i see your calling

Lian Yan didn't feel that she had such a passionate desire for sex, but he always became strange in front of Shen Pingge, and this was only the first day of leaving.Shen Pingge replied him.

"If my brother doesn't wear a military training uniform, do you still want my brother?"

Lian Yan's face was hot red, he was buried under the quilt in September, he couldn't breathe well, and he just enjoyed himself, "I want my brother, I want it."

He bit his lip and repeated it again, like a baby: "I want you."

As long as Shen Pingge said a few words to him like this every day, Lian Yan was sure that she could recover, or slowly get rid of the difficult thoughts.That sad emotion is easy to dissipate. Shen Pingge took the initiative to chat with him and start a video, which would make him feel better. His gloomy point was rekindled, but the heat was limited, it burned quickly, and it was easy to extinguish. Quick, often makes Lian Yan wonder if the flame has really burned.

Except for Shen Pingge, he really has no one to communicate with. He just wants to say some things to Shen Pingge. He could communicate with Shen Yiming before. Shen Yiming also understands sign language, but Shen Yiming is almost a stranger to him now. There is only one person left.

At first, I thought that missing Shen Pingge would not be a serious problem, but later it really affected his life. Running in physical education class, even Yan was distracted while running, stepped on round stones, sprained his feet, and was so painful that he sweated coldly. He popped up, subconsciously wanted to find his brother, and swallowed his complaints.Pang Nian helped him to the infirmary, where he applied the medicine again. The pain completely diverted his attention.

The teacher asked him to contact the guardian, so he had no choice but to send a text message to Shen Yiming. He was worried that Shen Yiming might be bored, but Shen Yiming just remained silent for a while, and said, "You are waiting for me there."

It arrived in less than half an hour, Shen Yiming asked for leave for him, Lian Yan looked at him tentatively, but fortunately he didn't show any impatient look, and let him carry himself into the car, but his eyes didn't know what to look at. Where to put it, while worrying about pain, but also worrying about uneasiness.

Put him in the back seat, bypass the car and get into the driver's seat, and asked him: "I was still in a meeting, and I heard that you sprained your ankle, why are you so careless?"

Lian Yan tangled her fingers and said "um" awkwardly.

"I'll take you to the hospital." Shen Yiming drove the car, and the scenery outside the window slowly moved back. "I've asked you for a week's leave. You just need to take care of yourself at home."

Lian Yan hurriedly tugged on his sleeve with very light force, Shen Yiming gave him a sideways look, Lian Yan shook her head, and gestured to say: The infirmary has seen it.

"The school's infirmary is just such a place, and we can't find out any serious problems." Shen Yiming turned his head and concentrated on driving. "At any rate, I have to go to the hospital to see, so as not to fall into any illness."

This made Lian Yan feel flattered, and even her eyes were hot and sour. If it was placed before—a year ago?Shen Yiming's kindness to him was nothing but ordinary, but now Lian Yan is definitely grateful.He made a "hmm" sound, telling himself to be obedient, so as not to cause Shen Yiming to dislike him again.

After more than half an hour in the hospital, the investigation was finally completed. There was indeed nothing serious. Lian Yan held Shen Yiming's hand and jumped up and down, looking a little clumsy. Shen Yiming was provoked by him and said: "You Quite interesting."

Lian Yan smiled embarrassedly.

Shen Yiming hired a nanny at home to take care of him conveniently.So for the next month, he stayed at home. The initial pain was just a slap in the face, and the pain only showed its true color in the middle of the night. The pain made Lian Yan unable to sleep, and the pain was unbearable. He was very afraid of pain. When typing His hands were shaking all the time, and he said to him: Brother, I hurt so much.

It was two o'clock in the morning, and Shen Pingge probably fell asleep too.Without replying to him, Lian Yan stared at the message box, the strong light hurt his eyes, he suddenly thought, what's the point of this?Is he in love with the phone?But his heart softened again, Shen Pingge should have just finished his military training at this time, and should be dealing with the new life in the new school, he must be more tired than him.

