i see your calling

Lian Yan has wounds on both hands, deep and shallow, but they are all red.

Shen Pingge was still wearing the black suit, sitting with his legs apart, clasped his hands against his forehead, and waited for his wound to be treated in silence. Pale ankles come.

Lian Yan is very afraid of pain, especially when disinfecting with alcohol and applying iodophor, but he can no longer act like a baby with peace of mind, and just clenches his hands tightly to endure the pain.

"Don't touch the water after you go back, change the medicine regularly, and you'll be fine in about a week," the doctor pointed, "Just go over there and pay."

If it wasn't for him, perhaps Shen Pingge would have slept at home, he was so tired during the day, he must have fallen asleep quickly, but Lian Yan shattered his sweet dream plan.After paying the money, Lian Yan followed him. They were walking back to the villa. Shen Pingge didn't look back at him all the way, and he didn't explain to him gently like before, and comforted him gently. Lian Yan felt like a neck The chained dog was dragged staggeringly, almost unable to keep up with him, but when they separated, Shen Pingge would slow down, as if waiting for him.

From here to the villa, a total of 43 minutes.

After walking for 43 minutes, my knees and ankles hurt, and the wound was hot. When I arrived at the villa, Shen Pingge finally agreed to look at him, hugged him horizontally, and suddenly felt weightless—this reminded Lian Yan of him. When he was caught stealing food before, his feet went numb, and Shen Pingge picked him up in the same way.

Shen Yiming was still alive at that time.

Their life experience is divided into two stages: "before Shen Yiming's death" and "after Shen Yiming's death". Now their love is not hindered by their families, but they have not become noble and fearless. Lian Yan is sure that there is a transparent relationship between them. An invisible barrier, but I don't know when this barrier can be broken.

Shen Pingge helped him undress, asked him to raise his hands to avoid the warm water from splashing on the wound, patiently helped him take a bath, wiped it clean, and then put on his clothes.After all this work, it is already zero o'clock.When putting on his pajamas, Shen Pingge finally spoke and said, "I'll go back to school next Monday."

Lian Yan looked up at him.

"I've been here for too long. The school's courses have fallen behind a lot. I can't delay the courses anymore. My dad took care of the company's affairs before, and I don't know how to take care of them. I will leave them to the agent team for the time being. , I will learn the rest slowly," Shen Pingge lowered his eyelashes, and helped him fasten the buttons, "I may apply for graduation a year early in the future, and come back after a year... I will come back for some long vacations, In the past, my dad paid for your living expenses, and I will pay for it in the future, and the living expenses will be settled every six months, if it is not enough, you can ask me for it again."

Lian Yan bit her lip, lowered her eyes, and nodded slightly after a while.

Today is Wednesday, only four days away from Monday.Lian Yan truly felt the cruelty of incompetence, Shen Pingge supported him for everything after Shen Yiming left, he couldn't do anything, he was crying every day!He couldn't even be well-behaved, his desire for monopoly was raging and raging, saying that he would destroy them all.

Lian Yan hadn't had a good night's sleep for a long time, he was very sleepy, but woke up very early in the morning, Shen Pingge didn't put his arms around him, and in the early hours of the morning, Lian Yan turned her back to him, watching the birth of the sun, the rays of light struggling against the shackles, and Listening to the sound of Shen Pingge's leaving footsteps as if tormented, his palms were covered with pinched red marks, until finally he didn't even feel the pain.

At seven o'clock, Lian Yan got up to pack her schoolbag, went to school, and attended lectures, even though her mind was always distracted.It doesn't matter if he writes absurd words on paper and is caught standing, standing where he is, or standing outside the classroom.

Pang Nian noticed that something was wrong with him, and when he was about to leave school, he bumped him, "Are you all right?"

Lian Yan glanced at him, shook her head, then lowered her head again.

He doesn't want to communicate with anyone now, he feels that he is depressed, but at the same time he feels that he can be saved, as long as Shen Pingge kisses him and forgives him, then everything will be in time.

After study and school at night, it was dark and the wind was icy cold, but Lian Yan went to buy oden, added a lot of things, a small bowl could hardly hold it, and added a lot of spicy food, squatting down and eating with bamboo sticks .The steaming white steam made the eye sockets hot, and Lian Yan bit the crab stick, burning the tip of her tongue.

Shen Yiming is dead and won't be going home. Shen Pingge is busy with the funeral, and he will go home late. He can do whatever he wants outside, and no one will find out how late he comes home.Lian Yan even wanted to buy a pack of cigarettes and light them with a lighter. He wanted to taste the smell of the cigarettes. The last time he snatched a little bit of smoke from Shen Pingge's lips, he had long forgotten.

Halfway through eating, her tongue was so hot that she couldn't feel it, and there was a shadow dangling in front of her body. Lian Yan raised her eyes to look at it, but lowered her head without interest, and continued to eat the rest, when suddenly the shadow in front of her stopped and blocked her. In the light of the street lamp, Lian Yan couldn't see exactly what was left in the oden, and raised her head again a little irritated.

He just met the woman's eyes.

Familiar and unfamiliar eyes.

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There is a dessert shop nearby, the decoration is ordinary, and the golden lights are full of cheap feeling, but it is close and quiet, and the glass door isolates the cold world.They sat near the door and ordered a cup of ordinary pearl milk tea. Lian Yan almost couldn't recognize Xu Mei sitting there.

Xu Mei.

