I debuted on a talent show with my ex-boyfriend

It was early in the morning when the recording ended. According to the competition system, the No.1 member of each group can get a reward of 1 votes, and the person with the highest votes will get [-]% of the total vote pool—this means Among the huge tens of millions of data before the votes are cleared, No.[-] will get a considerable number of votes.

The result is unexpected for most people, but it is expected after careful consideration.

Tang Zhiyang surpassed the number one Chu Xiangdong in Group B of "Millennium" by a narrow vote margin, and ranked first in the total number of votes.

He originally held a high position because of the C position of the theme song, but after his outstanding performance on the stage of the first public performance, he seems to be more capable of hitting No.1.After the post-match recording ended, he didn't celebrate, but avoided the filming camera, and went to the hospital to see a doctor while sending off the music.

Of course, when Tang Zhiyang opened the car door, he was visibly startled.

Yu Fei sat in the middle of the back seat, had already removed her make-up, and changed back into her regular clothes. It was a black cheering shirt from an outdated old band, and the color printing had already turned an old, film-like yellow.His hands were folded on his knees, and a black baseball cap was pressed on his knees.The air-conditioning in the car seems to have a separate shape, cool and icy cold, and there are light raindrops with a muddy smell outside the car, blowing up a dark green wind of summer night, and there is a thin, even and tired breathing sound in the car , also sounded slowly.

He subconsciously moved lightly, sat lightly on the outer seat of the car, the car door was closed, the locking mechanism clicked, the blackout car window was rolled up silently, and the colorful raindrops illuminated the night lights The iridescent color spreads and protracts in circles.When the car was moving, Tang Zhiyang saw Le Shi sitting next to Yu Fei tilt his head and leaned on his shoulder.

When the phone's screen lit up, it was Wan Xing and Ren Fengfeng who asked them in the WeChat group what they would like to have for supper when they came back.

[Little Sun emoji]: You guys have a good rest, go to sleep.I'll treat you to dinner another day.

[Double-wind]: Is Lele okay?

[Little Sun emoji]: He's asleep.on the way.

[Koi King]: Lele hasn't slept well for a few days... He also stayed up all night in the company before.I report!He doesn't seem to sleep much since the start of the game!Is he the vigil champion!

[Double-wind]: How about we sneak off to the hospital to see him!

Tang Zhiyang frowned, stopped the dangerous behavior of the two children, and promised that he would take them out of the hospital in a healthy and complete manner. Looking at him in the blink of an eye, it was Yu Fei who was looking at him. When their eyes met, The other party didn't smile either, but looked a little embarrassed, clasped his palms and pressed, straightened his back again and again.

The stare was a little silent, Yu Fei lowered his head, turned on the screen of the phone, quickly flicked his fingers on the Jiugongge button a few times, Tang Zhiyang's screen lit up again, and he showed a helpless attitude towards the enthusiasm of social software news, Yu Fei sent him a private message on Weibo with all kinds of twists and turns:

[Soar-Y]: Thank you.

[Tang Zhiyang's Little Sun]: They are all friends, as they should be.

The screens of the two mobile phones went silent at the same time. The car was galloping on the empty road in the middle of the night, and stopped anxiously when passing the traffic lights. His shoulder touched the back of the front seat, and he bumped it with a muffled sound, half-embracing him in his arms.

Le Shimi woke up with a daze, grabbed his shoulders and pushed him out, then retracted into the car seat, and picked up the hat that was about to fall on the lap of Yu Fei, and pulled the brim of the hat crookedly downwards to cover him. the expression on his face.He coughed lightly for a while, and then called out to Tang Zhiyang: "Brother."

Tang Zhiyang shook his head, his voice was very soft: "You rest, don't talk."

The sound on the other side gradually disappeared. If it wasn't for extreme exhaustion, with Leshi's personality, he wouldn't be able to sleep peacefully in a turbulent environment. Of course, there seemed to be other factors that made him feel at ease while driving, Tang Zhiyang I figured out a vague result in my heart, but didn't make it clear.

Before he could think about it, the screens of his and Yu Fei's mobile phones lit up at the same time. Yu Fei covered the light source of the screen, but he watched the news feed on Weibo and was silent for a long time. When he connected the Bluetooth headset, a cold mechanical notification sounded. A bust of a man was displayed on a loud, dimly lit screen.

