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Lin Yao did know that his elder brother Lin Ran was not the child of his parents.

Known from a long time ago, when he was eight years old.

Ever since he was a child, Lin Yao has never had the slightest thought of revealing this secret to others.

Even on his birthday, he said such exaggerated words to Lin Ran: If only there were no you in this world.

Even at that time, he never thought of saying that sentence.

No one knows that Lin Yao has kept this secret for almost 30 years.

"You know? Why didn't you mention it?" The demon who was born the same as Lin Ran when he was young asked him.

why?

Why never mention it?

For so many years, it was the first time someone asked Lin Yao this question.

It's ridiculous, this is the first thought subconsciously produced by Lin Yao.

Not just ridiculous, but also absurd, the anger and loneliness that have nowhere to vent, filled with strong emotions in the chest, like a flame burning the heart and lungs.

Lin Yao has countless things to say, countless things that he once wanted to say, but for various reasons he stopped.

No one to say, nowhere to say.

Why?Why?He also wondered why.

He looked at his mother, whose eyes were filled with anger and disappointment, and at this dangerous demon who looked like Lin Ran.

This may be the only chance in his life to vent out the backlog of words in his heart.

I wanted to say it countless times, forced myself to remain silent countless times, and would rather use cynicism instead.Anyway, no one can hear it, can it be said?

Lin Yao looked at his mother who had been disappointed in him for a long time, smiled sadly, tried his best to remain indifferent, but couldn't restrain his excitement, and asked tremblingly: "What should I say? How should I ask? He said to his mother: I am the only son of yours, so why is Lin Ran the only one in your eyes and not me? Or ask Dad why he took over Lin Ran’s family property and did evil things to his aunt, so he can make up for Lin Ran so well My own guilt? Can I ask my parents this question? Don't I want to ask you this question?"

But Lin Yao never asked.

"Why didn't I ask? I also want to know why I didn't ask." Angry, sad, and ridiculous, he asked not others, but himself. Lin Yao looked at the strangeness in his mother's eyes, and his Adam's apple rolled.

"Ask, you can ask your father to ask me, put a knife in our hearts! Is there anything you can't do? You are hopeless!" Zhuang Yue looked at this son with more than just Puzzled, is complete disappointment and cold disgust.

Lin Yao is expressionless!Looking at her with an expression, the buzzing mind, and the turbulent emotions made him completely ignore that he was occupied by the demon, why his mother could see him at this moment and hear what he said.

Together, they ignored the dangerous demons on the side.

Just like any son who is a jerk in the eyes of any mother, he knows no mistakes, and he smiles chillingly, as if he finds it ridiculous, confident and unrepentant.

"It's hopeless, no one is more sober than me! It's you who are hopeless! Why don't I ask? Don't you think you are the only ones who can hurt me, but I don't know what words can hurt you more?"

"Don't you think I'm really that stupid, I'm just like a teenager in my 30s, I don't know that coming back to make noise every day is useless except to make people upset and annoying?"

"Don't you think I really don't know how to make you suffer more? I know, just like knowing that my parents never loved me and didn't expect me."

"I know all the ways of revenge. I know that when you hurt me, any method can make you feel miserable. You are not the only ones who can hurt people. I will too!"

"You make me suffer, and I want you to suffer too. Let you know that you make me suffer!"

He murmured, with expressionless tears streaming down his face, and said softly with the same indifference as Zhuang Yue: "But no, it can't be more painful than this level of revenge. You ask me why I don't ask Dad, Because I know better than anyone what will happen to things and what will happen to Mom and Dad once I speak up."

Lin Yao kept restraining himself, but his eyes were still red and wet. He tilted his head and looked at his mother sadly: "It's like I can say a hundred words to Lin Ran that I hate him. It would be fine if there was no him. But I will never I will not let him know: he is not my brother, his parents died long ago, and he is an orphan. I will never tell him: You took away the love that belonged to my parents. I am Except for you, the person who maintains this secret more than anyone else. Because I know that once this secret is revealed, I will never have an older brother. Mom and Dad will really lose Lin Ran. Everyone will suffer, and our family will Destruction, greater than now, greater than ever."

