart, he is watching other people's emotions through a glass container.

He enjoys the golden sunset flowing brilliantly outside the car window and breathes the cool and comfortable air. The world is very far away from him at once, but also because he is very close by himself.

He can't remember the meeting between himself and Tang Zhiyang, just like he can't remember the old site of the old HP, but a certain deep-rooted feeling is like a dance movement engraved in the muscles, ready to go with the music at any time Ups and downs, even though the memory of his consciousness has been blurred, he still knows that he accompanied him when he was most suffering and left when he was at his peak.The expressions of the two have always been rational and restrained, and neither of them will take a step forward. It was not until Kan Junhuan's flower language replied that the gray and white relationship appeared ambiguous.

When he was about to arrive at the training ground, Kan Junhuan's cell phone rang again. It was an unfamiliar number. He paused and did not choose to answer it.

One minute later, he received a text message. The smile on Kan Junhuan's face gradually faded. He looked at it blankly for a while. full screen.He lowered the brim of his hat, and the guard seemed to have been informed and let him in.

Kan Junhuan stopped the car, and turned on the airplane mode of the phone in a familiar and natural way. Sitting in the air-conditioned car, he began to delete messages one by one.

——I saw my brother go out this morning, I don’t know where to go [picture], I have to go home early.I will never leave and wait for my brother.

In the picture is a silhouette of him going out in the morning.In the morning, his agent drove him to pick him up, but now he escaped from the hospital and changed to a colleague's car.

——Can't you still go out? It doesn't look too sick.Who are you going to lie to in the hospital?Are you really mentally ill?Are you happy that the World Tour is postponed?Sooner or later, the whole family will die violently if they block their future.You are really the most hypocritical person in the whole group.Ten are depressed, nine are hypocritical, and one is particularly hypocritical.If you are really depressed, why don't you die? [image][image][image]

He felt a little numb to those pictures, even though the content in the pictures was dripping with blood.When he received such a text message for the first time, he couldn't help but have a mental breakdown. It was a break after playing a song, and the feeling of heat and sweat all over his body was taken away in an instant. He was so disgusted that he rushed to the bathroom to retch, When he came back to his senses, he found that his eyes were bright red. It turned out that his eyes were dry and astringent after wearing the colored contact lenses for a day. So when he took out the two films, he shed hot tears.

The car was a bit stuffy, so he deleted the harassing content, and saw Jin Yu's WeChat message 5 minutes ago, saying that he was waiting for him outside the B entrance of the parking lot.

Kan Junhuan put on a mask, adjusted his hat in the rearview mirror, and made sure that he was as ordinary as a gardener, and then slowly opened the door and got out of the car.

Jin Yu stood under the setting sun, behind her was the barbed wire fence of the campus playground, a large expanse of beautiful clouds weaved behind her, the sky was a gradient of deep orange and purple, the setting sun formed a hazy light edge on the top of the woman's fluffy and soft hair , she waved to Kan Junhuan, and waved to the tree shadow beside her.The world behind the glasses seemed a little blurry, Kan Junhuan helped the frame and walked to Jin Yu's side.

Jin Yu didn't exchange pleasantries with him, and cut straight to the point: "If you are discovered, I will not be responsible." She raised her chin and said to the tree shadow: "I was going back to the dormitory, but it will be fine once you come. People didn’t go back anymore, sat here and waited for an hour, and went to say hello to him.”

Kan Junhuan approached under the tree, a row of benches were hidden in the shadow of the tree, Tang Zhiyang sat on the chair, smiled when he saw him, his slightly narrowed eyes were bright, as if shining with a soft glow.As if there was a force hitting the center, Kan Junhuan's heart sank soundlessly, and he heard the other party's hoarse voice, which matched Xihui's softness, and said softly: "When I think about it, I forget that I am the universe. superstar?"

"Don't laugh at me." Kan Junhuan replied, looking at Tang Zhiyang's legs calmly and naturally, and put one hand on Tang Zhiyang's knee calmly and naturally, the palm of his hand was warm, "I remember it's your old problem. Be careful, you will relapse." After finishing his sentence, he stood up in front of Tang Zhiyang, and bent over with his back to him, "I'll take you back."

