Heterogeneous love

When Dongzi and I had nothing to do, we walked along the streets of Hefei, visiting small shops and eating in restaurants in rotation every day.

Don't mention old things.

I don't mention Xiao Ya, he doesn't mention Brother and Jue Chu, that kind of pain is scarred in the bottom of my heart, no one will touch it.

Dongzi has saved more than [-] yuan in the past few years from graduate school to Ph.D.I don't know how he saved it, but I know that the process will not be easy.

Dongzi smiled and said, no matter what, he should spend the 10 yuan to make up for the hardships of frugality.

Hefei restaurants are very cheap. I made a rough estimate, and there is no problem in eating for six or seven years...

So he oppressed him with peace of mind.

The days passed steadily, except that when I dreamed back at midnight, I would wake up with my hands clutching my heart, and there was nothing unusual about it.

Sometimes I think, it's okay to go on like this.

Heart tired like stagnant water, without waves.

Man, the last thing we fear is the situation when we have nothing to lose.

And I, already alone, have nothing to care about lost things or people.

However, I later realized that God will always push you to take another step forward when you think things are at their worst. That step will lead you to fall from the cliff into the abyss, and you will be crushed to pieces.

Two months after leaving Juechu, I found out I was pregnant.

I thought about it carefully, over and over again.

I have only been with him twice, and both times have contraceptive measures, so how did this accident happen?

The doctor said that the contraceptive rate of condoms is 90.00%.

I still remember asking her in a trembling voice, "You mean I'm the one percent left?"

This child cannot be had, and the only person I can trust is Dongzi.

When Dongzi heard my intermittent words, he blushed and roared, "Yuanyuan, why are you so confused?!"

Then I asked, "Does he know?"

I shook my head, "It won't help to let him know, not to mention our situation is impossible to get married in China. I can't use my child to force him at this time, I'm afraid he will regret it in the future, I can't afford it at that time." I can't have this child, I have no father or mother, I rely on my brother to support me. I will never let my child fall into this path again."

Dongzi accompanied me to the hospital, and the doctor who diagnosed Dongzi taught Dongzi, "Abortion is very harmful to the body, and whether you can get pregnant again in the future is a problem. Don't you know what to pay attention to?"

I was ashamed and ashamed, bowed my head and said nothing.

Dongzi turned pale when he heard that, and pulled me out without saying a word.

"Yuanyuan, you have to think about it. What if, I mean, if, if you really can't have children in the future?"

I smiled miserably, "Brother Dongzi, can I still marry? If I don't marry anymore, why don't you tell me about it?"

Dongzi looked at me for a while and sighed.

I can't tell what it feels like.But even Brother Dongzi was forced into this by me...

"Round round."

"Ok?"

Dongzi frowned, "Let's go to the gynecological examination first to see if there is anything wrong with this child. After all, you are..."

As he talked, he dragged me to find someone for a gynecological examination. The aunt of a friend of Dongzi happened to be the chief physician of the xx department of the hospital, so she asked her to take us to see it.

The aunt looked at Dongzi and me with a joking expression on her face. I blushed and felt sorry for Dongzi. I was afraid his reputation would be ruined by me.

Dongzi looked indifferent, talking and chatting with the aunt non-stop.

After a very detailed examination, the doctor repeatedly confirmed to me, "The child is fine."

Perhaps it was because an acquaintance took it to see it, so he added casually, "It's a girl."

I remembered how Jue Chu hugged me and said excitedly, "I want a girl who looks like you when you were a child..."

With an indescribable pain in my heart, my hands were unconsciously attached to my stomach, and tears were in my eyes.

Dongzi glanced at me, sighed slightly, thanked the doctor and the aunt gratefully, and dragged me out of the hospital.

I was out of my mind all the way, and felt a slight pain in my heart. I thought that there would be nothing more to make my heart hurt, but when I thought about getting rid of this child, I felt a heart-wrenching pain.

"Yuanyuan." Dongzi patted me with a sigh, "Let this child stay."

I froze, tears still rolling in my eyes, and looked up at him.

He sighed again, and his tone became affirmative, "Stay here."

"Let's get married."

Tears fell from my eyes, and I looked at him foolishly. Dongzi smiled, the sun was shining brightly, and his voice was gentle, "You silly boy."

Later, Dongzi always laughed at me, "Everyone is overjoyed when they are proposed, and you just leave your mouth open."

I studied for a year and gave birth to Xizi.

When Xizi gave birth, it was very difficult. I almost passed it, but somehow I survived again. It was painful, really painful, as if my body had been torn apart.

