White Moonlight Nobody Wants

Lin Ran often thinks about the many things that Gu Qingyan gave him.

Tenderness, love, trust, respect...

It's ridiculous, until he saw Gu Qingyan's disappointed eyes, until he left without looking back, Lin Ran was sure that he still loved him deeply, and refused to believe that the person in front of him had already fallen in love with someone else.

Gu Qingyan fell in love with someone else, and Lin Ran spent many years digesting this fact before he finally believed it.He really doesn't love him anymore, no matter how hard he tries.

For a long time, Lin Ran was recalling the past with Gu Qingyan, the happiest time in his life, all of which involved Gu Qingyan's participation.

Until the two separated, Lin Ran began to record their details bit by bit, and every time he recalled, he felt more guilty.It has been 14 years since the two met and separated, and they have spent the best years of their lives with each other.

The result is still lost.

One day by chance, Lin Ran saw a picture while posting on Weibo. In the picture, the disheveled villain was aggrieved, why are you not afraid of losing me?

Even though it was just a picture, Lin Ran covered his mouth and cried silently.

Yes, why am I not afraid of losing you?

The former Lin Ran hid behind you, enjoying everything you gave him, dull and unsatisfied.

Yes, the human heart cannot be filled.So I hurt you again and again.

It's really too late when you wake up.

This kind of guilt made Lin Ran see Gu Qingyan's dull eyes day after day even in his dreams, see through the disappointment in his eyes, he woke up again and again in nightmares, and finally couldn't fall asleep.

As time went by, Gu Qingyan's atmosphere at home became weaker and weaker.Sometimes when Lin Ran sees Xiao Yueguang and Gu Zhen playing around, he always thinks of Gu Qingyan sitting on the piano bench and pressing the keys gracefully.

He is a born nobleman, even in the most embarrassing moment, he is elegant and calm. The sun shining on his black hair is gentle and beautiful.Lin Ran always watched in a daze, until he stretched out his hand, only to find that there was no one on the piano bench, and that person had long since disappeared.

The light in Lin Ran's eyes gradually dimmed, and he withdrew all his fantasies.Compared with when he was alone before, his life is much, much better now.

Both Gu Zhen and Xiao Yueguang were there, except him.

It was obviously something to be happy about, but the corners of Lin Ran's mouth couldn't make a smile. His heart that should have been satisfied was almost empty.

After that man died, Lin Ran thought that his chance had come, that he could get another chance with Gu Qingyan.But the person he loves is still as stubborn as ever, he would rather keep a memory than continue their future with him.

Lin Ran was surprised, painful and helpless, but in the end, all these turned into sores that he couldn't tell, and he was tormented and tugged on his heart every day.

So when he learned that Gu Qingyan was pregnant, Lin Ran was both surprised and annoyed. He worried that it would be dangerous for him to give birth without the stability of pheromone a, and he was also afraid that those internet rumors would slander him again, and even more so. Afraid, afraid that Gu Qingyan would ignore him, afraid that he would have no future with him.

Lin Ran thought so much on his own, over and over again, but forgot that that child might be his lover's last hope.

So he once again faced Gu Qingyan's disappointed eyes, he was caught off guard by his lover's lacklustre eyes.

Even without Lu Yunshen's stop, Lin Ran would run away in a panic, because he didn't have the courage to face Gu Qingyan's disappointed eyes again, and he didn't have the confidence to bear Gu Qingyan's blame.

So during the few days when he was forcibly detained in the police station, Lin Ran hardly thought about anything, he was either in a daze or sleeping.Dreams are always colorful, there is everything in the dream, one moment is Gu Qingyan's smiling face, another moment is those disappointed eyes, again and again, even in the dream, it still pulls Lin Ran's heart.

— "Will you be with me?"

- "I'm married, we're married!"

——"Missing the other people, juanjuan caring. From now on, our child will be called juanjuan, and your surname will be called Linjuan."

——"Okay, I promise you."

——"Let's get a divorce."

