[Tutor] Lick the dog until nothing is left

I used to think that the words "there are so many parts in life" are actually very far away from me. After all, I have never really lost anything, nor have I experienced long-term parting.

But now, when I really understand the meaning of this sentence, it seems to be too late.

Gangji is really dead.

Different from all the farewells in the past, this time it is a permanent departure.

Balian in front of me was very loud and noisy, no one was saddened by the news, it felt as if suddenly I was the only one left in the world, and I was the only one who remembered him.

With one hand propped on the floor covered with soft blankets, I stood up with all my strength and stumbled towards the gate of the castle.

I can't wait to escape from here, as if this is the only way to prove my difference.

They're all emotionless lunatics, but I'm not.

I can't stay in that atmosphere, and I can't tell anyone how I feel at the moment.

I just want to escape, to a place where no one can find me, only in this way can I calm down, and don't have to face this cruel reality that is like a nightmare to me.

The person who died was none other than.

He is Peng Gelie's boss, Li Baoen's proud disciple, and even the sky of everyone.

He can be many people, but he is also my Tsunayoshi Sawada, the only person I have ever loved deeply in my life.

I can't imagine... let alone accept it.

how can that be possible?

Fran followed me a few steps away, but he never spoke, like a wordless farewell.

We walked one after another like this for a long time, until I could no longer hear any sound from the castle hall, and then barely stopped.

The emotions that surged just now are gradually fading away, replaced by even more indescribable sadness and bewilderment.I felt as if something had disappeared in my body, as if I had suddenly lost the most important thing, which made it difficult for me to sort out my thoughts, and all the scenes I saw in front of me became strange.

How strange, even Fran's face became strange.I was obviously looking at him, but why was there only a blank in my eyes?

"Let's go," Fran said.

He was very close to me, but his voice seemed far away.

I suddenly became extremely dull at this moment, and looked at him blankly for a long time before I could barely make out what he said.

am i leaving

Yes, I was going to go back.

I want to go back to see him, and let him tell me that all this is false, but there is another voice deep in my heart telling me, enough is enough, don't lie to yourself anymore.

This is real.

It's a fact I can't deny anyway.

I've lost all courage just by hearing it.I suddenly didn't want to go back, I was afraid to go back to the place I was familiar with, but I would never see the people I was familiar with again.

But if I don't go back, where can I go?

So in the end, I still curled up the corners of my mouth stiffly, and nodded to Fran.

"Yeah... I'm leaving."

——If this is a dream, please let me wake up.

I can't face the world without you.

With the news that the tenth generation of Pengelie was shot dead, the world of Mafia fell into tremendous turmoil.The Mirufiore family led by Bai Lan had no one to restrain them, so they ordered the frightening Vongola hunting operation that day. All the people related to Vongola were killed, causing everyone to be in danger for a while For fear of being involved in this bloody storm.

At the same time, Vongola's headquarters, which had lost its leader and advisors outside the door, was in chaos, and soon fell into a state of destruction. Contact her.

Today's Vengley is like a building that will topple in the wind and rain, but no one can support it firmly like Gang Ji.Among the guardians, Rokudoku has been missing for a long time, Kurom has not heard from him since the last time he saw him, Hibari returned to Japan long before Tsunayoshi's accident, and both Heihe and Yamamoto went out... The headquarters stayed behind, After a careful calculation, there are only two people, Yusi and Lanbo.

It's not the worst.

Aunt Nana and Iemitsu Sawada, who were supposed to be traveling in Rome, have completely disappeared.

I ended up not being able to protect anyone.

His teacher, his parents, his valued friends and family, everything related to him is gradually collapsing, and maybe one day, even I will disappear and die somewhere unknown.

But even so, so what?

Now I have nothing to lose.

On the day when Tsunayoshi's body was escorted back to Japan, the weather was particularly sunny.It was already September in early autumn, but the breeze that occasionally blew across the cheeks was as warm as spring, and even the sun was warm and bright.

The world does not stop turning without anyone, just like the sky above my head that I once looked up to with him, it still looks dazzling and vast now.

The coffin containing Tsunayoshi's body was temporarily placed in the vast Bingsheng forest, waiting for the main battlefield in Italy to stabilize before making plans.There were only a handful of people who came to the funeral, except for Rambo and Yuji, only Jiang Nier who came from the base, and Ippei who hurried to help, the rest of the friends who were still in Japan, and even the one who was no longer there. The news has never been known.

I stood at the back of the crowd, quietly watching them lay the coffin, bow their heads in silence, and never took a step forward from the beginning to the end.

Listening to Lin Tao whirling in my ears, my eyes fell on a corner of the coffin far away, my hands were clenched into fists unconsciously, and some sharp nails were deeply wedged into the flesh, causing brief pain.

