middle of the road

"What drink, are you an adult?" Chi Yu asked on the phone.

"Why are you underage? I'm not the same age as you." Fu yelled indistinctly: "Besides, when you were underage, you didn't drink alcohol or smoke? Come on, get out of here."

Chi Yu asked him if there was anyone else, Fu Jin said that there was no one, he was the only one, Chi Yu sighed, it was almost eleven o'clock, probably he didn't go back after evening self-study.

A young man who is as beautiful as a flower, was drinking alone at a roadside barbecue stand in the evening, and drank a lot. When he turned around, he was inattentive, and then he was taken away by someone. He quickly got up and put on a shirt jacket. Jin also took one, afraid that he would really drink with him, he didn't drive, he took a taxi.

There were already three or four beer bottles on the table, and Chi Yu knew that he only had this amount at most, and if there was too much, he couldn't drink any more. It seemed that there was no need to drink with him, so he took all the bottles down , sat down opposite him, "What's the matter, are you drinking like this again?"

"Don't ask, I don't want to say it if I ask." Fu Jin shook his head, raised his hand and called the boss to bring two more bottles of beer.

Chi Yu stopped him, "It's almost done, are you going back at night?"

"Of course I won't go back." Fu Jin stepped back and shouted, "How dare I go back when I look like this!"

"Then tell your mother?" Chi Yu looked at the phone, afraid that his mother would ask him to confirm that he had missed it, but from Fu Jin's appearance, he should have reported it when he was awake.

Fu Jin suddenly slammed his chopsticks into the rice bowl in front of him, "I'm a fucking coward, what dare I dare, I dare not do anything!"

"Hey!" Chi Yu stood up and leaned back. Even so, the dishes on the table were blown everywhere by his force. He shook his clothes and trousers, and moved the plate in front of him to the side. "Are you arguing with Jiang Mingyang again?"

In the past six months, if there is any disturbance on his side, it must be related to the surname Jiang. When chasing Cheng Yang hit a wall, I never saw him have such a big battle, and he even got drunk like others.

"Don't mention him to me!" Fu Jin roared angrily, "He's a fucking idiot!"

"Okay, if you say idiot, you can be idiot." Chi Yu followed him and poured himself a glass from the remaining bottle, "Then why do you compete with an idiot?"

"What do you mean I'm competing with him? Now he's fucking staring at me!" Fu Jin stared at him, "Chi Yu, are you blind? Which eye of yours can tell that he likes me? You know what he is doing today? What did you say to me, he said that he doesn't care if I find anyone, except Cheng Yang, he fucking likes Cheng Yang!"

Chi Yu paused with the hand holding the cup, "He said that?"

"What the hell!" Fu Jin snatched the glass from him, drank all the wine with his head up, and slammed it on the table, "Why should he care about me, who is he? ! Does he know what it means to be at the same table! To put it bluntly, sit closer, why the hell is he qualified to control this and that!"

Chi Yu wanted to say that he didn't like Cheng Yang, but at most, he had a good relationship and wanted to maintain it.

If you exclude the fact that he likes to contribute, then he might really be idle, but from the last few contacts, Jiang Mingyang doesn't feel like a nosy person to him.

"And you know, what's even more exaggerated is that he actually regards me as a woman, and even if I joke with other boys a few more times, he will go online." The more Fu Jin talked, the more he hated me, " What's wrong with homosexuality, homosexuality is not human, no human rights and no dignity?!"

Chi Yu motioned him to keep his voice down. It seems that Fu Jin was quite stimulated this time, or he might have been really drunk. He even dared to shout out on the street what he only dared to say secretly behind the door before. Courage must be normal, even ten Jiang Mingyangs may not be able to pose any threat.

Fortunately, there are similar barbecue restaurants on this street, and there are so many people talking that no one cares what the two of them are talking about.

"Do you want me to talk to him?" Chi Yu said, maybe he was a fan of the authorities, and Jiang Mingyang didn't mean something, maybe he misunderstood.

"What are you talking about, didn't I have a good talk with him?" Fu Jin hiccupped, "My attitude is so good, I even took the medicine, but in the end, I let him say a word to my heart I poked him, and in turn he was wronged, I'll fuck him!"

Chi Yu: "..."

Chi Yu: "What did he say?"

