Pseudo-white lotus survival diary

Lin Qingye's question made Dou Yang fall into thinking, and the room suddenly became quiet.

He rubbed his head, frowning slightly.

"Are you uncomfortable?" Lin Qingye asked quickly, "I'll call the nurse over."

Dou Yang stopped his hand from ringing the bell, thought for a while, and whispered, "I can't remember."

Seeing that he was suffering, Lin Qingye didn't want to force him, and comforted him: "It's okay, think about it slowly, we have plenty of time, you should rest first..."

He gently pushed Dou Yang down on the bed.

Dou Yang lay down docilely, his gentle eyes were on Lin Qingye from beginning to end.

"Will you stay with me?" he whispered.

Looking at his longing eyes with cautious eyes, Lin Qingye's nose was sour, and she nodded vigorously, "Yes."

"I'll call the doctor..." Lin Qingye said as he walked out of the ward.

A hesitant voice came from behind, "Probably... it started when I couldn't draw a picture."

Lin Qingye suddenly turned around and rushed back to the bed, "What? What did you just say?"

Dou Yang hesitated and pointed to his chest, "This place has become very strange, probably because I couldn't draw any pictures."

After he said it, he seemed to understand something, and the following words became smoother.

"I can't draw, I'm very anxious, I don't understand why I can't draw. You sit in front of me, I know what you look like, and I draw it, but that's not what I want. Whenever I see Those rubbish, the desire to destroy is very strong in my heart... I'm sorry, I destroyed all your paintings..."

That's it!

No wonder his own painting is bloody.

"My value lies in painting. If I can't even paint, what's the point of living?"

Dou Yang's voice was as soft as a catkin, flying into Lin Qingye's heart, but it caused huge ripples.

found it!

Dou Yang's heart knot, the source of depression.

Lin Qingye was excited and happy, walked over and said, "Why do you think that way? Dou Yang, besides painting, your life has many meanings."

Dou Yang stared at him without speaking.

Lin Qingye stepped forward to hold his pale hand, and said earnestly: "You are you, even if you are not a painter, you are still a complete person, you can do many things, if you lose one meaning, you can find another meaning. One pleasure, and another pleasure to be found..."

Dou Yang shook his head with a wry smile, "You don't understand what painting means to me."

"I know!"

Dou Yang just smiled and patted his head.

"You don't believe me?" Lin Qingye raised her voice, her eyes fixed on Dou Yang's, her gaze was direct and intense, "Do you think I know nothing about you like everyone else? I don't know anything about you at all? How little do you know about the pain?"

"Qing Ye..."

Lin Qingye sat on the bed and stared at him, "Dou Yang, you cover yourself with gentleness and always show your good side. In fact, you don't trust anyone."

Dou Yang was stunned.

Lin Qingye's eyes were clear and bright, and the light in his eyes was like the brilliance of stars.

"Yes, most people don't know you, they only see your glamorous side, but I know, it's not like this, I know everything about you."

"Qing Ye..." Dou Yang was a little surprised.

"You don't have to trust other people, but you must trust me." Lin Qingye said stubbornly.

Dou Yang smiled.

He did not answer "I believe in you", he has already expressed his attitude.

Lin Qingye knew that he must let him open his heart and let him trust himself in order to tell all the truth.

"You don't believe me, do you?" Lin Qingye asked.

Before Dou Yang could speak, Lin Qingye took a deep breath and said, "You were abandoned by your parents and lived in Lin's Orphanage. Because you were thin and small, you were often bullied by older children. You want to be friends with children, Just like them running errands, but those kids still bully you. One time, you were playing hide-and-seek in the woods, and those kids played tricks on you, and put you in a trap on purpose, so you stayed in the woods all night , that night, little you were very scared and angry, and hoped that someone would come to save you, but there was no..."

Dou Yang's expression changed, "How do you know?"

When his gaze changed, the temperament of his body also changed strangely, like day changing to night, heaven falling into hell, surrounded by a neurotic atmosphere...

Lin Qingye felt scared instinctively, a voice said in his head: "Stop it, stop it, he will kill you..."

The muscles in my legs began to convulse, and my heart pounded.

However, Lin Qingye still said: "I still know the follow-up."

All of a sudden, Lin Qingye felt himself grabbed by the collar with a huge force, and his body was also carried by this force and fell onto the bed, hitting the quilt heavily.

A cold voice sounded beside my ear, "What else do you know?"

Lin Qingye felt a little suffocated.

Dou Yang's strength was too great, he had just finished taking the medicine and was a sick person, but Lin Qingye couldn't break free from Dou Yang's grip.

It irritated him.

Dou Yang is not as gentle and sunny as he appears at all, there is darkness lurking in his bones.

Lin Qingye continued: "You stayed one night before returning to the orphanage. No one worried about your fate. You complained to the headmaster, but the headmaster was very impatient. Those children who bullied you, because of your complaint, Instead, they bullied you everywhere, and finally one day...you couldn't take it anymore, and thought of a way to lock those children in the basement, then lit a fire, and burned the entire orphanage...Ah!"

Lin Qingye cried out in pain.

Dou Yang's hand had already clasped his arm firmly, and Lin Qingye broke into a cold sweat in pain with such force as iron clamps.

"Shut up! Shut up!" Dou Yang's handsome face was twisted, and the light in his eyes was extremely terrifying.

