don't be alone anymore

*they should have chosen themselves*

……

"Anyway, Xiao Mu, don't feel pressured. Dad just feels a little bit, just a little pity. After all, you have studied medicine for many years, and you are really outstanding."

Xia Liang laughed, and the laughter was full of cheerfulness.

"To be honest, it is impossible to say that I have never imagined working together with my daughter in the same industry... But in fact, in the past, my father was still very nervous. Nervous, your choice of becoming a doctor is actually not your dream. , nor your own hope, but just because of my expectation... Then Dad is too sinful, killing the possibility of you having your own dream."

"No. No."

Jian Muzi who kept saying "no", but carefully studied the reason why she chose to become a doctor in the first place...

Grandma's death and Xia Liang's expectations are actually the decisive factors in choosing to practice medicine.

As for her own dream... In the past, she had never really felt the meaning behind this word.

"But Dad still thinks, you have to do what you like. If something related to medicine is your dream, then Dad will continue to support you. If you want to change careers and do something else, Dad will also support you." Dean..."

"Listen to me first, Xiao Mu."

Xia Liang's serious expression prevented Jian Muzi from rebutting subconsciously.

"You have been a doctor for many years. You have saved countless patients, and you have made many sacrifices and concessions because of the job of a doctor. In fact, my father thinks that as long as you are a person with a benevolent heart, no matter what you choose It is not too much to end the persistence at any point. Even if you choose not to be a doctor at this moment, Dad will give you a standing ovation. And those patients and their family members who have been rescued and cared for by you will also applaud you Standing ovation."

"To do one thing seriously and work hard in a profession does not have to persist until the end to win recognition and applause, to get a respite, or to pursue opportunities for self-realization. After all, we don't have much time until the end."

"It is very likely that the world champion will not always win the championship, the police will not always be afraid of sacrifice, and the doctor will not always like the concessions behind this profession... But we will not choose because of their moment To walk away, to choose to pursue themselves, to choose to focus on their own life is to wipe out their past sacrifices and sacrifices."

"Those are their achievements, and they will always remain in the hearts of good people and normal people. We will not ask them to sacrifice themselves and their lives to make others better when they grow old or die. As for those sick people who blindly ask them to Those who persevere, it is because they have never paid for others, it is because they do not have a heart of benevolence, or even love in their hearts."

"In the eyes of my father, in the eyes of my mother, in the eyes of Zhi Zhou, in the eyes of my grandparents, in the eyes of many people, we will never forget their kindness. We will never forget that they were world champions, and we will never forget them. Forgetting what they have done and sacrificed for us, we will always be grateful for what they have worked hard and insisted on for the good of others. This will not change because they choose themselves. After all, they should have chosen themselves. After all, they chose us when they should have chosen themselves."

……

Recently, the staff of the Beicheng Red Cross have been looking for opportunities to get in touch with the excellent emergency doctors in the emergency center.

At first, the news they got from other emergency personnel made them afraid to contact Jian Muzi.

After all, he was a doctor transferred from the Department of Cardiac Surgery of Beicheng No. [-] Hospital for pre-hospital practice, and he would leave in three months.

It is rare for an excellent doctor in a large hospital to be worthy of the work of the emergency center, let alone the free popularization class of the Red Cross.

There is a shortage of lecturers for the popular first aid class of the Beicheng Red Cross Society.

After all, it is a free course for the public, without remuneration, and all rely on the loving support of volunteer doctors.

Red Cross staff are often busy recruiting doctor volunteers.

If more doctor volunteers are recruited, free popular courses for the public can be guaranteed every half a month.

In fact, it was a weekly popularization class at first, but later due to the shortage of volunteer lecturers, the weekly popularization class became once every half month.

To the surprise of the Red Cross staff, some time ago, Jian Muzi approached them and made it clear that she was willing to join the volunteer team.

And this weekend's free popularization class for citizens is already the second lecture Jian Muzi has participated in at the Red Cross.

……

After finishing the popularization course in the afternoon, Jian Muzi went straight back to her unit.

She was a little surprised by the situation in the cafeteria...

At two o'clock in the morning on the day of the National Day, the final demolition work was carried out on a street of shops in the high-tech zone that was being expropriated.

So far, the shop that Yang Changrong left to Wen Yang has also become ruins because the World Economic Forum is about to be held.

Wen Yang did not sign the confiscation, and the ruins were naturally the result of forced demolition.

By the time everyone received the news, the last two bunker-like construction waste had been dragged away.

Jian Muzi only got the news today.

She originally wanted to take care of this matter while eating.

Never thought that Fade Chen, Zhang Luzhi, and Liu Yi were at the same table, but Wen Yang and Gu Yanming sat in the opposite corner.

When did this group of people start to sit apart?

Carrying the plate to the table, Jian Muzi heard Fade Chen and Zhang Luzhi's complaints.

"Is there something going on between the boss and Captain Gu?"

