paranoia

After the sound of steady breathing came from the person sleeping beside him, in the darkness, Song Wanzhou slowly opened his eyes, turned his face and glanced at Song Jing who was in a deep sleep, pursed his lips, turned on the desk lamp quietly, got up from the He took out Valium from his bag, and ate one with Song Jing's unfinished water.

Lying back on the bed again, when he reached out to turn off the light, he noticed the slightly ugly back of his hand again. Song Wanzhou lowered his eyes, his eyes gradually dimmed, and hastily turned off the light, not wanting to see it again.

His right hand has not done well in rehabilitation, and he still can't hold heavy objects. When he makes a fist, he still trembles slightly.

But it's all over, Song Wanzhou doesn't want to recall the painful memory anymore.

In the early morning, the heavy floor-to-ceiling curtains completely cut off the sunlight outside the window, making it impossible to see the real situation in the room.

Song Wanzhou felt tightness in his chest, subconsciously frowned, thinking it was a ghost pressing on him, opened his sleepy eyes, only to find that Song Jing who was sleeping on another bed had transferred to his bed at some point, and was pressing on the bed at the moment He slept soundly on him.

"Xiaojing." He was so oppressed that he couldn't breathe well, and tried to whisper twice, "Wake up..."

However, Song Jing did not move at all.

Can't wake up, can't go back to sleep.Song Wanzhou simply put the pillow behind his back, moved back, and sat up from the bed. He closed his eyes and rested for a while, but found that Song Jing in his arms blinked his eyelashes secretly, and coughed lightly, "I'm pretending again." sleep?"

Song Jing didn't know that he had revealed himself, so he followed Song Wanzhou back quietly, wrapped his arms around Song Wanzhou's waist like a big bear, and rubbed his soft hair against his flat belly .

Song Jing pulled down the lifted pajamas, "Do you want to pretend?"

Song Jing ignored Song Wanzhou's clothes again, wanting to take advantage of the opportunity.

Before he could put his face on it, he was stopped by a hand, curled his lips, raised his face, and said aggrievedly: "Brother, how did you find out?"

Seeing that Song Wanzhou was silent, Song Jing quickly shook his head, "Don't chase me away, okay, I don't want to sleep alone."

"I didn't say I was going to drive you away, you change your posture," Song Wanzhou gently pushed away Song Jing who was arching on his body, "I can't breathe because of you."

Hearing that Song Wanzhou would not drive him away, Song Jing hurriedly lifted the quilt and got in, leaned sideways, and embraced Song Wanzhou from behind, "What about this?" After speaking, he smiled to himself up.

Song Jing's movements were too fast, before Song Wanzhou could react, he already felt the heat coming from behind.The crossed hands clasped tightly on his lower abdomen, no matter how hard he tried to break them, they couldn't break them.

"Xiaojing, stop playing." Song Wanzhou tried to break free.

Song Jing's upturned nose touched Song Wanzhou's hair, sniffed, and his warm breath sprayed on Song Wanzhou's bare shoulders.

"Brother, sleep a little longer." Feeling the slight trembling of the person in his arms, Song Jing smiled, "I had a nightmare last night."

Competing with Song Jing was a waste of energy, Song Wanzhou simply gave up struggling, nodded, and slowly closed his eyes, "What did you dream about?"

"I dreamed..." Song Jing deliberately paused, "I dreamed that my brother got up to take medicine again in the middle of the night."

Song Wanzhou's heart skipped a beat, and he opened his eyes without daring to look back.What really happened was easily told by Song Jing as a nightmare, Song Wanzhou couldn't hear the joy and anger in his words.

He couldn't help but think of the time when Song Jing was extremely disgusted with him taking sleeping pills, and even had a big fight. He was a little uneasy, and explained in a hoarse voice: "I can't sleep, I only took one."

Unexpectedly, Song Jing was not angry, and twirled his fingers along Song Wanzhou's belly button, jokingly said, "I'm talking about a dream, brother, don't be nervous."

"I..." Song Wanzhou knew without Song Jing admitting that he was seen by Song Jing last night.

"The elder brother in the dream seems to be in a bad state of mind. He has been taking sleeping pills for several years, and he still doesn't want to see a doctor." Song Jing said through the dream, "I feel so distressed."

After leaving the Song family, Song Wanzhou's insomnia became more and more serious, and he couldn't do without medicine.

, Coupled with a comminuted fracture of his right hand, life became even more difficult.He broke down emotionally and stayed up all night, torturing his body and torturing his remaining spirit.

"I saw a doctor..." Song Wanzhou sighed, "It's useless..."

By the time he had extra money to see a doctor, the insomnia had become so severe that it completely disrupted his life.

Song Jing said, "Brother, I did a special investigation. If you take too much An Ding, you will become dependent."

Song Wanzhou had to admit that he really couldn't do without medicine now.Insomnia depends on stability, wakefulness depends on coffee.

"Didn't you say before that you can sleep soundly with my breath?" Song Jing tightened his hands around Song Wanzhou's body, and leaned into his ear, "Let me be your tranquilizer, okay?"

Song Wanzhou, who hadn't woken up yet, was already dizzy. After being teased by Song Jing's words, he didn't notice the restless hands under him at all.

Song Jing covered Song Wanzhou's eyes, gently lifted the loose edge of his pajama pants, stretched his slender fingers in, and gently kneaded the softness in his hands through the underwear.

Song Wanzhou's eyes widened suddenly, his face turned red immediately, he quickly pressed Song Jing's arm, panted heavily, and whispered, "Xiao Jing, don't."

Song Wanzhou just held down his arm, his fingers were still free to move, and his fingertips were circling on the little brother who was gradually waking up.

"Brother can't sleep, can't you?" Song Jing licked along the back of Song Wanzhou's neck, "I fell asleep after venting."

It was eleven o'clock when I woke up again, and the alarm clock couldn't wake up the two people who were catching up on sleep.

Song Wanzhou's mouth was dry and he wanted to drink water, but Song Jing hugged him and refused to let him get up.

"Xiao Jing," Song Wanzhou glanced at the time, quickly pushed Song Jing away and sat up from the bed, "It's time to get up."

Just now he shouldn't have let Song Jing mess around, although it was just scratching the itch, it was really exhausting for a tired person who just had a fever.

Seeing Song Jing not letting go, Song Wanzhou licked his lips and said helplessly, "I have to get up and drink water."

Song Jing suddenly opened his eyes, the eyes glowed with gold, turned over and pressed the panicked Song Wanzhou under him, cupped his face, and kissed the lips along the corner of his mouth.

From shallow to deep, there was a groan in the room.

Song Jing didn't let go until Song Wanzhou's lips became moist and glowing.Looking at his wet eyes, wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes, and said with a smile: "Brother, are you full?"

Song Wanzhou, who regained his breath, blushed and panted non-stop, reprimanding him, "The fever has just subsided, so be careful."

He didn't feel harsh, Song Jing only thought he was concerned, kissed Song Wanzhou's side face, and said with satisfaction: "Brother is so kind."

Song Wanzhou suddenly had the illusion that there was a Teddy at home. Song Jing was young and energetic, and wanted to make out with him anytime, anywhere, but he was weak. If Song Jing touched him a little, he would have no strength to resist, and he was completely mature. A toy that Song Jing can manipulate at will.

"I'm going out this afternoon."

Song Jing sat up abruptly and pricked up his ears, "Where are you going?"

Seeing his nervous appearance, Song Wanzhou chuckled, "Put on your clothes quickly if you want to go."