He thought he had been struggling for a long time, but in fact it took less than 2 minutes. The message can be withdrawn, and the message box is still the last call record.

Shen Pingge asked him the next day: What did you send me last night?I fell asleep at that time.

Lian Yan was full of resentment and longing, he even wanted to go through the screen and bite Shen Pingge's shoulder to let him know what the pain was like, but he promised Shen Pingge not to lose his temper indiscriminately, besides... ...Besides, Shen Pingge did nothing wrong.

Lian Yan replied to him: I had a nightmare at night, so I wanted to send a message to my brother.

He also said: My brother will come back on eleventh, I really want to see my brother.

After a while, Shen Pingge replied: It seems that I can't go back on the [-]th. We are going to do a social practice survey and go to the nearby suburbs.

Asking like: go back after a while, okay?

not good.

Not good, not good!

Lian Yan threw the phone aside and went to wash her face, but she almost couldn't stand on her feet. She could only support the washstand with one hand and wash her face with the other. It was cold, and the cold woke him up again.

But at this time, being awake is the most useless thing, it is better to sleep in the dark.

He didn't reply to Shen Pingge's message, and when he regretted it, he wanted to call Shen Pingge, but the phone was connected after a few times, and the voice was low, Shen Pingge's breathy voice, and said: "I'm here. Go to class, hang up first."

The phone hung up abruptly, and there was a busy tone on the other end. Lian Yan didn't respond for a long time. She glanced at the time, 9:43 in the morning, it was indeed the time for class.He didn't choose a good time, it's not Shen Pingge's fault, he was idle, but Shen Pingge didn't ask for leave.

It takes a lot of brainpower to think about these things rationally, Lian Yan tried to find good excuses for all these things, but she thought in a daze, but it hurts.

When he made love with Shen Pingge before, Shen Pingge would be afraid of his pain, and would touch him gently, from shoulder to collarbone, and kiss his tattoo, just like kissing, and kiss his tears away, even though the tears It was salty and astringent, at that time Lian Yan felt like a treasure.If Shen Pingge knew that he was injured, he would definitely feel distressed, he said it! ——He will never let Lian Yan hurt.

forever?Lian Yan suddenly thought, if Shen Yiming didn't oppose them, would they be able to live forever?He never thought about this issue, he just thought that he would love Shen Pingge forever, so what if it wasn't made in heaven, he didn't mind stuffing himself into that specific outline.And now he has only left Shen Pingge for less than a month, and he is sad and sad to die.

But Lian Yan still didn't tell the fact that she was injured. Instead of making Shen Pingge worry for nothing, it's better for him to eat the pain himself. He was still laughing when he was on the phone. Anyway, he didn't cry, his eyes were clear, with blurred pixels After all, he couldn't see the emotion inside, Shen Pingge held up his mobile phone and said, "Would you like to take a look at our school and show you around."

I've seen it!But Lian Yan still nodded, yes.

The dark blue denim jacket that Shen Pingge wore today turned black. Shen Pingge was a little annoyed, saying that it would come back to white after a while, and contradicting himself, saying that it would look more manly if it was darker.But it still looks good when he smiles. Today is still a sunny day, and the wind is very strong. His hair is blown up, but his voice is still very clear. Lian Yan turned up the volume, even though it made his ears hurt a little.

The voice was lazy, just introducing the scenery on the road from the classroom to the dormitory, talking about the old trees, the lake water, and the fallen leaves. Lian Yan felt that her feet did not hurt so much. When she was about to arrive at the dormitory, Shen Pingge suddenly thought of What, say: "Why didn't you have class today?"

Lian Yan gestured and said: I am not feeling well today.

"Why are you uncomfortable?" Shen Pingge's smile suddenly disappeared, and he frowned, and said, "Is it a fever, or a cold, and the temperature of the air conditioner is turned on at night?"

Lian Yan was happy to enjoy Shen Pingge's speculation, which made him feel that Shen Pingge still loved him, so Lian Yan waited for him to finish before saying: It's just a headache.