Zhuang Yue looked at this son in astonishment and complexity. This son who has been extremely perverse and incomprehensible since he was a child, seemed to have just met him for the first time.

Her lips were parted, stiff and helpless, for a long time: "I don't know, I don't know you think so, you never said it. You should have told us earlier."

When she saw the tears that Lin Yao was trying to suppress, she felt distressed almost immediately, but in the next moment she immediately forced herself to keep a straight face, only the tears overflowed from her dry eyes, she covered her face, her voice was as cold as possible, almost distorted:! : "But how do you want your mother to love you? You made your brother like this, do you think your father really can't find out? He concealed the facts and protected you. He is sorry for the lifeless Yueyue and Xiaoran. Do you think he Do you feel good? Do you think we feel good? How do you want me to love you? Do you know what he suffers every time he faces you? Do you know that every time I want to love you, my heart is sawing like a knife? "

Lin Yao choked up, as if he was back in his teens, sobbing like a teenager: "It's my parents' fault, you made me hate my brother. You can't just because I love you and don't want to hurt you, I can’t even do basic venting and shouting pain. I hate my brother, but you made me hate my brother! Only my brother is the person I can safely hate, and the only person I hate will not give up on me .”

He covered his eyes and cried like a child: "I just hate him like my brother hates my brother, no, I don't really want him to disappear."

He only learned how to struggle like a trapped animal. No one taught him how to act like a baby without being annoying, no one taught him how to ask for help.

She just stood there, unable to move.

Looking at the 39-year-old Lin Yao who was still breaking down like a teenager, she cried and asked her: "Why can't Dad love me a little bit? Just love me a little like a brother, and things won't turn out like this."

Zhuang Yue's face was in extreme pain: "I'm sorry. I'm sorry, mom is sorry for you. But don't blame your father, he, he has nothing to do..."

"Until now, my mother has defended him. Yes, my mother only wants a husband. My sisters and I don't want my mother. I also want to understand him. From the age of 38, I tried very hard to understand him, but I couldn't understand. Mom Tell me, what is it about a man that keeps him from loving his children?"

Maybe my mother loves me a little bit, it turns out.

"You don't know what happened at all. You don't know anything." Zhuang Yue cried so sadly that she was almost out of breath and could hardly speak.

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Lin Yao squatted down in front of her slowly, stretched out his hand stiffly, and wiped her tears.

"I'm 39 years old. Is there anything you can't tell me? You let me understand Dad, but I don't know anything. How do you want me to understand him?"

Who can understand Lin Yao?

Zhuang Yue just cried and shook her head, as if she was holding on to a secret, a secret that would destroy everything if it was spoken out.

Until she dies, until everyone who knows her dies.

!

Until she fell asleep, the disheartened Lin Yao walked out of the room slowly in a daze.

Su Lingran who was watching everything was completely ignored by him.

The joys and sorrows of being alive are too heavy, and the supernatural fear can't shake a trace of fear.

Lin Yao leaned against the door of his mother's room, tilted his head slightly, and there was a tear in the corner of his dry eye, which was hollow and fragile.

This was said to Su Lingran, but in the dark corridor, a shadow came out.

Lin Yao and Su Lingran looked at the visitor together.

Standing there in pajamas, Lin Yu looked at his younger brother with gentle eyes in a daze, and said softly: "I know what you want to know, come with me."

Lin Yao stood up straight suddenly, and looked at Su Lingran.

Lin Yao immediately followed the usually too docile and silent elder sister to her room.

Lin Yu's marriage is almost a replica of his mother Zhuang Yue's first half life.

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She has always been submissive, married at the age of [-] or [-] under the arrangement of the family, and maintained a decent marriage with her husband who has no feelings. lover.

Compared with the second sister Lin Miao, who hated the Lin family wholeheartedly and summoned her as an excuse not to go home whenever she had the opportunity, Lin Lai spent most of her time at the Lin family, even though the depressing Lin family in the eyes of others had nothing to be nostalgic about. .

