walk through spring with you

Xiao Zichong can deceive Yan Ran, and even his parents, but he has no way to deceive himself.

When he got home, he locked himself in the bedroom, lay on the bed, blushing in a daze.

The way Yan Ran was lying in front of him made him feel hot.He kept describing Yan Ran's legs, knees, and feet in his mind, forcing himself not to think about them. He thought of Yan Ran's slender waist, such a slender waist, his belly button, and his simple eyes, think of his lips, chin...

Xiao Zichong thought, I am in trouble.

He then recalled the book he read without knowing the title, the male protagonist who was 20 or [-] years old fell in love with his goddess, but he peeped at the goddess who gave up herself to sleep with the village cadres for a little profit...

It's so dirty.

Xiao Zichong thought.

Too obscene.

Xiao Zichong thought.

no morals.

Xiao Zichong thought.

Yan Ran trusts me so much, Yan Ran is so innocent, Yan Ran doesn’t understand anything, Yan Ran has a pure heart, Yan Ran’s family didn’t even tell him the simplest physiological knowledge, Yan Ran listened to other people telling dirty jokes You will be shy and embarrassed and don't listen, Yan Ran will be frightened when someone hugs her around her waist...

I took advantage of Yan Ran's trust, and I sexually harassed him, but he didn't know anything.

Xiao Zichong raised his hand and looked at it for a while, feeling self-loathing.

But the fingers have their own consciousness, they have touched Yan Ran's body, it seems that they still have the soft and delicate touch of Yan Ran's body, and the fresh smell of his youth.

Xiao Zichong clenched his hands tightly, feeling that he was really sinful and immoral, but also wanted to worship his fingers, because they had just left Yan Ran's body not long ago.

Xiao Zichong stared at the map on the roof in a daze, trying his best not to have any physical arousal, if he did, he would think of the novel he had read, in which the hero relied on memories to love Xiao Zichong felt disgusted that the woman slept with other men, and the male protagonist later slept with the village widow, which made him feel disgusted even more.

In an instant, his heart became cold, and there was no way he could have any more physical desires.

Xiao Zichong continued to stare at his hand, and finally kissed his fingertip lightly. It didn't smell anything, but it calmed his disgusting heart.

Wu Lan went home.

Xiao Zichong heard a small voice outside in the bedroom.

His mother blamed his father's voice: "What's the trouble, the child saw it." The voice was soft, very different from the usual voice.

His father whispered, "It will be fine when he goes to college."

His mother said: "Stop making trouble, it's too hot, I need to take a shower first."

His dad said, "I'll get you clothes."

Xiao Zichong used to get up many times in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom or go to the kitchen to find water to drink, and heard the movement in his parents' room. Although it was subtle, it could not be ignored at all.

Xiao Zichong didn't understand anything when he was young, but when he was eleven or twelve years old, he read the must-read book "How Steel Was Tempered" that his father asked him to read, and he understood it without a teacher.

When he was thirteen or fourteen, his father asked him to talk about "how were you born" and so on.

Xiao Zichong rolled his eyes at him, "I knew it a long time ago, isn't it all about it in the books I read in elementary school?"

Xiao's father left the stage and asked his wife to educate his son.

Wu Lan told her son a lot about "love", "body", "love and desire", "responsibility", "responsibility", "girls get pregnant", "marriage", "family", "sex/addiction", "affecting physical development", etc. and so on.

I did some indoctrination for him mainly from the perspective of psychology and medicine.

Xiao Zichong obediently sat in the chair and listened to his mother nagging for hours.

At that time, he opened a pair of pure big eyes, focused and deep, he didn't look like a thirteen or fourteen-year-old boy.

Wu Lan finally made a concluding statement, rubbed her son's tender face, and said: "These are things that humans must understand as animals, and they are also the highest spiritual enjoyment that humans can only have when they are higher than ordinary animals. Mom wants you to be a responsible person, responsible for yourself, for others, and for love. Of course, mom knows you are very smart. I don’t tell you, you may not know, but I have to talk about this, because mom loves you and worries about you. You hurt yourself or others because of these things. In the end, no matter who is hurt, with your heart, you will be sad. Responsibility is both taking responsibility and restraining yourself. It is like this in everything .”

Xiao Zichong lay there until he heard the sound of his mother returning to the living room after taking a shower, and then he heard his mother knocking on the door.

Wu Lan called him: "Xiao Zichong, eat."

Only then did Xiao Zichong get up, walked to the door and opened it, Wu Lan saw Xiao Zichong's serious face, so she couldn't help but look at him more, and said, "What's wrong, he looks like something serious happened."