"Take good care of yourself," Shen Pingge sighed, and through the screen, his eyes seemed to gather warmly, making Lian Yan's cheeks feel hot for no reason, "I should find a small rope and tie you to me so that I don't have to worry about it." you."

Lian Yan's heart was full of sweetness, and she smiled so hard that she couldn't see her eyes, forming a crooked arc.

The sweetness that Shen Pingge brought him had a limited period of appreciation, and soon Lian Yan fell into dull anxiety again. He had to listen to Shen Pingge's voice every day, but Shen Pingge was not free every day, so there would be no class time Lian Yan felt that this was unfair.

He is a human, he is not a machine, how can he miss according to a specific time.If you call when you don't miss it, isn't that the same as cheating?

The recovery of the sprained ankle was so slow that it was difficult to go to the toilet. Lian Yan had to ask the nanny to support him, but Lianyan felt ashamed and refused to let the nanny follow him to the toilet. The trousers were finally put on, but when I was jumping out, I fell down again, which hurt my tailbone.

The nanny saw his embarrassment, his embarrassment, those moments that he only wanted to be seen by Shen Pingge, were all exposed to the light, but he couldn't get angry with a nanny, so he went back to the room, and the nanny said he wanted to see his wounds. ,he does not want.

He was probably bruised and hurt so much, but now he is on the verge of breaking, but he still maintains a little self-esteem. When the nanny left, he became a rascal again, so he sent a message to Shen Pingge,

——You don't know how much it hurts me!

Wronged to death, said: You don't care about me.

Said: I like you so much, you can call it love, you don't like me that much, I don't want to like you anymore.

Said: I feel uncomfortable, please come back and see me, please.

Obviously he was complaining, but he didn't answer Shen Pingge's phone call, Shen Pingge must be angry, Lian Yan was annoyed, he thought, maybe he is not suitable to fall in love with Shen Pingge, he is not suitable to be with anyone When it comes to love, no one can tolerate such possessiveness.

He is vulgar, selfish, and self-interested, he is the most ordinary person, if he can be as rational and brave as the protagonist in the book, maybe everything will be different, but he is not the protagonist, he just wants Shen Pingge to love him .

Shen Pingge replied to him, seeming to say a lot, but even Yan didn't dare to read a word.Cover the above message and say to him: Brother, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm too impulsive, I like you very much, I don't talk like that anymore, don't be angry with me.

Shen Pingge replied with only one word: "Yes."

The sprained ankle finally healed at the end of October. The pain from violent movements still caused pain, and the pain in the tailbone disappeared. He seemed to be intact. Lian Yan was looking forward to the day when the injury would recover. He booked a ticket and asked Shen Pingge: "Brother, can I find you?"

Shen Pingge told him not to make him worry too much. Shen Pingge was very angry when he went to Guangzhou that time. Lian Yan didn't want him to be so angry again, but she was afraid that he would refuse. He thought it over. If Shen Pingge refused, He just went to take a peek at him, he always knew where the school was, all he had to do was take a look.

Shen Pingge replied to him about 10 minutes later, still only one word, said.

"it is good."

·

After all, the deadline in the leave note was not up, and the rest of the time had to be defined by Shen Pingge. Lian Yan bought the ticket for that afternoon, which seemed impatient, but it was true.He started to ride in the car in the early morning, and the scenery outside changed from dim to bright, and then back to dim. He arrived in Beijing around seven o'clock.

Shen Pingge was waiting for him at the station. Lian Yan stared at him blankly, wanting to cry. He changed into a thin black long sleeve with LOGO printed on it. The wind in Beijing was so strong that it hurt his face. Painful, Shen Pingge didn't seem to show enthusiasm for his arrival, but just held his hand, although others would cast their gazes.

His luggage is pitifully small, just a schoolbag, which contains a pair of underwear, some money, a box of covers, lubricant/smooth/liquid, and a charger for a mobile phone.No valuables.

