easy to be a man

After rejecting Liang Shu, Zhou Liming's mood did not improve.

He returned to his previous life, but he didn't know why he didn't get used to it.I always feel irritable during class and want to look back to see what Liang Shu is doing, but when I really look for a chance to look back, Zhou Liming realizes that Liang Shu is not in this class.

In the eyes of outsiders, Zhou Liming has not changed much from before, only he knows that there is a cluster of restless fire in his heart that has been burning and crackling.It's just that the fire was separated by a thick wall, so it couldn't be touched and couldn't be extinguished.Zhou Liming could only feel the dull pain of being burned, watching from the sidelines.He thought, maybe it would be better to wait for the place to burn down, but before the fire was finished, Zhou Liming received a call from Zhou's mother.

After class, Zhou Liming took the subway to Lishui Garden.Zhou's mother didn't say too clearly on the phone, she just told him to go home.Zhou Liming felt a certain hesitation from her tone, and probably nothing good happened.Since what happened last time, Zhou's mother has become more careful with her son.

Back at Zhou's house, it looks no different from the last time I came here, the birthday dress has long since disappeared, and the rest is naturally clean and tidy, lacking in human touch.Zhou Liming glanced at the shoes in the shoe cabinet, only a few pairs.Zhou's mother seemed to be alone at home. When she saw Zhou Liming came back, she stood up from the sofa with worry in her eyes.

Zhou Liming frowned, put down his schoolbag, sat down opposite Zhou's mother and asked, "What's the matter?"

Zhou's mother lowered her head when her son asked directly.She opened and shut her mouth several times before finally asking, "Niannian, did you fall in love with...that boy at school?"

"No." Zhou Liming answered quickly, he was a little annoyed when he heard this question.He let out a long breath through his nose, got up and poured himself a glass of water, and poured another glass after drinking it.

Hearing Zhou Liming's denial, Zhou's mother became even more anxious. She turned to look at Zhou Liming, and said, "You are not in love with someone, how could you make such a big fuss? You are still acting with that boy Played a drama and took photos, you have never done such a thing before. If you really like someone, you can tell your mother every year..."

Zhou Liming interrupted Zhou's mother before she finished speaking, "No!" He slapped the water glass on the table, his face was still tight, and he turned his head to look at Zhou's mother and said word by word: "Before No because I'm not yet an adult. Now I'm 18, so I want to experience it, just have fun."

As if she didn't expect Zhou Liming to say that, Zhou's mother was completely stunned, even her hands were still stiffly raised in the air and she forgot to put them down.But I heard Zhou's father's angry voice coming from the stairs: "Zhou Liming, what are you talking about?! What are you playing, you are so shameless!" He cursed angrily while walking down the stairs.Father Zhou was still wearing a shirt and didn't even undo his tie, presumably he was dealing with work in the upstairs study not long after he got home.

Zhou's mother woke up when she heard Zhou's father's angry reprimand, but her face was still bewildered.In comparison, Zhou Liming was much calmer. He picked up his cup and drank water silently, turning a deaf ear to Zhou's father's voice.

Zhou's father was obviously irritated by Zhou Liming's actions, and immediately began to criticize him like a firecracker: "You played a play with your little boyfriend at school, and even took so many pictures of kissing me and me everywhere." Spread the word, even spread the rumors about the two of you! Zhou Liming, do you think you are showing off? You are declaring that you are out of the closet! You know that my partner showed me the photos What was your expression when you were talking? Zhou Liming, you are shameless, and you have completely embarrassed your parents!" After speaking, Zhou's father gasped heavily, pulled his tie and threw it on the ground.

Seeing this, Zhou Liming smiled ironically: "If I can still make you feel ashamed, then I am really better than blue."

Father Zhou was already very angry, but when he heard this, it was as if a date stone had been stuck in his throat, and his face turned green.He struggled to open his mouth to say something, but saw Zhou's mother winking at him.

"Niannian, this is not something to be ashamed of." Zhou's mother tried her best to soften her tone, and then said to Zhou Liming: "Your father is afraid that you will not know how powerful you are at a young age. Now you say that you are not serious about dating but you have already done it. Everyone knows, people outside don't know what's going on, they will only think that you have come out of the closet, so when you want to be serious in the future..."

"Mom..." Mother Zhou was interrupted by Zhou Liming before she finished her earnest words, "You don't have to worry about it, I won't be serious, and it doesn't matter what my sexual orientation is." He turned his head and looked at Mother Zhou with a clear voice Understand: "I don't like this life, so I won't fall in love, and I won't get married."

After this sentence was finished, the whole living room fell silent.