"No way? Then Miss Qiao still likes Captain Gu? You can't bully a friend's wife."

"What friend's wife? Brother Xiao Fei, Captain Gu is a gentleman!"

"Okay, my friend's husband."

Zhang Luzhi poked the rice grains on the plate,

"Don't tell me, Miss Sister hasn't appeared in our cafeteria for a long time. The last time I saw her was at the police-civilian party before the National Day. When she came, she only greeted us and the director. Then, she was hooked up and danced by a man she didn't know at all. In the eyes of that sister... how can there be any shadow of Captain Gu now? I think it is very likely that the young lady has abandoned us Captain Gu..."

"Then our Boss Wen took advantage of it?"

Fade Chen rolled his eyes,

"If Boss wants to take advantage of the situation, he should have already done so!"

"Hey hey hey..."

Zhang Luzhi scratched his scalp,

"I'm just guessing casually!"

The two people in the corner on the other side seemed to have a chat.

Wen Yang walked behind Jian Muzi carrying the thermal bag, and put the thermal bag down.

After a moment of hesitation, she still called Jian Muzi.

"Jian Mumu, are you ready?"

"Ah."

Jian Muzi cleared away the dinner plates and walked out of the cafeteria with Wen Yang.

She instinctively felt that Wen Yang had something to say today, otherwise all the entanglement in his heart would not be shown on his face.

She first took away the thermal bag from Wen Yang's hand, and then led him away from the entrance of the cafeteria to a place where few people passed by.

"Is something wrong?"

"Probably so..."

Wen Yang spotted a small stone at his feet, and immediately kicked it out.

I originally wanted to use this to relieve the tension in my heart, but I didn't want to be kicked out, but I was a little embarrassed.

She wanted to speak more naturally, but still...

"Forget it, it's okay."

Officer Wen left the cafeteria compound in despair, and got into the patrol car parked at the door.

……

Early the next morning, Wen Yang returned to the cafeteria after taking over the shift, and still did not sit with everyone.

Wen Yang still sat with Gu Yanming far away from everyone.

Now, Zhang Luzhi and Fade Chen had something to say.

What the hell is wrong with these two?

Is there anything else that needs to be avoided?

The brothers couldn't figure it out...

Boss Wen took off the retainer for his injured finger, why does Captain Gu still care about her so much?

Concerned about... needing to avoid them?

Zhang Luzhi and Fade Chen complained about a breakfast, and even Liu Yi, who was at the side, echoed a few words.

Throughout the whole process, only Jian Muzi didn't say a word.

Her dark eyes have been stained with loneliness.

She wondered if Wen Yang was hiding from her.

……

On Monday morning, Xia Liang once again mentioned to Jian Muzi the two-day academic exchange meeting held in Shanghai.

Xia Liang, who represented a hospital at the conference, wanted to bring his little daughter with him on this trip.

Jian Muzi can walk with her as an assistant, and this kind of walk is also the joy of being a father.

This time, Jian Muzi was rarely willing to consider traveling with her.

She even goes back to the emergency center to discuss the week's schedule with Akari.

After adjusting the shift schedule with her two colleagues, Jian Muzi got the chance to let go of her worries and leave Beicheng.

However, it is the city that can be let go for the time being, but it is the people in the city that cannot be let go.

……

On the third day, Wen Yang still went to eat at the same table with Gu Yanming.

This time, Zhang Luzhi and Fade Chen stopped complaining, and seemed to have accepted this change.

On the fourth day, there were two more people at Wen Yang and Gu Yanming's dining table...

Jian Muzi's expression changed immediately.

Suddenly, tension filled the whole heart.

"Fade Chen, those two people are..."

Fade Chen looked back at the dining table in the distance.

After carefully looking at it several times,

"Oh, those two, one is the detachment leader of the anti-narcotics detachment, and the other is the detachment leader of the special police detachment. I guess it's Captain Gu who is there. Let's sit and talk with colleagues."

Fade Chen spoke casually, but Jian Muzi couldn't listen casually.

The captain of the anti-drug detachment...

The captain of the special police detachment...

She suddenly connected Wen Yang and Gu Yanming's uncharacteristic behavior these days, and the loneliness in their eyes a few days ago had long since disappeared.

……

"Captain Gu!"

Jian Muzi deliberately followed Gu Yanming and Wen Yang, and she stopped Gu Yanming only after Wen Yang got into the police car.

She would not go directly to Wen Yang.

Before everything can be confirmed, she is still careful to verify.

"Doctor Jane?"

Gu Yanming obviously did not expect that Jian Muzi would come to him.

"Wen Yang..."

Jian Muzi pursed her lips, her half-closed eyes were full of seriousness.

"You just need to tell me one thing...Wen Yang and you...do you have a common mission recently?"

Gu Yanming's eyes flickered slightly, but he finally held back and failed to express the shock in his heart.

He was indeed shocked by Jian Muzi's words...

How could Dr. Jane know this?

Wen Yang would never say it, let alone...