Perhaps because of such a gentle and calm personality, as well as being engaged in charity, she is calm and tolerant of everything, neither fighting nor grabbing, and silent.

"Sit down." Lin Yan put away the sketches on the table.

Even if she had a son, and the son had a grandson, Lin Yu seemed to be alone. She was undoubtedly a victim of the Lin family just like Lin Yao.

"My sister hasn't been home for a long time."

Lin Yu said gently, "The Lin family is my home."

"Sister, you know exactly what I'm talking about." Lin Yao had persuaded her before pretending to be Lin Ran, "You can choose to divorce and live a more normal life. You have grown up, Dad You can't limit what kind of life you live. Doesn't he know that you are unhappy? He just doesn't care."

Lin Yu looked into Lin Yao's eyes, smiled, and said lightly: "It's not like this. There is nothing wrong with this kind of life, and, you misunderstood, it wasn't my father who wanted me to get married. He was always afraid of contacting Us. It's my mother. At the beginning, it was my mother who chose the partner for marriage, and it was I who nodded and agreed."

Lin Yao couldn't understand it at all, and even the side was equally puzzled!It was as if all the demons had become an offensive and defensive alliance, and the two glanced at each other.

"Sister, don't just say anything to excuse him..."

Lin Yu looked at him calmly until Lin Yao stopped talking and said slowly: "Didn't you already hear about my mother's first marriage? My mother and father were also married in love back then. When I was young, I also saw But people’s hearts will change, and I have personally experienced what they will look like when they don’t love. Grandpa passed away, and that man only had eyes for the estate of the dealer, and he completely ignored my mother and me. Once I was ignorant I cried and went to find him, but he didn’t care that I was hungry and lost, and impatiently asked my mother for the password of the safe, fearing that there would be evidence of his derailment and transfer of property.”

This is the first time Lin Yao knows about her sister.

Lin Yao couldn't say a word, at this time, although Lin Yu was gentle, he was firmer than anyone else.

"elder sister……"

"Okay, don't talk about me." Lin Yan looked at him, the little smile on his expression disappeared, "I know where your heart troubles are these years, and I want to tell you these things many times, every time I swallowed it. I thought about it, just let it go. I just heard the conversation between you and your mother, and I also thought, would it be better if I said things earlier. The answer is that I don’t know. But since you If you see me, let me take this opportunity to speak. Otherwise, I won't have the courage to speak again at dawn."

Lin Lai's story, like hers, is told smoothly and slowly, without the slightest turmoil, sorrow or joy.

When Lin Yu was ten years old, he lived in the Lin family with his mother Zhuang Yue. At a young age, he had already experienced the betrayal and abandonment of his closest relatives in the world, and became precocious and sensible.

At that time, her stepfather Lin Fucheng was like cold steel in her eyes, which made her empathize with Lin Fucheng from her fear of her biological father.

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After Aunt Yueyue disappeared suddenly, she also became much more silent.

Even though everyone in the Lin family regards her as the eldest lady, she also feels that she is too cautious.

Perhaps because of this, Zhuang Yue and Lin Fucheng had Lin Miao.

!Lin Yi is 12 years older than her younger sister Lin Miao. She takes care of Lin Miao just like Yueyue treats her, because this younger sister Lin Yi is much happier, and the Lin family also gives her a sense of belonging.

When Lin Miao was seven years old, her mother and father suddenly went out in a hurry one day.

After returning home after a long time, they brought back a little baby. The mother was tired but told them gently that this was the younger brother.

At that time, Lin Yi was married and had a son of his own.

"At that time, I didn't like Xiaoran. I didn't even care about my own son. I didn't care if he didn't get close to me. But Miaomiao is the little sister I watched growing up. Could it be that just because she is a girl, parents Are you not satisfied that he must give birth to a little boy?"

Because she was worried about losing her younger brother Lin Miao, Lin Lai remained silent but acted resolutely. She began to return to the Lin family often.

She wants to protect her younger sister, just like Aunt Yueyue protected her young self back then.

Then, Lin Yan discovered that his parents seemed to be arguing frequently.

