[Tutor] Lick the dog until nothing is left

That night, I had a rare and particularly lengthy dream.

The trivial scenes and fragments in the dream seem to come from a corner of my long memory, and in these flashbacks, there are figures I am most familiar with.

I stared at Gangji, like an outsider watching a silent movie, watching him gradually grow from an immature boy to an adult, watching his soft eyebrows and eyes stained with secular fireworks, and finally faded away his cowardly appearance, Turned into a firm expression in the brow.

As if looking at the sky where he once existed, I kept looking at him.

In a trance, I seemed to understand something.

If it were him, even if he disappeared into the darkness, he would definitely go to a world full of smiles.

One day, I will accept the fact that he is gone, just like I am now able to calmly face A Gang ten years ago.

But even so, every time I see him as a young boy, I still can't help being stunned, feeling a sense of loss and trance lingering in my heart.It was a very strange state of mind. The emotions that should have been sad were unconsciously infected by melancholy, and at the same time, there was an indescribable loss.

How sudden, the person who was still talking to you the night before, how could you never see him again just after waking up?

Such a vivid life, and every day and night spent together, seems to have faded all the colors overnight, leaving only the missing blank.

In the undeleted messages on the phone, there are still the last words he sent.

And I, who didn't find anything, did I also unconsciously witness his steps towards the end step by step?

It would have been nice to have noticed it sooner.

It would have been nice to have known earlier.

Now, only when we met in a dream, would we not be so sad.

But even in my dreams, those memories still haunt me, and I have nowhere to escape.

In this world, why is it that only the irreversible time is so shining?Even the courage to deliberately forget was dissipated under such light.

Without a trace.

Soon after that, Gang and the others brought back Kyoko and Koharu from ten years ago, and together with Yamamoto who had changed back to ten years ago, almost everyone was covered in scars.

This is the first time, from the perspective of a bystander, I witnessed how they hid the wounds on their bodies from the beginning to the end, while laughing and using clumsy lies to whitewash the world in the eyes of the girls.

Look.

Kyoko and Xiaochun, who were so ignorant and believed in those words, don't they look like themselves who were concealed by Tsuna before?

I saw the old me in them.

It turns out that in Tsuna Ji's eyes, there is no difference between me and these girls, they are roles that need to be protected.

This is a very careful protection.

Like a soft cocoon wrapped in layers of silk wadding in the center, I can understand the anxiety and cautiousness in A Gang's eyes ten years ago.

Maybe, he is right.

I lowered my eyes, and my eyes fell on the ring on the middle finger of my left hand.Under the incandescent light, a faint cold light flashed across the edge of the seemingly ordinary ring.

Gang Guitar, I have long forgotten...

Ten years ago, the night Riboun knocked on the glass window of my room, I was no longer the original Shirley Miyagi.

It's obviously me who wants to use the word "protection" on another person.

As early as when I saw clearly everything that those weak shoulders were carrying.

As early as a long time ago, when he took my hand and ran away in the boundless illusion.

Or it was when he didn't care about the malice from others, and instead smiled shyly at me.

——I want to protect him.

Protect the occasional sadness in his downcast eyes, protect the fear he has never uttered over the years, protect the light in his heart, and his kind and warm character from beginning to end.

I have always loved him dearly.

And this love, in the past ten years, has never faded.

In the middle of the night, the Vengley Base was silent. I opened my eyes and woke up from the corner of the sofa. There was still a trace of sleepiness in the corners of my eyes.

There are jumping dials hanging on the wall of the hall, one long and one short pointing to [-]:[-] in the morning. I rummaged through the messy cabinets, found the dusty coffee machine, and rinsed it under the water.

Since I came to the underground base, I have been sleeping less. On the one hand, it is difficult to fall asleep every day, and on the other hand, I have fallen into the embarrassing situation that I often wake up in the middle of the night even if I fall asleep.

According to this situation, my body should be deteriorating due to lack of sleep, but somehow it didn't, and even my spirit was always in a very active state.

This may also be a great talent.