Zhou's mother half opened her mouth, looking at Zhou Liming with a face of shock and pain, her eyes gradually turned red.Zhou's father became even more angry: "Zhou Liming, who are you threatening! Are you going to use the rest of your life to punish your parents? Although your mother and I have emotional entanglements, we both have Sorry about your place? We have always followed your heart since we were young, and we will give you what you want! As a result, you said such things to your parents! Who are you trying to take revenge on?!"

Hearing what Zhou's father said, Zhou's mother finally covered her face, and sobbed in a low voice, her voice was intermittent, but with an indescribable sorrow.

Listening to Zhou's mother's soft crying, Zhou Liming stood upright in front of the dining table without speaking.He turned his head to look at Zhou's mother, and then at his red-eyed father. Several emotions were mixed together in his heart, and his heart sank slowly.When he spoke again, his voice lowered: "I don't want to punish anyone, I just don't want to live like this anymore, and I don't want to create another me like this." After finishing speaking, he picked up his schoolbag and didn't look back. out of the gate of Zhou's house.

The outdoors and the indoors seem to be two worlds.

Although it was cold outside, the air was very fresh. In the dark, we could still see the stars in the sky and hear the children playing in the garden.Zhou Liming's cheeks were gradually cooled by the wind, but his mood became more bitter under such a beautiful scene.Zhou Liming is no longer blindly hating and complaining about his parents like he was when he was a child.As he grew up, he gradually understood some things, but felt more and more powerless.

Sitting on the subway, Zhou Liming looked out of the dark door, and some colorful advertisements flashed from time to time, feeling like stagnant water.After one of the stations opened, a little girl in a red dress came in.Zhou Liming glanced at her and was stunned.He thought of Liang Shu, and couldn't help but feel turmoil in his heart.

Liang Shu's appearance as a girl gradually came into view, and the corners of Zhou Liming's mouth twitched involuntarily.

Speaking of it, Liang Shu was really a bit stupid, no matter how I punished him, Liang Shu would forget about it when he turned his head, and then screamed at being bullied by him again.When I was with Liang Shu, I seemed to be very happy all the time.Looking back now, I actually think that even when two people are angry, it is very interesting.Zhou Liming recalled the scene of their rehearsal.He was still leaning on Liang Shu's shoulder, listening to the other party telling him a story. Although it was just practice, the other party was so serious, looking into his eyes like a small river flowing.That water-like warmth seems to have been echoing in Zhou Liming's heart.

Zhou Liming couldn't help closing his eyes, and when he heard the school stop, he opened his eyes and got out of the car without hesitation.He didn't know what was going on, but now he desperately wanted to see Liang Shu, even if the other party scolded him or cried bitterly at him, he also wanted to see him.

Walking quickly in the direction of the school, the cold night wind blew his hair.Zhou Liming felt his heart beating fast, but his fingers were pale and stiff.He took a deep breath, feeling a little nervous.Zhou Liming knew that Liang Shu must have returned to the dormitory at this time, so he walked directly towards the dormitory building.I don't know how the other party will react when he sees him going back... Thinking of this, Zhou Liming's heart gradually became lighter. He quickly walked to the boulevard connecting the dormitory and the main road of the school. Looking ahead, he could see the door of the dormitory The bright lights are very warm in the cold night.Zhou Liming quickened his pace and walked forward, but saw a familiar figure on the bench beside the road ahead, like Liang Shu.

Zhou Liming took a deep breath, stopped, and observed carefully with the help of street lights, and found that this person was indeed Liang Shu.The other party was sitting on the bench very close to another boy, who seemed to be Jin-Woo.The remaining joy on Zhou Liming's face faded instantly, and he clenched his fists involuntarily, but Liang Shu suddenly stood up and said something agitatedly, and then covered his face.Jin-Woo also stood up, and hugged him forward.The two embraced for a long time and did not separate.

After standing motionless for a while, Zhou Liming felt his feet go numb.But he still turned his head and walked quickly in the opposite direction, and he didn't even stop when he bumped into someone on the road.At this moment, he was still walking in the wind, but Zhou Liming felt as if his heart had fallen into a hole in the ice. After a sharp pain, he was frozen numb.He stopped when he reached the school gate, suddenly chuckled when he didn't know what he thought of.

Zhou Liming felt like a burlesque actor, coming and going in a hurry.Before, he only thought about how many good memories Liang Shu had brought him, but he forgot how he treated him.For Liang Shu, the memory I brought to him may not be good.Everyone's life is going on, who would have been waiting in place, let alone waiting for someone like him.

The night was getting darker, and the wind was blowing on the face like a knife, and it was cold and painful.Zhou Liming was walking slowly on the street, and when he saw a convenience store, he went to buy a bottle of ice water, and drank it while standing on the street.Feeling the same cold in his stomach as his face, he seemed to feel a little better.

"It really deserves it..." His voice just disappeared in the wind.