Diamond Jubilee

It may be because of a cold, but Yan Xuzhi has not been in a good spirit for a long time.

Coupled with the development and growth of the fetus in the genital cavity, all the nutrients eaten are continuously supplied to this child, and his own body becomes weaker and weaker.

The part-time worker's aunt would come to cook for him every day, and he went from not eating much to wanting to eat more.

Appetite has become surprisingly good.

Sometimes in the middle of the night, he felt as if he had been kicked in the stomach, and when he woke up, he felt hungry.

At two o'clock in the morning, he cooked himself a bowl of noodles.

After eating the whole bowl and feeling full, Yan Xuzhi felt better and went to sleep peacefully.

He sometimes feels that his life recently is like a captive animal, which doesn't require too much thinking, except for eating and sleeping.Some worrying and sad emotions are gradually disappearing, and he still feels frustrated because of this helplessness at first, but gradually he doesn't even feel depressed.

Yan Xu knew that the last time he dreamed of Liang Liye was on the summer night when he was about to give birth.

He has been admitted to the hospital, a single room, the room is not too big or too small, with an independent bathroom.

At night, the air conditioner was not turned on, he was lying on his side, the window was half open, and the night wind was blowing slowly.

He dreamed that he was walking on the school grounds, still wearing his high school summer uniform.

Liang Liye followed him, they walked slowly, round and round, the sun gradually sank, and when the sun was shining, Liang Liye suddenly stopped.

Yan Xuzhi knew what he was going to say in his heart, but because he was afraid, he didn't dare to turn his head.

Liang Liye grabbed his hand, and his wrist was pinched very painfully.

In the dream, he heard Liang Liye say, Xu Zhi, I'm sorry... From now on... I really can't accompany you anymore.

In the dream, Liang Liye looked at him apologetically, Yan Xuzhi felt as if it was raining in his heart, the rain in Huangmeitian was so stuffy that he couldn't breathe.

Don't tell me you're sorry, I'm the one who should apologize.

Liang Liye, I'm sorry, I've been the one who hurt you all this time.

It would be fine if you didn't meet me.

After the child was born, Yan Xuzhi's condition worsened, and he could not help it. Two months later, he went to Colombia accompanied by Ren Kai.The child was placed in the country, under the care of Wu Zhenghe.

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The plane from Venice changed planes in Milan and landed after flying for more than ten hours.

Liang Liye loosened his twisted joints, and looked sideways at Zhao Feng who was in another position.Zhao Feng was covered with a small blanket, he looked like a terminal cancer patient, thin and haggard.

He received a message from Zhao Feng last week. The other party said that he really couldn't hold on anymore and planned to return to China. After all, the funeral had to be held in China.

At that time Liang Li was in Mexico, and after receiving the news, he immediately went to Venice to pick up Zhao Feng.

The plane bumped twice when it landed, and slowly stopped after taxiing for a certain distance.They waited until the last plane to get off, Zhao Feng was sitting in a wheelchair, and Liang Liye pushed him down.

It was the season of winter, Liang Liye took out clothes for Zhao Feng to put on, and then pushed the wheelchair to the inspection.

He hasn't returned to China for three years. Because he has been running outside, he has been tanned a lot and shaved a round inch. His appearance is very different from that in his passport.

When we got out of the airport, the car we had booked was already waiting outside.Liang Liye pushed Zhao Feng over, and when getting into the car, Zhao Feng stood up on his own, and got into the car slowly, it was very difficult and sad.

Illness is like this. Everything that seems simple and taken for granted will become complicated after getting sick, even emotions.

He helped Zhao Feng into the car, put away the wheelchair and luggage into the trunk.

Liang Liye sat in the co-pilot, turned around and asked, "You said you contacted the hospital, where is it?"

Zhao Feng opened his eyelids and looked out the window. The vegetation was withered, and winter took everything away.

He said, "Zhiguang, go to Zhiguang Hospital."

Liang Liye was taken aback for a moment, pursed his lips, and remained silent.

The car drove off the elevated road and drove on the flat road. It has not returned for three years. The city has not changed much.

When we arrived at the hospital, three years later, the protesters who had withdrawn because of euthanasia were gone outside the hospital. Their cars were parked at the door. Liang Liye went to get the wheelchair and helped Zhao Feng down.

In the hospice department, Li Yi came out of the ward.He had just finished touring the ward and returned to the department with a gloomy expression, not very happy.

Among the new interns in their group, he was the only one assigned here, and the other companions were all in popular departments like thoracic surgery. Leaning in this small corner, he felt somewhat unbalanced.

In addition, the director of the hospice care department is a big devil who looks cold and has no human feelings at all.

He felt even more gloomy in life, with no hope in sight.

"Doctor Yan, here is today's examination report." Li Yi handed him the medical record card, and the called person raised his head from the computer, wearing rimless glasses, with no expression on his face, and pointed to the table.

Li Yi put the medical record card on the table, and then said: "Dr. Meng stopped me just now and told me that a patient will be transferred from our side this afternoon. He was just admitted to the hospital today. The patient gave up treatment and said he would apply for euthanasia. "

"Have all the inspections been done?"

"I've done it all, and I'm waiting for the results."

"Well, let's go and see later."

"Okay." Li Yi opened his mouth, looking at him and wanted to speak, but seeing the other party's expression, he bit his lip and swallowed the words back.

"Why does Dr. Yan feel more serious than usual today?" Coming out of the department, Li Yi grabbed the nurse who happened to be walking over and asked in a low voice.

