[Comprehensive manga] Ruiguang

It has been three days since I was able to lift my arm easily. The job of delivering the morning newspaper for these three days must have failed. Of course, I didn't expect to get the daily salary, so I called to apologize.But Fujita said that I was only missing one day, and in the next two days, a tall boy completed it for me.When I asked who that boy was, Fujita said that he had met him at Sanada's house.

Unbeknownst to me, it was Sanada who completed the work for two days instead of me.If I want to go back so much, I really owe him countless favors.

During this period, Eriko was also discharged from the hospital.Originally, the school had spread the story of the arrest of the culprit of the slasher, but because of Kise's injury, the topic changed from who the culprit was to Kise's heroic devotion.I've heard Eriko talk about this a few times, because Kasamatsu from the basketball club has made a fuss about it many times, Kise's injuries always make girls go to the basketball club with gifts of condolences, which makes the basketball club several times Unable to perform normal training times.

"Because of Kise-kun, Kasamatsu-senpai is very troubled." This is what Eriko told me.

I think Eriko has probably found someone who will be by her side.Every time Kasamatsu is mentioned, her expression will be slightly different, more joyful.

I suddenly thought of the words Kise told me in the hospital, those words were so profound that he didn't seem to be able to say them at all.Kise seems to be a very friendly person, but I can feel that, in fact, he should be a person who is not easy to really talk to.And Kise's eyes were so serious that they were already engraved into my eyes at that time. I am sure that he was not just talking to me with some flirty and beautiful words. His golden brown eyes like the sun seemed to have been deeply imprinted into my eyes. bottom of my heart.

He really treats me like a friend.

After the accident when I was 14 years old, all the so-called friends I made in Ice Emperor abandoned me and left me. No one wants to talk to me anymore. They look at me like they are looking at bugs on carrion. Disgusting, not to mention the long period of being regarded as the so-called murderer.When I came to Kanagawa, I didn't communicate with other people much.

Eriko is a heart-warming and good girl. Maybe she won't look down on me like those people used to, but I still think it's better not to tell her about those terrible pasts. bring her.

As for the people who have had an important influence on me since then, besides Kise, there are two other people.One is Sanada, who has helped me many times, and the other is Keigo Atobe, the student council president of Hyotei at that time.

I never thought that I would meet Keigo Atobe again.The intersection between me and him was nothing more than a completely business-like relationship between the chairman and the vice-chairman.

He is a free-spirited and confident person, and he probably never paid attention to the gossip about me.Under the circumstances back then, it was probably because he also believed in me...believing in his own judgment, so he helped me without saying anything.

Although there was only one time, or maybe he just happened to pass by and let me get a ride, but this move, in my eyes when I was on the verge of collapse, seemed to pull me out of the hand of despair.

I met Keigo Atobe when I started my new job on the first day. I accidentally saw him in the family restaurant near Haichang where the manager was German.He came with his tennis club members. I met several of them when I was in junior high school. I didn't expect that they are still a united group today.

Keigo Atobe recognized me when I went to take their order.Wearing the uniform of the store and serving them at the table, there is no doubt that I am the waiter here.When he took the menu, his eyes paused on me for a long time, his eyes were a bit complicated while being surprised.Then, he nodded and greeted me, "Lan Yuan, long time no see."

"Well, long time no see, Atobe-kun."

Simple to the extreme greeting, no more words.

From their conversation, it can be known that they came to Kanagawa to exchange games with the Lihai University Tennis Club.As for the restaurant that will come here, it seems that because Keigo Atobe and the store manager know each other, they are still acquaintances.

There is no more dialogue between Atobe and Atobe, just such a hasty intersection, and then staggered again.

Before leaving the restaurant, Atobe didn't come to see me alone, but just nodded goodbye to me when he left.I think so too, there is nothing to reminisce between me and him.It's like when I was marginalized in Ice Empress back then, he couldn't help me.

I didn't blame him, and I have no right to blame him. In fact, he was willing to greet me again, so I felt that he didn't treat me differently.

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I was a little surprised that Kise came here before work was over.He is dressed very casually today. Compared with Haichang's uniforms in the past, it highlights his advantages. After all, as a model, he looks good in anything.

He greeted me with a smile, then sat at the bar closest to me, and ordered a parfait.

"Why did Huang Se-kun come here alone?" I asked as I placed the concubine I just made on the coaster in front of him.

"Didn't I agree with Xiao Lanyuan before that we would go to the hospital to see Aunt Yuko together?"

Ah... he still remembers this.

In fact, I was a little embarrassed and at a loss for this agreement.I probably hope that he will forget about this matter soon, just take it as what he said to comfort me at that time, even if it has not been put into practice, I am very happy to hear his concern.

"I thought you had an appointment with someone."

I was just joking, but Kise suddenly complained with puffy face: "Xiao Lanyuan, I came here specially to wait for you, and I also specially wore the new style that just came out this week!" He said, pulling showing me his coat, "I'm serious about this!"