Tang Zhiyang was slightly startled, but did not move.

Kan Junhuan turned his face sideways, and a little peripheral light chased his face. The setting sun made Tang Zhiyang's face darkly red, and there was only one pair of eyes, looking at him shiningly. Tang Zhiyang would not know what his eyes were like now. How bright, Kan Junhuan blinked and said to him teasingly: "But come here, do you want me to carry you away? I don't mind."

"...No such thing." Tang Zhiyang shook his head and laughed dumbly.He didn't refuse, climbed onto Kan Junhuan's back, and said, "Go to the practice room. I was injured today, and the team members were shocked. There are few people, and I don't know how to continue practicing." He felt his knees bent. A pair of strong hands pinned the inner side of his body, and the feeling of being separated from the ground made him subconsciously hug the opponent's neck tightly.Tang Zhiyang heard Kan Junhuan laugh twice, and asked him where the practice room was. Jin Yu smiled and volunteered to lead the way.

Kan Junhuan said: "I'll see if the dance is difficult later. If it's not difficult, I'll take over."

Tang Zhiyang responded with a hum, the man's body is not soft, the bones and muscles are tight and powerful, and there is power pulsating in his vest, that is the sound of Tang Zhiyang's heartbeat, like the hands of a quartz watch, as time goes by Hit with a brisk sound.Tang Zhiyang said in a slight bump: "The song composed by Mr. Li Xiang's producer."

Kan Junhuan tightened the strength of his elbows, stepped on the steps calmly and calmly, and even calmly answered his words: "That's a bit difficult. Our teacher said before that he would write a song for the show, and originally wanted me to dance Demonstration, and then I stopped the activities, so I let the dancers in the group go. I did a cameo for the theme song, but you are the real Center."

"I often think of you when I practice." Tang Zhiyang replied, this sentence should obviously be hidden in the corresponding range, but because of the lack of restrictive language, there are more faint meanings, Tang Zhiyang is a little hot, trying to cover it up: " I mean when the theme song was practiced."

Kan Junhuan suddenly stopped talking. He walked through the empty classrooms silently, with heavy footsteps.Tang Zhiyang quickly adapted to this silence. He put his cheek close to his shoulder, and smelled the faint smell of softener at the tip of his nose. It was a refreshing saponin scent, clean and a little alienated.

When there were still 100 people in the training camp, these classrooms were full of people and laughter. Now there are only 20 people left. Many rooms have been abandoned, and the wall stickers are still carefully prepared by the show, but they are already empty. It shows a kind of extreme desolation after the extreme excitement, and the suppressed melancholy emotion seems to be able to flow, just like the water pressure forced by the deep sea, silently increasing the pressure.

Jin Yu stopped in the classroom not far in front of them, there was the faint sound of music, and a lonely "A" was written on the door.

"A lot of times—" Kan Junhuan said suddenly, his voice very soft.

The summer sunset was still hot, and a layer of sweat broke out on Kan Junhuan's back, and his exposed skin was also hot, and sweat slid down his neck itchyly.The place where the body touches and clings to is also like being burned by flames, as if he is carrying a cloud in the setting sun, even his heart will be burned by the sun.

Kan Junhuan said softly: "Many times, I will think of you."

For the "Ghost Ship" group, Kan Junhuan was an uninvited guest, although fortunately he forgot his sorrow for a while when he saw him, blinking red like a pair of small walnut eyes, peeping at him with joy.Yuan Hongshan didn't have any star-chasing complex, but just affirmed his strength. Li Lingjing got a signed shirt for one of his friends, and Jin Yu went to other classrooms to tour the field.Kan Junhuan and Tang Zhiyang sat on the ground, watching others continue to rehearse.

