[Bulletproof BTS] RE:suming

When we debuted, I was the youngest in Star Master Broadcasting Bureau, and I was surrounded by seniors who were older than us. I debuted as an idol at the age of 17, and I was very lucky to be a trainee.

With so many trainees and so many idol groups in our country, it is already difficult to make a debut, let alone survive in the idol world.

Star Lord was the first among us to get popular. To be honest, I was jealous. I thought I was no worse than Star Lord, but after stage after stage, I seemed to feel the gap between me and Star Lord.

Fans always like to call the four of us the youngest members of Line. In fact, we don’t spend much time together. After our debut, Star Master and the producer brothers spend more time together.

I saw more than once that he and his brothers, he and the producer brothers discussed the matter of composing seriously and seriously, and I saw more than once that he and his brothers in the studio because of the good Track and happy look, that look I am not familiar with.

On the other hand, looking at my own words, I am the lead dancer, but there is still some distance from Ho Seok, and I am also the lead singer, but compared with Star Lord, I seem to be not as mature as Star Lord in terms of emotions and skills.

Some regret why they didn't work hard during the trainee period, so that they won't feel ashamed of themselves who are always more than capable but not enough.

But I know regret is useless, the only way is to work hard in the future, practice hard, learn to sing hard, and then catch up with the star master, and become as good as the star master.

I'm very fortunate that Star Master debuted with me. The broadcasting station is basically seniors who are older than me. They are both brothers and sisters and seniors. To be honest, I can't handle it...

I am still very lucky to have a star master to accompany me, at least one person to accompany me, to have someone who I can speak plain language to, and relatives who have no scruples about talking and making trouble.

But Star Lord treats me like an older brother...

When I first debuted, I didn’t feel anything, my brothers gave way to me, and when I was playing or joking with Star Lord, Star Lord was no match for me.

Later, I met Yuqian, because we are all idols, it is difficult to meet together when we are busy, and occasionally we meet when we are playing songs or performing, we will get together or chat or something.

That is to say, with Youqian, I felt the difference in Star Master. I didn’t pay much attention to it before, and I didn’t feel it when there was no comparison. Now the more I pay attention, the more uncomfortable I feel.

I suddenly recalled that when we went to Beijing for the first time, because we didn’t go back on time as agreed, we were told by my brothers. At that time, when Star Lord sent me out, facing my complaints about Brother Namjoon, he told me the words said……

It turns out that Star Master has always regarded me as a younger brother...

He's only a month older than me, and he's not born in February like Ho Seok-gee. He obviously didn't have the airs of a younger brother when he was with his older brothers, so why should he treat me like a younger brother.

I want a dear friend!

Not a brother!

But my words didn't seem to make Star Master pay attention to it. He always said "I know" perfunctorily, then pinched my face and smiled. I knew it was his impatience to express that he didn't want to continue this topic... …

I despise myself, and I can be bewitched by this smile every time. I have seen his appearance for 4 years, and I am so familiar with it that I can no longer be familiar with him.

Then let it go, and just keep going around in circles.

The constant frustration made me gradually stop being interested in this matter, not to mention that since 15, the popularity has been getting higher and higher and we have become busier and busier, so we have no time or energy to care about this.

The concept photo shoot of "DOPE", after the star master came in last, the next second of the director's 'CUT', the star master fell down straight, the voice of the nearest brother Jimin was trembling and his eyes were closed tightly, pale Star Lord with a straight face.

After the turmoil, I heard from the medical staff that it was because I had a bad cold before, and I was holding on. If it weren't for the intense shooting tasks in the past two days, my body couldn't take it anymore, I guess it would be delayed until the next bigger outbreak!

I'm really angry and sad!

I am dear!

That's a month away from relatives!

Sometimes there are some things that you can’t say to your brothers, why can’t you talk to me?

Even if it's just a simple sentence 'Jungkook, I feel a little bit wrong...' 'Jungkook, I'm a little tired...'

what……

He never regarded me as a relative!

Star Lord soon knew that I was angry, but he didn't want to come to me. I had a lot of things I wanted to say, and I wanted to talk to him, but he didn't come to me.

I'm really pissed!

Star Lord came to Brother Hao Xi's room to look for me, I felt his gaze on me, but in the end, he left without saying anything!

Yaxi!

What's wrong with the keyboard today, why is it so uncomfortable!

Just as I was venting my anger with the keyboard, Brother Ho Seok came over and pressed my hand, the character died immediately, I looked at Brother Ho Seok with dissatisfaction.

he is brother...

Ho Seok pulled me to say something, Taehyung and Jimin were also talking at the same time, is it my fault that they co-authored? !

what……

Today I continued to not want to go back, the second the news was sent out, Brother Namjoon came over with a bad face and took me back, I could even hear Brother Hoseok and the others laughing happily!

So dislike letting me sleep with them? !

Brother Namjoon left space for Star Lord and me. I forgave him as soon as Star Lord said "friends". In fact, no one wants to get sick. I also know that Star Lord definitely doesn't want to get sick, whether it's because he doesn't want to procrastinate. Work is for health.

I also know that my anger comes out of nowhere. If I tell my brothers, they will touch my head again and look at the younger generation with the eyes of an elder. I don't like being treated like this now!

I'm 19!

Coming of age!

I can also do a lot of things, and I can also let you tell me about your latest troubles...

So stop treating me like a brother...

star lord...

After the Cold War, Star Lord withdrew his brother love who had no place to rest. It wasn't until this outbreak that I realized that Star Lord never put me on an equal footing.

In his cognition, I am a younger brother who got into trouble...

I admit that I was impulsive in dealing with Wei Fan's matter, because my impulsiveness made my brothers have a hard time during this time. I also know that after this incident, my brothers will not mention this matter in front of me, because Don't want to make me sad.

Brothers are making me laugh, making me happy, obviously I'm the one who did something wrong...

I also know that I can't be affected too much by this incident, I still have a lot of things to do, I still have people who are more worth protecting, and feelings that are more worth cherishing...

But we still had a quarrel because of this matter, I just don’t want Star Master to have too much pressure, I just hope he can pretend to be stupid once in a while, I just hope Star Master won’t be so tired...

Why are you still talking about me like that? !

Those suppressed emotions burst out.

But I regret it...

Am I too hypocritical, not at all manly, not at all happy...

But I just want a close friend...

Being able to share with each other what you can't say to your brothers, being able to fight without restraint...

relatives...