Xiao Zichong said: "It seems that I have a fever and a cold, I don't want to eat."

Wu Lan became nervous, went to take a thermometer to measure his temperature, stared at him again, and asked, "Do you have any symptoms?"

Xiao Zichong is in good health. Except for the flu last year, he has never had any other illnesses at all.

Xiao Zichong said: "There are no symptoms, but the body is a little weak and has no appetite."

After taking the body temperature, Wu Lan took a look: "It's normal."

"Why don't you ask your dad to make you a bowl of watermelon ice? I saw that he made peach jam. It tastes good. Put some peach jam on the watermelon ice?" Wu Lan looked at her son.

When Xiao Zichong encountered his mother's concern, he immediately felt that he was sorry for Yan Ran. He took advantage of Yan Ran's trust in him and did something excessive to Yan Ran.

But Xiao Zichong dared not and was unwilling to tell anyone about this matter, including Yan Ran himself.

He thought, he was going to keep walking with this evil in his heart.

He didn't want to worry his mother, so he said, "Well, okay."

Wu Lan turned to call her husband, "Old Xiao, why don't you go make a watermelon smoothie for Chong Chong."

Xiao's father said: "Eating watermelon smoothie is useful? I think it's better to drink Huoxiang Zhengqi water. Huoxiang Zhengqi water is the most effective."

Xiao Zichong hates drinking Huoxiang Zhengqi water the most!

Wu Lan frowned and said, "Hurry up and make a smoothie. Huoxiangzhengqi water contains alcohol, how old is Chong Chong?"

Xiao's father went to the kitchen to get a watermelon ice-cut smoothie from the freezer, and muttered, "How old are you? 16 years old! It's not like I didn't drink alcohol secretly at his grandpa's house before."

Xiao Zichong ate a bowl of watermelon smoothie with peach jam, and his appetite returned.

His parents sat at the dinner table and had a serious dinner. They had fragrant rice, pork ribs and lotus root slices with sauce, braised mushrooms in oil, chicken wings with cola, fried cowpea, and three delicacies soup.

Xiao Zichong was hungry.

Wu Lan said: "Do you want to eat something, go scoop rice and order something."

To punish himself, Xiao Zichong said, "I don't want to eat, I'm going to take a shower."

After taking a shower and staying in the air-conditioned bedroom, Xiao Zichong started to make his own exercise book.

This exercise booklet is only used in the third year of high school, and it is very difficult. Even Xiao Zichong took a lot of time to do it. Sometimes he would encounter one or two questions that he needed to think for a while before he could solve them. question.

He thought that if he did such a difficult problem, he would be able to concentrate easily and get rid of other distracting thoughts.

Unexpectedly, I don’t know if it was caused by the panic caused by hunger, or Yan Ran’s flesh/body is too attractive, Xiao Zichong faced the exercise book, his mind was full of Yan Ran’s white waist and legs, it was his pure and innocent Stare into his own dark eyes.

Xiao Zichong found that he couldn't solve the problem at all, so he got up and went to the study.

His father was practicing calligraphy in the study, and his mother was sitting next to his father, watching him practice calligraphy, and at the same time reading a professional book on the management of tuberculosis epidemics in schools.

Xiao Zichong broke into their small world suddenly, and the two adults were surprised.

Wu Lan asked worriedly, "What's the matter, are you still feeling unwell?"

Then she said to her husband: "Old Xiao, the weather is hot recently, you must not save electricity bills by not turning on the air conditioner, the child has a fever, you have to bear it."

Xiao's father was very innocent: "Daughter-in-law, I was wronged. I didn't mention the matter of not letting him turn on the air conditioner. He shut himself in the room and didn't turn on the air conditioner. He didn't let me in his bedroom. I Dare to enter?"

"Why doesn't he let you in and you dare not? You're talking nonsense!"

Xiao Zichong ignored the flirting and flirting between the two, and went to read the book.

The two adults looked at each other and knew that Xiao Zichong was not physically ill, but mentally abnormal.

Xiao Zichong rummaged through the pile of books on the ground, and quickly found the unbound book that he had given up halfway through before, and pretended to take a few other books, covering up what he wanted to read with those books inside.

He got up and went out without looking at his parents, and only said when he closed the door: "I'm fine. Don't worry."

Seeing her son leave, Wu Lan said, "What did he do today? What does he look like?"

Xiao's father said: "Knowing that Yan Ran is back in the afternoon, I happily ran downstairs to find Yan Ran, and came back like this. It must have been a quarrel!"

Wu Lan thought for a while and said, "Forget it. Leave him alone. Make friends, ride the roller coaster twice in three days, go up and down, and cry twice. We are 16 years old, and we can't always Coax him. He'd better solve it by himself first."