"One year, there's only one year left." Fu Jin raised his finger, and suddenly waved, "I guarantee that I will stay away from him wherever he takes the exam. I have nothing to do with his surname Jiang in this life!"

"Okay, anyway, fill in the volunteers first when the time comes, and you can fill in whatever you want." Chi Yu raised his hand and called the boss to come over and pay the bill.

He finally understood that Fu Jin's few words had only one central idea. Jiang Mingyang is an idiot, and he didn't need his advice throughout the whole process. He just wanted to vent, and Chi Yu judged that he was almost really drunk. , has begun to answer irrelevant questions.

After paying the bill, he went to help him up, and a car was stopped by the side of the road to push him in. He didn't know when he would wake up from the wine, so let's go back to him first, and decide whether to ask for leave tomorrow depending on the situation.

Fu Jin's bones seemed to have been soaked in vinegar. After sitting for less than 2 minutes, he tilted and fell to the other side. Chi Yu straightened him and heard him muttering pitifully, "...you said How nice it would be if I were a girl."

Chi Yu didn't know whether to laugh or cry, "What's wrong with you now?"

"I know what you want to say?" Fu Jin sat back, closed his eyes and smiled wryly, "My face is winning at the starting line, but sometimes you know, I would rather my mother make me ugly , I also want her to give me a normal birth."

Chi Yu looked at him, "If it really makes you ugly, you won't think so."

"No." Fu Jin shook his head, "... I still say that, you are not me, you don't know what you will face if you are really my orientation, remember what I told you Senior, the one that my male god posted in the window?"

"Are you drunk or not?" How could he speak so clearly and logically online again.

"Maybe." Fu Jin sniffed and coughed vigorously, "I've seen that person, he hadn't graduated when I first came in, because of that incident, I repeated it for a year, and I heard people say that Ah Huang has countless I have praised him once and for all for his excellence, I don’t know how many times I have passed the test for the number one in the first grade, but if you think about the scenery of our number one in this year, you will know what kind of height he reached at that time.”

"And then?" Chi Yu asked, even though he knew that the following content must be something he didn't want to hear, he still asked because he subconsciously felt that this person had nothing to do with him, and whether he listened to it or not was just a matter of opinion. Just a piece of someone else's life.

"Then what's the use? They don't recognize him at all. Their standard of judging people is never how good you are, but what you are. If you are an outlier, then you deserve to go to hell."

"Who?" Chi Yu frowned, "Who is looking at him?"

"You, Jiang Mingyang, countless normal people like you."

Chi Yu wanted to say that he didn't have any, but for a moment he didn't know how he would judge if there was such a person standing in front of him.

"I didn't see that photo." Fu Jin looked at the front fixedly, "But I've heard countless vivid descriptions of it, and seen all kinds of unsightly restorations, so I posted it there, on Where everyone can see it."

Chi Yu reached for the button with his right hand and opened a slit in the car window. Fu Jin's words and his tone of voice suddenly made him a little indescribably tense and depressed.

"He obviously did nothing wrong, but the world is full of malice towards him. When I looked at him a few times, I felt that he was my shadow. Sooner or later, I will become like him."

"Don't think about it." Chi Yu turned around, "It's superfluous to think about it now, no one will find you."

"It's too late to find out." Fu Jin said, "One day, I'm sure I won't be as powerful as him, and I can continue to live among the crowd as if nothing happened. I just dare to find a place where no one knows me Hiding, only in this way can I feel safe and not panic in my heart, but how many places do you think there are? If I hide completely one day, where will I go..."

Chi Yu didn't think of the right words to comfort him for a while, Fu Jin thought farther than he thought, he leaned his head on the back of the chair, and suddenly took a deep breath, "...If there is a choice, who would want to take this road? .”

What he said later Chi Yu didn't hear clearly, he looked out the window, and when he came back to his senses, the hand in front of him was clenched at some point.

He didn't want to admit it, but a few words of Fu Jin aroused the fear deep in his heart. He was not afraid of Cheng Yang, nor was he afraid of the momentary distraction, but he was afraid of the future.

From the moment he knew that Fu Jin was different from him, the result of him facing up to himself was that he was not gay, and the fact is that he still thinks so until now.

