Heterogeneous love

What my brother asked Dongzi to give me was very simple, the key to that house and a passport.

The house was very clean, except for a few clothes and the photos we took together on the desk, it seemed that he didn't take anything with him.

The money in □□ is my brother's deposit, and there is almost no money to take away.

Where did he go like this, I don't know at all, I can only look at the empty room and cry.

Dongzi is such a smart person, seeing me go crazy in the train station square, he understood three points, and asked me tentatively when he came back, "Yuanyuan, the person you say you want to love but can't love is Changyou? "

I looked at him with tears in my eyes, Dongzi stared at me blankly for a while, then smiled wryly, "Yuanyuan, oh~"

I don't know how Dongzi looks at this kind of thing, but he never mentioned a word, and he hasn't mentioned a word since then.

And instead of my brother, he spends most of his time every day to accompany me, for fear that I will be overwhelmed.

"Brother Dongzi, I'm fine. I won't do stupid things. I want to wait for my brother to come back, and he will always come back. If it doesn't work, he will always come back after I get married and have children. "

Dongzi looked at me and breathed a sigh of relief, "It would be nice if you could think like this."

I don't remember how many tears I shed during those days, but at the end of the pain, I even lost my tears.

That's when I realized that crying is actually a luxury. The person you love is by your side, and when you cry, his heart aches.If that person is not around, crying is just the most useless thing, who will see, who will ask, who will know?

After my brother left for so long, I, like my brother, also gave up that relationship.

I just hope that he will come back, hope that he will come back.Countless nights of dreaming, I pulled his sleeves and cried, desperately saying, "Brother, don't go, I am obedient, if you want to be brothers and sisters, we will be brothers and sisters, I will never disturb you again, don't go. Brother, You don't go."

But I can't hold back.

Then I woke up with twitching heartache, so painful, so painful, as if I was tearing myself apart, unable to struggle, looking out through the window in a daze at the dark and pale sky outside, knowing in my heart that my brother and I will never go back to the past .

I really miss the days when he used his childish voice to coax me when I was a child, the days when I was a teenager and hugged him in the little bed of my uncle’s house, and the days when he accompanied me to study by myself and cooked soup for me when I was in college.

But I can't go back, I can't go back.

My brother gave up, and so did I.

But even if we give up, we can't go back to the past...

I stopped crying, and I stopped going out to meet people with red and swollen eyes every day, Dongzi really breathed a sigh of relief.

"Yuanyuan, you finally recovered. I was scared to death by you."

I smiled weakly, yes, I have recovered, and I no longer want to die from heartache. I am just numb. No matter how numb I am, I just laugh, a gentle smile.

Everyone said that I have grown up, with a calm face and a gentle smile, and I am no longer the hot-tempered little girl I used to be.

Yes, when I grow up, the blue fruit can ripen, but the ripe fruit will be rotten inside, how painful it is to grow up.

In the early spring of [-], when my brother had been away for nearly a year, Jue Chu appeared in front of me without warning.

He has lost a lot of weight, his face is no longer as radiant as before, it is much deeper, the previous domineering and domineering has also subsided a lot, and it is as quiet as a whirlpool, and he has grown up.

"Father had an accident. It was found that the stomach cancer was terminal. My mother informed me and told me to go back quickly. Do you want to come with me?"

I was a little dizzy and didn't react, "How could it be?"

Jue Chu glanced at me and said nothing.

I just came to my senses and ran back in a hurry, "Wait for me, I'll go and pack my things."

We bought our tickets as soon as we arrived at the station, waited a few hours and boarded the train.Perhaps because of the season, there were not many people in the car. Jue Chu and I chose a car with few people and sat down by the window. Jue Chu turned his head and looked out the window without saying a word.

I looked at his thin face and silent look, and remembered how my uncle hugged me and pricked me with a big beard when he was a child and called me nannie with a smile. My heart was so sad that I burst into tears.

Jue Chu turned his head and saw that I was crying, subconsciously raised his hand to wipe my tears, raised his hand halfway and then lowered it, after a while he said, "Yu Qingyuan, what's wrong with you?"

I looked up at him, and he looked away from the window, as if he wasn't talking to me, "Why are you so thin?"

I froze, and my heart softened all of a sudden.

It took a long time before she answered him quietly, "Didn't you lose weight too?"

He took a deep look at me, stopped talking, leaned on the back of the chair and looked out the window with far-reaching eyes.

Tired from the car ride, I do not know when I fell asleep.When I woke up, I was leaning against Jue Chu, and Jue Chu's coat was wrapped around me.

I was greedy for the warmth, shrinking back, and asked him in a daze, "What time is it?"

"There are still two hours, let's sleep again." He said as he tucked up the corner of my clothes casually, as gently as a brother, I woke up suddenly, sat up and looked back at him.

He raised his eyebrows, "What's wrong?"

I stayed for a long while before I replied, "The way you raise your eyebrows hasn't changed much."

It's an irrelevant sentence, but he understood, nodded, and still stretched out his arms to wrap me around and leaned on his shoulder, "Let's sleep again."

However, I can no longer sleep.