In the end, Kan Junhuan learned a lot by himself and went to the field to lead the team. His learning ability is amazing, and his teaching vision is also precise and sharp.After pointing out everyone's minor problems, he took them through it several times hand in hand. For the middle part of the movement, he suggested changing a part of vocal or rap. Motivated by the momentum, I wiped my swollen eyes to write the lyrics, and by the way, I used Shan Shao, who was full of inexplicable faces, as the inspiration engine.

It was already completely dark, and time passed by unknowingly.Jin Yu sent him a message asking when he would be home.

He replied: I want to watch them practice more, and I always feel that my mood has become lighter because of it.

Jin Yu's current input changed again and again, and finally told him: I am not staying overnight at the training camp.Don't get caught.Must go tomorrow morning at the latest.Otherwise, the illegitimate student should say that you don't come home at night, how old you are, and you are still as playful as you were a few years ago, but well, just be happy.I haven't seen you smiling so happily in a long time.

Through the cold mobile phone screen, it seemed that Jin Yu's earnest sigh could be seen, and Kan Junhuan smiled slightly.

During the break, Leshi sat beside Tang Zhiyang and asked him about his foot injury.

"I'm sorry I couldn't dance with you." Tang Zhiyang said, wiping the sweat on his neck with a towel while watching the music, he raised the other corner of the sweat towel and wiped the sweat from his forehead and temples while watching the music. With the sweat flowing to the corners of his eyes, Leshi squinted half of his eyes, his eyelashes flickering. "Dancing well."

Kan Junhuan looked at the two of them silently, and when he saw Le Shi bowed his head shyly, he whispered, "Your dancing style is similar to that of your senior."

He and Tang Zhiyang looked at each other subconsciously, and then quickly separated their eyes, as if there was a tacit understanding, but there was also some embarrassment that seemed to be there. Tang Zhiyang said: "I used to get used to it when I was dancing with HP. , probably spent two or three years practicing together, and gradually became similar."

Le Shi said with breathlessness after strenuous exercise: "Brother and Senior have known each other for a long time."

"It can be regarded as walking with him in the first few years of HP's debut. If I have to say it, I watched him grow up." Tang Zhiyang made a joke, and Kan Junhuan also grinned silently, saying that he was so old-fashioned. Response: "You are not much older than me."

"For these seventeen or eighteen-year-old children in the show, they are really old." Tang Zhiyang touched the top of Leshi's hair, like an amiable old father, Leshi was very reproachful and looked helplessly. He glanced and didn't avoid his hand.

Kan Junhuan skimmed over this topic lightly, suddenly remembered a certain joint, and asked Le Shi: "Are you and Fei Fei okay?"

Le Shi originally wanted to say that everything was fine, but for some reason he hesitated to speak.The black and brainwashing bags overwhelming the Internet are like a hurricane passing through, and the place it passes is barren. He still keeps a distance from Yu Feila, which is the best protection at the moment.

Kan Junhuan seems to be gentle and approachable all the time, but his eyes are bright and sharp. When he looks at others, he often has a coldness of in-depth analysis, which is completely different from Tang Zhiyang's gentleness.

Kan Junhuan turned on his phone and announced that he didn't use social software very often after he announced his temporary retirement, including the bloody Weibo every day, or the ins Twitter where verbal battles erupted from time to time. Opening the trending search, he saw the topics of running away from home, private associations, and speculation about CP that Leshi had been at a high level. He browsed briefly, and Tang Zhiyang also saw it from the side, and the three of them fell into a brief silence.

"There has never been anything absolutely fair in this world." Kan Junhuan said suddenly, and switched his phone back to the airplane mode that cuts off all signals. I have been in love with you in the past few years, there are too many to count." He took off his glasses, pressed the square lens on the corner of his clothes, and wiped it carefully, "In the early years, some people said that I had a private relationship with fans. So I lost a precious friend. It took a long time for people in the circle to come to regret, and it turned out that I forced away a capable and smart leader.”

"As for discord with the family - many people look down from the moral high ground and feel that they can mediate all family disputes with a keyboard and a mouth, but it doesn't help. Seeking family reconciliation has always been an extremely personal matter. .There is no good way, if you don’t want to choose silence, then say everything, even though no one will believe it.” Kan Junhuan paused and turned to Leshi, even though he took off his glasses, his eyes still had Something cold means: "Leshi trainee, do you know why you are so popular?"