Xizi is very healthy, her eyes are black and her pupils reflect figures. The nurses in the hospital like her very much, and Dongzi loves her even more.

Xizi was also named by him, "My name is Dongzi, so my daughter is called Xizi." Dongzi said.

I feel a little dizzy. Isn't this all together?

Xizi is very smart, very smart, and has a vivid memory at a young age. Dongzi always hugs her and teases her, laughing.

I always stand aside and look at them with a smile. I am satisfied. Dongzi gave me a warm and peaceful home, and Xizi gave me a quiet world. I stick to this world, give up the past and the absurdity of attachment, and live an ordinary life. day.

Maybe one day, I will wait until my brother comes back, I will wait forever, and say sorry to my brother.

When Xizi was two years old, she looked through my wallet (I knew I loved money at a young age), and saw a picture of our family photo under it.

She pointed to the boy in the photo and asked, "Mom, who is this?".

I smiled and hugged her, and kissed her little cheek, "It's mother's brother, it's your uncle."

Xizi raised his head and asked me in a soft voice, "Where is uncle now?"

Extra Story ([-])

I received that call on the day Yuanyuan gave birth. I didn’t bring a mobile phone with me when I entered the operating room. I didn’t see the missed call until after Xizi was born. It was a cold female voice. Ask her, "What?!"

Hearing her repeat, at that time I turned my head back to look at Yuanyuan's calm smiling face teasing Xizi through the big glass window, my heart ached, I turned my head again, and promised her, "Okay. I'll be there tomorrow."

On the second day, I told Yuanyuan that I was going on a business trip with my boss and I would be back soon.

Thinking it was because of the bad complexion, Yuanyuan comforted me, "It's nothing, you can go."

My heart ached, if she knew what I was doing here, would she still smile and comfort me like this?

It was 11 noon when I flew to Chengdu. I didn't care about eating and went directly to the hospital.

The doctor who called me was a comely woman with an outstanding demeanor and a cold face.

He glanced at me lightly, and took the report to me.

I frowned and looked twice. I didn't understand the technical terms, so I said frankly, "I don't understand. Just how?"

The woman frowned, and breathed a sigh of relief, "It's not a serious illness. It's not even considered a serious illness. I was his attending physician from the beginning, and I told him that there was nothing serious about him, as long as he was less stimulated. But Later, he covered his heart and said it was in pain, and looked at it as if it was in excruciating pain. I couldn't bear to see that, so I checked repeatedly, and even asked our director to see it, but couldn't find out the reason. Later, it seemed like something happened. His heart condition was getting worse and worse. A healthy heart was getting worse and worse. We had never seen such a situation, so we made a special case for observation. He regularly Come check."

She sighed as she spoke, and adjusted her glasses frame, "Until he got into a car accident, that was yesterday, he was driving on the road well, and suddenly hit a guardrail. I just saw him when he was sent here for rescue. There was no rescue." Come here, I checked the reason, I don't know why he suddenly had heart palpitations while driving, and then heart failure. It shouldn't have happened..."

She paused and continued, "At the end, when he saw me, he asked me to call you. I called, but you didn't answer. Then he didn't wait..."

"How is it possible. How is it possible for him. It's wrong, it must be wrong. You don't know the doctor. He looks thin, but he is actually very strong. He can swim anyone back and forth in a standard swimming pool. I have never won He once, how could a person like him? It must be wrong. "

The doctor gave me a sad look, and stood up, "Come with me."

I met Jang Woo, and I finally saw him again after so long.

I have thought countless times that if I caught him, I would punch him hard on the nose and make him drop Yuanyuan again and run away.

But now, when I saw him again, he was covered with a white sheet, with no trace of blood on his face, and his brows were tightly frowned, as if he had suffered great pain before he died.His pale face, against the white sheet, showed the fact that he had disappeared from the world, and he just lay there quietly.

How could this be?

I covered my face sobbing uncontrollably.

The doctor couldn't bear it and pulled me out. I was holding on to the quilt tightly and refused to let go. He is my brother, my brother, and I can't let him lie here like this.

Fortunately, the doctor has established a file relationship with Changyou, and his address is also registered.

I got the keys from the police and went to Changyou's residence, a small house with exactly the same furnishings as the one he left for Yuanyuan at school.

The room was clean and tidy, and there was a big round sketch hanging on the head of the bed.

Very similar, really similar, I don't mean painting, I mean Shen Yun.

The kind of smile that turned the corners of the mouth and turned the eyes looked very much like Yuanyuan's usual appearance.