Lin Qingye still endured the pain and said quickly: "After you burned the orphanage, you quickly fled that place, stumbled all the way to the next urban area, and lived by begging... If no one gave you food, you just went to steal it." , Baozi Mantou Bread...you are very smart, you can often run away. Then you went to the vicinity of the school, you wanted to go to school, you envied those children...but some gangsters bullied you, and finally you were saved..."

Dou Yang's strength suddenly relaxed, and the biting coldness in his eyes disappeared, replaced by a touch of warmth.

"It was you who saved me." Dou Yang stroked Lin Qingye's hair tenderly, and said softly, "I'm sick, and I can't beat them. You rushed over and drove away those people."

Under his touch, Lin Qingye felt a creepy feeling.

He was a little scared, but at this moment, he couldn't be afraid.

"Later you were sent to another orphanage, where you were adopted by a couple. In order to survive, you dressed up as they liked to please them, but after they had their own children, they still sent you to In the days that followed, you changed two more sets of parents. Every time they said they would raise you well, but in the end they missed the appointment. The fourth set of parents adopted you and found that you had a talent for painting, so they finally stopped abandoning you , Even if you put in the effort to train you, you are very promising, and you have been outstanding at a young age... This is all you have."

silence.

long silence.

Dou Yang stared at Lin Qingye, his beautiful eyes suddenly slightly curved, "How do you know so much?"

how do you know?

Because I created you, I am your father!

Lin Qingye whispered in her heart.

Enduring his fear, he continued to firmly hold Dou Yang's hand, "You think that your life has changed because of painting, if you don't know how to paint, you will have nothing and become the lonely and helpless person you used to be... that's not the case Yes, Dou Yang."

Lin Qingye said seriously.

In fact, the above content is the background for Dou Yang after he revised the outline. Before the revision of the outline, Dou Yang did not have such a miserable experience. Adopted by the husband and wife, under the influence of art, he slowly grew into a famous painter.It was all because he revised the outline that the first half of Dou Yang's life became so dark.

I am sorry.

He silently apologized in his heart.

"Don't blame yourself, Dou Yang, none of that is your fault, you are so good, God is sorry for you to let you go through that, you don't have to be afraid or feel guilty about it."

Dou Yang's eyes became extremely dark, he suddenly chuckled, "No wonder you were so scared that day, you jumped into the river and left..."

Lin Qingye was very embarrassed, "I suddenly saw that painting that day, and you appeared again with a kitchen knife..."

"So you already knew everything about me." He leaned over and said word by word, "You already knew that I was a murderer and thief since childhood, so you were afraid of me, right?"

The aura emanating from his body, like a black mist, enveloped Lin Qingye.

If it had been before, Lin Qingye would have been terrified to piss. He must have thought that he was going to cut himself off because of his illness, but now, through those black eyes, he saw a small person in the innermost part, trembling, scared.

"No." Lin Qingye shook his head hastily.

It's just that this sentence is not convincing enough, Lin Qingye said again: "I was a little scared before, but now I am not afraid! I know you will not hurt me!"

Dou Yang stared at him, mist filled his light-colored eyes.

"It was a misunderstanding that day!" Lin Qingye said quickly again, "You were cooking in the kitchen at that time, so you were carrying a knife, right?"

Dou Yang still didn't speak.

Lin Qingye was worried.

After a while, Dou Yang nodded slightly.

Lin Qingye let out a long breath.

"I was chopping vegetables, and you ran away when I came out with a knife, because you knew that I was a murderer and that I was sick..." Dou Yang spoke slowly, "It's hard for you to know everything and still be willing to endure the fear of being with a murderer." guilty together..."

"You are not a murderer!" Lin Qingye retorted loudly, looking straight into his eyes, "They are not dead! Everyone in the orphanage is alive!"

Dou Yang was stunned, "...what?"

Lin Qingye continued: "They are all alive."

As someone who created this world, some things, are clear.Even if he wanted to make Dou Yang a psychopath and create this character indifferently, considering that he is one of the three main male protagonists, it would be impossible to make him a real murderer at the beginning, otherwise the readers would definitely explode .

As a successful web writer, there are some red lines that cannot be stepped on. This is the survival rule of web writers.

"You should never go back." Lin Qingye reached out to touch his face, and said seriously: "When you are well and discharged from the hospital, let's go back together, and then you will know whether what I said is true or not gone."

"I don't believe it!" Dou Yang suddenly pushed him away, looked left and right as if trying to escape, and finally found that there was no snail shell to drill, so he pulled the quilt and wrapped himself into a caterpillar, leaving only a little hair outside, "Go away! I don't believe a word you said, I'm a murderer!"

There was a muffled sound from under the quilt.

Lin Qingye was a little stunned, Dou Yang's reaction was too unexpected!Moreover, I thought he was cute!

"Dou Yang!" Lin Qingye hastily pulled him, "Infusion! The infusion is gone!"

The movement was too big just now, and Dou Yang tore off the indwelling needle on the drip.

Dou Yang was still hiding under the blanket like a caterpillar, refusing to come out.

Lin Qingye had no choice but to reach out and press the call bell on the wall.

After a while, the nurse rushed in and was surprised when she saw the scene on the bed, "Why did you tear off the needle?"

The nurse sister doesn't care who is lying on the bed, she sees them as patients after entering the hospital anyway, and the disobedient patients will be scolded, so the nurse sister forcibly opened the quilt, caught the caterpillars, and gave them to him again. Hang on to the drip.

Lin Qingye was dumbfounded. Rumor has it that all the nurses are strong men who have been trained. You are not deceiving!