That nanny, rotten!

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Vol.3【Happiness】

{Xiao Yu, you must not know, right?The days when you lived in my house were the happiest time in my life...}

I've heard people say, [A woman who looks beautiful even though she has an unfortunate expression should be careful. 】

Because the more she looks strong like this, the more people want to break her with their own hands - Xiaoyu is such a woman.

Four years later, Xiao Yu, who has gradually faded from her childishness, is now slim and graceful, and can be called a "woman" gradually - the same thing is that you are still afraid of me.

Because of my father's accident, you must be very unhappy to have to send me under the fence. The uncomfortable look on your face when we met suddenly suggested that you remembered that night, and my frivolous behavior would pass me by. When you are by your side, you noticeably quicken your pace.

"Don't worry, I won't do that to you again" Although it's a bit despicable to say so, but your father's accident gave me a little balance, 【Thank you for your misfortune, relieved my jealousy】——This, It's me with low self-esteem, my thoughts that couldn't be more real, and [this time, I want to be nice to you].

There is a fallen leaf on your head, "Mo Yu" I called your full name for the first time, just to see how you would respond.

The worry of being wrapped in a coat all the way is superfluous... and the look in the eyes of that "Wind Xiao Xiao Yi Shui Han strong man is gone forever"... How long will it take to restore the trust that was destroyed before?

Sleeping in bed is probably your only shortcoming?But thanks to this, I can prepare breakfast for you every day.

I don't know how to cook, and the only thing that won't kill you is noodles, but it won't taste good after a long time-so even if you know that you are very angry when you get up, it still disturbs your dreams in the early morning of your birthday.

However, I just said [Happy Birthday], you can't overreact like this, can you?And Dad, too much talk.

I don't have your art talent, but I have worked hard all my life... Although there is no way to turn back time, mistakes in life are not like homework done wrong, there is no chance to correct... But I still hope can make up for it.

"Yes, I'm sorry, I just came to return, return the reference book." Although the date of your leaving my house was set early in the morning, but until you said it, I didn't feel it.

Holding your face in both hands, I want to take a good look at the end, "You, you should also pay more attention to rest, you are already good enough, don't put so much pressure on yourself", but you said such a cute line.

I have to admit that I can't see through you: from the beginning of our acquaintance, every time our eyes meet in the air, you are always the one to avoid first, and you are always careful when you speak... But when I thought you were weak, you Will become strong, and when I thought you obeyed, you suddenly resist... I can't help but think of the time when you slapped me, and the scene that happened in the stairwell afterwards.

"I, like you" blurted out.

"You like me too?" A desperate fight.

If you nod, I am naturally happy.

But even if you shake your head desperately, I will just take it as [If you want to refuse] - because I can't bear it anymore, I want to kiss you.

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Vol.4【Out of Control】

{Xiao Yu, you must not know, right?I have had too many ridiculous thoughts: If I am punished by the law, can I be relieved from my conscience? }

Xiaoyu, the college entrance examination, the battle of thousands of troops squeezing the single-plank bridge, has never been within the scope of my worries.

All I can think about is whether I should go to the same city with you.

Although you didn't refuse my kiss that day, you didn't make it clear.

After all, I am the one who left you with so much fear and hatred. If you don’t say [like], I won’t be able to push forward to ask for [association]... Then maybe it would be better to keep some distance... So you go I went to Q University in Beijing, but I chose to stay in T University in Shanghai.

Our relationship may not be considered a long-distance relationship, but a delicate and ambiguous relationship maintained through China Mobile.

But for me, this is also a good experience. Isn’t it a kind of happiness to be able to talk about life and dreams with you like a friend instead of an enemy?

It wasn't until halfway through the first semester of my sophomore year that I went home and didn't say hello to my father. I pushed open the door and saw him having a candlelight dinner with that woman. It was so romantic.Embarrassed, I rushed into the house and took the things I wanted to pick up. I didn't say a word to them, and then I rushed downstairs... I couldn't get rid of the boredom and depression. That night, I learned By swallowing clouds, choking and stimulating to numb yourself.