Lin Lai recalled: "My mother was holding me and crying, and there was hatred for my father in her eyes. I don't know what my father did to make her hate him so much. My mother just cried. I told her that I would protect her and my father. Brother and sister. If she divorces, I will support her, just like Aunt Yueyue back then."

When Yueyue was mentioned, Zhuang Yue cried harder.

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Because of the tense atmosphere in the Lin family, Lin Lai is extremely sensitive to the slightest disturbances in the family.

That night, I was awakened by a thunderstorm in the middle of the night.

I could vaguely hear someone arguing.

Lin Lai followed the sound carefully, with fear in his eyes because the quarrel between his biological father and mother in the past reappeared between his stepfather and mother.

She stood outside the study where they were arguing, holding her breath, even thinking that one of them would kill the other.

The scene in the study room was different from what Lin Yan had imagined.

It turned out that Zhuang Yue was secretly stealing Lin Fucheng's safe.

Lin Fucheng came back by accident, because of the quarrel with Zhuang Yue during the day, he originally planned not to go home tonight, but he came back later.

Zhuang Yue's face was pale, bright eyes were crazy, holding a diary taken out of the safe, almost looking at Lin Fucheng with hatred.

Lin Fucheng was drenched by the rain, with a stern face but a low voice, not sullen and angry as expected: "Give me the diary."

Zhuang Yue gritted her teeth: "Is this Yueyue's diary? You still want to lie to me, what happened to Yueyue! How did she die? You have always known where she is all these years. Why didn't you pick her up? Why didn't she want to see you? ?you tell me."

Lin Fucheng was just silent, his lips were tightly pressed.

Only when the lightning passed by outside the window, Lin Yu outside the door could capture the pain between the stepfather's frowning brows.

"Lin Fucheng! Do you think I don't know? What happened to the transfer of a large amount of inheritance in your safe? Why did someone go to the company to make trouble? You see that the money is open, and you Lian Yueyue and their husband and wife left Xiao Ran's inheritance. Are you still human?"

"I heard you, I was right outside the door when you were talking to those who claimed the inheritance. How can you say such shameless words? Do you know what people outside say about you? I never believe that your six relatives are cold-blooded and cruel, but How do you treat Yueyue now? Did you force Yueyue to death for money?"

"no!"

"I want evidence." Zhuang Yue looked at Lin Fucheng coldly, her trembling face quickly collapsed, almost kneeling on the ground begging him, "Brother Fu, let me see. Please let me see Yueyue's Diary, I want to know what happened to her, I want to know why she..."

Lin Yan's eyes turned red outside the door, and she realized that Aunt Yueyue hadn't disappeared, but had passed away.Lin Ran is not the heir that mother and father planned to give birth to, but the child of Aunt Yueyue.

Zhuang Yue kept begging Lin Fucheng to let her read the diary, torturing him in various ways.

Lin Fucheng refused at the beginning, no matter what Zhuang Yue said, he would not let go, and kept asking for the diary.

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During the dispute, the diary fell out, and Zhuang Yue almost threw herself on it regardless of her image, and then fell silent for a while.

Lin Yao understood after hearing this: "Mom saw the contents of the diary."

Lin Yu was silent and nodded slowly.

As for the contents of the diary, Lin Yu, who was 19 years old at the time, only vaguely touched the truth.

It took her a long time to slowly understand.

Since then, the family has been very peaceful, and everything seems to be over, and it seems that it will never be better.

Lin Fucheng never understood why the Yueyue in Zhuang Yue's eyes was always different from the Yueyue in his own eyes.

But Yueyue in Zhuang Yue's eyes is the same as Yueyue when she was a child.

Yueyue Duoge when I was a child!The elder brother is Rumu, he likes to chase after him, likes to be protected by the elder brother, and wants to protect the elder brother.

Until they lost their mother, and their father became more and more violent.

Lin Fucheng was glad that he was the only one who endured his father's anger. He was still very kind to Yueyue. Lin Fucheng didn't like to go home at first. He wanted to grow up, become stronger, and wanted to find his mother.

Many years later, although he did not find his mother, Lin Fucheng has grown up and become stronger, so strong that even his father, who used to be violent and violent in the past, looks like a thin old man in front of him.

