i see your calling

The sunshine in June is golden and white. It is dry here, the asphalt road is dry, and the exams are not over when they arrive at the school gate. Lian Yan still prefers to be outside in the sun rather than in an air-conditioned car. He originally had a cold algae plant in his heart, and a glimpse of the sun might help to sterilize the bacteria.

Why did Shen Yiming bring him here, Lian Yan had no way of knowing, and would not ask, he was just happy, he stayed behind Shen Yiming, watching him chatting with other parents.

"Which exam room is your child in?"

Shen Yiming pointed to the building not far away, "The examination room on the third floor, examination room 29."

"Hey, coincidence, my family is too!" The man clapped his hands, "What's your child's name?"

"Shen, Ping, and Ge," Shen Yiming said word by word, "Ordinary flat, and Ge of knowing things."

The man thought for a while, and suddenly realized, "I've seen him in the city rankings, and he's in the top five in the city."

"Hey, I'm lucky," Shen Yiming said with an almost ostentatious modesty.

Lian Yan was inexplicably proud when she heard them praise Shen Pingge, as if he was one of the top five in the city, he couldn't see Shen Yiming's expression, but he could hear him laughing, Lian Yan was sure that they were on the same front at the moment , it seems that the past resentment has disappeared.

At five o'clock in the afternoon, when the exam was over, the candidates flocked out. The ones in front were stopped to make reports, but the ones behind took the opportunity to sneak out. Pingge was wearing a white short-sleeved jacket and a black plaid jacket, he really didn't raise his eyes, but Lian Yan was standing tall, Shen Pingge saw him, stopped and waved to him.

But he didn't have a chance to meet Shen Pingge. Shen Yiming was one step ahead of him, took Shen Pingge's schoolbag, and said, "Thank you." The sun was dazzling, and Shen Pingge squinted his eyes, and said, "Why did Lian Yan come here?" gone?"

"I'll take you to have a meal. I'm done with the exam." Shen Yiming avoided his gaze, opened the car door, and got in. "Here, let's go."

Without Shen Yiming's barrier, Lian Yan saw Shen Pingge's eyes, Shen Pingge rubbed his hair, and said softly, "I've been waiting, boyfriend."

Shen Pingge didn't sit in the co-pilot, but sat in the back row with Lian Yan. Shen Yiming glanced at the rearview mirror, moved his mouth, but didn't say anything. The car started, where to eat was not Lian Yan's consideration Within range, he sneaked a look at Shen Pingge with his eyes, his nervous cheeks were hot, as if he had just started falling in love.

Shen Pingge suddenly gestured to him with sign language: Did he say something to you?

Lian Yan was stunned for a moment before responding to him: No, I just said to have dinner together.

Shen Pingge said "Oh" and did not continue this topic. They communicated with Shen Yiming behind their backs using sign language. This feeling was quite strange. Lian Yan told him that she was nervous and that she was afraid that he would not perform well. If he could talk, he would probably be like a sparrow, chirping endlessly.The place Nai He went was not far away, and he could only scribble in the final sentence: I am so happy to see my brother.

The restaurant Shen Yiming brought them to was a western food restaurant. They had booked a box on the second floor. When they walked up the stairs, they passed by a woman in a white skirt who was in charge of playing the piano on the first floor. Lian Yan was in a good mood, so she felt that everything was fine. Holding hands with Shen Pingge, hindering Shen Yiming from still being here.There are floor-to-ceiling windows in the private room, and you can see the green ginkgo trees outside, occupying the field of vision strongly.

The order was given by Shen Yiming, who understood their preferences, but Shen Pingge's order was a little more troublesome, no onions, fried eggs had to be fully cooked, etc.

It's been a long time since we had dinner together, after ordering, the waiter walked out of the door, unavoidably embarrassed, no one said anything, Shen Yiming cleared his throat, and asked Lian Yan: "Would you like some iced drinks?"

Lian Yan shook her head as if flattered, her hands hidden under the table were tangled together.

After being silent for a while, Shen Yiming said: "It seems that the last time I went out to dinner with you was Pingge's 17th birthday, it must have been more than a year, my fault, I was busy all day, I don't know what to do , I have no chance to chat with you more."

He tilted his head and asked, "When will the results of the college entrance examination be released?"

Shen Pingge said: "Number 20."

"It's still early," Shen Yiming said to himself, "At that time, you were asked to study abroad, but you didn't go. I have already contacted everyone, so you can go for an interview and pass the TOEFL. It's not that difficult. I He is an old-timer, with a relatively closed mind, always thinking that foreign education is much better than domestic education, and the gold content is also high, and when I come back in a few years, I can retire early and leave the company to you."

"You're not willing," Shen Pingge stood up to serve the waiter just as the meal was being served, and said, "I've worked so hard for most of my life, if I ruin it in my hands, it won't be worth it."

The steak is still sizzling, the broccoli is on the side, the pasta and the steak are covered with brown sauce, the silver fork and knife are on both sides, Lian Yan doesn't know how to hold the fork and knife, it's the left Fork right knife, or right knife left fork.Shen Pingge had cooked steaks for him several times at home before, but they didn't use knives and forks, they just ate with chopsticks, and the sauce was all around their mouths, just like primitive people.

But at least he could see it, took a peek at Shen Yiming's holding method, imitated him to pick up the knife and fork, and ate slowly. Listening to them talking, he seemed to have a balance in his heart. The indescribable "uneasiness", he didn't know if Shen Yiming accepted them like this.