I've known him for so many years, but I didn't even know he was such a good painter.

Or is it only for Yuanyuan that he can draw so well?

What kind of pain is it to miss each other every day?

There is a diary in the drawer of the desk. It may not be appropriate to say that it is a diary. It is all letters, and there are no letters sent.

I read it page by page, writing almost every day, it is a thick book.

Some of the paper was a little crumpled, the traces of dried tears.

There is a piece of ID in the back case of the diary. I tried it, and it turned out to be the password made by Yuanyuan's birthday.

Changyou, how he lived these days, how he forced himself, I'm afraid no one will know.

I returned to Hefei with Changyou's ashes, I couldn't leave him alone in Chengdu, he would definitely not want to be so far away from Yuanyuan...

When I was sitting on the plane, the little girl next to me was holding a book of poems in her hand, and she said, "The autumn wind is clear and the autumn moon is bright. .

Knowing when to meet each other on a blind date, this night is embarrassing, enter the door of my lovesickness, and know the pain of my lovesickness, long lovesickness, long lovesickness, short lovesickness, infinity. "

I remembered when we first met, when Changyou showed me a photo of Yuanyuan with a smile on his face, he suddenly felt like a thousand arrows were piercing his heart, and couldn't help crying.

I buried Changyou's ashes together with that diary and sketch in Hefei Cemetery.

I couldn't put those things away, I was afraid that one day I couldn't help but let Yuanyuan know, so I had to bury everything.

Yuanyuan will never know in her whole life how Changyou was devoured by longing and allowed her heart to die little by little.He also doesn't know how he felt her pain thousands of miles away, and his heart palpitations for a while.

She will never know in her life...

It was late at night when I went back, and Yuanyuan was already fast asleep.

I hugged her gently, crying silently.

Tears welled up in the corners of her eyes in the dream, and she whispered in her sleep, "Brother, don't go."

I was shocked and looked down at her, but she didn't wake up.

Until the next morning, she looked at me and smiled, "You're back?"

"Well," I nodded, and then casually asked, "What did you dream about last night?"

She thought about it, shook her head and smiled, "I don't remember. But the moment I woke up from the dream, I felt very gentle and sad, and it felt like a good dream."

I smiled, rubbed her hair, and looked out of the window through her. I believe that last night, Changyou must have come to say goodbye to her...

Extra Story ([-])

My name is Xizi. I come from the west side of the sun. I am 2 and a half years old.

I love my daddy, daddy likes to throw me high and then catch me, I'm not afraid at all, love to put my arms around his neck and giggle.

I don't love my mom, she always likes to bully my dad and me and call us "stuff" together.

"Things, let's eat!"

Look, here we go again.

But I learned an idiom from my father, which is called the combination of things!

As soon as my mother called me something, I would shout "Hebi!"

Forcibly reversed the disadvantages!

Alas, is it easy for me to have such a mother? And she doesn't allow me to pretend to be cute and deceptive.

What is cute?

It is the excellent quality that can bring delicious food!

As long as I smile sweetly, tilt my head and call my brothers, sisters, uncles and aunts... delicious food will appear in front of my eyes, so my smile is my pocket money!

Alas, I was drooling again as I was talking, why is there no brother or sister in front of me now?

Swallow it down, let's move on.

My mother forbade me to do this, saying that one day I would be abducted with food.

I don't believe her, I will use my wisdom to obtain delicious food and drive away evil!

Alas, I think I was so smart at such a young age, and my future is even more limitless!

So, while I am easy to deceive, hurry up and deceive me with food.

The little butt next to me, yes, is the one who sucks hala, always likes to grab my food.

I despise him 1 times in my heart. I get fruits through my own wisdom and knowledge. This little butt looks like he grew up and engaged in physical labor!

Well, you have to be kind, but when he snatched my things for the nth time, I was really angry.

So I went back to the room and took the marshmallow, spit three mouthfuls of saliva, and ran out to give it to him.

She watched him finish eating with a smile before telling him.

Poor, I cried with a bang!

Hmph, what's there to cry about, you'll have to pay it back sooner or later!

While I despised him like this, I sighed that I finally understood what it felt like to say the word my father called me yesterday, "happy people"!

It's sweeter than eating cotton candy!

In the evening, the aunt next door came to the door with his ass, and my mother took me out to apologize to them.

I smiled and said, "Eat a debt and get a mole! In order to make him have more moles, I made him owe more."

I turned my head and tapped his cheeks, counting them one by one, "One mole, two moles, three moles..."

