even standing behind you

Not a single tear came.

Ten years can pass quickly, and things of hundreds of years can be forgotten quickly, but I still have the instinct of love.The instinct of love is the premise of getting hurt.

It won't hurt, it's just because he didn't love deeply enough.

Because I didn't love deeply enough, I was able to leave me so easily.For what, I have become an existence that can be left behind?

For so many years, I have been trying to remember those pasts, but I couldn't remember until he untied the seal.To meet, to know each other, or to promise each other?Faded out of memory but always there, suppressed, polished, and underestimated, and finally sealed up stubbornly in my heart like a blood blade.

Something broke out in my heart, and the days that have been flat for many years have been heavily colored by something called the past, and it is almost impossible to recognize the previous appearance.

I was laughing all the time, but I didn't understand what I was laughing at. In fact, I didn't know myself.

Before he came, I thought I knew.

Now that he appeared, I blurred the self-knowledge I already had in my heart.

If not forced, what is?

If it was not an abyss of despair but an easy victory, then why?

If everything is not as simple as I thought, then what else is worth waiting for for more than ten years.

Master Aizen?

I am so disappointed in you.

Ironically, I looked at him almost contemptuously, "I hate you. If I can't think of hating you, I will hate you even more."

I suddenly remembered the place where I was imprisoned when I first woke up. It was dark and lifeless, and the sunlight came in through the only gap, and most of the sudden warmth was covered by the cold.

I leaned against the warm side and asked them in a low voice, with a little smile on my lips, "And then?"

"Then you appeared here. No one can understand what he meant. I can't figure it out. The people who obviously won have to withdraw, but we, who were really defeated, somehow brought you back."

No one can understand a cat's mind, just like I will never understand you.

"Dark Blue, what should I do with you?"

Damn, I should have known that it wasn't sweet talk.

Not far away was burning, and Jinglingting presented a beauty that was about to be destroyed.I stared blankly at the fire not far away, unable to utter a word.

I have stepped on every inch of land and every brick and tile there.With different thoughts, joyful, persistent, sad, and sad, I walked here on the same path, trying to have a complete soul.

Now, he watched it be destroyed. Sometimes, survival or destruction is really only a matter of his thoughts.I averted my eyes, no longer look at it, and no longer feel the spiritual pressure exploding in all directions.

Some people, the more docile they are, the more they will bully you.I should have understood this cognition in many years.

However, under another destruction, I laughed, "Master Aizen, will you win this time? You once said you would destroy this place, so this time you must do what you say."

He was surprised, and seemed to be dissatisfied with my words, raising his eyebrows, "Remember? So cruel?"

I didn't answer, just laughed.

The red clouds in the sky are getting heavier and heavier, the flames are everywhere, and the gods of death are running around.No one would have thought that the instigator of the disaster would actually stay quietly in a small corner and talk to an unimportant woman about whether he wanted to throw it away or not.

It is said that love is always power used to hurt.If you chase too closely, you will forget; if you love too deeply, you will be disappointed.

This is not a love-centered world, even though it is mine.You see, the raging flames are the best proof, the man in front of me wants too much, and I can't give anything.

I raised my hand with an indifferent look, "You know? It's scary for a woman to lose her temper."

He still looked calm, "What do you say?"

"You don't understand, I'm tired, I'm tired after waiting too long."

There seemed to be anxiety in his eyes, but he didn't say anything.On the contrary, Shen Ting, who had been quiet all this time, did not hold his breath, "No, it's not what mother thought!" He spoke quickly and anxiously, even crying.

I squatted down and looked at Shen Ting. This child has really grown up a lot. I said, "Do you remember how I was angry? Shen Ting, what did I look like when I was angry before?"

He looked at me uneasily, and it took a long time before he said, "No, no. Mother has never been really angry. Even if she was mad at the court, she has never been really angry."

"Of course." I pushed him away and walked to the man's side and whispered in his ear, "Are you afraid that the dark blue that will never be angry with you will disappear?"

He grabbed my hand, "Scared."

"Then you still leave her behind and let her wait here alone for so long. She clearly told you that she only wants to be by your side. Why do you want to let her down again and again?" I used her unfamiliar title, and my tone Indifferently as if this person is not me.

"I didn't abandon you, it was Shenlan, and it was Shenlan who you wanted to stay and wait for." He looked straight into my eyes, his eyes were sharp and full of anger.

