Pilot

The conversation with Xie Hong broke up unhappy.

Shi Ye felt that he had fled in despair.He dragged Sheng Xia out, he even forgot to be polite and didn't say goodbye.

They walked through the corridors of the hospital, both of them in a rare silence.Some people passed by them with a sickly face and a dull expression, and their gazes were also faint and tired.The atmosphere here is oppressive for no reason, and no one is smiling.

Shi Ye squeezed Sheng Xia's arm tightly and walked faster and faster.

They saw a little girl in a hospital gown.The child had sunken eye sockets, was very thin, had a shaved head, and did not know what disease he had.

It was strange at that moment, Sheng Xia was looking at her.In fact, there was nothing in each other's eyes, but he inexplicably felt something... something like calling for help from her eyes.

When passing by, Sheng Xia heard her suddenly open her mouth and shout: "Brother."

Sheng Xia stopped suddenly, and also grabbed Shi Ye who was in front of him.There were mints in the bag, Sheng Xia wanted to take it out and hand it to her, but before she could move, a nurse ran over and picked her up, saying Yuanyuan, why did you run out.

He continued to be dragged away by Shi Ye, the little girl was leaning on the nurse's shoulder, looking at Sheng Xia with her big eyes, she kept looking at him with no expression on her face, until she disappeared around the corner.

"I hope you get well soon." Sheng Xia was still thinking about her when he was in the elevator, he said to himself, "Yuanyuan, and Sister Hong."

Shi Ye suddenly said, "I hate this place."

Sheng Xia nodded: "No one likes it, but there is nothing you can do about birth, old age, sickness and death. I used to be sick when I was young, and I often went to the hospital... What did I know when I was a child? I didn't even know what death was and what death meant. But I remember one time …The man in the same ward as me was a boy with leukemia, older than me. He had already left before I was discharged from the hospital. I asked my mother where he had gone, and my mother told me at that time that he would not It will be uncomfortable, and I still don’t understand it at that time.”

Midsummer lowered her head.

"There is no shortage of such stories in hospitals, and the world should not lack them."

Shi Ye turned his head to look at Sheng Xia.

Sheng Xia looked up at him, with a comforting tone: "Don't be sad."

Shi Ye didn't speak, but the hand holding him was getting tighter and tighter.

When he reached the parking lot and walked up to the car, Shi Ye turned out the car key, but his hands shook a little and he couldn't hold it firmly, the key fell to the ground.In Shengxia, he bent down to pick it up first, and before Shi Ye could react, he stood up and hugged Shi Ye tightly.

"Don't be sad, take your time." Sheng Xia rarely spoke so quickly, "Slow down, don't drive for now."

Can't wait.

Shi Ye pinched Sheng Xia's shoulder and pressed him firmly against the car door.

Sheng Xia wore contact lenses today, and when Shi Ye kissed him, he clearly saw someone passing by from the corner of his eye, and a burly man saw them with a surprised expression on his face.

Shi Ye pressed him down and kissed him for a long time, as if venting something.The kiss was eager, impulsive, and demanding at the beginning, but later became a little dejected.He could feel that Shi Ye was irritable, depressed, and in need of comfort.

Sheng Xia opened his mouth to let Shi Ye's tongue stick in, and gently ran his hand along Shi Ye's back.He stared at the people passing by from the corner of his eye—someone stared at him intently, and he glanced over nervously and coldly, until he saw that the other person turned his face away in embarrassment.

It wasn't until Sheng Xia saw someone pick up the phone that he pinched Shi Ye's shoulder and coaxed him into the car with nice words.

When Sheng Xia got into the car, he saw that Shi Ye's eyes were very red, and there were a lot of bloodshot eyes all of a sudden.

Shi Ye calmed down for a long time before he whispered, "Come here and give me a hug."

Sheng Xia glanced at him, took off his shoes, climbed onto Shi Ye's lap with difficulty in the narrow space, and hugged Shi Ye in an awkward and uncomfortable position.

"It's okay." Sheng Xia's voice was gentle, and he hugged Shi Ye and comforted him softly, "It's okay."

"It's late," Shi Ye closed his eyes, "I thought I could still control it..."

"No one can do anything about being sick. There are so many accidents in this world." Sheng Xia sighed, "What do you want me to say, Teacher Shi Ye, why do you..."

"Don't think that I'm older than you, that I can accept everything and be calm about everything." Shi Ye interrupted him, "Xie Hong...I treat her as my own sister in my heart."

Xie Hong and Gao Ce are very special to Shi Ye.

"In the years when I was the most rebellious, it was Sister Hong who took care of me." Shi Ye said in a weary voice, "I had nowhere to go and didn't want to go home. She always took good care of me and advised me to go back to school. You don’t know, Xie Hong knows everything about guitar, bass, drums, and is very good at being a person. She was so sassy when she was young, and the people chasing her should line up from here to Wudaokou.”

Sheng Xia nodded: "I can see it."

"At that time, she was going to marry Gao Ce, but she wanted to rest, and Gao Ce wanted to go up... I can't tell what happened to them. They were soulmates at first, but later they hated each other."

It was difficult for them to digest the bad news in the late stage.

"It's strange, she is Xie Hong at several important points in my life." Shi Ye looked depressed, "When I was at my worst, she and Gao Ce were my bole. Xie Hong disliked Gao Ce's operation. About the band, Gao Ce wouldn’t have had such an ugly fight with her later if it wasn’t because he wanted to praise the pilot. And if it wasn’t for her, I wouldn’t have met you either.”