Lian Yan followed him, and they went to eat at the noodle restaurant near the station, but Lian Yan couldn't eat anything, just looked at Shen Pingge's face, he felt that he was dreaming, but he didn't dare to go beyond the rules to touch Shen Pingge's cheek, Shen Pingge just looked at him quietly and said, "Don't want to eat?"

Lian Yan said "hmm".

"Okay then," Shen Pingge stood up, the shadow half enveloping him, the voice was not loud enough for him to hear, "let's go to the room."

The hotel was booked by Shen Pingge, it was much better than the one they used to live in, the lighting was bright, golden light, soft carpet was laid at the door, outside the window was the night of Beijing, dim yellow and black glued together, Lian Yan's palms were sweating, he wanted to look at Shen Pingge, but Shen Pingge turned off the light, leaned him against the cold wall, clasped the back of his head, and got closer to him.

Lian Yan put her arms around his waist as a matter of course, feeling strangely satisfied in her heart, raised her head, and kissed Shen Pingge.

The temperature was real, unlike in the phone, Lian Yan's heart beat violently, with a strong pain, the schoolbag squeezed his back, and the bottle of lubricating fluid squeezed him again, and he let out a muffled snort.

He touched his buttocks again, stretched into his pants, kneaded his soft buttocks through the thin fabric of the underwear, rubbed his lower body against each other, breath brought a wet bonus in the darkness, and he soon erected.

"What are you doing here?" Shen Pinge whispered in the dark, his voice was a little hoarse, he lifted his shirt again, stroked his neck, every inch of his skin became hot and hot, "Just to have sex with me?"

The skin was hot, but the fingers were cold, Lian Yan sobbed softly, he used to cry only during sex, but now Shen Pingge just touched him, and he started to cry.Shen Pingge kneaded his nipples, they were almost swollen, so hard, but he really felt pleasure, panting violently, as if he had asthma, and leaned softly in Shen Pingge's arms, obedient and obedient .

He shook his head.

"Didn't you say that you don't like me anymore? Since you want to break up with me, you also said that you want to come to me," Shen Pingge let him hold the corner of his clothes in his mouth, and he had to bite his teeth tightly so that they wouldn't fall out. Tears were watery, Looking at him aggrievedly, "Lian Yan, why are you so fickle."

He couldn't speak, shook his head with difficulty, and couldn't even control his physical instincts. The saliva from his mouth wetted the corner of his clothes, which made him unable to bite, but he couldn't make Shen Pingge angry anymore.

They fell on the white bed and got trapped in the quilt. The made bed was wrinkled and made a rustling sound, as if they had fallen into the clouds—this reminded Lian Yan of the dream he had before. , soaked in the white water vapor, but Shen Pingge left him, and fell into the world alone, turning into foamy rain.

Lian Yan was afraid that Shen Pingge would be lost again, her voice was muffled and begging to hug him tightly, they took off their pants, they didn't take off all of them, they just fell on the ankles, the buttons collided together, making a clanging sound, the penis And jerking off together - at least they're both hot in temperature.He heard Shen Pingge casually say: "I thought I was heartless enough, after all, you are more ruthless than me."

Lian Yan shook her head weakly, Shen Pingge stood up and went to get his schoolbag, as if expecting that there would be something about sex in his schoolbag, the lubricating fluid was poured into the palm of his hand, and the thin moonlight made the lubricating fluid transparent. Even the filth is cleansed.

He squeezed the lubricating fluid into the perineum, it was wet and sticky, the hole contracted in the cold, rubbing the hole with his fingertips, Shen Pingge whispered in his ear, as if persuading, "Don't be so nervous, relax."

When her fingers were squeezed in, Lian Yan ejaculated in vain, sobbing and crying, the semen stained Shen Pingge's clothes, and her whole body was trembling with sensitivity, but her fingers wanted to squeeze the sensitive soft flesh again, and she felt powerless , The corner of the clothes couldn't bite anymore, it fell down and hung on the belly, rising and falling with the rising and falling of the abdomen, turning into a soft red.