While putting the coffee beans, I thought to myself mockingly, but suddenly I heard heavy footsteps coming from the corridor outside.

I thought it was Lan Bo who woke up in the middle of the night and couldn't find the bathroom and wandered around, but when he opened the door, he happened to meet A Gang who was wearing short-sleeved shorts.

"Can't sleep?" I stepped aside to welcome him in, turned around and walked to the coffee machine, and took out the coffee beans that had just been put in and hadn't had time to stir.

Ah Gang hummed, with a bit of embarrassment on his face, and sat down on the sofa with a bit of embarrassment: "I don't know why, but I suddenly woke up at this time... and then it was difficult to fall back asleep. "

It must be too much pressure.

Suddenly came to the future, and also took on the responsibility of defeating Mirufiore and protecting the family and friends. For Agang who is still used to avoiding everything, it is really difficult to accept.

A part of my heart suddenly softened, I replaced the coffee with hot milk that can help sleep, and handed him a cup.

Ah Gang thanked softly, took it politely and held it in his hand, but didn't drink it for a long time.His brows were always slightly frowned, and there was a daze in his eyes that maybe even he didn't know. He was like a deer whose legs were entangled by vines all over the place. He was anxious and didn't know how to break the situation in front of him.

He looked like he was asking for help.

What should I say to appease him like this?

A Gang in front of me has the most familiar eyebrows and eyes, and the boy's face has gradually been outlined.He frowned tightly, his eyes fell on the cup in his hand, and even the fingers covering the cup were tense unconsciously.

I know he has a pair of clear and warm eyes, but are those eyes filled with fear now?

"Ah Gang-jun." I gently called his name, and when he looked up, I smiled just in time, "You don't mind if I call you that?"

"Ah?" He was stunned for a moment, and after realizing it, he quickly waved his hands, "No, it's okay! Miyagi-san just follow the previous habit!"

It's been a long time since anyone has called me by my surname, and I was a little uncomfortable hearing it, so I was slightly startled and said to him, "You should call me Xia Li."

"Ah, yes, Xia Li-san." He changed his words obediently, and his clear brown eyes looked directly at me, with a soft reflection flowing in his eyes.

As if to get used to the new address, he paused for a second before saying, "Is there something wrong? Xia Liさん."

The familiar voice spoke honorifics that I was no longer familiar with, and I looked at my face reflected in the eyes of A Gang who was close at hand. In the wonderful sense of time confusion, the distance between us was successfully divided.

The boy in front of me, A Gang, obviously has the same eyes as Tsuna Kichi, but when I look at him, what I see in my eyes is the distant past.

And those times that have passed and can never go back.

Deep in sorrow and confusion, if it is Tsunayoshi in this era, even if I can't do anything else, I can choose to stay by his side and hold his hand tightly.

And facing the current A Gang, what do I need to do.What can be done?

All the truths have been taught by Li Baoen long ago. Up to now, only he can slowly digest and adapt to the matter, and no one can help him.

This is the pain he has to face, and it is also the pain of being forced to grow up.

"Is the wound better?" I swallowed the words I wanted to comfort, and tried to use a lighter topic to make him less tense.

He nodded, and subconsciously touched the bandage on his chest, "It's much better... Speaking of which, the medical facilities in this base are really complete."

I couldn't help smiling: "Maybe it's because you haven't changed in the past ten years, and you are still so afraid of others getting hurt."

"Ah, speaking of this..." Ah Gang seemed to suddenly think of something, the expression on his face became disturbed, he raised his eyes and secretly looked at my expression, hesitantly and curiously asked, "Charlie-さんYou know me ten years from now, right? What kind of person will I be ten years from now?"

"Well, let me think about it—well, I'm an idiot. I'm timid, hesitant to do things, and often make decisions for others on my own initiative, take pictures of straight men, don't understand girls' minds, and have poor learning ability It's outrageous, the slowest progress was when everyone was learning Italian together..."

I dragged my voice out, looking at his nervous and curious wide eyes, I couldn't help but burst out laughing.

Holding my face with one hand, I looked into these familiar eyes, and my tone of playfulness softened little by little.