The dress is similar to the one in Hong Kong, with silver-rimmed square-rimmed glasses, which add a layer of elegance to the warm light in the eyes.He is a bit of an entertainer, and he seems to be speaking humorously, decently and calmly. The T-shirt is pure black, but his skin is very white, and the wall behind him is also very white.His home is always empty, making the space endlessly stretched white.

He is like a lonely shadow, sitting in front of the white wall, smiling at the camera.

"Hi everyone, I'm Kan Junhuan."

As usual, he read the enthusiastic greetings on the barrage, and chatted with fans about trivial topics. Just after the song playing period ended, the HopE official cafe released the news of the world tour, and the fans paid full attention to it. Few people asked him questions such as "when will the tour start" and "are there any surprises for this year's tour".

Kan Junhuan looked at the camera, and Tang Zhiyang's heart skipped a beat. The pupils behind the lens were still gentle and charming, shining brilliantly, but what flashed by was a strange determination that he had never seen before.He smiled and adjusted the hem of his clothes. The clothes were clean, as black as the abyss.

He said: "The group decided to hold the world tour starting from S city in mid-July."

The barrage was full of joy and cheers. Tang Zhiyang's old mobile phone was a little stuck, and the reminder that the battery was less than [-]% skipped, which was obviously a chronic problem caused by the aging battery.For some reason, he heard his own heartbeat, slow and heavy, echoing one after another.

Kan Junhuan lowered his eyes, smiled, and looked at the small lines of joy and happiness with a conniving and helpless demeanor. Like gossip, he said calmly: "But I want to tell you a very regretful thing. Individuals should not be able to attend the next world tour concert."

Those words of happiness that cannot be digested have not been exhausted yet, and a new wave of question marks is overwhelming. Facing the ups and downs of great joy and sorrow, most people are at a loss. Dark and blue eye circles like shadows, and an overly pale complexion.

But his explanation is still kind. Although the expression on his face seems strange and vain, his words still contain the gentleness that suppresses his emotions: "From the beginning of this year to now, my condition has not been very good. Including physical and psychological aspects, it seems I fell into an emotional blind spot that was insensitive to all kinds of feedback from the outside world, and there was an increasingly sinking, incurable feeling. When I found that the drugs were out of control and I was on the verge of collapse every day, the doctor told me, Looks like it's going to take a while to rest."

"As the captain of HopE, I feel very sorry to the members and fans who follow our group, I'm sorry."

He stood up, bowed deeply to the camera, and apologized to everyone who was dumbfounded by the live broadcast.

"As a person, I would like to apologize to everyone who followed me: sorry for not living up to your expectations."

He didn't get up again, and the screen fell into darkness, leaving only the white pattern indicating the battery connection, which flickered again and again.

Yu Fei looked at Tang Zhiyang, and the red light sign of the hospital threw a beam of red flame into Yu Fei's eyes, reflecting the shrinkage and vibration of his pupils.

Tang Zhiyang clenched his phone tightly, the sound of the car door unlocking made him horrified, he opened the car door stiffly with his hands and feet, the world outside the door was in a mess, and it was raining heavily.

There was a vague sigh, and the noisy sound of the rain swallowed his voice, but Yu Fei heard it very clearly.

"When will this rain stop..."

After getting out of the car, everything was busy again, registration, debridement, stitches, drips, after running, there was a layer of gray-white shadow in the bottom of the eyes, which was the depression that spread silently from the heart, Tang Zhiyang sorted it out Feeling emotional, he said he wanted to go out to take a breath, let Yu Fei accompany Le Shi to give the injection in the injection room, and left alone.

When he was happy, he turned his hands to look at his mobile phone. Two roommates sent him a 99 plus cheering message. The intensity of the emotion almost broke through the screen. Due to the effect of the anesthetic, half of his face could hardly feel the slightest bit. Holding it, Yu Fei sat beside him and covered him with a coat, a school uniform coat.

"..."

Yu Fei didn't let go of his hand, and didn't mean to back down: "Close your eyes."

After saying this, Leshi looked at him, blinked his eyes slowly, and raised a faint and cold smile on his still conscious lips. Yu Fei was startled, came back to his senses, turned his eyes away, and willingly admitted: " Just now, Senior Kan decided not to participate in HopE's world tour in mid-July during the live broadcast." He let go of his hand, but Leshi didn't move.

Yu Fei briefly recounted the content of the live broadcast, and Leshi put his hand without the infusion tube into the sleeve of the loose dress, and stuck out half of his palm, unable to withstand the sore and numb pain of his eyelids, and closed his eyes.His voice was soft and hoarse: "At that time, after the N ranking ended, I had contact with my senior and felt that he was an optimistic and gentle person."

