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Seeing that Liang Shu just stared at him with wide eyes but didn't speak, Xiao Yu became a little anxious.

He opened his mouth and added: "This is not my impulsive thought, I made this decision after thinking for a long time, I said I like you and I am not kidding." Liang Shu swore an oath.

It's just that Liang Shu lowered his head as soon as he heard the word "just kidding".After a while he stammered and said, "You, what's going on with you? Didn't you have a good time with your girlfriend last time you came here? Why did you suddenly say you like me today, and you're not straight ?"

Seeing Liang Shu asking why, Xiao Yu wasn't as excited as before, he pursed his lips and remained silent for a while before he said: "I'm in love with you now, what kind of straight man... I don't know what to say , just say what comes to mind.”

Xiao Yu looked at the bright light under the street lamp in the distance, and said, "Xiao Shu, we grew up together, and we played very well when we were young. I became crazy like a wild child at that time, no matter how good the children were, they would be beaten I have hit you, but I have never been reluctant to hit you. Although you are a boy, you have always looked innocent and well-behaved. Even if you are a naughty child like me, I am embarrassed to bully you. I remember once I played with mud I went to play with you, and accidentally smeared a piece of mud on your face, and you cried at that time. My mother thought I was bullying you, and almost beat me up. I was so scared that I came to play with you later When I was young, I would wash my hands first. Thinking about it now, I should have liked you at that time, but when I was a child, I liked you very purely, without any superfluous thoughts. Later, we went to elementary school and junior high school together..."

Jin-Woo paused for a moment, and then continued: "We went to high school together, and you never left by my side. Even... I made a girlfriend and you didn't leave." Saying this, Jin-Woo laughed at himself: "I just I thought our friendship could last forever. Until I saw Zhou Liming for the first time..." Xiao Yu turned his head to look at Liang Shu, a trace of pain flashed in his eyes: "I suddenly felt threatened, as if unconsciously You are getting farther and farther away from me. I have never seen you look at any boy with such eyes. I am jealous from the bottom of my heart, but I am too stupid to know. Until the last time we had dinner together, Wu Qianni After I saw it, I realized that the reason why I hate Zhou Liming so much is because I have always liked you in my heart."

After listening to Xiao Yu's narration, Liang Shu still kept his head down, not knowing what he was thinking.Seeing that the other party hadn't looked at him, Xiao Yu couldn't help explaining anxiously: "There's also the matter between me and Wu Qianni. I liked her before, but then my feelings for her gradually faded, and then I realized that I didn't treat you well. Because of my feelings for my friend, I simply broke up with her. Don't worry about this, I have already made it clear to her that we have completely separated. "

After hearing this, Liang Shu raised his head and glanced at Xiao Yu, opened his mouth to speak but closed his mouth again.It's just that his appearance of not saying a word made Xiao Yu's heart flutter, as if he was sitting on the fire and roasting, and it would be burnt after burning for a while.He couldn't help but said to Liang Shu: "Xiao Shu, I've said so much, you tell me a word, are you willing or not!"

Liang Shu clasped his hands together, frowning for a long time before saying: "But, we have always been friends! I really can't digest your words."

Hearing this, Xiao Yu couldn't sit still anymore, he grabbed Liang Shu's shoulder to force him to face him, and then said excitedly: "Liang Shu, you are lying! Have you always been friends because you have feelings for me? You Didn't you like me? You still liked me in junior high school, so why not now?!"

Xiao Yu's words hit Liang Shu's ears like thunder, and Liang Shu couldn't help being stunned.He had just discovered his sexuality when he was in junior high school, and at that time he was hanging out with Jin-Woo every day, and indeed he had some fantasies about him.But Liang Shu never told anyone about this matter, how did Xiao Yu know?

Liang Shu was too shocked, couldn't help but asked Xiao Yu directly: "My junior high school... how do you know..."

Hearing Liang Shu admit it like that, Xiao Yu's face showed a trace of annoyance, but he paused and opened his mouth to explain: "There was an activity class in junior high school, I went to play basketball with other people, you said you went to the canteen to buy The drink never came back. I ran to find you alone, but I didn’t find you in the canteen, but saw you behind the flower bed. You were sitting behind the flower bed with your knees hugged and crying...then I knew... ..."

