even standing behind you

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A black hell butterfly came lightly, it was the fourth team.I stared at the hell butterfly on my fingertips for a long time before I remembered that I was going out today.Routine physical examinations, to put it bluntly, keep me under surveillance forever.Even though I keep telling them I really don't know anything, it seems like they're more skeptical than trusting and enjoy it.

I know that I was very weak before, but I definitely wouldn't reach this level, without half a bit of spiritual power.The only luck is that staying in Seireitei, I won't die because I can't stand the Reiatsu like Kuchiki Byakuya's wife.

However, taking a step back, I am still lucky, at least I am still alive.

Here is some distance from the fourth team, every time I walk slowly by myself and then come back slowly.Dong Shilang always avoids it, but his brows remain unchanged.I once heard him say with a wry smile to himself, why didn't that person take me away?I think, some things can’t be explained by reason, right?Otherwise I might not survive.

The members of the Fourth Division were still as easy to talk to as ever, and the results of the inspection remained unchanged.Every nerve, every thought, every pulse, I really don't want to admit that I feel sad every time this happens.Not because of these external pains, but the feeling of being seen through and dissected is very disappointing.

I even wonder if I can't live if I remember everything.The answer is yes, if I remember everything, then the feeling of a sharp knife piercing my heart will be doubled, and in the end I can't survive until today.

When I left the fourth team, I habitually looked up at the sky above my head.The dazzling blue caused dizziness in the vision.I sigh and turn away.

But as I walked, I gradually realized something was wrong. This is an unfamiliar path, and I am sure I have never been there.I don't believe I'm going to get lost, but there's no way this road will come out by itself.I was taken aback by my own thoughts, "Could it be a ghost hitting the wall? God! Isn't this the world of the god of death? If there are ghosts, then I am also a ghost, right?" I deduced this way, feeling chilly and scared.

I was suddenly attracted by a courtyard with a half-closed door, and I only took a look at it, and my heart was covered with more and more sadness.

The mixed sense of decay and bloom is suffocating.By coincidence, I pushed open the door as if there was something controlling it.A courtyard full of fallen flowers and yellow weeds, blown up by a gust of wind, hurts more than suffocation.

I was in a trance for a moment, and the tears fell.But it's obviously weird, right?I've never been here before, why do you shed tears where there is no emotion?

Flowers were falling all over the ground, and when I looked up, I was shocked to find that my heart was already full of misses.The white petals make people feel very sad, but through here, you can also imitate the tranquility of long ago.

I can almost feel that in the midsummer sunshine, there is a woman surrounded by blooming gardenias, thinking about why he left her behind.

I muttered to myself: "Gardenia? It's a pity that we lost." Some people have missed the flowering period and couldn't go back.

I know gardenia means pure and beautiful, but unfortunately I can't go back.

At this moment, as if extremely natural, I was embraced into an embrace.There is a generous warmth behind me, I trembled my fingertips, and laughed, "Hey, robbery or robbery?" The man behind him also laughed, breathing in my ear, "Jiangery."

The warm and humid feeling made people's hearts itch. I tried my best to restrain this strange thought and said, "Who are you? Many people don't recognize me. Don't be kidding. I was scared to death by you." Then I turned my head and saw an extremely handsome face, with bulging eyes, sharp eyebrows and a faint smile on the lips.

This is an excellent angle and an excellent posture. He slightly lowered his head and touched my lips with a light kiss, and then he whispered on my lips, "Don't you even recognize me in dark blue?"

The suffocating sadness just now hit my heart again, I blinked, "pervert!" Then I ran away from his embrace and shouted, "Come on! Help!" Anyway, the God of Reaper bullied me. At that time, the men of the secret mobile division who were always hiding in a corner and really followed me, at least one or two would appear to rescue me.However, I really have a bad feeling.

I endured the tears that had been swirling in my eyes for some reason and wanted to speak, but before I could speak, a figure crashed into my arms.And I was knocked down to the ground because I was too weak.The person in my arms hugged my waist coquettishly and refused to let go, murmuring, "Mother, mother, Shenting misses you so much."

I adjusted my posture and saw that there was a lot of blood on his face, which was fuzzy and warm.As if sensing what I was thinking, he continued to rub against my arms while wiping his face with his hands, "Mother, don't be afraid, this blood is not from deep court."

This is, the man who has been standing aside and looking at us with a half-smile said, "Shenting, it's getting cold, you have to be sensible."