"However, he is also very kind, although many times this kindness will be misinterpreted as weakness by people who don't understand; he is very strong, and has shouldered the burden of the family all these years alone; he also loves to laugh, and has a gentle temper. Air; he cherishes all the friends around him, and those precious memories from the past.”

"He worked very hard to become everyone's sky, not the so-called BOSS of the family."

"Isn't it the same for Agang-kun now? So don't change anything, just keep it like this... let's grow up like this."

That's right, that's right.

That's how it was originally.

Sawada Tsunayoshi, he values ​​friends and all hard-won feelings. I was originally attracted by this kind of him, and I originally liked him like this.

Whether it's 'the most important' or those meaningless comparisons...he never needs to change.

It was me who became selfish.

"...What, don't say it as if you know me so well. In fact, I am not as good as Xia Li-san said." Ah Gang's voice came clearly from the opposite side, he touched his nose in embarrassment, and whispered voice retorted.

I smiled, and when I was about to change the subject, I saw him looking at me with those bright eyes again.

This time, he asked curiously: "If you can say it so clearly... So what is the relationship between Shirley-san ten years later and me? Ah no, it seems a bit strange to ask that! I mean——"

Yes, what is our relationship?

I quietly looked at the bewildered expression of Ah Gang who instantly panicked because of the slip of the tongue, but found that I have become much calmer than I imagined.

I cut off what he was eager to add, and said softly: "Ah Gang-kun has a girl he likes, right?"

"Eh, eh?!" The young man's thin face turned completely red in an instant, and those clear brown eyes that could be seen at a glance finally moved away because of embarrassment.

My fingertips slid the warm glass noodles unconsciously, and I sat there with a relaxed attitude all the time, expressing my doubts to him ten years ago.

"Ah Gang-kun, how will you treat the person you like?"

"Eh? This..." Ah Gang scratched his head, as if recalling his feelings carefully, and then said uncertainly, "Probably... want to take care of her, protect her?"

"Is that so." I lowered my eyes and blew lightly on the milk in the cup, "Even if she doesn't want you to do this?"

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Ah Gang stunned by this question.I realized from his look that he had never thought about it.

Ten years ago, he was still half a child, and he could still understand his imperfections.

What about him who has grown into a great adult ten years later?

Did he ever care what I thought?

"Does this mean that even if it goes against her wishes, she still chooses to do so?" A Gang frowned slightly.

I looked up at him, and said softly, "Yes. So if it's A Gang-kun, why would you do this?"

"If it were me..."

He seemed to have noticed something, his eyes couldn't help but look at me, thinking slowly and seriously with a bit of anxiety.

"If it were me, even if it was against the other party's wishes, I would still choose to do this, so I think it is a last resort, right? It's like hiding the truth of this era from Kyoko-chan and Koharu... Surely, there is no way to say it reason?"

Ah Gang scratched her brown hair in distress, which was already messy from waking up, and couldn't help but look at me several times, and said hesitantly, "Actually, I don't really understand..."

I thought about it.

For some reason, I was vaguely able to touch some of Tsuna Yoshi's inner thoughts through A Gang in front of me.What's amazing is that there are many words that can't be said to Tsuna, but they can be easily blurted out when facing A Gang.

Is it because I'm not being frank enough?

If... I mean if.

If I was able to confide all the doubts in my heart to him at that time, as I am facing A Gang today, will everything be different now?

"...Charlie-san, are you alright?"

Ah Gang's voice brought back my disturbed thoughts.When I came back to my senses, I realized that I had shed tears unknowingly.

Wiping away the only tear, I smiled reassuringly at A Gang who was worried in front of my eyes: "It's okay, I'm fine."

I'm very good.

After all, it was you who told me to take care of myself even when I am alone.

Also keep going.

The author has something to say: When sorting out the follow-up plot, I found that it seems impossible to end a chapter, because I plan to insert the perspective of 27 to write, and the chapter will be completely messed up, and the division of chapters will also have a chapter beauty...so Still developed separately.

See you there at 8 o'clock every day.