Gu Yanming pretended to be normal, and raised a gentle smile, "Dr. Jian was joking..."

"Captain Gu."

Jian Muzi immediately interrupted Gu Yanming,

"...The dinner on the day before Wen Yang's birthday, Captain Gu should know Jiang Chen and Jane, so do you know their relationship?"

Gu Yanming did not expect that the topic would change so quickly.

He was still thinking about how to explain it to convince the person in front of him.

He calmly spoke about Jian Muzi's question,

"Of course I know."

"Wen Yang is to me what Jiang Chen is to Jian Ting, and Jian Ting is to Jiang Chen."

This time, Gu Yanming's shock was all shown in his eyes.

He was so startled that he stared straight at Jian Muzi, trying to look into this person's heart.

However, he met a pair of firm and stubborn eyes.

And the tenderness in those eyes.

Anti-drug elites are finally moved by human feelings.

With his back to Jian Muzi, he opened his mouth,

"Yes."

……

How powerful is a word?

One word stopped Jian Muzi from thinking of fleeing Beicheng temporarily.

……

"The reason? Why did a policeman from her patrol detachment get involved?"

"This operation... not only the anti-drug detachment and special police detachment will participate, but also the patrol detachment will participate in support... this afternoon, the patrol detachment will deploy half of the police force to come out for exercises."

"That's not what I want to hear."

Gu Yanming sighed,

"...Wen Yang applied to be transferred to the patrol detachment because of this... When she was still in the economic investigation detachment last year, we encountered a serious case. Because the drug trafficking group was involved in economic crimes, the economic investigation and our team Jointly handle the case. She went undercover with me to enter the inside of the drug trafficking group. The operation was half successful and half failed. She blamed herself and wanted to make up for her mistakes by transferring to the lowest level and coming to the front line to find information... Recently, She really found it..."

"Time to act. Tell me the time."

"the day after tomorrow."

Jian Muzi nodded slowly, her fingertips still clenched tightly.

"Thank you."

she said.

……

The back of Jian Muzi leaving is very determined.

For a moment, Gu Yanming seemed to see the Wen Yang who resolutely walked into the Public Security University back then.

……

"Wen Yang!"

After the evening shift, Jian Muzi entered the cafeteria and began to search for that familiar figure.

And today Wen Yang finally appeared at the table of Zhang Luzhi and Fade Chen.

Jian Muzi's eyes were slightly red, and the tension and worry in her heart were about to burst out at that moment.

Seeing Jian Muzi's abnormality, Wen Yang got up worriedly.

The two who were heading towards each other finally stopped a few meters away from the dining table.

After hesitating for a moment, Wen Yang took the initiative to shake Jian Muzi's hand.

"What's the matter, Jian Mumu?"

Jian Muzi didn't speak...

There are countless voices in her heart clamoring:

can you not go to...

can you not go to...

Can you……

So far in her life, what she is most afraid of is only this moment and the next moment.

She hugged Wen Yang tightly, and tightly grabbed the waistline of Wen Yang's police uniform shirt, so that deep marks appeared on the originally ironed shirt.

……

"You are not alone...protect yourself..."

The person who patted Jian Muzi to comfort him was stunned.

Zhang Luzhi didn't even know about today's arrest operation, so how could someone reveal the news to Jian Muzi?

A usual smile appeared on the corner of Wen Yang's lips,

"I've always protected myself~"

Jian Muzi hid the depth and tears in her eyes.

She pushed Wen Yang's arms away, glanced at the culprit, and grabbed his left hand again.

"Officer Wen, who keeps getting minor injuries, is he protecting himself?"

……

The little finger was still a little swollen and painful, but now that Jian Muzi pointed it out, it seemed to be a little more painful.

Police Officer Wen smiled embarrassedly, and before Jian Muzi wanted to leave, he hugged Jian Muzi again...

"Jane told me a few days ago that if the person she loves doesn't love her, if she doesn't know what his lover really thinks, it will be the pain in her life...Are you, Jian Mumu? What about you? ? Is this also your established pain?"

Jian Muzi was slightly startled in Wen Yang's arms.

While being dazed and shocked, she suddenly grasped the point beyond Wen Yang's words...

Maybe it wasn't the negative thoughts in her mind...

perhaps……

Her gaze was unwavering, and she looked straight into Wen Yang's eyes.

she replied,

"The person I love doesn't love me, and the person I love can't tell me what she thinks. For me, this is the established pain and sorrow. This pain and sorrow makes me more painful than all the sorrows and pains. sad."

Wen Yang chuckled, and a bright smile climbed onto her face again.

She tightened her grip on the phone in the pocket of her police uniform.

"okay, I get it."

……

In the deleted and deleted memo, she spent a few nights struggling with one thing.

She is probably the most troublesome policeman in the Beicheng Public Security Bureau.

She's about to apply for a transfer again.

……

Application for transfer letter

Apply for Transfer to Publicity Office

Applicant: Wen Yang

……