The nurse glanced at him, and then said: "You didn't know when you came in, but the patient who came over this afternoon, the alpha who accompanied the patient is Dr. Yan's ex-husband."

Li Yi's eyes widened, and he couldn't help screaming: "What?"

"Be quiet, don't let the inside hear you."

"Doctor Yan was divorced." Li Yi was shocked for a few seconds, and whispered: "I thought he was never married."

"I don't know the details. Dr. Yan went abroad to study for a period of time before, and he came back after two years. After he came back, I heard that he was divorced." It is still circulating in private, but most of it is hearsay.

Liang Liye sent Zhao Feng back, thinking that he would receive treatment in a domestic hospital, but unexpectedly, Zhao Feng actually wanted to come back and end his life early.

The topic of euthanasia was previously reported by Liang Liye themselves. At that time, they consulted a large amount of information and knew all the procedures for applying for euthanasia.And he never thought that one day his friend would submit this application.

Liang Liye couldn't accept it. Zhao Feng had expected him to be like this. While waiting for the test results, he comforted him instead, "Everyone will die. I just died sooner. Don't be too sad. I have chosen to die now." The death I want, without so much pain, I am very satisfied."

Liang Liye was silent, he didn't look at Zhao Feng, his gaze was fixed on the ground, his voice seemed to be echoing in a cave, muffled, he said: "I never thought that bringing you back is taking you to death."

Zhao Feng paused, and said softly, "I'll just be willful once."

Zhao Feng was admitted to the hospital in the afternoon, and the hospice department was quieter than other wards.Liang Liye pushed the wheelchair, and the wheels ran over the ground, leaving a shallow mark on the ground.

In a ward for four people, when I entered, the two beds near the door were empty except for the window inside.Zhao Feng got off the wheelchair, and the nurse pointed to the bed on the left, "Sir, this is your bed, our doctor will come over later."

"Has the test result come out?" Liang Liye asked.

"Not so fast." The nurse shook her head and looked at Liang Liye twice.

After leaving the ward, the nurse went directly to the department.

In the department, Yan Xuzhi collected the inspection reports brought by Zhao Feng himself.He stood up, and when he reached the door, the nurse came in.Yan Xuzhi asked, "Where's Li Yi?"

"Doctor Li said that he went to the cafeteria to eat."

"Call him up, and come with me to the patient's side."

Li Yi didn't even eat lunch, and Li Yi, who had been hungry for a whole day, had just arrived at the cafeteria when he received a call from the nurse, saying that the big devil asked him to go up.

He took a deep breath, said bitterly that he knew, and trotted back.

It will be here in a few minutes, and Yan Xuzhi asked him to get Zhao Feng's medical report.

"Doctor Yan, the patient's physical examination report is not so fast."

"You tell them, this is urgent."

Li Yi said "Oh", and Yan Xuzhi glanced at him, and he immediately said, "Okay, Doctor Yan, I'll be there right away."

The laboratory department was a little far away, and Li Yi didn't even eat any rice, so he ran over on soft legs and took it back out of breath.After Yan Xuzhi took it, he glanced at it and said, "Go and tell the patient that our hospital cannot euthanize him."

Li Yi was stunned for a moment, but Xuzhi pointed his index finger on the table, with the same indifferent expression on his face, he said: "Transfer the patient to the surgery department, and perform the operation immediately, and he can still treat it."

"But the patient gave up the treatment by himself." Li Yi blurted out, and after he finished speaking, he realized that he had made a slip of the tongue, "I'm sorry, Dr. Yan, I'll be there right away."

When Li Yi arrived at the ward, Liang Liye happened to go out to buy food.

The food in the canteen of Zhiguang Hospital has always been good. He bought two meals, packed them and went back.

When we arrived at the door of the ward, we heard Zhao Feng's voice inside. Some emotions were different from usual.

"Do you think I'm not suffering enough? I can't sleep because of the pain every day and night. The painkillers are no longer working. My stomach feels like a needle prick, and the pain is burning."

Li Yi sweated on his forehead, licked his lips and said, "But sir, the pain you are suffering now is not unbearable for ordinary people, and there is still hope for your illness, so..."

Zhao Feng interrupted him, and said in a low voice: "So, I have to wait until the pain is so painful, I have cut off more than half of my stomach, and I can't eat at all, can I choose euthanasia? But what's the use? I just want to leave earlier with dignity."

Liang Liye pushed open the half-open door and went in, put the lunch box on the table, glanced sideways at the intern who was about to cry, and said in a low voice: "Who is your attending doctor here? Let him Come talk to us, okay?"

Li Yi breathed a sigh of relief when he heard this, "Wait a minute, I'll invite Dr. Yan over."

Liang Liye blinked twice quickly, and the back molars were pressed together.

He nodded and said no more.

After Li Yi left, Zhao Feng panted, and slowly withdrew with excitement.Liang Liye rolled the bed up for him, making him more comfortable to lean on.

Zhao Feng looked at Liang Liye's silent face, and suddenly said: "I cut off half of my stomach three years ago. I said I wanted to relax and go to see all over the world, but in the end I was still afraid of death, and in the end I was obedient. Healed."

Liang Liye opened the lunch box, and the aroma of the food overflowed.Zhao Feng looked at the food in the box, and said in a low voice, "Li Ye, I'm sorry, I lied to you before, I don't want you to see my embarrassed side."

Hearing this, a face slowly appeared in Liang Liye's head, and the other party seemed to have said something familiar.

Liang Liye said, "It's okay, I don't mind."

Li Yi came back from the ward, and told Dr. Yan what happened just now, "The patient is very emotional, and they want Dr. Yan to come over and have an interview with you."