White Moonlight Nobody Wants

Lin Ran hurried home, until he saw Gu Qingyan's figure, he finally let go of his hanging heart.His heart was beating non-stop, panting heavily, he hugged Gu Qingyan tightly.

But this is not enough, at least Lin Ran thinks so.

Therefore, he blocked Gu Qingyan's mouth that was about to ask a question with his lips.It was an aggressive kiss, whether it was a hard squeezed tongue or an intoxicating lick, it was all tough.

But Lin Ran's heart was cold, because he didn't get any response from Gu Qingyan from the beginning to the end.Even if it was just for a moment, Gu Qingyan did not refuse his kiss, nor did he respond to his kiss.

The light that once shone in his black pearl-like eyes was no longer there.

Lin Ran lost all his strength in an instant, let go of Gu Qingyan, and called out silently, Xiaoyan.

Gu Qingyan looked at him, and for a long time a heart-warming smile curled up on the corner of his mouth.

"Today is our seventh wedding anniversary, let's go for a walk."

Lin Ran quickly nodded in agreement, and Gu Qingyan walked into the bedroom, opened the closet carefully like they did every time they went out, and finally found a simple white T-shirt, and put a beige windbreaker on it.The tight belt around his waist made his waist slender, as if he could hold it with one hand.The light-colored clothes made her look gentle and soft, making those black pearl-like eyes look extraordinarily innocent.

Gu Qingyan casually picked up the perfume in front of the cabinet, sprayed it on his ears and wrists a few times, it was made by Lin Ran himself, he said it was the smell of moonlight.

After straightening her hair in front of the mirror, Gu Qingyan smiled softly, "Does it look good?"

Lin Ran nodded fiercely, gestured with red eyes, you look good, you are more beautiful than flowers.

The two of them came to the suburbs from the urban area, looking at the familiar sea, Lin Ran thought of the first time he met Gu Qingyan.Gu Qingyan obviously thought about it too, took off his shoes and socks, and walked barefoot on the beach, letting the sea water flow over his white ankles.

"At that time, I really didn't want to live anymore."

Gu Qingyan looked at the blue sea and muttered to himself, "My parents died because of me, and my...brother...my brother did that to me again, and he used that method to make me Live with shame all my life. And let everyone look at me with contemptuous eyes, as if I am the heinous sinner. Tell me, how do I live...how do I live?"

Lin Ran squeezed Gu Qingyan's hand, and heard him continue to whisper, "Do you still remember the day when we got the certificate? Although I didn't say anything, I was really happy because I finally had my own home and found my own home." Someone who loves me..."

Gu Qingyan trembled, but did not stop talking, "I remember when we first got married, we had nothing at that time, and we were so poor that we went to the night market to set up a stall to sell roasted cold noodles to make a living. But I am really happy, can you believe it? Every night, when you scald my feet with hot water, that is the happiest moment for me, so happy that I would wake up laughing even from a dream..."

"I really miss that time..."

Gu Qingyan stopped and faced the blue sky, showing a nostalgic smile.

Lin Ran tremblingly wiped away the tears from his eyes, he also thought of many things.

Including the first time between him and Gu Qingyan, the first time he entered that warm and tight acupuncture point, Lin Ran couldn't help but let out just looking at Gu Qingyan's face.In the end, the unpromising hugged the quilt and hid to the side to plant mushrooms, his whole face was very red.

Gu Qingyan hugged him from behind, not at all laughing at his uselessness.Instead, whisper in his ear, "Honey, let's do it again."

Lin Ran remembered how excited he was at the time, turned around and pressed Gu Qingyan under him, the two exchanged a tender and lingering kiss, and then worked hard together, clumsily and greenly completing their first night.

They have so many, so many, so many good memories that they cannot be counted. Later, the figure of Little Moonlight was added to these warm memories.

Lin Ran felt that he was stupid. He didn't know what he was dissatisfied with before. He was obviously the happiest person in the world since then.

Seeing Gu Qingyan turn his head and smile, Lin Ran wanted to hug him but Gu Qingyan gently pushed him away.

"Lin Ran, you said you don't want to be Gu Qing's substitute, so will I be willing to be Gu Yue's substitute?"

He didn't scold him, not even a word of accusation, Gu Qingyan only said this one sentence, but it made Lin Ran feel more guilty and sad than thousands of reprimands.

