Pseudo-white lotus survival diary

In the background setting, the dean is not a good dean. What he likes to do most is to solicit money for charity everywhere, and he doesn't care about the lives of the children.At the beginning, the little Dou Yang complained to him, hoping that he would come forward to help him, but the principal felt that what he experienced was just the fighting spirit between children, so he was very impatient and didn't care at all.As everyone knows, the violence of children is quite cruel.

Children are very weak psychologically and are easily frightened. Perhaps when Dou Yang grows up and thinks about it, he thinks that the people who bullied him are not terrible. A person who is not terrible" is like a ferocious beast, trying to tear him apart, and the suffering he experiences will become a shadow for a lifetime.

This is also the reason why Dou Yang was forced to do nothing at such a young age, and in extreme despair and anger, locked those children in the basement, set fire to the orphanage and escaped.

Setting this background is related to Lin Qingye's experience.Both of his parents died back then, and he was adopted by his aunt. The days of living under the fence and the experience of being bullied on campus gave him a lot of feelings, so he set it up handy. However, when he first wrote the outline, he was only setting up the virtual characters in his pen. The whole process was very indifferent , Very creator, very objective.

However, now that he is in the book, facing the characters he has created, and knowing the sufferings he has experienced, Lin Qingye can no longer be as indifferent as before.

He felt ashamed that he changed the outline without authorization for revenge and made Dou Yang experience a miserable childhood that he didn't have to experience, so he felt guilty and sincerely wanted to help him from the beginning to the end.If it were someone else who knew that Dou Yang had set fire to the orphanage, even if he committed suicide, he would probably be so scared that Sa Yazi would run away without a trace.

Lin Qingye accompanied Dou Yang into the dean's office, listening to the dean babbling about how poor the orphans are, and the children's expenses are very high, turning a corner to explain that the orphanage is currently operating in difficulty, and the purpose is to let Dou Yang pay for it immediately money donation.

Dou Yang has a handsome appearance and a high bearing, even though he has not produced evidence to prove that he is very financial, he still has the respect of the dean.

He just sat casually like that, with a somewhat untouched aura. When anyone sees him, the first thought in his heart is——he is very special.

Dean Lala said a lot, even Lin Qingye, an outsider, knew that he must be talking nonsense, adding oil and vinegar, but Dou Yang smiled from the beginning to the end, with a very sincere expression, just like Lin Qingye and Dou Yang used to get along. look -

When you speak, he will always stare at you, with soft eyes and a serious expression, as if every word you say is very important, and he will carefully write it down.

After the dean finished speaking a series of words, his mouth was dry, and he took a drink from the water glass.

"I will definitely donate." Dou Yang crossed his fingers and said in a calm tone, "Donate 100 million first, and then donate a certain amount every month. The specific amount is to be determined, but it will probably not be less than [-]. Moreover, I will also call on my Friends donate together... I know Ms. Lu from the Hony Foundation, the Hony Foundation has a great influence, if I can persuade the Hony Foundation to support, I believe Lin's Orphanage will become very good."

"Great!" The dean blurted out.

The Hony Foundation is a fairly large charitable fund in the world. It is managed by Ms. Lu Mingfeng with donations from well-meaning people from all walks of life.If you can get funding from the Hony Foundation, why worry about the expenses of the orphanage?

The dean grinned from ear to ear.

However, before he finished his joy, he heard the handsome man in front of him say: "While funding, I will also invite someone to come over to supervise the use of the donation, and I will pay for his expenses."

The dean's smile froze on his face, "Have someone supervise the donation?"

"Yes." Dou Yang nodded.

"This……"

"If the dean is unwilling, then I will not donate."

Dou Yang stood up and made a gesture to leave.

"Wait, wait!" The little old man hurriedly stood up, "Mr. Dou, don't worry, the matter of sending someone is completely fine!"

A smile appeared on the corner of Dou Yang's mouth.

Next, Dou Yang discussed with the little old man about the donation.

During the whole process, Lin Qingye has been watching from the side.

No matter how you look at Dou Yang's performance, he doesn't look like someone who committed suicide due to depression and had an extremely miserable childhood.

Lin Qingye secretly sighed.

After Dou Yang finished discussing with the dean, his mental state was much better than when he first came here.

Coming out of the dean's office, the two of them walked around the playground of the orphanage, went out of the gate again, and walked along the path to the nearby woods.

After coming out of the dean's office, Dou Yang became very silent.He checked his surroundings as he walked, as if he was reminiscing, but also seemed to be thinking about something else.

Finally, he showed a little bit of what a patient should look like.

Lin Qingye was both sad and happy, sad because Dou Yang only looked better, but actually not yet, happy because he was willing to show his unknown side in front of him.

Perhaps, I have gained his trust?

Lin Qingye pondered that keeping silent was not an option.

"The dean is like that, and you still want to donate to him? What if he messes around with the money..." After leaving the gate, there was no one around, Lin Qingye asked a topic.

Dou Yang shook his head, "Not really."

Lin Qingye was surprised.

"It's true that he doesn't care much about the children, but he doesn't embezzle donations either. When I was here, the children's life was fairly secure, and most of the money donated by others was used in the orphanage."

"I see." Lin Qingye nodded, turned to look at Dou Yang, and found that the corners of his mouth were slightly raised.

"You...seem happy?" he asked deliberately.

He could feel that Dou Yang was in a much better mood.

Dou Yang nodded, but did not speak.

The sun is good today, and the leaves of the trees are shining green, like many glorious elves twinkling in the bushes.The chirping birdsong was crisp and pleasant, very cheerful.Under a big tree in front, there are several children playing games around the trunk.

Dou Yang stopped and stared at those children.

"I don't know what kind of games children are playing recently." Lin Qingye was at a loss for words.