I was amused by his appearance, and even laughed a little rudely.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry... Thank you, Kise-kun." I apologized for my rudeness and thanked Kise for coming to wait for me.I waved my hands and hoped that Huang Lai would not mind, but when I said it, I paused again, closed my hand and put my palm on my lips as a silence.

With Kise, as expected, apart from apologizing, it means thanking you...

"Xiao Lanyuan, what's wrong with you?" Seeing that I suddenly stopped and showed embarrassment, Kise asked in question.

"Hmm... probably don't know what I can say to Kise-kun." I smiled apologetically, "Sure enough, it's the same as what Kise-kun said, there's nothing more to say besides apology and thanks..."

As I said that, I lowered my head in embarrassment again, not daring to see Kise's reaction, and I didn't know what else to say next.

After a few seconds of silence, Huang Lai finally opened his mouth slowly: "But, Xiao Lanyuan laughed." He said it in a very relaxed tone, with his unique clear voice, which was very heart-warming.

I was about to raise my head, but Kise reached out and patted my head a few times.The wide palm casts a shadow in front of my eyes, and my vision is all his palm.His hands were warm, almost tender.

"There is no restraint, no apology and thank you, it is no different from ordinary conversation. Xiaolanyuan, remember this mood now."

"Ok?"

"Smiling mood."

Kise sees it very clearly. A large part of the previous apologies and thanks are indeed because I was at a loss and only knew how to use these words to deal with my embarrassment and anxiety.

"Kise-kun... What a magical person." I couldn't help but sigh.

"Oh, the description of this compliment is really special!"

He is so miraculous that I imprinted him into my mind without realizing it, and without realizing it, he gradually influenced me.And when I noticed it, his smile, his voice, and every word of his, seemed to be integrated into the bone marrow, and I would instinctively associate them.

I look forward to him, his existence is like an unstoppable light to me, and I am the sunflower chasing his direction.

Afterwards, before the end of the work, the store manager suddenly asked me in stumbling Japanese, if I was not feeling well or had any serious problems and needed to go to the hospital.He probably heard the hospital in the conversation between Kise and me, but he didn't understand the meaning of the whole sentence.I was in a hurry to explain to him, and he understood that I was anxious about the hospital, and then allowed me to end today's work early.

Maybe everything has a causal connection. Although it would be a bit far-fetched to say so, leaving early is really like foreseeing a major event.

After Kise and I arrived at Nishimidai Hospital, the elevator stopped on the seventh floor and opened the door. From the direction at the end of the corridor, we saw doctors and nurses rushing towards the elevator pushing the transfer bed anxiously.Among the crowd around the hospital bed, I saw Watanabe, his face was not very good-looking.

Suddenly a bad premonition rushed to my heart.I stood in the elevator, afraid to go out for a long time.

"Junko-san, I wanted to call you just now." Watanabe stopped me at the elevator entrance, and then waved to me to let me enter another special elevator with them, "Please be mentally prepared, you The mother's condition has suddenly deteriorated, and the situation is very bad now, and emergency surgery is being prepared here, so I need to trouble you to sign the consent form for the surgery." There are no other family members, and the only one who can sign is me.

Watanabe's enunciation was precise and clear, and I didn't even have a chance to mishear.I don't know how I got into the elevator in the end. When I came back to my senses, the pale and haggard face of my mother lying on the bed had clearly appeared in front of my eyes.

The sudden blow made me, who was not mentally prepared, almost lose my thinking, and trembled all over because of fear.My legs were so weak that I could hardly stand up, I didn't just sit down on the ground, it was Kise who hugged my shoulders from behind me.

Then I was in a trance, the scene in front of me was dizzying, and when signing, my fingers trembled so much that I almost couldn't even hold the pen.He watched in a daze as his mother was pushed into the operating room, and then the red light for "in operation" flickered on.

The red light was dazzling, but in my eyes it turned into a whole piece of vigilant bright red.

Now I can't do anything, I just sit numbly on the chair at the door of the operating room, with my head slightly lowered, my hands clasped together in front of my forehead, praying in my heart——

It must be fine...

The wait became long because of fear, the air around him seemed to be still, sticking to the skin exposed outside the clothes like frost.This feeling of powerlessness is the same as when he was yelled at by that man to get out of the house a long time ago. He has clear fingers, but he can't do anything, he can only let it go.

Kise sat on the chair next to me, I closed my eyes and didn't look at him, I just simply felt his existence.He was unbelievably quiet, compared with the usual talkative him, there was too much contrast.This kind of speechlessness can make me feel more at ease, at least I am not so afraid of the anxiety about the operation.

But even so, the timidity from the bottom of my heart still makes my heart beat fast. I can't accept what will happen in the unforeseen future.

The tension turned into exhaustion due to the passage of time, my body was still stiff, and my eyes, which were staring straight at the door of the operating room, had begun to dry up.And the already lifeless atmosphere in the hospital turned my waiting bit by bit into panic approaching despair.