"If you can't manage the company well, then forget about closing down. Anyway, the money is still there, enough to live in the next life, isn't it?" Shen Yiming was smiling, but Lian Yan felt his eyes were silent. Shen Yiming cut the steak into pieces and scribbled After eating a piece, he lowered his head and spoke slowly, "But, I think I prepared so much for you to study abroad at that time, it would be bad if I wasted it, I thought, since you don't want to go, then give this opportunity to me. Xiaoyan. I asked you to come out for dinner and just talk about it. It’s not a big deal. Keep eating and see what I do?”

Lian Yan raised her head suddenly, thinking that she had heard wrongly, she opened her eyes wide, and looked at Shen Yiming almost in shock, but Shen Yiming did not meet his gaze.His head was blank, he didn't hear what was behind him, he just watched his lips move.

"The interview in the United States was a bit sad. I was hesitating whether it was Australia, Canada or the United Kingdom, but no matter which one, the education is definitely much better than our small city," Shen Yiming continued, speaking faster, "If time is faster, this I can go in ** month, I have also read Xiaoyan's English score—"

Lian Yan's heart beat so fast that it almost made it difficult for him to breathe. The hand holding the knife and fork was shaking, knocking on the porcelain plate, making funny noises. To not want him?

"I disagree."

The steak in front of Shen Pingge didn't move at all, Lian Yan looked at him dully again, Shen Pingge's black plaid coat was draped on the back of the chair, which made Lian Yan realize that his hair was not pure black, but slightly lighter It should be softer, but his eyes are a paradox of softness, looking at Shen Yiming.

"If Lian Yan is asked to go abroad just to separate us, then there is no need." Shen Pingge paused every word, with a decisive and calm tone, "He won't go."

"Did I ask you to break up? I just want to give Lian Yan a better education. Since you gave up this opportunity, why don't you allow it to be given to others?" Shen Yiming was enraged by his attitude, his voice rose, and the knife slammed On the table, the voice was dull but sharp, "You still think that if you get a little farther away, you will break up, so it's better to break up as soon as possible, so as not to waste time!"

It's like this every time, they are arguing, but Lian Yan can't say a word, sign language and no one will look at him, it's a matter of course to watch a play, Lian Yan wants Shen Pingge to hug her, but Shen Pingge just hugs her. Shen Yiming confronted and said: "Is he suitable for going abroad? He can't speak, how can he communicate with others, no matter how good his grades are, can he have that kind of adaptability?"

"Then learn to adapt!" Shen Yiming said in a deep voice, "He has to learn to grow up, he can't always hide behind you, what does that look like, you are seven months older than him, if you can do it, he can do it too." can do it!"

Shen Pingge almost laughed angrily, "Can you calm down a bit."

"It's because you are not calm enough," Shen Yiming scolded, "Shen Pingge, don't you think you are too hot-headed? Let me tell you, I have lived for so many years, but I have never seen two men fall in love. Now you You even quarreled with me because of this, I have raised you for so many years, if I didn't buy any of you, ask yourself, what is your position to argue with me here!"

"Can you not deviate from the subject, what are we arguing about, it has nothing to do with who bought the clothes I'm wearing," Shen Pingge looked at Lian Yan, but only for a short time, to ensure that Lian Yan was still there There, without leaving, "he can't go abroad."

Shen Yiming rubbed the center of his brows, took a few deep breaths, and said in a low voice: "Then you separate, and I won't let him go abroad."

Shen Pingge suddenly realized the limitations of this age, 17-year-old love is naked and white, everything must be vigorous, and for the sake of his lover's smiling eyes, he has to elope, but the limitations of financial ability and independent ability are not enough. It made him unable to resist with righteous words, and he didn't want to quarrel anymore. Out of the corner of his eye, he noticed that Lian Yan lowered her head. He didn't know when she put down the knife and fork, and her fingers didn't move, as if separating them.

Shen Yiming didn't hear the answer, but suddenly felt the tugging of the corner of his clothes, subconsciously looked over, met Lian Yan's eyes, and didn't react for a while.When Lian Yan seldom looked at him with a sad face, let alone with red eyes, Shen Yiming saw his red eyes, his Adam's apple moved, he was speechless for a while, and then slowly said: "Xiaoyan."

Lian Yan gestured slowly: I'll go.

The box suddenly fell silent, Lian Yan should be the protagonist of the stage, all eyes were locked on him, Shen Pingge saw his movements, but Lian Yan continued to gesture without looking at him.

- Can you give me a year?I'll get ready.

-next year.

As if he couldn't continue gesticulating, he clenched his hands and took a deep breath before continuing to gesticulate.

-Leave next year.

Shen Yiming suddenly realized that Lian Yan was 17 years old. He had just passed his birthday and his hair had grown a little. He was not the little boy who had to hide behind him when he cut his hair. He was speechless, thinking, he and Lian Yan There is probably no difference between Xu Mei’s biological mother. When Xu Mei threw away Lian Yan, she left behind 22 yuan, ten red banknotes, and the steel coin fell on the ground. He sent Lian Yan abroad and gave him the money. Leave nothing to him.

"Xiaoyan..." Shen Yiming's voice was hoarse, "I have no intention of abandoning you."

Lian Yan nodded, pushed away the chair and stood up, he seemed to want to find an excuse to go out, but his lips moved, without saying anything, he rushed out of the private room rudely and recklessly, at the same time, Shen Pingge also pushed After opening the chair, Shen Yiming watched Shen Pingge chase him out, but couldn't even say a word to stop him, leaning his elbows on the table, he lowered his head deeply.

The author says:

The title is the lyrics from the song "Trash", and the next line is "Longing for your home".If there is no accident in the next few days, there will be an update.Thank you all for watching.