I glanced sideways at him, but I still couldn't suppress the unceasing sadness in my heart.I had no choice but to look at the child in front of me.

Yes, still a child.A boy of seven or eight years old, with bright eyes and curved lips, obviously looks childish, but the warm blood on his face adds a bit of cruelty.I helped him wipe the blood off his face, and then asked, "Did you kill all my bodyguards?"

He nodded with dissatisfaction, "It would be better if those people were to monitor my mother and kill them. The court wants to protect my mother." Then he bit his finger innocently, "But those people are really useless. The court solved it all at once, and my father also said that it would take a long time to go deep into the court, which is wrong."

It seems to be a familiar action for many years. Hearing him say this, I laughed and straightened his somewhat messy clothes.Dressed in bright blue, it is perverse and eye-catching.At his waist is a red Zanpakuto.Probably due to the liberation just now, I clearly felt that the entire blade was cheering.

My fingertips rested on his blade, and a very clear pulsation came up from my fingers.I opened my mouth, "Child, are you also robbing sex?"

He flattened his mouth and said to the man angrily, "It's all because of Daddy, now Mother doesn't recognize Shen Court!"

I pinched his tender face, "Is he your father?" It's not hard to guess.These two people are similar except for their appearance.

"That's not true." In the immature child's voice, he stood on tiptoe and kissed my cheek, "Shen Ting was born by my mother in October of her pregnancy. The person Shen Ting likes most is the mother, not the father. The courtyard is deep and deep. How much. This poem was said by mother herself, why mother refuses to admit to the court.” As he spoke, his eyes were foggy and bright, as if he was about to shed tears, and But he leaned into my arms with a smile and said, "How can mother not recognize Shen Ting, but Shen Court misses mother day and night. It's all because of my father."

I put my arms around him, regardless of whether my clothes were wet with tears, I smiled at the man, "Hey, you are actually Aizen, right? I didn't come here by myself, did I?"

"Actually..." In just a moment, he came to my side and hugged me from behind in the same posture just now, "Actually, Deep Blue is really smart." His tone was full of familiar smiles.

He said, "Unfortunately, it's just too stubborn."

It's a pity, is it too stubborn?

Finally, I shed tears, and the tears were kissed away by him. I gently stroked the contours of his face with one hand, and smiled lightly as if I had never felt sad, "You know? No matter how intense the love is, as long as one person doesn't insist on it, it will be broken." turned to ashes."

full of youth

I looked at him lightly, feeling an unspeakable pain in my heart.Even if I don't know the past, I at least know that I was left behind when I shouldn't have been left behind.

As if closing your eyes, you could hear the sharpness of the blade and the sound of powerful Reiatsu at that time.I've always felt he was letting go not of defeat but of conceit.It's like a cat that holds a mouse in its palm, grabs it, lets go, grabs it, and lets it go playfully.It is such a feeling that I have to believe in something called despair.

I guess I'm uneasy, and I don't want to know what the past is.

So when that man finished reading the sentence "Broken, it's a mirror, a flower in the water, and the moon", I didn't feel anything.The world was peeled off layer by layer, and the scene full of youth was replaced by blood.The eyes are full of corpses, I never knew that the Soul Society valued me so much and had so many people around me.One or two familiar secret maneuvers that occasionally appeared on weekdays were also lying on the ground at this time.The wound was extremely clean but with a deadly viciousness.

I didn't feel anything looking at these corpses, but Shen Ting in his arms raised his head and looked at me with some anxiety, as if he was worried that I would blame him.

It's a pity that I can't feel any more sadness for these innocent people who died. The burden on my heart has reached the bottom line.One more point and I'd go crazy.

I don't know when, the alarm bell rang clearly in my ears, bang bang bang, one after another, more tense than the pulse.

The man smiled, with a slight smugness in his laughter, "It's faster than expected."

This time I didn't ask why, as if the truth was right in front of my eyes but I deliberately didn't think about it. "Next, what am I going to do?" I muttered to myself, if I'm not on the wrong side, it's fine.

The child in my arms saw that I didn't mean to say more, so he hugged my waist tightly and said, as if afraid that I would leave, "Mother is not afraid, mother just needs to watch."

I lowered my head and smiled at him softly but more sadly, "Just look at it? Shenting, you know, I'm in pain, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts so much that I'm about to die." I pointed to my heart, bleeding