Yu Fei leaned back in his chair, and echoed, "I've known him for two years, and he will always be a reliable senior who smiles and says cheers to me, and will never show a weak attitude."

Le Shi's voice was still very tired and difficult, with a snorting nasal voice: "Is the reason why senior suspended activities related to the reason why you quit the company...?"

Yu Fei didn't answer directly, but just stared at Le Shi, seeing his brow furrowed subconsciously due to discomfort, a thin line at the corner of his lips forbearingly flattened, and the corners of his eyes were red from nervousness when he was stitching, it was rare to see a twinkle in his eyes The panic in the past, and now the burnout that has died down, has a kind of calm and cuteness for the rest of his life after suffering.

Yu Fei suddenly asked him: "Lele, have you ever written a song? I mean the lyrics, the melody, all the songs written by myself."

Le Shi didn't have the strength to open his eyes, so he moved his fingers instead of raising his eyebrows in a rather imposing manner: "Why do you ask this?"

Yu Fei laughed dryly, resisting the feeling of wanting to touch the kitten that was on the verge of exploding, and then said: "I used to like to write songs, and I used to sing songs with my guitar in my arms. I also wrote when I first met you, Write a lot of love songs that don't match up—"

Leshi interrupted him indifferently: "Can you talk about the main points?"

Yu Fei scratched the back of his head and said, "Everything is about succession and succession."

Le Shi was aggressive and aggressive, like a tabby cat grinning: "Your quitting the company has something to do with you writing a love song for me?"

Yu Fei annoyed to deny this proposition, and answered clumsily and bluntly, which was the sincerity that Leshi was never good at dealing with: "Because I want to write more songs, I want to write more songs for this world and this life, Wanted to write more songs for you. That was one reason I left."

"The road planned by the company, just follow the track. If you sing the prescribed songs and dance the prescribed dances, you will be popular and radiant like our predecessors. Almost all of us, listening to such encouragement, carry out Practice and evaluate. Cater to the style of the market and become an idol on the assembly line." Yu Fei raised his head, looked at the continuous liquid medicine in the drip funnel, stretched out his hand and lowered the speed of the infusion, and said slowly: "I have written a lot Songs... Lele, I wrote a lot of songs..."

"Joyful, sad, indifferent, lyrical, agitated, and capricious. Some songs have also been appreciated by seniors and teachers. I hope to put one or two songs like this in the first album of Six Light Years. just like Senior Kan." His voice was devoid of emotion, like a deep and numb raving, "but the company doesn't support it, as long as the prescribed one is done, it costs a lot of money, please best Composition and lyrics, the most glamorous group of juniors and apprentices packaged, will become the light of this generation..."

"I have become the light of others, so what is my light? I am engaged in this profession, what is the meaning of being on the stage? I have repeatedly questioned in my heart. Only then did I realize that Senior Kan and I have the same boredom."

"I'm troubled by this. I want to sing. But many people say that you sing very well, as long as you stay in HP, you will have a bright future, but when I open my mouth, I feel endless confusion and emptiness." He paused, and then laughed low With a sound, he laughed at himself: "In this respect, I am really too hypocritical."

"I always do this to things and people I like..."

Yu Fei's throat was a little dry, he swallowed, as if he didn't intend to continue this topic, he fell into a long silence.

He also didn't expect Leshi to say too many thoughtful and comforting words. He shouldn't have used such negative language to expose his scars, but the moment Kan Junhuan bowed and apologized, he suddenly understood——

"Senior persuaded me to leave with tolerance, probably because he didn't want me to be the second unhappy person like him, but I seemed to make him even more unhappy, and it was all my fault."

Le Shi was also silent, and the silence of no one answered made Yu Fei fidgety. He bit his lower lip, but his elbow was pulled and grabbed. With a cold and hard force, Le Shi leaned closer to him, with his shoulders and arms pressed against him. In one place, Yu Fei saw that the badge with his name on the school uniform hadn't been taken off, and there was a layer of flowing bright gold under the fluorescent lamp, shining dazzlingly.

Leshi just leaned against him quietly, with his eyes closed, but his brows relaxed and relaxed slowly, and his breathing gradually became even. And being tempted is just the moment when you touch his tenderness, there is no need for vows, sweet words, just a certain silent companionship, once it is like this, it can be called eternity.

"One day, I will let everyone hear the song I wrote for you..."

The author says:

Did the dog company HP close down today? (curse)