The name was a bit unfamiliar to him.Almost as soon as he saw her, those ugly and nasty memories came back like a tidal wave, dragging him into the waves involuntarily, asking him to smell the rotting seaweed.Lian Yan looked at Xu Mei almost indifferently, carefully examining her.

Xu Mei is getting old.She is very obviously old. When she abandoned Lian Yan, she was about 35 years old. Now five years have passed, Xu Mei is 40 years old, but she looks older than [-]. There are many silvery white hairs in the black hair. Si, with more wrinkles on her face, wearing cheap clothes, looks nervous.

She seemed to have fallen from the sky, standing in front of him suddenly, just like she had thrown him away that day.It looks like an accident, maybe it has been planned for a long time.

"Mom didn't expect that you would still be willing to sit and chat with... and mother," Xu Mei rubbed her hands unconsciously, not daring to meet Lian Yan's eyes, her voice was almost inaudible, "I just sat down from Shenzhen a few days ago. The train came here and I rented a second-hand house. I just wanted to find you, but I didn't expect to find you..."

Lian Yan lowered her head, indifferent.

"How old are you now?" Xu Mei didn't get an answer, she smiled awkwardly, and said to herself, "Were you twelve? Or fourteen? Now you're so tall—"

Lian Yan's little patience was almost exhausted, she raised her eyes and frowned at Xu Mei.

"You grow so fast, you must be more than 1.7 meters now. Mom has been worried about you, afraid that you won't be able to eat enough after I leave... Thanks to Shen Yiming for taking you in..."

Lian Yan stood up abruptly, the scar would be repeatedly uncovered and poured with white water. He didn't want to suffer any more, and he didn't want to talk to Xu Mei about the past, and he didn't want to hear her talk about being thrown away. Mei, he couldn't help thinking of Shen Yiming, that feeling of helplessness and oppression devoured him again.

Lian Yan grabbed the doorknob, but before the door opened, Xu Mei also stood up, grabbed his clothes, and hurriedly said: "Listen to Mom! Don't leave, Mom is begging you."

Lian Yan looked into her eyes, her eyes were red.

"I know, it was my mother's fault, it was my mother's fault that she left you back then!"

Lian Yan let go of the door and gestured to her, he knew Xu Mei could understand.

- that's a crime.

"Yes... yes, I'm committing a crime, I'm at fault, if you think my mother is guilty, I'll turn myself in after a while, and I'll go to jail, but——you sit down now and listen to what mother has to say, okay? Okay?" Xu Mei begged.

After a while, Lian Yan finally sat down, shook off Xu Mei's hand, went to drink pearl milk tea, and bit the pearls—the pearls here were also poorly boiled, and the core of the pearls was still hard, like biting a boiled stone. .

"I read it in the newspaper—I, I have always read the economic newspaper. Shen Yiming often reads that newspaper. Mom has always cared about you. Knowing that you have entered Shen's house, she is afraid that you will be bullied there," Xu Mei He stammered, as if he was afraid that he would leave again, but he said illogically, "Mom and your uncle have been in Shenzhen for the past few years, and we have not had a good life, oh, we got married three years ago... ..."

Lian Yan still has a little impression of that man, not much, she just remembers that man was smiling when Xu Mei pushed him.He didn't like Xu Mei calling that man "your uncle", but he just shook his hand and held back.

"Then two years ago, your uncle...he got uremia, and our family went bankrupt all of a sudden. He used it for dialysis and bought medicine for treatment." Xu Mei looked at Lian Yan with tears in her eyes, "Mom has been I wanted to come back to look for you. I really regretted throwing you away. I don’t think I’m human. A few days ago, I read the newspaper and said that Shen Yiming was dead. My mother thought that you might need your mother..."

"What's more," Xu Mei wiped away her tears, "I saw in the newspaper that you shared 40% of the inheritance—"

Lian Yan couldn't bear it anymore, stood up again, pushed open the door and walked out, Xu Mei caught up from behind and grabbed his wrist, "If we hadn't been desperate, we wouldn't have come to beg you, but we really don't have money I just lost my job, your uncle has no money for dialysis, only you can help us! Only you! Xiaoyan..."

Lian Yan couldn't shake her off, she struggled, her eyes were red.

For a moment, he really regretted that Xu Mei came to him!Money, money!It's all money!

Where did she go when he was thrown away and he stood alone in the empty house!Asking him for money now, if it wasn't for the money, she would never ask him in her life!

Where have you been... When he needed her, she left him.Then don't come back!

"Now that Shen Yiming is dead, you have no place to go. Besides, it's been so long, you should forgive your mother!" Xu Mei choked up and said, "And! And I left you more than 2000 yuan at that time!"

Lian Yan stopped all movements and looked at her in disbelief.

"Put two or 2000 yuan in the bank, and there will be a lot of interest in the past five years, won't it, ah?" Xu Mei clenched his sleeves tightly, not choosing what to say, she swallowed, and continued, "You Just treat it, just treat it as paying back mother's money..."

"Mom isn't that kind of... that kind of mercenary person. Shen Yiming is gone. If you have no place to go, you can come with us! Mom won't leave you anymore, Mom will take care of you," Xu Mei begged , "I know you have no one to rely on. No matter what happens in the future, mom will be with you. You trust mom, okay?"

Surrounded by thick nights, the wind blew up again, and suddenly white dots fell down. In the middle and late November, it snowed here, and everyone was trapped in the snow, and when the snow stopped, no one knew is an unknown.

The author says:

Tomorrow I have a day off... TT breaks up in the next chapter, I think about how to divide it more naturally.