When listening to Shi Ye's words, Sheng Xia took out a bag of plums from his bag, and stuffed one into Shi Ye's mouth without any explanation.

Sheng Xia scolded him softly: "Obviously you're very worried and sad, you're going to get into trouble, you'll explode when you see Sister Hong, you want to quarrel with others, your mouth is hard and your heart is soft, just lose your temper with me, and get angry with Sister Hong .”

"I'm not angry with her, I'm... angry with myself." Shi Ye lowered his head, "I respect her values ​​and recognize her ideals, I even really want... When the project just started, I was so excited when I heard the news. heartbeat."

Sheng Xia had a clear face: "Well, I know, you have been reading related materials recently."

Shi Ye's eyes began to look far away.

"When we were in Beijing before, Xie Hong always said that she wanted to go on a grassroots tour while she was alive to see a different life."

"At that time, I was not even an adult. I always felt good watching her talk about ideals. There are still people in this world who are dreaming and doing things that others may think are meaningless but sound so cool. Can you imagine? You When I was very young, I saw a passionate and sincere person by my side, saying that I would spend my whole life dreaming, I wanted to do it all my life, this was very inspirational to me at the time, and it also influenced me a lot.”

As he said, Sheng Xia nodded.When Shi Ye needed to talk, he just listened.

"Xie Hong is a lighthouse that I have met. I have been illuminated by her before. I am angry that I am not as good as her, so I don't agree with her ending in such a dim way."

Sheng Xia fell silent, and then said: "You are not inferior to her, you just go your own way."

"Yes, each go their own way..." Shi Ye repeated softly, "I took the opposite path with her. When I was on the show, released the album, went to the music festival, and went to the award ceremony, she sang to the poor elementary school. Listen, children. Thinking about it carefully, I don't seem to have earned anything except money and you, and she is much happier than me. "

"It's pretty good to earn me." Sheng Xia smiled, "Mr. Shi Ye, you actually agree with Sister Hong in your heart, why do you still quarrel with her?"

Shi Ye was silent for a moment, and then said: "I don't know. I recognize her, but I feel that she has made herself like this... I just don't like it. I don't seem to be arguing with her, but more like I am arguing with another me I quarrel with myself—the other one I have Xie Hong’s ideals, I am persistent and determined, and the one who dare not do it I also have my own way of thinking, and they quarrel in my mind every day.”

"It seems that you who have the ideals of Sister Xie Hong won the quarrel, and Sister Xie Hong seems to have won the quarrel today, double kill." Sheng Xia nodded, "Then have you been persuaded?"

persuade?

"I've convinced myself a long time ago." Shi Ye shook his head, "I knew from the beginning that she had thought about it when she was performing with this one, but now in this situation... I can't tell whether I want to do it myself or just want to help She's done."

Sheng Xia looked at him, a little puzzled: "But I think you seem to be hesitating."

"With the current situation of the band, I can't let go of my hands and feet and do it without any scruples. I can't do it. This is where I am most weak."

Sheng Xia curled her lips: "You can't do it, you can't do it. In private, you are quietly asking others about this project. Brother Xiaojun almost found out. I think you really want to do this. You don't have to be sneaky."

"I want to," Shi Ye raised his voice, "but I can't do it just because I want to. I'm not the only one in the band."

The Pilots is already a well-known band, if they do that kind of performance again at this juncture, all development will be restricted.

"You also know that you're not the only one?" Sheng Xia touched Shi Ye's brow bone, and helped him rub his frowning brow, "You're not planning to do it alone, are you? You should talk to everyone. "

"How do we talk?" Shi Ye raised his eyes to look at him, "You have only come here not long ago, the band has just started to improve, and the momentum is also very good, Niu Xiaojun and Gao Ce have been pulling me all day, saying that you are a Ziwei star and can become famous... If I Let the band transform, how do you develop?"

Shi Ye didn't continue to look at Sheng Xia's straightforward gaze, he turned his head, "Xiao Xiang and Xiao Zheng should also have their own lives, I can't bring your future into it just because I want to pursue something. I want To the band, and to you."

I don't look around for myself, but I do for you.

Sheng Xia watched Shi Ye speak faster and faster, and when he saw the back, he started to laugh. It was a very sincere and heartfelt smile, and you could tell that he was really happy.

"So you have to ask me, the more I don't want to transition to do that project with you," Sheng Xia said slowly, "Some things still need to learn to discuss with others, you will take it for granted, too helpful for others to consider It’s not good even though I’m very touched. Otherwise, you can ask me to try it out, ask me if I’m willing, just ask once?”

Shi Ye didn't ask him, and said to himself: "Why do you go to suffer with me, the grassroots tour is much more difficult than you imagined, you should live better. You are still very young, the best age, let you do it This... I really can't do it."

Shi Ye also looked dazed and uncertain.There are too many things that are difficult to let go and weigh, and there are too many worries... It doesn't matter where he goes if he is alone that day, but now he has so many things and burdens that are difficult to let go, and he is still burdened with a midsummer future.

All heavy.

Apart from their relationship, they are also work partners, their careers and relationships are intertwined, logically they should be distinguished, but in fact it is very difficult, Shi Ye is forcing himself to make a clear distinction as much as possible.

Midsummer didn't reply to Shi Ye's words.

He said: "Get out of the car and take a walk on the street? Go and see people, and stay in a lively place for a while."