I suddenly felt that the scene in front of me was ironic.

Everyone says that the life of the mafia is doomed not to last long, because what they do is like a demon walking in the world.

But why is it him?

Becoming the leader of Mafia...he didn't want to!

He is obviously just an ordinary person with a softer heart than ordinary people. Even though he has embarked on such a path, he has not lost his way from beginning to end.

He should have had a more splendid life, moving forward with the blessings and surroundings of his relatives and friends, until he grew up and aged in the foreseeable bright future, instead of lying alone in a coffin like this now, but with We are separated from each other.

His story should have just begun.

But why... did it become like this?

"Let me take you back to the base. Although everyone's rings are covered with Mammon chains, you still have to be careful." Yiping turned around as he spoke, and was slightly startled when his eyes met mine.

She stopped where she was going to approach, and her immature face was stained with cautious hesitation: "Miss Xia Li... are you okay?"

As soon as this sentence came out, everyone's eyes were immediately focused on me, and I touched the wet corners of my eyes belatedly, and the autumn wind blew, bringing a icy cold.

Now I seem to be getting more and more unable to control my emotions.

Thinking of this in my heart, I put down my hands and smiled at their concerned or worried eyes, just like what Tsuna had shown in front of me, and I finally said the same thing as him.

"I'm fine... just want to see him again."

Hearing this, Prison Temple frowned slightly, but didn't say anything, didn't even look at me, turned around and left.

Yiping hesitated for a moment, as if he couldn't bear it, he turned his head and exchanged glances with Lan Bo, and the two walked forward together in tacit understanding, and helped me push back the tightly closed coffin lid.

After doing all this, they also left with General Ni Er, and finally only Tsuna and I were left here, no... now it's just me.

The meridians in my right hand suddenly twitched nervously. Looking at the open coffin, I slowly moved my already stiff legs.

The road in front of me is only a dozen steps away, but it seems to be hundreds of millions of light years away, so that I walked for a long time before I came to his side.

Inside the coffin, Gang Ji was lying there quietly, covered with white lilies.His hands were securely folded on his lower abdomen, his face was soft and serene, as if he was just sleeping.

Mottled and broken tree shadows fell under my feet. I stepped on those light spots that swayed gently with the breeze, and just stared at them silently for a long time before slowly bending down.

I sat down against the coffin, and bursts of fresh fragrance poured into my nose instantly. It was the unique fragrance of lilies, but it was not his smell that I was familiar with.

In addition to the fragrance of flowers, his body is always mixed with some light scent similar to pine wood, which neutralizes the sweetness of flowers, and looks more calm and low-key in comparison.

He actually has a lot of little habits, maybe he doesn't even know it himself.For example, if you feel guilty, you will touch your nose, and if you feel embarrassed, you will scratch your cheek... Obviously, as the boss of a big family, he is so kind that he would feel embarrassed even to refuse others.

And I, too, must be the one who would make things difficult for him.

Holding Tsunaki's icy hand, I tried to close my palms, trying to pass on the remaining warmth in my body, but failed.

No matter how bright the sun above the head is, it is still not a warm summer day.So I turned to lean towards his face, and stroked his brows and eyes that had lost their temperature with my soft fingertips, and the vision in front of me gradually became blurred.

Tears finally broke free from the shackles at this moment, and just like this silently slid down the eye sockets.

Now that all the self-deception is gone, I can no longer deceive myself that it's all just a hoax.

Not to be seen, not to be seen again, not even to call his name.

I can no longer hug him, can no longer tell him, tell him that I am actually willing to wait until the day he takes the initiative to say that he loves me.

If I had known that this was the final ending, then I would not leave no matter what, even if it was a breakup, I would always stay by his side.

Obviously... I haven't said thank you to him yet, and I haven't even had a complete farewell.

It was only at this moment that I realized that in this world, he is the only one who can make me sad, happy and loving.

The night I returned to the underground base, I had a dream.In the dream, we went back to the winter of the third year of high school. The whole long street was covered with snow. He offered to take me home.At that time, his face was still a little green, and his stature was not as tall as a few years later, but he was my Sawada Tsunayoshi.

I plucked up the courage to hold his hand, but he didn't refuse, there was always a slight smile on his lips, and there was a soft light in his clear eyes.

After waking up, facing the darkness of the room, I touched my sore eye sockets, but found that there was no tear left.

I hugged my knees and sat curled up on the head of the bed, staring blankly at a certain point in the void, and after a while, I burst out laughing.

But soon, I felt tired. It was really hard work to keep the corners of the lips raised. The soreness of the muscles spread along the nerves and entered the blood until it reached the heart, bringing pain like needle pricks.

I turned on the bedside lamp with a blank expression, peeled a piece of candy and put it in my mouth, but I only got a mouthful of bitterness.