I am negative and I cannot face everything with optimism.In my eyes, they are probably the shadows under the reality. I have seen too much and experienced a lot of those helpless, collapsed but powerless past, but the reality is like this, and it will happen inadvertently. , crushing people to the point of being unable to turn over.

For me, there has never been anything too lucky, it is simply such a luxurious expectation, I dare not even look at it.The light in my eyes gradually dimmed, and my thoughts began to slowly enter a state of emptiness.

"Xiao Lanyuan." Seeing that my expression was wrong, Kise suddenly called my name, "You have to trust Aunt Yuko, Aunt Yuko is working hard, how can you give up early?"

I turned my face and looked up at him.There is soft firmness in the golden brown eyes, as if flashing just to make me believe.

His own weakness was completely exposed in the gaze towards Kise.His brows and eyes were slightly curved, full of indescribable relief and tenderness.I just looked into his eyes and couldn't say a word.

I don't want to give up, but... I don't have the courage to persist anymore...

Fear is one of the triggers of a complete breakdown, and luckily before my breakdown, the red lights went down and the doors opened in the operating room.The attending physician, Watanabe, came out first, and I stood up abruptly and walked towards him quickly.

His mask has not been taken off, I can only see his exposed eyes.Are his eyes too heavy?

"Doctor Watanabe..."

It seems that I called Watanabe's name, and he turned away, looked at me who was already standing in front of him, his eyes were obviously taken aback, then he took off his mask, and said in an extremely low tone: "Junko San...we did our best."

"Try what?" Did I understand something wrong?

"The rescue failed, and the patient died during the operation." Watanabe changed his tone and announced to me very formally.

"What are you talking about?" I blinked at Watanabe, and subconsciously raised the corners of my mouth to try to ignore the positive meaning of the sentence received in my mind.

"Junko-san..."

At that time, the sound of the friction of the wheels rolling on the ground and the sound of metal vibration gradually increased, and the nurses pushed the carts out of the operating room.There is no vertical hanger or supporting equipment on the cart, but the mother is simply placed on it.The mother's body was covered from head to toe by a pale sheet, and only the undulating curves of her body could be seen.

My eyes darkened for a while, and I took a few steps back. Kise stepped forward and grabbed my arm, so I didn't fall back directly.

The cart passed by me, Watanabe nodded politely, and left with the cart.I didn't know how to react, I stood like a log, my mind went blank.

At this moment, I seem to hear the sound of the world collapsing.

It’s not that I haven’t seen any scenes of life and death wandering, whether it’s the corpses of Aihara Masaoyuki and Mayu, or the trajectory of Shibai Ayu’s gradual death... anyone’s death has nothing to do with me, except for my mother .I think this kind of feeling is probably the real sense of despair... The last reason to survive has been taken away.

Looking at the cart that was getting further and further away, I just stood where I was, without the courage to follow.I clearly knew what kind of situation I was in, but I didn't have a particularly big reaction, I didn't even have an expression, or maybe I was so frightened that I forgot what emotions to express.It was as if something had been sucked out of the body, and it became empty.

In a daze, his wrist was pulled violently, and then he slammed into a warm embrace.My breath stopped, it was Kise.His arms wrap around my side, then tighten.His broad palms rested on my head, pressing me hard into his arms.I was buried in such a hug, receiving the temperature that belonged to Kise.

"This way no one will see it." Kise's voice was very soft, gentle to the extreme.

This sentence is like a spell to break the magic. I have always hypnotized myself that I am strong and cannot cry casually. I can no longer restrain it. All the grief and pain in my heart erupted like a volcano.Those negative emotions and humble self-sorrow are just magma, with burning pain, flowing through every corner of my heart.

I cried, in Kise's arms, my whole body trembling, there was no sound of crying, only choked gasps, as if venting like this was a disguised form of pain.

"What should I do..." The voice became muffled because I was buried in Kise's arms, I kept repeating this sentence, and finally it turned into an unconscious murmur.

"Xiao Lanyuan still has me." Huang Lai's voice came into my ears clearly, and the serious tone of every word hit my heart, "Painful things cannot become non-existent because of my evasion , It’s impossible to forget something right now. The more you want to forget, the stronger the feeling will become, and in the end, you will be afraid to face everything…”

As Kise spoke, he backed away a little bit, withdrew his hand from behind me, and turned to my palm.He held up my hand, his slender and beautiful fingers passed between my fingers, and he clasped my hand in the way of clasping his fingers.

"Xiao Lanyuan said that there is sunshine on my face." After finishing speaking, Kise held my hand and pressed it to his face, the warmth of my cheeks instantly smeared on the back of my cold hand.

I was stunned. I blurted out that sentence unintentionally a long time ago, but I didn't expect him to remember it.

"So, if Xiao Lanyuan is afraid, then just grab me, hold me like this."

I looked up at Kise like this, he was more dazzling than ever.I raised my lips uneasily, then held his hand back, "Thank you...Kise-kun, thank you..."

Kise is my sunshine...