I don't know why I can easily see the anger in his eyes. This kind of emotion is like an instinct, which can be aroused as soon as it is encountered, and it is just right and precise.When he said that, it almost made me think I really said it.

However, it is impossible.

The world is destroyed, and Shenlan will not say that she wants to leave Ajie.

For this, I am too sure, so there is no room for belief.

Ah Jie?

I am amazed at the words that suddenly popped up in my heart, so kind and natural, the love that melts into the bone marrow.That's the feeling, there's no way to ignore it.

"It's too late." I whispered, "I can't stand by your side now, Aizen-sama."

Finally, Lord Aizen yelled again and again, angering him.Regardless of my resistance and struggle, he directly picked me up and whispered in my ear, "I can't help you, Shenlan, if you continue to be willful, I'll throw you into the big empty pile, I said to do it.”

I glared at him, but I couldn't move, my whole body was restrained by Reiatsu.Cruel man, I scolded in my heart, turned my face away and stopped looking at him.

There was still anger in his tone, he just said: "Shenting, let's go." Then he used Shunpo.

Soon, feeling the incredibleness of Shunpo from another angle, I just felt cold.

It's so cold in autumn, what should we do in winter?I was thinking wildly, and began to worry about my frail body.The whistling wind hurt my face, I frowned, and then my head was pressed into the arms of the man, blocking all the wind.

Soon, the wind stopped.I knew I was probably at the right place so I could push him away and get off him, and at the end I muttered, "I'm not disabled, I can walk by myself."

He just laughed, but took me back in his hand.

Just as I was about to stare at him, I was shaken by a burst of warmth.I was wearing a very warm cloak, and only then did I realize why it was cold all the way.

Yes, it was very cold. There was ice and snow in front of my eyes, and my already cold fingers became colder and colder.

There are only him and me in this icy and snowy place, Shen Ting doesn't seem to follow.He lightly rubbed and warmed my fingers, and said, "Actually, Shenlan looks pretty when he stares at people, but I seem to like the docile Shenlan a little more. It's a pity that you are always cowardly. I must You have to be forced to show a little edge, you always like to stand behind me and refuse to step forward. Whether it is wind and snow or glory, you are unwilling to step forward."

"I like your smile, and I also love the way you cry. But the smile and tears can only belong to me Aizen Soyousuke, and no one else is allowed to get a cent. But Shenlan, you love to laugh too much, happy You can laugh, you can laugh when you are sad, it seems that you can laugh out any emotion. It was the same just now, you laughed even when you were so angry, Deep Blue, tell me, what is so funny about it, what are you angry about, what are you afraid of ?”

He raised my chin, the sharpness in his eyes was stained with desire, evil and terrifying.

My nose was sore, I pulled the corners of my mouth and laughed habitually, but I was tortured by the pain in my bones and murmured, "Um..."

He squeezed my chin hard, and I was so painful that tears rolled in my eyes, but they just couldn't fall.

He said, "Deep Blue, cry out, don't laugh."

I shook my head.

On the other side, he hugged me more and more tightly, as if he wanted to rub me into the bones, and finally he compromised and let go of the hand that was pinching my chin.

I stared at him, only feeling hazy in front of my eyes, unable to see his expression clearly.

"asshole!"

He sighed and kissed my eyelids.The tears that had been swirling in my eyes were kissed away by him, as if I had never cried.His kisses were delicate and delicate, so gentle that there was no way to refuse them.

He said while kissing, he still didn't forget that I would hug me coldly here, "I'm a bastard, don't you get angry?"

"I have to bear it all the time. I can't go to you, don't see you, don't kiss you. I know you're not doing well, but I can't go up and hug you. Shenlan, you are really cruel. It's hard to come today, but you still want to say What is Master Aizen. Master Aizen, Master Aizen, this is not the name you use, do you understand it? My heart hurts when you call it that." He kissed my lips, licked and tasted it, like treating a treasure , "Shenlan, I don't allow you to smile so gently to others, and I don't allow you to smile so cruelly to me, understand? Shenlan, you are only allowed to smile for me, and you are only allowed to cry for me. I always think, What would Deep Blue do without me? But I don’t know, what would I do without you. I’d rather take you away then than be like this now.”

He kept kissing and kissing, talking and saying, "Shenlan, you are so cruel, you are so cruel. You are the one who wants to