i see your calling

For the first time, Lian Yan felt that God was open-eyed. For example, now, he was in a bad mood. When he rushed out of the box, the weather outside was gloomy. Whether the sky was full of clouds or not, he couldn't tell.But the people on the first floor would not understand his mood. The woman in the white skirt was still playing the piano without even raising her eyes, as if he was just a transparent statue.

Where should I go?He didn't want to go back to the villa, but he had nowhere to go except that place that was as cold as crystal.

This reminded him of the day Xu Mei threw him away. He was standing by the side of the road with text messages lying on his cell phone. Shen Yiming said, I'll pick you up, you wait there.So he stood there waiting, but he was very afraid that Shen Yiming would not come, so when the car lights illuminated him, he felt that he was needed again, and even liked all the car exhaust that night.

But now Shen Yiming said that he didn't want him anymore.

Lian Yan knew what she had done wrong, but how could she correct it.

He didn't know where to hide, but Lian Yan went out of the western food restaurant without hesitation. He swore that he was running very fast, and the wind was howling in his ears. The weather cleared up again, and he felt hot from the sun. Lian Yan didn't want to see the sun. He ran to the alley by the side of the road, almost slipped by the moss under his feet, there were dirty trash cans inside, and the air was full of sour smell, but Lian Yan didn't reject the smell anymore, he huddled in the corner, wanting to be neglect.

But Shen Pingge still found him, and after about 15 minutes, he pulled him out of the trash, Lian Yan fell into his arms, heard his heartbeat, and put his arms around Shen Pingge's waist, He didn't know if he was crying, but he just didn't want to let him go. Shen Pingge stroked his back and whispered, "Don't be afraid."

The weather is overcast again, the surrounding sky is dark, and there is a smell of garbage.

Lian Yan wanted to keep hugging him, but her heel touched the can, that slight movement startled him, he seemed to be unable to bear it all at once, bit Shen Pingge's skirt, and sniffed vigorously, he thought he was crazy , he even wants to have sex with Shen Pingge here - as long as they don't separate.

Lian Yan said to him again, and gestured to him: I am a very greedy person, and I don't want to lose anything.

In the end, Shen Yiming didn't want him, and it seemed that he and Shen Pingge couldn't last long.He can't have both.

Lian Yan thought she was funny, but couldn't laugh, she just lowered her head and touched his toes lightly.

"Take you away," Shen Pingge said to him, whispering in his ear like a kiss, "OK?"

He lay on Shen Pingge's back for the first time, the novelty washed away his sadness, Shen Pingge didn't say where to go, because he also knew that he would follow him, they didn't pass by that western restaurant again, even Yan didn't want to see English, he put his arms around Shen Pingge's neck, knowing that someone was looking at them, but he didn't care.

He saw the window of the flower shop and saw the wooden sign hanging on it, with dull and uninteresting love poems written on it.

-As you can see, I am June to you.

- Maybe I can find you.

Lian Yan went to buy flowers again, but they didn't have any money, so they just smelled the scent of flowers all over their bodies, the smell was pungent, Lian Yan rubbed her nose red, Shen Pingge said: "Next time I should bring some coins out. "

Ask him again: "Want to kiss here?"

Lian Yan said "yes", so Shen Pingge really kissed him here, even though there were flower watchers around.Lian Yan became shy, and when they left, the florist gave them a rose.

"You are very brave," the boss said with a smile, "I wish you a long run."

The roses were not fresh, after all it was already afternoon, the petals were withered and yellow around, but the inside was bright, they were sitting on the bench by the roadside, Shen Pingge pinned the flowers to his ears, and laughed, Lian Yan felt that He was not sad at all, and the rose was pinned to his collar, and he could smell the fragrance when he lowered his head.

"Do you know what I'm thinking now?" Shen Pingge looked at the dusk and said softly, he didn't need Lian Yan to answer, he just shook hands with him, "I want to grow up all at once, this ideal was born when I was in the fourth grade Once, I wanted to buy a switch, but my mother disagreed, saying that it would delay my studies, so I thought, if I grow up, I will buy three switches, one for the living room and one for the room.”