He just has a different obsession with Cheng Yang. For another person, he can't have any other feelings. Even if it is the opposite sex, it is difficult for him to have it, let alone a man of the same gender as him. Fu Jin said that he has never liked anyone until now, and he has never changed.

On the way back from buying vegetables, Cheng Yang was stopped by a middle-aged couple waiting downstairs.

"Are you Cheng Yang?" The one who spoke was a woman with her hair tied up and dressed in plain clothes, but she was not bad.

"Are you?" Cheng Yang stopped.

"You may not remember us." The man showed a kind smile, "The last time I saw you, you were only four or five years old..."

Standing next to the woman, a man wearing glasses and a light gray plaid shirt motioned her to stop talking, and he took a step forward, "Hi Xiaoyang, let me introduce myself first, my name is Cheng Zong, and this is my wife Ji Jiang Xin, as for us, we are your distant relatives, it may be a long time ago, roughly the same generation as your uncle."

Cheng Yang frowned, "Cheng Yunsheng?"

"Don't be nervous, we don't have any other intentions." Cheng Zong saw his subconscious vigilance, and quickly smiled, "Do you have time? Find a place for us to chat for a while, and we won't waste you a few minutes."

Cheng Yang actually wanted to leave, and he didn't want to talk about anything related to Cheng Yunsheng and this house until he was an adult, but the kind looks of these two people in front of him made him unable to leave immediately, "Just here ’” He said, “What are you going to talk about?”

Cheng Zong looked around and pointed to a small cafe across the road, "Why don't you go there, your aunt and I are a little tired after coming so far, just sit down and have a drink."

Cheng Yang glanced at the luggage in their hands and nodded in agreement.

After entering the door and sitting down, the waiter came over and asked them what they wanted to drink, "Water is fine," Cheng Yang said.

"Let's have three glasses of juice." Cheng Zong said, "It's so hot, young people are fine to drink something cold."

When the waiter left, he looked at Cheng Yang, "I'll just tell you why I'm here, I hope you don't mind."

Cheng Yang nodded. He really didn't like hypocrisy either. If Cheng Yunsheng had sold or rented out the house, he would not be able to compromise in the current situation. He just sat down to show his attitude.

Cheng Zong coughed and glanced at Ji Jiangxin next to him, "To tell you the truth, your aunt and I have been married for more than ten years and have never had a child of our own. Of course, we have also thought of various ways. We said before The orphanage adopted one, but I always want someone who is somewhat related to me, even if it is a distant relative."

It never occurred to Cheng Yang that the purpose of the couple's visit was to adopt, but on this issue, his attitude would only be stronger than that of the house.

Now that he has come to this point, he feels that the topic can be ended. He just wanted to say that there is no room for negotiation on this matter, but the man stretched out his hand to signal, "Don't express your opinion in a hurry, just listen to me."

"I heard from your uncle that you are still in high school, and the old man in your family has passed away. Now you are living alone with your younger siblings. I want to know how difficult it is for you as a child who is not yet an adult." Cheng Zong tweeted He took off his glasses and kept looking at him, his eyes were direct but not aggressive, "Let me tell you briefly about my situation first, I work in a bank, and your aunt is a nurse, not to mention rich and powerful, the condition It’s okay to go.”

"The younger child is called Lele, right? If he passes by in the future, we dare not guarantee anything else, at least the most basic education and medical conditions. We can promise him the best. If you want, we will do the same. Subsidize you as much as possible until you finish college."

I don’t know if Cheng Zong has inquired about it in advance, or if he can figure it out based on his current situation, follow him around and ask for leave at any time, lie in the operating room and wait for him to piece together the money to borrow , Cheng Yang really couldn't guarantee them anything.

But that doesn't mean he's going to send them away, he shook his head, "I won't agree."

"You can think about it again. We are not in a hurry for you to give an answer. After all, your parents... can't go through the formalities for the time being." Ji Jiangxin said: "Your uncle and I both like children, and we are not afraid of your jokes. If so, we even bought him a wedding house for him to get married in the future, but it's a pity that we haven't had our own for so many years, but don't worry, if he passes away, we will definitely treat him like our own child."

"If you can contact Cheng Linsheng and Zhao Mei, maybe they will give you someone, but it's impossible with me."

Cheng Yang stood up while speaking, "They are very important to me, sorry." After speaking, he picked up the things in hand, turned and walked out.