[Danganronpa] Forcing CP

・Komaeda leaned back against the door wearily.He scratched his hair and pressed his head a few times, feeling a dull pain where his fingertips pressed.

Matsui's mental state was very bad, but he didn't know that it was so bad.In the past few days, he has been communicating with Doctor Gao Leng in private, and the doctor told him bluntly that if Matsui's condition deteriorates further, she has no other way out but to go to a mental hospital.

As a "family member", he should cooperate, but he really doesn't know how to cooperate.

He read a lot of books about mental illness, and went to Matsui's class to inquire about Matsui's daily situation. To his surprise, Matsui was quite popular in the class. He said that he often went shopping with Matsui and held girls' tea parties, and knew Matsui very well.But those girls chattered and twittered for a long time, and in the end they could only tell him one piece of extremely limited information—it is said that Matsui’s parents loved Matsui very much and gave her a lot of money, so much that Matsui could change a set of clothes every day for a week without repeating the same clothes. Affordable for the most high-end cosmetics in Japan, there are dozens of color numbers for lipstick alone.Basically, whatever is trending in the fashion world recently, you can use what Matsui wears and use—this makes these adolescent girls very envious.Komaeda keenly felt a hint of jealousy in it.What made him feel angry was that some people told him mysteriously and quietly that Matsui actually had no money at all at home, but was taken care of by an old man, and had already had countless abortions at a young age.Hearing such words, Komaeda almost abandoned his gentlemanly demeanor and wanted to beat up these tongue-twisting girls.But in the end, thinking that Matsui still needed him to watch over him, it would not be worth the loss if he was detained at this time, so he could only firmly remember the names of these people and prepare to deal with them slowly in the future.

What frustrates him is that there is no other information at all—the girls only pay attention to Matsui's appearance, how popular he is, what he eats, and Matsui is usually good at telling jokes, which makes them laugh endlessly.Other than that, nothing is known.

It wasn't until after asking around that Matsui's deskmate Amano Mie gave him some useful information: Matsui hated other people going to her house, and no one in the class had been invited by her so far.But it's not because of her parents. On the contrary, Matsui seems to have not seen her parents for a long time, and has been living by herself.Matsui's feelings for her parents don't seem to be very good, but she has been making enough of the illusion of "she is loved by her family" in front of outsiders.

Regarding this point, Matsui has never said anything publicly.Amano Mie noticed this because once they talked about getting married and having children at a girls' party. When all the other girls talked about their expectations with longing faces, only Matsui didn't say a word--this is very important to her. It is very rare for her who is usually talkative.And when she was asked when she wanted to have a baby, she couldn't tell whether it was resentment or resentment on her face at that moment, but soon she lowered her head and said in a joking tone: "If you don't plan to raise her well, at the beginning Just don’t give birth to her. At the beginning, I forced her into this world without asking her if she wanted to, thinking that she could be dismissed with money. If this can be said to be a qualified parent, then I think the child probably felt It would be better to be strangled."

Although this sentence was very offensive, Matsui's joke was too heavy, so it only caused all the girls to laugh, and was not noticed.Only Amano Mie felt the strangeness - if she was a child who grew up in a happy family, how could she say such dark words?And the sentence "I thought I could get rid of it with money" was too similar to Matsui's usual horrible expenses, which made her suspicious. It was at that time that Amano Mie began to suspect that Matsui's family was actually not happy.Out of concern for her friend, she asked about Matsui's family situation several times, but Matsui easily bypassed her, or simply interrupted the topic to do other things.After coming down these few times, Mie Amano was basically sure that there was definitely something wrong with Matsui's family.

"But you know, Ayase... is really...well, it's better to say that he has too much self-esteem, or should he say that he has too much sense of self-protection..." Mie Amano organized her words with a worried expression on her face "She never told me about the situation in her family. I can feel that she is very taboo about being asked about it... so I dare not ask too much, because I am afraid that she will feel uncomfortable if I ask too much." Second, I was afraid that she would get angry... I'm actually a little sad, after all, we've been friends for so long, but I feel that Ayase still doesn't trust me very much. Maybe it's because my usual rashness makes people feel uncomfortable Reliable..."

Komaeda thanked her a thousand times, and finally got a little understanding of Matsui's situation. Although most of them were still assumptions, at least they still had a certain degree of credibility.

The information he could get was pitifully small, and he was helpless in the face of Dr. Gao Leng's inquiry.Although Matsui has revealed her background, the patient's statement generally needs to be discussed, because they often cannot distinguish between reality and fantasy, exaggerate some things, and even make up some plots, which are strongly subjective factor.Dr. Gao Leng met many patients who vowed that someone wanted to kill him, that his family wanted to poison him, and he said it clearly, but finally found that those were all their imaginations.

It is necessary to get the exact situation of Matsui's house.

Komaeda suddenly thought that the teacher must have the contact information of the parents, secretly scolded himself for being stupid, and hurried to Matsui's head teacher, using the excuse that Matsui's parents could not be contacted, successfully asked for the contact information.

While chatting with the teacher, he was inadvertently shocked to learn that Matsui's parents have never attended a parent-teacher meeting since the beginning of school, and the phone number was shut down in nine out of ten calls.Matsui's explanation for this is that the parents are in a meeting, and the mobile phone must be turned off during the meeting.After many times, the teacher suspected that the contact information left by Matsui might be a fake number at all.In the end, Matsui's mother sent the secretary to the school to stuff a red envelope for the teacher, which was an explanation, and since then she has been able to skip any activities that parents need to attend with peace of mind.

——I didn’t even come to Matsui’s school show.

Komaeda finally understood that when he asked for leave for Matsui, the teacher would feel so relaxed, and he didn't even ask the parents to come - the feeling was that he knew that Matsui's parents would never come.What makes Komaeda feel even more sad is that Matsui wrote "I don't know" on the parent's occupation and work unit - this is probably the first time for a child who doesn't know what his parents' job is, even the teacher.

But his luck was really bad.He dialed those two strings of numbers from morning to night, almost thousands of times, but none of them got through.

Without much consideration, he made a decision - to stay in front of Matsui's house.To his surprise, he squatted for two nights, but no one came back.The lights were always off, and there was no one in the house, he was sure of that.Every day he goes to school with panda eyes yawning, falls asleep almost immediately after class, and has to go to the hospital to see Matsui at noon. He feels that he has more energy than energy to live such a life of upside-down black and white.

Every time he saw Matsui's numb eyes on the hospital bed, he felt so sad that he wanted to cry—but no, he was the only "family member" Matsui could rely on now, and he had to be strong.

Every time Matsui sees him, he is as bored as if he saw a dead mouse, and he also knows that the people around him are really not good——"luck" is such an illusory thing, after countless personal experiences, he Already somewhat believed.But at this moment, he was also thinking about luck, and prayed that the misery he had endured since he was a child was just a coincidence.

He can't leave Matsui.

Matsui would die, if even he left, Matsui would definitely die.

And he...

With his hands inserted into his hair, he slowly slid down the door panel with his head in his arms, resting his head weakly on his knees.He remembered Dr. Gao Leng's warning to him before: "It takes a lot of energy and effort to take care of a mentally abnormal person... very hard. And patients often show extremely aggressive and imaginary symptoms. Your dedication It is very likely that she will not be understood by the other party, and may even be hurt. The cruelest thing is that even if you put a lot of effort into it, there is a high possibility that she will not get better... I just want to ask you, you Are you ready for all this?"

He closed his eyes, and in the darkness, he could clearly hear the beating of his heart.

After a long time, he said softly, "I also...don't want to leave you."

The restless heartbeat finally calmed down at that moment. ?