"Your editing in the show doesn't play a big role, and you're not even a trainee featured by NBS." Kan Junhuan put on his eyes again, and explained in a slow voice. The trainees at the training place don't know the specifics of previous shows. The ups and downs of the editing are only heard, Kan Junhuan flipped through the photo album for a while, and brought up a picture, "Your pen-hold shot is currently the second most played pen-hold shot of the three stages, and the first is the one next to me. .”

Tang Zhiyang shook his head and said, "It's my luck. Lele's stage is better, I mean it."

The picture is the ranking of the stage data as of this week. Leshi himself does not pay special attention to the rankings made by various data groups on Weibo. Most trainees focus on the ups and downs of the general ranking page, and he is no exception .The stage data is jointly composed of websites at home and abroad, with NBS official website and YouTube as the largest positions. From the theme song to "Snow Country", his playback volume has remained high.

Kan Junhuan looked at his surprised eyes, raised his eyebrows slightly, and said in a low voice, "You should be confident in your professional ability."

"There is a saying that is very reasonable. Strength is water, but popularity is bubbles. When there are external forces trying to push you down, do better and do your best. What the strong wind blows away is just a layer of bubbles, and they will see Go to a wider sea. Since some people think that you became popular by speculating on CP with Fei Fei, then you tell them that even if you don’t rely on this channel, your grades can still be among the best.”

Kan Junhuan stared at Le Shi's eyes, those eyes were moist and clear, the light was calm but not soft, like some kind of hard silver crystal cluster.Kan Junhuan began to realize why Yu Fei valued the person in front of him so much, he understood, so he smiled again, "Although I say this a bit cruelly, you must know that this place you are in—"

"Only wings that are strong enough can carry you to higher and farther skies, and only wings that are strong enough can protect your supporters, your family, and..." His tail was slightly elongated, obviously thinking Regarding the relationship between Fei and Leshi, he blinked his eyes to Tang Zhiyang beside him for help, and the other party smiled and took his words.

"And people you like."

Kan Junhuan was slightly surprised, and his words were still full of encouragement: "Although I don't quite understand WMC's idea of ​​giving up on you at this juncture, perhaps this is a trade-off made by a small company under the attack of a large company-but you are fully capable Let them see their own value. Just start from the current stage, from now on, everyone you meet may become the most important person in your life."

The words from his mouth are particularly touching for some reason—Kan Junhuan has also been in a situation where he is about to be abandoned, and he has also been doubted and ridiculed by most people. He knows the sharpness of the thorn called frustration, and knows that when he walks through it, his blood is bloody. pain.He nodded firmly when he saw Le Shi. The confusion without any support is long, but he must at least tell Le Shi that he still has the capital to continue to stand here.

"Senior, thank you."

Kan Junhuan shook his head with a smile, and then asked slyly: "So you and Fei Fei are real? No wonder he cared so much about you before. Did you have a bad relationship at the beginning of the year?" He looked at Le Shi with embarrassment He touched his nose eagerly, and the tips of his ears became red and hot instantly, but his face remained calm, and he even nodded solemnly, like a good student receiving a lecture from a teacher, "Don't be so nervous. I'll just say it casually—he At that time, he often asked me to drink, it was in the old fried chicken shop in the south gate, his drinking capacity was extremely bad, I think you should know."

Kan Junhuan shifted his gaze to Wan Xing and the others who were quarreling and writing lyrics, but his thoughts went to a more distant place. The smile on his lips was nostalgic and teasing, as if he was telling an extremely interesting anecdote. He continued: "One drink When I was drunk, I hugged my waist, and I couldn't drag it. It was so easy to persuade people to be good. In a blink of an eye, I snatched the guitar and microphone resident in the store, and sang "I Will Love You When I Die". At the end, I yelled Calling 'Le Le I'm sorry', I think it should be for you."

Tang Zhiyang choked, his smile froze: "..."