My mother pulled me back with a dark face, and kept saying sorry to others.

So I was confined on the balcony again!

Alas, I stood on the balcony in deep contemplation.

You said, why is it difficult for a woman to be a woman? !

Fortunately, my father came back at night and rescued me.

I followed them out for a walk on campus.

Speaking of this campus, I really like it.

My parents met on this campus, and I decided to enter this campus when I grew up, to continue my career of cheating on food and drink, and to cheat on another boy with a good temper like my father.

what? !

Thinking too far ahead?

Not far, not far, only the distance from the girl's building to the boy's building.

Am I too smart?

Of course I am smart!In the words of martial arts novels, I am a genius who does not have accidents!

Well, well, the future is long, let's report here first today!

If you want to see me again, hit me with something delicious.

If there is no delicious food, then take a ticket and hit my Ye Yuan.

Kissing Xiaoxizi, you are so obedient, and know how to canvass for my votes.

Extra Story ([-])

When I first met Lin Yinian, he stood among a group of youths sent to the countryside, looking like a weak scholar, but I saw him at a glance in the crowd, the smile on his face was gentle and calm, and I felt taken away for a moment. to breathe.

People of that era, after all, were innocent, even if they liked it, they didn't dare to show it blatantly.

But I'm different, my father is the village head, and I've been used to pressing people every step of the way since I was a child.

So, I went to confess, after all, I was a girl with a thin skin. After talking for a long time, he understood what I meant, and his fair face turned red all of a sudden. I already have someone I like."

How should I change since I was a child, how have I ever been wronged like this, I was heartbroken for a while, and I couldn't help crying bitterly. My father saw me and asked me what happened.

I was ashamed in my heart, but seeing my father's complexion, I had no choice but to tell the truth.

My father originally looked down on these scholars, but when he heard this, he became even more annoyed. Take it back easily?

My father was forced by me to have no choice, so he came to the door to propose marriage, promising to bring us back to the city together.

At that time, after all, it was the order of the parents and the words of the matchmaker.

He was called back by his family, but he refused and fled back again.

When he came to see me, his eyes were red, I never knew that such a quiet person like him would be so angry, he yelled at me, "I already have someone I like, do you understand?!"

I inquired about the situation of the girl he liked. I worked as an announcer on a radio station in the city. I took a look at her from a distance. She was such a thin girl, but her eyes were big and bright, and she was terrifying.

At that moment, I finally understood what he liked about her.

Feeling ashamed, I went back and said to my father, "Forget it, let him go."

My father glanced at me, sighed, and said nothing.

But who knew that his family would not give up and let him marry that girl.

That's right, how could that girl have the ability to bring him back to the city from the countryside?It can't be said that his parents are powerful, but it's just human nature.

So he was tricked back the second time, and his father told him that his mother was dying.

When he got home and saw his mother safe and sound, he understood everything, turned around to leave, and was dragged into the house by his father and locked up.

Later, I only heard about those things, and then his mother cried and shouted, "The gift money has been accepted, can it be refunded? Are you trying to force us to death?!"

He cried and knelt down and kowtowed three times, his lips were bleeding, and he agreed.

So I passed the door smoothly, and my in-laws took me very well, better than my own daughter.Father, as promised at the beginning, brought us back to the city together.

He left home the day after I got married and didn't come back for over a month.

I am not in a hurry or rush, and take care of his parents for him.

He will always come back, how could such a filial son like him leave his parents like this, just a moment of anger, let alone married.

Later, he came back and lived with me seriously, respecting each other like ice, I have never seen such a gentle and calm smile on his face.

A year later, when I gave birth to Xiao Chu, he lifted his eyes and gently kissed Xiao Chu's face, teasing him with a smile.

I was gentle in my heart, and watched with a smile on the side.

After that day, my relationship with him eased up a lot. Later, one day, he came back suddenly sad, his expression was obviously crying, and he was depressed for a long time. I asked someone to inquire, and then I found out that it was the woman who died. up.

I felt a little dazed in my heart, and then smiled in a trance, I can finally live a peaceful life.

After a while, he suddenly told me that his sister gave birth to another girl, and he wanted to go and have a look.

I thought about it, I haven't seen his sister since we got married, so I said I would follow.By the way, take Xiao Chu to show them.

He froze for a moment, then cowardly agreed.

The little girl Yuandudu's face, a pair of big black and bright eyes, looked at Renle with a smile.

I liked it very much, and hugged and kissed her with a smile, not noticing the strange expressions of her family.