Something became clearer as time passed, and in the day-by-day thrashing of memories I knew that I had always loved him dearly.

"Not everyone can do it, as long as it's not you."

He is the most beautiful scenery that I came across by chance in my short life, shining like a shooting star, but now that he is gone, I also lost my way home.

At this moment, hurried footsteps came from outside the door, and my door was knocked, and Nier's anxious voice was transmitted to my ears through the door panel.

"Miss Xia Li, are you asleep? If not, please answer me!"

I had a headache from his noise, but now I had to get up, put a coat on my body, opened the door and asked, "What's wrong?"

"Out, something big!"

Jiang Nier saw that he had come running all the way, and his physique, which had always lacked exercise, was panting tiredly at this moment. He was wiping the sweat on his forehead with a small handkerchief, and said in panic while wiping: "Mr. ……He is back!"

what?

I frowned tightly, feeling absurd in my heart, and subconsciously started running in the corridor.Jiang Ni Er called me, seeing that I didn't respond, he had to put on his handkerchief and fell behind me bitterly.

The door of the main war room at B5 was closed, but I had a strong intuition for some reason, so I pulled the door open without thinking.

There was a swish, and the only two people in the room were startled by the sound, and they all looked in my direction at the same time.

Sitting cross-legged on the sofa, Li Baoen still looked like a baby, holding a cup of steaming black tea in his hand.But different from the black suit and top hat in the past, now he is wearing a weird white jumpsuit, and there is even a ridiculous little tail on the spine, which looks like some kind of cosplay costume with unique taste.

"...that's the spare protective suit that the BOSS asked me to prepare before. If I wear it, I won't be affected by the non-73 rays." Ni Er, who had finally caught up with him, took a breath and explained thoughtfully, "Because Mr. Libun didn't wear any protection against non-73 rays when he appeared, so this suit can finally come in handy."

I didn't speak, and my eyes still fell on Li Baoen and I couldn't move away. The surprise and puzzlement in my heart didn't dissipate until the prison temple asked me to sit down.

Li Baoen, who had been dead for a long time, appeared here safe and sound at this moment, even wearing the sunny-attribute pacifier that Brando had removed on his chest... How is this possible?

"Well, no matter how much you doubt it, it's the truth."

Li Baoen put down the teacup in his hand calmly. There was no emotion in his dark and dull eyes, but I was keenly aware that there seemed to be a trace of cold scrutiny in it, just like looking at someone for the first time. Strangers I saw.

Prison Temple frowned slightly, with a somewhat anxious and sinister look on his face, like a trapped beast bound in an invisible space but unable to find a way to break free, but the words he uttered were in agreement: "He is It's absolutely true, Mr. Ribbon."

"...It's impossible." Seeing that he was so sure, my heart was suddenly in a mess, and I pinched my palm to try to stay calm, "Li Baoen is dead, don't you know this matter best? Or You told me the truth!"

The gloomy expression on the prison temple's face became more obvious, and he said in a hoarse voice: "Mr. Li Baoen is indeed dead, but this one in front of me..."

His wording was a little strange, like this and that, as if he was playing some kind of charade.I was just about to say something more, but when the words came to my lips, a flash of inspiration flashed in my mind, which made me stunned for a moment.

As if he had seen through my thoughts, Li Baoen stared straight at me with his big black eyes, with a pure and innocent smile like a child on his face.

"Ah, by the way, I seem to have forgotten to tell you..." He said slowly, "I was the one who was blown up by a rocket launcher ten years later. To be precise, I don't belong to this era."

Regarding the question of why Li Baoen appeared in the base after being hit by a rocket launcher ten years ago, we still haven't been able to get an answer. The setting of "exchanging oneself with oneself" forms a paradox.

What's more, the most amazing thing is that Li Baoen has been here for more than 5 minutes.

He doesn't seem to be going back.

"It's a bit strange... It stands to reason that I couldn't avoid a sneak attack of that level, but at that time my body was completely unable to move, so I was hit by a rocket launcher ten years later." Recalling the scene before the time travel, Li Bao En's face gradually became a little dignified, "That feeling is the same as the feeling of being irradiated by non-73 rays when I first came here. Now that I think about it, maybe it's not accidental."

Prison Temple was taken aback, but quickly realized, and opened his eyes slightly: "You mean...?"

Li Baoen glanced down at his pacifier, which was isolated from the flame signal, and pondered: "I hope it's just my guess."

Even if I didn't say it explicitly, I guessed a lot from the expressions of the two of them.Ten years later, why would the bazooka break down for no reason, so that Li Baoen, who was ten years ago, could not go back to the past?

