Heterogeneous love

On the day when the results of the postgraduate entrance examination came down, I pulled my brother to rejoice, but my brother looked dispensable, with just a faint smile on his face.

I told him, "Brother, you stinky fart! Just act like you don't care if you study well on your own!"

Brother bowed his head down and pinched my face with a smirk on his face, "Look at you little fairy talking nonsense here."

I covered my face with a smile and jumped away, shouting, "Brother! Go resign! Go resign! We quit!"

A gentle and refined person like brother is not suitable to go to the workplace to fight hard. It is suitable for him to stay in school and study.

My brother refused at first, "It's still a few months before I leave school", I quit, and pushed him behind, "Anyway, we don't need to pay for graduate school, the school still has money, which is enough. Go resign, resign! "

Brother was pushed forward by me like this, with a helpless smile on his face, "Okay, okay, go, I will hand in my resignation letter at work tomorrow. How can I agree with the boss?"

"There are many reasons." I climbed up from the back like a koala and grabbed his neck, my brother carried me forward, and I counted on my fingers, "First, I want to accompany Yuanyuan to study; second, I want to accompany Yuanyuan. Yuanyuan studies; thirdly, I still have to accompany Yuanyuan to study."

Brother didn't know whether to laugh or cry, "This reason is sufficient."

Brother's resignation procedures will be completed soon.

That weekend, my brother's colleagues wanted to come over to get together with me, as a send-off.

In the evening, a group of six or seven people came, and everyone gathered in Shucheng to eat hot pot.

There was a girl with big wavy curly hair, a pink wool skirt in a windbreaker, and a Slovakia sweater chain hanging around her neck.

During the meal, she sat next to my brother and served him food.Brother felt embarrassed, so he clipped it back to her.

A group of colleagues started booing, the girl blushed first, then suddenly looked at her brother with big and bright eyes, "Yu Changyou, I like you! Do you like me?"

My hands shaking the vegetables, the piece of meat didn't go into the bowl and fell on the table.

But no one paid attention to me, everyone's eyes were on my brother and the girl, waiting quietly for my answer.

I stretched out my chopsticks to pick up the meat for myself, still trembling, put it into the bowl tremblingly, the collapsed sesame paste got on the clothes, forming taupe dots.

When my brother saw it, he hurriedly took a wet towel to wipe it for me, and his colleague on the other side smiled and said, "Hey, Yu Changyou, don't avert your gaze. Answer quickly. Are you still a man!"

I was angry and raised my head to stare at that person, "My brother won't like her!"

The girl was taken aback for a moment, and then laughed, "Little girl, do you have such a strong love for brother?!" She patted my head as she spoke, like a child who can't eat candy.

My brother's colleagues all laughed and made fun of me, "Yes, yes, little girl, if you bully your brother, he will marry your sister-in-law back home. You can't dominate for a lifetime. We Lihua are not bad! Do you think about it for your brother? Little Chief of Staff?"

My hands and feet were cold and my whole body was shaking amidst the laughter.

Brother held my hand under the table, his hand was also cold, and his fingertips were trembling slightly.

The girl named Lihua rolled her eyes at the coaxing colleague and then at her elder brother, she really smiled sweetly and looked forward to her beautiful eyes.

"Yu Changyou, do you like me?"

Brother's voice was a little hoarse, "Lihua, you are fine, really fine. But I already have a girl I like."

That day, when my brother was holding my hand and walking all the way back, I looked down at the gray spots on my clothes silently, and kept picking them with my hands, but I couldn't get them back to their original clean appearance.

Tears fell suddenly, my brother didn't speak, just hugged me tightly, the world is so big, but we were like being forgotten, standing in the middle of the world, weeping until we didn't know what to do.

I don't remember how long I cried that night before falling asleep.It was already late at night when I woke up, and my brother was standing by the bed and looking at me with bloodshot eyes.

"Brother, I like you."

Brother's eyebrows were a little loose, but I still stubbornly stated, "Brother, I like you."

Brother was silent for a long time before opening his mouth, "Yuanyuan..."

His voice was so soft, as if it didn't exist, I was afraid that he would say you are my sister again, so I went up and kissed his lips.

But my brother froze there, didn't respond for a long time, and then supported me gently and firmly, with a erratic expression that made people feel heartbroken.

"Yuanyuan, you are my younger sister. We can only be brothers and sisters for the rest of our lives."

I wanted to speak but my brother stopped me.

"You always say you like me, and ask me if I like you. I always avoid it, thinking that maybe when you grow up, you will forget these emotions and fall in love with others."

"But after SARS, you were locked up there for isolation. I hated myself like crazy. I was afraid that something happened to you. If something happened to you, I would not be able to survive. I suffered from insomnia every night during those two days, and you When I came out, I asked me if I missed you without changing my face, and I couldn't control myself at that time..."

"Yuanyuan, you asked me if I love you. I love you. I love you more than anyone else in this world. I love you. I love you so much. But I can die for you, but I can't live for you. "

"I thought it would be fine to live together as a brother and sister for the rest of my life. However, I was still too naive. In the end, I still have to let go."

"Yuanyuan, you always said that love doesn't need to care about other people's eyes. But love shouldn't be like this. Love should be blessed, praised, and aboveboard. It shouldn't be sneaky, and it shouldn't be despised by the world. And I, can't Standing by your side as a lover, I can't kiss you in front of others, and I can't even say I love you openly."

"Brother, I don't care."

"But I care, I care..."

"I want you to be happy. When my parents passed away, I knelt in front of their graves and swore that I would take care of you and make you happy for the rest of my life. But, Yuanyuan, I can't afford the happiness you want. I want to have this life I can't."

"Yuanyuan, I pushed you away today, and I can only watch helplessly as you fall in love with someone else one day. When that day comes, my life will be worse than death, but I have nothing to do. I have nothing to do. Yuanyuan, I It's your brother, I'm your brother..."

Brother's voice weakened, his tears fell on my fingers, warm and cold.

I don't remember how that night passed, I just remember myself crying uncontrollably, unconscious like a child, tearing my lungs apart.

Brother has been holding me, crying silently.

The night is ups and downs, and the heart is finally gray.