Because my father is dying.

He thought that the death of his father meant that all new chapters came, and he thought that life was under control and there would be no more twists and turns and pain.

However, he was wrong.

On the day his father died, Lin Fucheng's nightmare had just begun.

He knew all the puzzles why Yueyue in his eyes was different from Yueyue in his wife's eyes.

When Yueyue had a nightmare, her brother was not around, and no one protected her.

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She didn't know it was a nightmare at first until she grew up.

Yueyue resented everything, and of course she also resented her brother for not being able to protect her, until she saw Lin Fucheng who was bruised and battered.

Only then did she realize that her brother was just a child like her.

Suddenly, Yueyue didn't want to be a younger sister anymore, she wanted to be an older sister.

She stuffed Lin Fucheng with pocket money, fearing that he would be hungry, and gave him lunch, and made supper for Lin Fucheng who was imprisoned by her father.

However, she will always be vicious, never express closeness, just like never caring.

The two brothers and sisters drifted away.

Many years later, Zhuang Yue, who was flipping through Yueyue's diary, saw the familiar handwriting, and thought about how the little flower fairy she was holding in her hand wrote those words.

"If my brother finds out, my brother will die. Let my brother hate me."

In order to protect my brother, no one can tell this secret.

Yueyue can't say either.

In Yueyue's diary, the most powerful person in the world is Zhuang Yue.

Because Zhuang Yue was the only one who protected her, even though Zhuang Yue didn't know anything.

But as long as Zhuang Yue exists, needs her, and likes her, it is enough to save Yueyue.

Everyone thought that Lin Fucheng was cold-blooded and vicious because he didn't recognize his relatives. It was even rumored that he killed his father and pulled out his father's trachea in order to grab the family property.

Qingming worship or something, I have never heard of Lin Fucheng worshiping his father's grave.

However, the father's trachea was pulled out!People are not Lin Fucheng, but Yueyue.

Lin Fucheng didn't know what happened to Yueyue after reading Yueyue's diary, but on the night his father died, he ran into the scene where Yueyue pulled out her father's trachea.

Lin Fucheng was just shocked at first, thinking that no matter how much his father had abused them, Yueyue would not be able to do such a thing, until he saw the girl's eyes filled with tears.

There are some things that you don't need to ask, sometimes, you can understand with just one look.

"Do not ask."

Lin Fucheng never wanted to recall the look in his sister's eyes at that moment.

He knew that Yueyue didn't want to be seen by him either.

Yueyue disappeared the next day.

Powerless.

Yueyue didn't even need Lin Fucheng to avenge her.

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That man is dead, Lin Fucheng can't do anything, just like he can't go back to the past to protect Yueyue at that time.

The only one who can hate and loathe is Lin Fucheng himself.

The way the daughters looked at him, and the fear of him, were automatically replaced by Yueyue at that time.

The person in the mirror, even the slightest resemblance is the source of his self-loathing.

But no matter how he thought about it, that person's blood remained in his body, and unless he died, he would never be able to get rid of it.

It is because of this that Yueyue is unwilling to see him again, isn't it?

Blood birth, and family, can completely destroy a person's life almost from the beginning.

Both Lin Fucheng and Yueyue were destroyed.

Lin Fucheng didn't want to get married, didn't want to have children, and didn't want to pass on his genes.

Lin Yao is too much like him.

He looked at Lin Yao and thought of his powerless and stupid self in the past, he couldn't love him.

Nor could he love any of the children.

Both he and Yueyue relied on Zhuang Yue to live and be redeemed. At first it was Zhuang Yue, but even Zhuang Yue was destroyed together.

Only Lin Ran was left.

Lin Ran was not like Yueyue, nor his uncle, nor even the vaguely remembered mother.

He's like the medicine left behind by the month.

Lin Fucheng didn't know how to be a father, not only for Lin Yao and the others, but also for Lin Ran.

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Lin Yu looked at Lin Yao, who was so silent that she was trying to breathe, she was very calm, as if she was used to it.

"I always remember that A Yao cried and said angrily:!