"Is that why you like others and fall in love so much?" Shen Pingge stared into his eyes, although his eyes were blurred and couldn't focus, "Lian Yan, do you want someone to rely on, or do you have to rely on me? .”

"It's actually pretty tiring, isn't it?"

Don't blame him, Lian Yan's eyes hurt from crying, her throat hurts, and her ankle, which seems to have just recovered, also hurts. He really wants to tell Shen Pingge that I love you, and that it's up to you, but he really doesn't seem to understand what to do Love him, he hurts, but he insists that Shen Pingge hurts with him.He is guilty.

Shen Pingge picked up Lian Yan's waist, his whole body was wet with sweat, his eyes were also wet, glowing with luster under the dim light, Lian Yan took a deep breath, sat in Shen Pingge's arms, and soon came back Being pushed away, laying on the bed, pouting his butt profligately and being inserted, the wet and hot soft flesh sucked on the penis tightly, Shen Pingge seemed to have lost some patience with him, or rather was angry, he felt the pain and could be filled The joy replaced the pain again.

Lian Yan could only moan "hmm", mixed with pitiful crying.

Shen Pingge felt sorry for him, Lian Yan was sure of this matter, otherwise she would not have covered his head to prevent him from knocking on the bed, but the penis was getting deeper and deeper every time, Lian Yan couldn't tell whether the wetness on the bed sheet was wet or not. Drool or tears, he touched his penis indiscriminately, his toes curled up, and Shen Pingge grabbed his hand again and clamped him behind him.

Darkness can magnify any feeling, and so does hearing, the sound of puffing water, the sound of slapping flesh, Shen Pingge didn't speak, but turned Lian Yan over again, kissed his lips, the tip of his tongue was entangled, and the sound of his ears There was a liquid and sticky sound, pinching his soft nape, turning him around, holding his slender waist, Lian Yan could only open her legs, sinking and floating in desire, her eyelashes trembled and bulged The butterfly bone was tightly pressed against Shen Pingge's chest.

"If I say I don't love you anymore," Shen Pingge took the condom, took it apart, put it on the penis, and slowly fucked it again, "Will you die?"

That bit of panic was about to overwhelm him, but Lian Yan couldn't see Shen Pingge's eyes, so she couldn't be sure whether Shen Pingge still loved him at this time, his eyes could be seen, at least the lights all over the window could be seen. He could see, but he felt that he was blind, as if those lights had turned into flowing flames, which burned his whole body and brought him a dying cold.

He grasped Shen Pingge's hand tightly, making red crescent moon marks, but he came to an orgasm in a drowsy state, his penis was sore and his semen made the bed sheet extremely dirty.

Lian Yan nodded with tears in her eyes, convinced that she would die.This kind of word with deep meaning is light in his words, with reckless idealism, barbaric and primitive, and paranoid piety.

"Do you believe it?" Shen Pingge leaned close to his cheek, with the tips of his hot ears, "I love you too."

They have been making love for a long time, and they haven't seen each other for such a long time. This time is nothing. They used up several condoms, tied them tightly and threw them in the trash can. Finally, they stood in the bathroom, steaming, dripping wet. Yan was so tired that she couldn't lift her arms, she acted like a baby in a daze, and lightly rubbed his chin.

Shen Pingge bathed him, got rid of the sticky sweat all over his body, and said, "It would be great if you were always so good."

Lian Yan struggled out of her sleepiness and wrote in the palm of his hand.

- Then I'll be good, don't leave me.

"You can't always rely on me." Shen Pingge whispered.

But besides him, who else is Lian Yan?

There was no answer to the question, Lian Yan was so sleepy, her arms around him were limp and weak, she fell asleep in his arms, and entered into a repeated dream, the dream he had done many times - in the dim clouds , falling wet and weightless.

The author says:

I want to write something about the real love process. The protagonist is not perfect, so there will be various problems.The car was gone before we broke up.