"Reng Sa, what's the matter?" Although Xiao Yu was not delicate, she was definitely smart, and quickly noticed my abnormality.

"It's nothing, you think too much" and I couldn't say it.Because for so many years, I have never seen my father so happy. The union between him and my mother was really only because of my [mistake] of being pregnant, so I had to give up my love... It is ridiculous to say that falling in love with Xiao After Yu, I couldn't hate my father anymore. Instead, I felt guilty towards him, thinking that I broke up a couple who loved each other.

"We are getting married."

"Congratulations" What's even more ridiculous is that I am the only one who is so entangled and suffering.After they announced the news of their marriage, Xiaoyu smiled and congratulated without hesitation for a moment.

Congratulations?

They're married, so what do we do?

Xiaoyu, do you know that this means that you and I will become siblings in law!

Then in 2003, in the early morning of the first day of junior high school, I completely completed the role I had been playing in Xiaoyu's life from the very beginning—the devil.

The moment I heard you call me [brother], I lost control.

I long for you, every minute and every second from before to now, I have been longing to have you, in the form of a lover or a wife—absolutely anyway, not a sister.

But you, you accepted this so-called "sister" new relationship without the slightest resistance or struggle, tormenting my soul crazily.

I was so unwilling, "My mother didn't die of dystocia when she gave birth to me, but committed suicide because of depression—it's all your mother's fault!" This unwillingness can only be calmed down when you see you in pain, "When I was young, I only knew [bullying], but growing up taught me to take revenge: Saying I like you, making you fall in love with me is all part of my carefully planned process." I am making up lies without any choice, as long as it can hurt you... Because, if I am the only one who is unwilling and suffering... Isn't it like a fool? !

"From the first time I met you, everything I did was to destroy you!"

I am ready to enter your body, and the phrase "gaining means losing" began to echo in my mind.

"Huh~ I'm really worthy of being called Mo Yu, your reaction is like a dead fish, it's disgustingly boring." But even if I slammed on the brakes desperately, the taste of despair has already come to the tip of my tongue.

You numbly got up and straightened your clothes, and walked to the bathroom, your lips were bitten by your teeth, dripping with blood, "Xie Rengsai, I'm sorry about your mother's matter." With your cold voice, maybe you will never look back at me in your life, right?

I inserted my fingers into my hair and grabbed the roots tightly, expressing my regret through the pain caused by this action.I have no way of explaining what happened to the out-of-control just now, I just feel that desire|desire comes overwhelmingly accompanied by hatred.

Extraordinary calm, and indifference.

I turned around and grabbed your arm, the muscles where my fingertips touched were obviously tense, you looked up at me with cold eyes, the disheartened determination in your eyes hurt me so much, so I had to hurry let go.

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Vol.5 【Love】

{Xiao Yu, you must not know, right?It is impossible for me to recognize your taste...}

I think my expression should be quite strange in your eyes. It is the feeling of a person who has been sentenced to death and is suddenly pardoned: on that frantic night two years ago, your desolate and desperate eyes, for a moment They never let go of my soul. I often wake up from my dreams, guilt and remorse surge in the silence, and I am on the verge of collapse.

However, you did not forgive me.You stepped sideways to avoid me, and walked in front of your mother indifferently, [Guardian's signature], the purpose of coming to my house is only this.I personally annihilated your bright smile, which I was obsessed with, and you decided to go to the farther America, completely abandoning our relationship.

I ran to the airport to see you off like an idiot, and you passed me without stopping.You are used to turning your back to me, so you can't see my sadness, but the moment I watch you leave, I know that there is a long distance between you and me.

Even so, you are still an unbearable weight in my life, and I can't give up.

But our relationship is like a cat and a mouse: I chase all the way, you escape all the way: From the United States to Hong Kong, how many time zones have we crossed...

Xiaoyu, you don’t know how many scenes I have fantasized about possible reunions, but I never imagined that it will be at your mother’s funeral: you are wearing a black suit, even if you don’t wear any makeup, you are still thrillingly beautiful, but it’s more beautiful. Mature, like a butterfly breaking out of its cocoon, instantly made my breathing heavy.