Lin Ran suddenly woke up from the dream, and forcibly suppressed the fear in his heart.It wasn't until he faced Xiao Yueguang's disappointed eyes that he finally realized that it was too late to do anything now.

Gu Zhen was watching this scene indifferently beside Xiao Yueguang, Lin Ran touched Gu Zhen's eyes and opened his mouth to say something, but finally shook his head.Over the years, the relationship between Gu Zhen and Xiao Yueguang has become increasingly close, but the relationship with Gu Qingyan has not always been good.

Lin Ran didn't want him to hate him, after all, it was Gu Qingyan who took care of Gu Zhen during their most difficult time, feeding him milk and changing diapers, and even giving up his small salary to buy the most expensive milk powder for Gu Zhen.

But he didn't know what to say about Gu Zhen. Without his participation in Gu Zhen's childhood, he resembled Gu Yue's extreme temperament.Lin Ran has never been able to make up for it, even if he wronged Xiao Yueguang because of it.

It's not that he doesn't love Little Moonlight, the palms and backs of his hands are full of flesh, he loves every one of them.But he gave Gu Zhen the paternal love he had lost for many years, and he felt that a and omega were different in his heart.

What is the difference?

Lin Ran trembled his lips, and finally nodded heavily and slowly.Then he saw that the moonlight that belonged to him showed a relieved smile, and left the moon room that was once full of laughter and laughter between the two without looking back.

Over the years, the faces of Gu Yue and Gu Qingyan kept intertwining in his dreams, but after all, he couldn't tell the difference between a and omega.

"Why should I hate you?"

In the dream, he and Gu Qingyan hugged each other lingeringly, and when he looked at him, his eyes were still full of love.

Lin Ran stared blankly, only had time to raise his hand to gesture to him, "Don't you hate me?"

Gu Qingyan stood there with a faint smile, as if he had traveled through the corridors of the years, and returned to the days when they worked hard to make money together and struggled at the bottom.

So what if they have been together for 14 years?

"I like you……"

Maybe he was too stupid back then, always thought that it was right to combine ao, even if he was with Gu Qingyan, even holding Gu Qingyan's warm and soft body, he always felt that omega and omega were wrong.

He whispered in his ear, "Well, I love you too."

Lin Ran pursed his lips at Gu Qingyan's words, but couldn't control the tears in his eyes.

"You let go."

After Little Moon was born, Lin Ran saw Gu Qingyan. He was wearing a beige windbreaker with a belt tied around his waist, which was as soft as when he left a few years ago.

When Lin Ran heard that he finally spoke, the four simple words, he stumbled and staggered, it was extremely dry and unpleasant.

Lin Ran suddenly felt like a dream, and hastily stretched out his hand to Gu Qingyan. Gu Qingyan looked at him with neither love nor hatred in his eyes.There was no emotion in those black pearl-like eyes.

Lin Ran trembled his lips without saying a word, he knew that Gu Qingyan came today not just to chat with him.

The furnishings in the house are still the same, it seems that an old friend has come, but he can change his mind later.

"Actually, few people in my life look down on me. I've known since I was a child..." Gu Qingyan sat down like an old friend chatting, "Gu Yue looks down on me, and the Huo family also looks down on me, even those who clearly like me My a's are all...but you...we are all omega, I know you are different from those people..."

"Do you remember? At that time, our life was really hard. We got up early every day to make pressed flowers, and went out to sell baked cold noodles at night. The world is cold and warm, and there are too many tastes in it. Me, I want to repay it with a song..."

In the end, the person on the opposite side said this very lightly to him, Lin Ran saw the relief in Gu Qingyan's eyes through his hazy tears, and the stone in his heart finally fell down and shattered.

That night, Lin Ran had a dream, a dream that he had thought about and looked forward to for a long time.

But the person in his arms hugged him tightly, and slowly intertwined his fingers.

Outside the dream, the corners of Lin Ran's mouth slightly curled up, and then sweetly dreamed, "I... like you... I love you..."

There is nothing like a thousand sails.