Assuming that all of this was premeditated, then there is a great possibility that someone from ten years ago will be replaced.Because of Li Baowen's identity, these people are also very likely to be other Rainbow Children ten years ago, and the purpose may be related to the pacifiers Bai Lan has been collecting.

Although I figured this out, some secret and absurd expectations grew uncontrollably in my heart.

What am I looking forward to?

Although he is a newcomer, Li Boen still showed strong adaptability. This is mainly reflected in the fact that he only took one day to figure out all the entrances and exits and main facilities of the base, but it was not the damage caused by the 73 rays to the Rainbow Son. It was so big that General Ni Er, who worked overtime to protect him, also set up isolation beams at each entrance.

It seems a little funny to say it, but I actually learned from Jiang Ni Er that this underground base was mainly designed according to Tsuna Yoshi's idea.And before that, when the base was completed, I went back to Bingsheng with him for this reason, but at that time, I did not expect that this new base that I was not interested in at all would become Shelter for everyone in Japan.

The arrival of Li Baoen made the dull base more popular. At the same time, through the information network of the Fengji Foundation under the Skylark, we quickly contacted Yamamoto and Liaoping. The former said that he would rush back to Binsheng as soon as possible The latter is on a mission and is on his way to Balian Castle.

So far, except for the still missing Mist, everything else in the guardian has been confirmed to be safe, and finally there is the only happy thing in recent days.

Following Yamamoto's return to Bingsheng to join us, the long-lost external advisory organization finally heard the news.So after three days, Yamamoto went to pick up the other party, but he didn't expect that besides the Lalmirch I was familiar with, there was also the prison temple that got up early and went out to check the coffin in the forest, but it became smaller, and... …Ten years ago Tsunayoshi.

Although I was prepared in my heart, when I really saw him, I found that I had some uncontrollable emotions, so I turned my back quickly, afraid that I would scare him like this.

ten years. .

This is a number that sounds easy on the lips, but is actually very long. It is enough to change many people and many things, but it also makes those dusty memories last forever.

I suddenly realized that I hadn't forgotten how he was when he was young. I could even say that it was precisely because I was attracted by him that I chose to stay by his side and watched him step by step through the past ten years and gradually grow into The way it is now.

Seeing this still young face again now, besides nostalgia and softness, there is also an indescribable loss in my heart.

That's weird, haven't I always wanted to see him again?But why is he now in front of me, but I always feel that something is missing, there seems to be an empty space in my chest, no matter what I can't fill it.

Compared with the appearance of A Gang ten years ago and ten years later, the appearance of A Gang has not changed too much. At this time, the outline of firmness has begun to appear, but the facial features are as gentle and gentle as ever for ten years.

The biggest change is temperament. Ten years ago, A Gang, who was still immature, saw all these friends he was already familiar with at that time, but then stopped like a block.I didn't pay attention at first, but I didn't expect a familiar voice to sound right behind me.

"That... you are? No, no, I mean, uh... what should I call you!"

I froze, turned around subconsciously, and faced a pair of clear brown eyes.

This pair of eyes that I am so familiar with and miss so much, even in my dreams, is watching me quietly at this moment, but with a blank and strange look that I can't imagine at all.

Yes.

It turned out to be the case.

Something was suddenly touched, and I suddenly realized that it was ridiculous for me to have expectations before.

Without the memories of those ten years that belonged to us, no matter how much we look like, it is not him.

My Sawada Tsunayoshi has never been more than one.

And he's gone.

The author has something to say: "It is you who make me sad, joyful and loving." The original words of this sentence are actually pain, but I feel that at this time, pain is nothing at all, and more It’s all Xia Li’s love for 270, so it’s changed to love here (it seems that there is a similar song in the lyrics, but I forgot which song it is)

Thanks to the little angels who voted for me or irrigated the nutrient solution~

Thanks to the little angel who voted [Bazooka]: orange and dva are the strongest;

Thanks to the little angel who threw the [grenade]: 1 orange, ˋ fork;

Thanks to the little angels who voted for [Land Mine]: 2 concubines; dva is the strongest, Ming Chuan, Xiao Xiaoxiao, Dione, Feng Leng Bing, Xiao Tong, Jiu Gong, and their heads all laughed off! , Pabibi, Marr 1;

Thanks to the little angel who irrigated [nutrient solution]:

明川127瓶；唧唧基62瓶；金油大王43瓶；你渴望力量吗皮卡丘、碧天36瓶；啦啦啦、吃吃吃吃吃、南琴30瓶；想吃冰糖葫芦、袋里工会、狄俄涅20瓶；阿玖16瓶；四月12瓶；浅久、透子、起个好名真难、地球在转10瓶；Lili云8瓶；黏人怪、妧妧5瓶；幸福的背影、火只2瓶；サイ1瓶；

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!