i see your calling

Lian Yan understands the definition of worrying about gain and loss very well. For example, when he was just thrown away by Xu Mei, he felt empty, as if he had fallen into the sea, and a strand of hair was hanging from the sky, which was precarious for him to climb, so as not to be reduced to nothing. Sharks eat.

He has made this place his home, even stronger than when he was at Xu Mei's place. When he wakes up in the morning, the sunlight he steps on is from here, and the tap water in his hand is from here.Lian Yan still remembers the first time she came to Shen's house, she thought it was a beautiful crystal, the crystal slowly melted and turned into a puddle of sticky water, mercifully easing his dryness, but now the water congealed again It became a piece of ice, and the voice drove him away with a loud and cold voice.

Shen Yiming has always treated him well, protected him carefully, and raised him for so many years, but Lian Yan was an unfamiliar dog, bit him back, tried to escape with fresh meat in his mouth, and was caught on the spot.So that wall was taken away, Shen Yiming didn't want him anymore, half of his feet were hanging on the edge of the cliff, precariously on the verge of falling.

He could clearly feel Shen Yiming's alienation, and looked at him with unfamiliar eyes, but in front of Shen Pingge, they all had superb acting skills. During dinner, Shen Yiming still talked to them with a smile, served him food, and blamed Shen Ping Picky eaters.

"Look at Lian Yan, she's not picky about food, what's that called? It's easy to feed!" Shen Yiming said, "You can't do it like this, if you throw it in the wilderness, pick and choose, you probably won't survive until dark. "

Lian Yan forced a smile.

After eating, Lian Yan went to clean up the dishes in silence, Shen Yiming said: "Xiaoyan, don't wash it yourself, save your hands from getting cold, throw it in the dishwasher." Then he said to Shen Pingge: "Your class Do you want to buy some materials, I will go buy it with you."

Shen Pingge said, "I'll go by myself tomorrow."

"Take a walk to digest food." Shen Yiming took his coat, "Let's go."

Shen Pingge had no choice but to go to get the coat, and when the scarf was on the hook, he suddenly turned his head and looked at Lian Yan, "Let's go together."

The air seemed to be quiet suddenly, all eyes were focused on him, Lian Yan clasped his hands subconsciously, he could choose to nod and follow them, Shen Yiming couldn't say anything, but Lian Yan didn't even dare to look Shen Yiming's eyes, he seemed As if pulled away, hanging in the cold air, watching his own movements, slowly gesticulating.

- No, I have to do my homework.

Well, this time he himself refused, he locked himself in the dark, when the door slammed, Lian Yan seemed to lose her strength and sat on the sofa.Bored, sitting cross-legged on the sofa, barefoot, eating the peaches on the transparent coffee table.

Peaches are soft and have plenty of juice when bitten down.It was very dark outside, like a thunderstorm was coming, Lian Yan remembered that Shen Pingge would be there every time there was a thunderstorm.

He also prepared a lot of bedtime stories, as if coaxing him, while feeling his trembling, while whispering, the light of the thunder point was silvery white, and it was completely blocked.Shen Pingge gave him a sense of security and spring.

Lian Yan suddenly ran into Shen Pingge's bedroom again, crawled into his closet, ate peaches in the dark, held his clothes in her hands, and the sticky juice dripped onto the clothes, he was afraid that Shen Pingge would blame him, The clothes were messed up, but please don’t blame him, Lian Yan piled those clothes on her body, drowning herself, and finally found a sense of belonging.

But he also felt that he needed Shen Pingge to blame him, and it was best to lock him up.

Lock him up.

Lianyan peaches started to choke after eating half of them, but he pinched his palms to prevent his tears from falling on Shen Pingge's clothes. The peach pits were held in his palms, sticking to him sweetly. He was tall and stretched. Without moving his legs and feet, he could only curl up awkwardly, and felt drowsy in a daze.

What should Pingge do if he finds him?

He has imagined countless things, but still can't think of the result. Shen Pingge is different from him, and his way of thinking is different. He can only speculate, but he is more willing to rely on Shen Pingge and follow his rope.

It will wake him up anyway.As Shen Pingge said, he will wake him up.