But I didn't pay attention at the time.

Later, Yuanyuan grew up little by little, and I was startled when I saw that she was clearly carved out of the same mold as that woman, her eyes were soul-stirringly bright, and she had the same small oval face...

But until then I wasn't sure.

Until her parents died in a car accident, she moved to live with me, and I watched indifferently.

That temperament is really very similar to Lin Yinian, who shrinks his head when things happen.

I snorted coldly, still getting used to my little Chu, I absolutely don't want my little Chu to develop his cowardly temperament.

Later, when Changyou's child went to college, Yuanyuan was left alone at home, and Xiao Chu's relationship with her suddenly improved a lot.

I was surprised at first, and I secretly watched it a few times, and found that it was Xiao Chu who asked her the question, and the two children sat there doing the question seriously.

I sighed and said to myself, forget it, she is only a child, why do you make things difficult for her.

However, that night, I saw Lin Yinian knocking on her door. After all these years of marriage, I have never seen him go to see if Xiao Chu is sleeping well at night.

Sure enough, that woman's child was different.

I leaned against the door frame and looked at it with a sneer. Lin Yinian turned around and saw it was me, and stood there in a daze.Then he walked past me quickly and went to sleep on the bed.

I really felt that I was blind back then, how could I fall in love with this man.It doesn't matter what you want, and your character is cowardly.You said he was cowardly, but he still did such things as cheating!

On the second day, I hugged Xiao Chu and cried, but Xiao Chu didn't ask anything and wiped away my tears, "Mom, don't cry."

My heart softened, but fortunately I have a son.

So he sighed and said nothing.

Later, Yuanyuan also passed the exam, and Xiao Chu applied to a school with her. I was not happy at the time, but Xiao Chu said, "I just want to prove that I am not inferior to them!"

I was taken aback for a moment, and then I remembered my arrogance back then, so I smiled and said, "Good son!"

However, Xiao Chu was defeated. Fortunately, he passed the exam again the next year.

After Yuanyuan left, we had no contact with us, only a symbolic phone call during the Chinese New Year. Every time Lin Gengnian was overjoyed, I watched coldly from the sidelines and sneered in my heart. His "uncle" didn't know either. How happy are you?

However, after Yuanyuan left, out of sight and out of mind, I finally lived a few years of peaceful life.

The sad thing is that Xiao Chu is also going to college, and I can't see him, sometimes I cry when I think about it.

It's just that after a few years of living like this, he was diagnosed with terminal cancer.

I looked at his gray hair, and thought of his guilt over my forbearance all these years, and he felt that time was in a daze for a while. Is our life like this counted as a lifetime?

Before he passed away, he took my hand and said, "I'm sorry for you and Xiao Chu."

With one sentence, my tears came down, and I wailed loudly.

It's too late to apologize to me!

And he, after all, never saw Yuanyuan's last side.

When Yuanyuan came back again, I eased her a lot, and everyone left, so why bother?

But, how could I bump into Xiao Chu kissing her?

My heart stopped beating suddenly at that moment, and then I fell down from dizziness. I knew that my cerebral hemorrhage had recurred.

The first time I posted it was when Lin passed away next year, but this time I'm afraid I won't be able to make it through.

I forced Xiao Chu to swear to me not to be with Yuanyuan, he cried unbearably, I have never seen him cry like this when I grow up, my heart felt like a knife for a while, and I looked at Yuanyuan.

Her face is also pale, but this handsome appearance is very similar to her mother's original appearance.

At that moment, I couldn't tell what I felt in my heart, it was worse than death, Lin Yinian Ah Lin Yinian, what do you think you have done?

What have you done!

My little Chu, Mom has never said a word of no to you in her life, but she can't, it can't be her, it can't be her.

My little Chua...

Injustice!

Extra Story ([-])

I secretly went back to see Yuanyuan. At that time, she was accompanied by someone else, and she stood beside him, holding her daughter and smiling, with a peaceful expression.

That child looks very much like her when she was a child, very much like...

I comforted myself while my heart ached, fortunately, she hadn't had time to fall in love with me.Fortunately, in the end, she finally got happiness, and I, as I promised her, will never be happier than her.

I will always remember when I first met Yu Qingyuan, she was hiding behind Yu Changyou, holding a doll in her hand, showing her head, watching me smile, and timidly calling out, "Brother Jue Chu!"

That encounter determined my life from now on.

... `What kind of person is Lin Juechu?

I do not know.

I only know that a profound person walked out of his life, and I have never seen him smile again since then.