[SD] The daily life of a girl with snake spirit disease

When Huadao found me, I was holding a large pile of desserts, sitting under the window next to his house and my house, eating non-stop.

I ate with big mouthfuls.A large plate of dark chocolate can be swallowed in three mouthfuls. It doesn’t matter if the mousse cake is squashed. The ones stuck to the plastic bag can be licked clean. Only egg tarts need a little bit of taste.No matter what time it is, egg tarts, a sweet food with an incredible smooth taste, can temporarily stop my brain, only filled with the sweetness brought by the taste buds.

What did the school doctor who suspected that I had Asperger's syndrome say it?

"When you feel that you are falling into self-loathing again, when you start to repeatedly think about loneliness and doubt the meaning of life." The medical room emerged in the memory, and the slow male voice echoed in my ears, "First, use up your physical strength , be it running wild, or exercising, get tired until you feel like a dog, then go buy a bunch of sweets, eat them, and you won’t want to die anymore.”

It actually works.

Otherwise, I would have already become one of the average suicides every 15 minutes in Japan.

So what if you have the memory of future generations, can you easily plan a better life?

In fact, the truth is that in the days of time travel, I have to fight against loneliness, isolation, depression, helplessness, and low self-esteem every day.Especially in the days of depression, all happiness is locked in a box with myself, isolated from the whole world, as if we have nothing to do with each other.

At first, Yingmuhuadao was the spiritual sweet food I fed myself. He was more like a symbol, a ladder for my self-help.When did you really fall in love with Sakuragi Flower Road?Being so excited to stop him from showing affection to Haruko is totally not as calm and on the sidelines as I thought.Finding the obvious that he doesn't like me now makes me even more afraid to think "he might never like me".

Aha... Admit it, use arrogance to mask an inferior self.

Love is the supreme emotion between human beings. It is not so easy to turn one person into two people. I am so complacent, how can I forget that this is a road that requires hard work to complete?I had already thought that I would gamble my whole life on this matter.

So, what is the most important thing when you have depression and low self-esteem?

Sakurako Kitajima tells you that she eats sweets.

Then I ask again, what is the most important thing for a woman to chase a man?

Kitajima Sakurako tells you that she has a thick skin.

So finally, when I saw Huadao again, what I thought of was no longer the shame of being rejected.

But, what should I look like in Huadao's eyes with such a wolf-hunting and blurred vision?Damascus sat on the ground in a golden knife, black and white suspicious spots were stained on the skirt, the short skirt might be rolled up to reveal the underwear, surrounded by all kinds of snack packaging bags and garbage... Later, when I think about it, I think In Huadao's eyes, I should really be crazy.

"Sakura..."

At that time, Huadao just called me so hesitantly, then held back and didn't know what to say.

I held the egg tart and looked at him.His red hair reflected the afterglow of the setting sun and cast a shadow on me.I sat next to the ruined Bei Dao house, and he stood beside the dilapidated Sakura wood house.I think, no matter how free you are in love these days, when you get married, you still have to pay attention to social status, right? I have bet on Kitajima Sakurako, who I have pursued all my life. Although I am still in the shadows, at least we have the same family background, yes no?

"Have you eaten yet?" I asked him.Whenever, the thinking before time travel still affects me, and I still care about other people's food problems.

He shook his head.

In fact, if you look closely, the flower arrangement is quite tragic, there are bruises on the cheeks from the beating, and the nose of the plane is also out of shape.His expression is also very depressed, he doesn't have the calmness of criticizing me in the afternoon, and he doesn't have the usual funny comparison, but he is a bit like me now——

They're all like lovelorn teenagers.

I hand him the tuna nigiri sack sympathetically.And patted the side, beckoning him to sit down and eat together.

The evening breeze was blowing, and the two of us sat on the steps to eat together, which seemed to have some warm meaning.In fact, this is what I have always longed for not to be alone.

"Hey, Huadao, I have to apologize to you."

After eating all the egg tarts, I patted the residue on my hands and said apologetic words, but I didn't even have the courage to look at the other person's face.

"Although what I said to you is from my heart, what I have to apologize for is that you are very right about one thing."

I looked ahead, holding the bag of snacks that I couldn't possibly finish, and then encouraged myself to resist my inferiority and shame, to speak, and to pass on what I wanted to say to him.

"You said that your feelings for Haruko have nothing to do with me, and I have no right or qualification to comment on your behavior."

"I'm sorry, I was too self-righteous."

"I thought I didn't have to say it. It's ridiculous, isn't it? I know that language is the only way to convey ideas. If I don't say it, who knows what the freak Sakurako Kitajima is thinking."

I couldn't help laughing at myself slightly.Then he turned his head hard and looked at the face of the boy beside him.

He is so tall, [-] centimeters taller than me, so I always have to look up at him, like looking up to hope, and also like looking up to the future.

"Sakuragi Hanadao, I am so happy to meet you after so many years that I forgot that I never told you that Kitajima Sakura likes Sakuragi Hanadao."

His eyes widened in surprise.

I laughed again.See, he really doesn't know, dull fellow.

"Sakura Kitajima likes Sakuragi Flower Road." I smiled and repeated softly, "I liked it very early, and I liked it for a long, long time. It's an early and long time that you can't think of. Maybe you are being passionate, but I always thought you would like it too. Me. Then, please forgive my self-righteous speech in the afternoon, it was all because of jealousy. Anyway, you are right, liking someone means making the other person happy and making you happy, liking means liking.”

"So, the above is Kitajima Sakurako's confession, and her liking doesn't require Yingmu Huadao's answer."

The author has something to say: Eating sugar has a stabilizing effect on the brain, and polysaccharides can increase the amount of tryptophan in the brain, so it has a stabilizing effect.If you feel tense and want to relax, eat more sugar.

——Baidu Encyclopedia found by BY never insomnia