Lian Yan fell asleep at ease and had a dream, dreaming that he was sitting in the pointed beak of a blue bird, wet and sticky saliva dripped onto the back of his neck, it was very uncomfortable, the wind was so strong that it gave him a headache, he asked Looking down, it was clearly in the sky, but he saw Shen Pingge standing on the land. Shen Pingge was standing in a peach forest. There were too many peach petals. Lian Yan jumped from the sky without hesitation and died in front of him. , It became a peach blossom.

Tormented by the weightlessness, he woke up suddenly, looked blankly at the bright white sky, surrounded by silence, and after a minute, he suddenly realized that today is Monday, he lifted the quilt, the clothes on his body were clean, and the peach in his palm The nucleus was gone, and she was still in Shen Pingge's room, but Lian Yan ran out of the bedroom in a panic before she had time to think about it.

I packed my schoolbag indiscriminately, but saw a post-it note on the dining table - "I'm on leave, go to class in the afternoon."

The handwriting is Shen Pingge's.Lian Yan's footsteps stopped, and her suspended heart was relieved.Don't be in such a hurry, dawdle for a while, finish the meal slowly, don't wait for the afternoon, and go to school at nine o'clock.

get out of class was not over yet, Lian Yan didn't want to enter the classroom, it would inevitably become the focus of attention, he carried his schoolbag, walked to the third floor, and looked at Shen Pingge from the glass of the back door.

He misses Shen Pingge intensely, even though he just didn't see each other overnight, Lian Yan still wants to kiss him, want to have physical contact with him, want to put her hand into his pants, and also want to get his palms dirty, all these are the flourishing of puberty thoughts.

Lian Yan couldn't really stay away from Shen Pingge.

Shen Pingge and the others are in class, it is English, he listens intently, but a little carelessly, Lian Yan is fascinated by his temperament, even thinks that his posture of turning the pen is beautiful, the sun shines in, and the tails of the eyelashes are golden .

"It doesn't do any good for you to be together with Pingge. You have also seen that when others know that you are together, how bad the scolding is. Xiaoyan, do you have the heart to let Pingge be scolded? He could have spared this."

Thinking of Shen Yiming's words, Lian Yan pursed her lips, but still couldn't move her eyes, staring at Shen Pingge's face, suddenly saw Shen Pingge looking sideways, Lian Yan's heart skipped a beat, she subconsciously hid to the side, Against the wall.After a while, he left slowly, like a thief.

Eating together at noon will inevitably attract attention, and Lian Yan doesn't want to eat, so she misses the chance to see him and sleeps on the table in the classroom.

Everyone knows it, but they still can't see the light, and it's the same at night, when they study and leave school at night, they are teased for no reason in the noise, asking: "Where's your boyfriend, why hasn't he come to see you all day?" He laughed and laughed ,"broke up?"

Lian Yan clenched her hands tightly, then loosened them, and silently packed her schoolbag.

So be it.

After leaving the classroom door, Lian Yan suddenly saw a figure at the door. Shen Pingge was leaning against the wall with a schoolbag in his hand, as if in a trance. Sensing his gaze, he looked over and said, "Class is finally over." Lian Yan paused, her mind went blank, she stared blankly at Shen Pingge stretching out her hand towards him, and said softly, "Come on, let's go."

Why is Shen Pingge here?Lian Yan didn't have time to think about it, so she handed herself over to him - out of instinct.

I forgot where I saw it. Before a person dies, the most unforgettable event in his life will appear in front of his eyes. Lian Yan thought, that moment is definitely worth remembering before dying, except that it is like a dream.Shen Pingge grabbed his hand and led him through the crowd, passing through the colorful gazes, he also heard malicious cheers, booing, real applause, as if he was a hero!But he is clearly nothing.

Lian Yan looked at Shen Pingge's hair and side face in confusion, and tried to hold his hand tightly to keep up with him. They didn't seem like they were going to leave school, but they were rushing to escape the earth and elope into the universe.

His heart swelled hotly, filled with an unspeakable sense of satisfaction and happiness, decided not to let him go, followed him downstairs, and laughed uncontrollably.

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