Xiao's father said: "That's how it should be. When I was 16 years old, I went to school in a teacher's college and studied silently. I was not like him at all. I was enshrined as a Bodhisattva and always lost my temper. I don't think we were young and rebellious back then. What about the period, they are now having a rebellious period, all because the food is so good."

Wu Lan said: "Oh, Lao Xiao, what are you talking about, if you let your son hear it, then you will get angry with you again. If your son suffers like you did back then, what do you want dad to do!"

Papa Xiao: "I was wrong, and I'm talking nonsense again."

……

Xiao Zichong couldn't hear his father's complaints, but he probably knew what his father would say.

He sat on the bed and continued to read the book that he had thrown away halfway through and then found again.

This nasty male protagonist, I don't know what disgusting things he is going to do.He must finish reading this book.

Continue to look down, the male protagonist who has rolled in bed with the widow several times, he thought that the widow was only with himself, and even gave him eggs, because he had incomparable love for himself, but in the end, he was with several other men at once When guarding the valley farm, he heard other men in the village talking about this woman's style in bed.

The hero wants to say a few words for the widows, so that since they have slept with others, they should not turn their heads and make jokes in front of others, but when he thought about it, he felt disgusted, so he gave up and didn't say anything.

Later, the widow met him by chance and wanted to talk to him, but he glanced at her and left.

At night, the widow came to him secretly, carrying eggs.

In fact, the eggs he wanted were given to his favorite female classmate before, but that classmate has already returned to the city, and he has no one to deliver, so he doesn't need this egg, or he can only eat it himself, but After eating it himself, he felt very sick again.

The widow didn't deliver the egg, so he didn't care if she dragged him.

The widow had no choice but to go back with the eggs.

Later, he heard another woman in the village swearing, saying that the widow stole eggs from her house and beat and scolded her at the widow's door.

The male protagonist saw that the woman who beat and scolded her was the wife of the man who had talked about the widow's bed style in Guchang before.

The male protagonist couldn't take it anymore, and ran to speak for the widow, but was scolded by the village's daughters-in-law and aunts.

When Xiao Zichong saw this, he realized that he had fallen into the previous plot of the book. He turned back to read and found that there was a page that had been torn off. He read it according to the context and realized that the page that was missing was missing. It may be that the hero told the widow that he wanted an egg, and the widow found the egg for him, and he took the egg that the widow gave him to go to his female educated youth classmate overnight, and ended up watching a scene where his beloved and someone else live. erotic palace.

Because he accepted the widow's eggs, he later slept with the widow.But he felt sick again, so he masturbated by missing female educated youth classmates.

And the widow doesn't have any eggs, she gets the eggs the hero wants by sleeping with other men.

Xiao Zichong thought to himself what the hell is this story!

It's getting more and more depressed.

The widow was hanged at home because she was humiliated by the whole village.

The male protagonist was heartbroken when he heard about this, and then tried his best to go back to the city. Later, his family introduced him to a blind date, and he married his blind date partner. In the hotel, I happened to meet the female educated youth classmate he had been secretly in love with before. She was holding the arm of a white man. When he saw him, he introduced her as her husband.

The male protagonist learns the lady's room number, calls her room, and asks her to go out to the coffee shop, and the lady accepts his invitation.

After more than ten years, the male protagonist sees the beautiful lady sitting opposite him. Compared with the past, she is no longer haggard and rustic. He thought of the hanged widow.

The male protagonist watched her drinking coffee and said that he wanted to tell a story, so he told about the woman who sold her body for eggs. The woman was finally forced to hang by the women in the village, and she died for more than ten years.

The beautiful lady said in surprise and pity: "It's so pitiful. A bunch of women only dare to bully women."

The male protagonist looked at her incredulously, and said, "But those eggs were meant for you."

The beautiful lady was even more unbelievable. After thinking for a while, she said, "Oh, I see. They said before that you have a crush on me. Is it true?"

The hero became ashamed and angry.

The beautiful lady said: "It's all in the past. Everything there scared me. I thought, or I should die quickly, or I must get out of there quickly. Women are too difficult there. Then Difficult, women should not have love."

The hero looks at her blankly.

The beautiful lady said: "Thank you for her eggs, but in fact, I don't care if I eat eggs or not. At that time, I just wanted to reject all the men who wanted to approach me."

After reading the whole book, Xiao Zichong thought that the heroine he liked was indeed the heroine of Bai Yueguang, but the heroine still made people feel wretched and stinking in the end.

But he finally finished the story, and he was relieved.

He sneaked to open the door, went out to the fourth floor, and knocked on the door of Yan Ran's house.