Liang Shu blinked and took a deep breath.When Jin-Woo said that, he immediately recalled his memories of junior high school.At that time, it was popular among middle school students to take aptitude tests, and the test results were most likely to be accurate.Liang Shu was already prepared in his heart, and after finishing the test, he was sure of the boy he liked.At that time, Liang Shu's best friend was Xiao Yu, so he naturally exchanged "secrets" about his sexuality with him.After Xiao Yu knew that Liang Shu was gay, he didn't show any entanglements, and he still treated him as before.It's just that Liang Shu's heart has changed a bit, but when he thinks that the person who tested his sexuality is a straight man, Liang Shu understands that he shouldn't have any different feelings for Xiao Yu.Once the relationship deteriorates, their friendship may be terminated directly.It's just that Liang Shu still couldn't let go of the excitement at that time, so one day he hid behind a certain flower bed in the school and cried in pain, talking to himself, but he didn't expect this A scene was seen by Xiao Yu, but the other party actually kept it a secret until today.

Thinking back then, Liang Shu's eyes were a little hot, he took a few deep breaths, and then said to Xiao Yu: "I did have feelings for you at that time, but I knew there was no result so I didn't dare to say it. You found out at that time and didn't say it Probably because of the same worry..."

Seeing that Liang Shu's eyes were red, Xiao Yu couldn't help but feel even more regretful, but he could only bite the bullet and explain: "I didn't think about it at the time, my heart was very confused, and I didn't know what to do. Later Wu Qianni confessed to me, and I was with her... But now I understand and am sober. Xiaoshu, I like you!"

"Xiao Yu." Liang Shu paused, and then continued: "You only want to understand it now, but I have already understood it. After the end of the third year of junior high school, I have already returned to the seat of friends with you, and now... ...I was thinking of someone else. I can't be with you."

After hearing this, Xiao Yu immediately raised his head, his eyes turned red, "Are you still thinking about that Zhou Liming?! Liang Shu, if you were with someone else, I might not be able to go all out and confess my love to you today. But this Zhou Liming, he He’s not a good person at all, he’s just playing with you, he doesn’t really like you at all! He dumped you this time, right? At this point, you still think about him?! Although I’m not a very good person, but I I grew up with you and treated you well since I was a child, can I not compare to his kind of bastard..." Saying this, Xiao Yu became more and more excited, and his voice became louder.

Liang Shu lowered his head and pursed his lips tightly to listen to the other party's words. For some reason, his blood gradually rose and his emotional value suddenly rose. He stood up from the bench with a "wow" and interrupted the other party's words: "Don't say Yes! I know Zhou Liming doesn't like me, I know it's meaningless for me to think about him like this, but I still like him now!" After speaking, his tears fell directly.Liang Shu had never expressed his love for Zhou Liming to others so clearly, but he didn't know how sour his heart was and how helpless this love was until he said it out of his heart.

Seeing Liang Shu covering his face and crying, Xiao Yu stood up slowly, his eyes were empty for a long time and he was speechless.Liang Shu cried a few times to relieve it, he raised his head and couldn't look directly at Xiao Yu's eyes, then turned his head to take a breath, and his voice gradually calmed down: "Stop talking, let's do it, I'll go first .” After he finished speaking, he was about to turn around when he was hugged by Xiao Yu.Just as Liang Shu wanted to struggle, he heard Xiao Yu's voice with a hint of crying: "Liang Shu, why are you like this... I finally figured it out... I even thought about how to come out with my parents, you Can't you give me another chance? Don't think about other people, see if I can't..."

Listening to the gradually blurred voice behind Xiao Yu, Liang Shu suddenly felt a kind of sadness.He leaned in Xiao Yu's arms and silently listened to the other party's venting, the tears on his face were quickly dried.He was at a loss in his heart, and he just felt that luck was tricking people.

Liang Shu's eyes looked into the distance as if emptied, but in a trance, he saw a person standing by the edge of the woods not far away, who looked like Zhou Liming.With a thought in his heart, he took a closer look, but saw that there was no one there anymore, only the shadows of the trees under the moonlight were swaying.

He couldn't help but smile wryly, is he still dreaming at this time?