Gu Qingyan discovered it by accident, and found Lin Ran's box hidden deep in the closet.

It was a small, exquisitely decorated box with a small lock on it.Out of curiosity, Gu Qingyan tried to open it with Lin Ran's birthday, but after failing, he tried his own birthday and Xiao Yueguang's birthday, and finally he opened the delicate little lock.

The password is - Gu Yue's birthday.

Hidden there was the wedding photo of Gu Yue and Lin Ran, Gu Qingyan caressed Lin Ran's smiling face in the photo carefully.Because of poverty, the two of them had nothing when they got married, no wedding, no beautiful wedding photos, only a simple and plain wedding ring without diamonds, and they didn’t even have lettering in order to save 200 yuan.

Gu Qingyan has been wearing this wedding ring for seven years, but Lin Ran doesn't wear it often, because he often needs to buy and deliver goods, he is afraid of losing it and always puts it in the jewelry box.Only on the wedding anniversary will it be taken out with Gu Qingyan.

In addition to wedding photos, there are many musical and movie ticket stubs hidden in the small box.Staying at the very inside is a delicate men's wedding ring.

Gu Qingyan looked at it for a long time, and when he let go, his face was covered with tears.

Lin Ran shook his head vigorously, as if to deny all of this, he firmly grabbed Gu Qingyan's arm.He had never been so panicked before, not even the time when he gave birth to Gu Zhen and was about to die.He was afraid that Gu Qingyan would leave him, afraid that if he relaxed a little at this moment, he would be completely lost.

He doesn't want to, he doesn't want to lose Gu Qingyan, and he can't lose Gu Qingyan. Lin Ran is cowardly by nature, and has always been passive, no matter whether he married Gu Yue or got together with Gu Qingyan.This is the first time he has such a strong desire, longing to catch Gu Qingyan, longing to have his love again.

Lin Ran can't lose Gu Qingyan, because Gu Qingyan is the most important and cherished existence in this world to him, he can't lose him, and don't let him go, he doesn't want to let go even for a moment.

Ignoring the pain in his arm, Gu Qingyan gently pulled Lin Ran's hand away from his arm, and then took out a small box from his backpack.

"I originally wanted to wait a few days before showing it to you, but now it seems that there is no need for that..."

After being pushed away, Lin Ran took the box blankly and opened it tremblingly.

In that white box, there was a transparent glass bottle with thousands of pink roses folded in it, and a medical case was pressed underneath, which was an appointment consultation form from a national hospital in city S, which said Lin Ran's name.

Lin Ran was not born dumb, but became dumb because he was frightened into aphasia by his stepfather's half-brother when he was a child and didn't receive good treatment.Gu Qingyan has been looking for experts in this field since he knew about it, and finally contacted the most famous medical professor in S City not long ago.

In addition to these, there are three insurances and a real estate in it. Except for Xiaoyueguang's insurance, the beneficiary on the real estate certificate and insurance policy is Lin Ran.

This silent care is like Gu Qingyan's unspoken love, and it was finally known to Lin Ran in this way.

"I worked very hard, really hard. Lin Ran, I thought I would be your salvation, but I failed..." Gu Qingyan was still smiling, the sadness in his eyes stung Lin Ran's eyes, "I... I don't know what to do anymore, maybe letting go is a kind of fulfillment, it's the same for you, and it's the same for me..."

"Let's get a divorce."

When he said these words, Gu Qingyan felt relieved.He handed over a prepared divorce agreement to Lin Ran, Lin Ran shook his head, took a few steps back, but heard Gu Qingyan repeat in an undeniable tone, "Lin Ran, let's get a divorce. "

She stuffed the divorce agreement into Lin Ran's hand and watched his eyes turn red from crying.On the contrary, Gu Qingyan was relieved, "Don't feel that you owe me, you don't owe me..."

He smiled and met Lin Ran's teary eyes, "We have been together for seven years, I am very happy... I hope you are the same..."

Lin Ran trembled, looking at the signed names on the divorce agreement in disbelief.Instead, Gu Qingyan hugged him like an old friend, and whispered softly, "Goodbye."

That hug was too short, so short that before Lin Ran had time to react, Gu Qingyan had already moved away from him.

Here is their beginning, and here is their end.Step by step, Gu Qingyan left his former world slowly but firmly.

Gu Qingyan's back was always straight, and no one knew that the moment he turned around, his tears fell and disappeared in the salty sea water.