"hide and seek."

"Ah?" Lin Qingye didn't react.

"They are playing hide-and-seek." Dou Yang stared at the children and said, "Ten years have passed, and what everyone is playing is still the same."

Lin Qingye thought for a while and said, "Perhaps ten years later, everyone still loves to play hide-and-seek."

The children laughed and scattered and ran into the surrounding bushes.

"I don't know if all these children can be found." Dou Yang seemed to be in a daze.

Looking at his appearance, Lin Qingye's brain seemed to be aided by a god, and his IQ was suddenly lit up, and he immediately said: "Don't worry, it will definitely work, even if I can't find it, I will look for it later, and I must find all of them. They were found out and they were not allowed to spend the night in the woods."

Dou Yang turned his head and suddenly smiled brightly, "That's right."

I don't know if it's because the sun is too dazzling or what, Lin Qingye's eyes are bright for a moment, as if the surroundings suddenly entered summer, the most intense sun hangs high in the sky, dazzling almost dazzling.

Dou Yang bent down, the sun was behind him, blending his outline into soft lines, and his delicate hair fluttered in the breeze.

The light dispelled the gray and gloomy mist around him, sprinkled gold powder, and the whole person was filled with a hazy halo.

At first glance, it looks like a benevolent angel.

Lin Qingye was dumbfounded.

"For so many years, I have been hiding in the black woods and couldn't get out. Today, you found me." He was almost pious, and carefully embraced Lin Qingye, who was stupefied, in his arms, and gently stroked her with his chin. With the top of his hair, he said softly, "Thank you."

Lin Qingye leaned against his chest, feeling the vibration in his chest, as if the thank you didn't come from his mouth, but jumped out of his chest, stuck to his skin, and crashed into his heart.

Inexplicable heartbeat quickened.

Lin Qingye raised her hand, hesitating whether to push him away, but her mind was in a mess for a while, all the nerves in her body seemed to be trembling for that "thank you", and she had no time to deal with other thoughts, which caused her body's reaction to be much slower .

So he didn't push him away.

Vague thoughts flashed through my mind: Forget it, just hug for a while, it's no big deal...

"... When I met you when I was young, you saved me, and now I meet you, and you saved me again." Dou Yang's voice rang out from above his head, "Meeting you is the luckiest thing in my life... ..."

His tone was as light as a feather, but his meaning was as heavy as a stone, and when he fell into the chaotic water, he made a crisp thud.

That voice made Lin Qingye wake up from a certain subtle state, and the nerves in his body that had fallen into a strange chaotic state were instantly tangled into balls as if they had been scalded. Relief, guilt, fear, fear, all kinds of feelings mixed together. Together, stirring in his chest.

Dou Yang has already walked out of the shadows according to his thoughts, and he will gradually recover after a while, and at the same time, he has a strong sense of gratitude to himself...

but……

but……

Dou Yang let him go, put his hands on his shoulders, and stared at Lin Qingye tenderly, "You are really my angel."

He was very solemn, with smiles on the corners of his eyes and brows, dazzlingly bright in the sunlight.

...But I'm not an angel, I'm a counterfeit.

Lin Qingye moved her lips, not daring to speak out.

He didn't dare to tell him that the so-called angel in his mouth was just a fake who approached him and used him for money.

If Dou Yang knew the truth, I'm afraid that his newly relaxed mind would suffer another major blow.

Wait, wait for a while, and when he comes out completely, tell him all the truth, and by then, it will definitely be resolved peacefully...

"I want to ask you a question." Dou Yang asked.

"Uh? What's the problem?" Lin Qingye put away his messy thoughts.

Dou Yang pressed his shoulder and asked seriously: "Can we talk about love again?"

He lowered his head, surrounded by lush trees, and the background sound was the childish voices of children.The surrounding birds chirped loudly, clearly close to my ears.

The breeze blew from an unknown distance, blowing over his soft light-colored forehead hair, revealing those moist and crystal eyes.

"...Huh?" Lin Qingye was dumbfounded.

Embarrassed, Dou Yang gently scratched his cheeks with his fingers, "I knew that you had asked for me before, so you agreed to become a lover with me, and I also concealed my illness from you. The love between the two of us is not pure. Now, I want to talk to you about a pure love, because... I like you, and I want to face you with the most authentic face..."

Speaking of "I like you", light red crept up Dou Yang's cheeks.

After speaking, he turned his eyes away in embarrassment, but after a while, he couldn't help turning his head back, staring at Lin Qingye expectantly.

so cute.

Lin Qingye's heart skipped a beat, but her nerves were tense but collapsed tightly.

A "no" was almost blurted out, but in an instant, reason welled up and shouted "don't refuse yet".

Dou Yanggang committed suicide, and now he is finally getting better. If he refuses, what if he commits suicide again?

But it is impossible for him to agree!

You obviously came to break up, but now you agree to date him, what kind of plane are you doing?

After much deliberation, this is neither right nor that.

Lin Qingye was so nervous that her feet moved back and forth on the ground.

Probably he was silent for too long, Dou Yang took a step back and asked softly: "I made things difficult for you? I'm sorry."

"No..." Lin Qingye said hastily.

Dou Yang patted his head, "It's my fault, I said something that embarrassed you."

"No..." Lin Qingye said weakly.

"However, even if it's difficult, I will do it."

Lin Qingye: "...Huh?"

This turn was too sudden, and he was completely unprepared. According to the normal development, shouldn't he say "If you make things difficult for me, I won't do that" right?

Dou Yang leaned over, planted a feather-like kiss on Lin Qingye's dazed cheek, and said with a smile: "I know you like me too, otherwise you wouldn't have approached me proactively."

Lin Qingye: "..."

Lin Qingye shed tears of sorrow.