Le Shi was so touched that his heart was ups and downs, but this sudden surprise hit his heart violently, and the murmuring, crying, and crazy Yu Fei appeared in his mind, and he was pulling the microphone and shouting to tear him apart. Heartbroken, like the wild image of a prodigal son in the end of the world, he couldn't help but smile.However, Yu Fei was mercilessly taunted: "Shame."

"I'll see him later." Kan Junhuan said, "I miss him a little bit."

In the end, he couldn't see Yu Fei. He had always been thinking about his younger generation, and he seemed to have returned to the dormitory early. In order not to show his face and cause a commotion, Kan Junhuan gave up the idea of ​​seeing Yu Fei again.He stayed in the small practice room of Class A until dawn. For the first time in these days, he did not cry inexplicably at dawn. Thanks to those juniors who devoted themselves to practice, he found a long time ago in HP who worked hard for his debut. feeling of time.

When parting, Tang Zhiyang sat beside him, the morning light spread quietly on the floor of the practice room, they were silent to each other, the shadow of the sun moved slowly, walked slowly from Tang Zhiyang's side, and came to Kan Junhuan's fingertips, They are bathed in the gentle and warm sunshine.

Time is like a parting traveler, bid farewell to the wild night of joy and joy, and walk into the bitterness and sourness of life.

Tang Zhiyang comforted him with a casual tone: "If you really want to see Yu Fei, we will have a day off on weekends, and I will go to your house with him."

His tone is so natural, and the words "home" are sensitive, stinging with warmth.

Tang Zhiyang said again: "I'll try to call Zhizhi over again, the eldest lady is really too hard to work. By the way, what do you want to eat then?"

Kan Junhuan looked at him, with the softness of morning light in his eyes, his topic seemed to be on topic, and seemed to be somewhere else, "I want to eat shrimp."

Tang Zhiyang nodded, but held back the next sentence.This period of silence was different from the previous one. Kan Junhuan must have wanted to say something to him, but he finally didn't say anything.He just leaned over and hugged him, with very light strength, like a cloud containing drizzle, as if it was about to separate immediately.

He panicked because of the invisibility, and when he came back to his senses, Tang Zhiyang found himself responding to the hug, and his fingers stroked the back of Kan Junhuan's neck, holding them tightly with a hint of retention.

Because of this, the other party didn't move, just maintained a gentle hugging posture.Looking at it from Tang Zhiyang's point of view, one can see his soft brown hair tips and mirror feet wrapped in tortoiseshell shells, which are not real in bright light, as if everything has a translucent color that is about to dissipate.

They have exchanged hugs on many different occasions, but only this time, Tang Zhiyang seemed to be embracing a dream. His heart slowly contracted and relaxed, and the lake in his heart suddenly calmed down. The fish jumped up like moonlight, leaving a small circle of ripples in the center of the lake.

Kan Junhuan said to him: "Thank you. I am very happy."

"You have worked hard." Tang Zhiyang said, his voice trembling, "It doesn't matter if you don't work so hard. I hope you can always be happy."

Kan Junhuan stepped back slightly, Tang Zhiyang let go of his hand.

"I should go, it's getting late." Kan Junhuan said, with a faint smile on his face and gentle feelings in his eyes, he stood up, raised a hand to Tang Zhiyang, and waved again . "Don't send it away. Remember to go to the infirmary to change your medicine later, and be with your teammates."

Tang Zhiyang straightened his back, nodded and replied: "See you on the weekend."

Kan Junhuan turned around, took a few steps forward, and seemed to remember something, facing the sun, he turned his head and said goodbye to Tang Zhiyang softly: "Goodbye."

His glasses flickered, the light was cold.Tang Zhiyang's eyes flickered, and he couldn't see Kan Junhuan's expression clearly.

The author says:

He seems to have always been so determined and strong, and it seems that no problem can ever knock him down.But what he misses the most is the appearance of sweating on the stage when he first debuted. At that time, there was a light to chase before him, and a shadow to rely on behind him.It seems that only in this way can he find the meaning of being human.This chapter is very long, thank you for reading!