Lian Yan asked him, what about the third one?

"Put it in the bathroom." Shen Pingge lowered his head and laughed, "Go to the bathroom and play."

Lian Yan also laughed, and the smile soon lost again.

"If I can be more independent, maybe you and I don't have to make a choice, we can choose to continue like this, no one will stop us," Shen Pingge turned his head to look at him, "but I can't do it now."

"However, isn't there still one year left?" Shen Pingge touched his rose, his voice was blown away by the wind, and it sounded vaguely in his ears, "There is still one year, believe me?"

Lian Yan nodded vigorously, as if the degree of fulfillment of the promise came from the strength of his nodding.

"I will protect you," Shen Pingge said, "I will not abandon you."

Lian Yan realized later that Shen Pingge was making a promise. He didn't like making promises. Lian Yan selfishly interpreted the motive of making a promise as "love". Lian Yan understood the incomprehensible pain as the tremor of his soul, but his soul was stored in Shen Pingge.

He hypnotized himself like this, and he didn't feel so sad.

They didn't return to the villa until eight o'clock. The villa was dark, but Lian Yan was always afraid that Shen Yiming would hide in the darkness, and like last time, said "I'm willing to come back", but Shen Yiming was not there, he didn't go home, Not staying at home watching over them like before.

They washed like before and lay in the same bed. It’s summer now, so it’s inevitable to be hot, but they are not afraid of the heat. There are cicadas singing outside. They are hugging each other on the bed, covered in sweat, and laughing, silly .

Shen Pingge's summer vacation is here, it will last for three months, but Lianyan still has to prepare for the exam, the day after the final exam, Shen Pingge took him to cousin Du Chengzhou's bar, there are many memories of them here, Shen Pingge Ge and Yang Zhi chose to hold a breakup dinner here.

Lian Yan asked: Is it not good to take him there?

"I've brought you here so many times," Shen Pingge said with a smile, "I'm only worried about this issue now, it's okay."

Indeed, Yang Zhi and the others didn't mind his coming. Yang Zhi ordered him a cone, but Lian Yan insisted on ice wine and silver bullets.The wine was coming, but he didn't drink it, he just held it, smelled the wine, and watched them chat.

Suddenly Shen Pingge looked at him and beckoned him to come over. Lian Yan walked over blankly, and Shen Pingge stood up and gently embraced his shoulders. The people sitting below were Yang Zhi, Tan Yun, and Lian Yan, who was on holiday. When Du Chengzhou came back, there was no Chen You. Even Yan could remember this scene clearly a few years later, the air suddenly became quiet, and Yang Zhi said, "Pingge, what are you doing?"

Shen Pingge's voice was very clear, and he was smiling: "Let me introduce, this is Lian Yan, my boyfriend."

Lian Yan was still in a daze, but her heart beat quickly, she was so nervous that she could not stand up, Shen Pingge kissed him, the touch was real, Lian Yan woke up from the dream, and wanted to cry strongly again, with a choked voice After being swallowed, he heard applause, this time it wasn't the booing of watching the crowd like before, it was real applause, Tan Yun said: "Okay, I really have you."

Lian Yan sat back dizzy, her head confused, she ate the ice cubes in the glass of silver bullets, drank the wine, and became even more dizzy.

"Mom," Du Chengzhou hasn't recovered yet. He hasn't been back for a year, and he's not familiar with everything here. ah."

Yang Zhi said: "I always thought you guys were just joking - you are serious!"

"Really," Shen Pingge said, "there are still fake and shoddy feelings?"

"Fuck," Du Chengzhou still hadn't recovered from his senses, "fuck, fuck you."

After a long time, Du Chengzhou said, "I don't quite understand." After a pause, he added, "However, I respect you."

Yang Zhi yelled from the side, "Peace & love, respect!"

It was still dark at this time, and I couldn't see the outside from the private room, but Lian Yan was sure that the moon must be round and there was no wind, and she was also sure that they would be together for a long time and love each other forever.

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