Dumb

Family members can feast their eyes just by looking at the table full of big fish and meat, but some people always like to destroy this temporary harmony.

"I heard that Shen'er is going to take the college entrance examination?" The person who spoke was my aunt.

"That's not true." When my mother said this, she glanced at me intentionally or unintentionally, and I lowered my head with some guilt, "I hope that Shen'er can be admitted to a key university, so that both her father and I can relax."

The conversation between the parents is nothing more than a few points of unnutritious content, with their children as the center and the child's academic performance as the radius, and then chatting about a lot of things.I picked up a few mouthfuls of rice at random, and the phone's message prompt sounded:

Come out and set off fireworks, I'm downstairs at your house.

Luhan.

2007:2

I hurriedly put down the bowls and chopsticks in my hand and ran to the window, Luhan leaned against his little black motorcycle and waved to me.I was afraid that my family would see it, so I immediately closed the curtains, gave my mother a random reason, and ran out.

As soon as I approached Luhan, he threw the helmet in his hand to me.

"Get in the car." He pointed to the back seat with his finger.After I put on the helmet that was several sizes larger, I supported his shoulders and rode up.

"Hold my waist, I'll ride fast later."

I carefully wrapped my arms around his waist, and unconsciously pressed my face against his back.The car started with a whoosh.

"Lu Han, where are we going?" The bleak cold wind whizzed by, and I could barely keep my eyes open.

"You will know when you go."

Since getting drunk that day, Lu Han has changed a lot. I thought he would be very negative like last time.But this time he told me that he would put Zhi Xia down and told me not to worry.

The place Lu Han took me to was the roof of a building, from here I could have a panoramic view of almost everything in Beijing, the busy avenues, the crowded pedestrian streets, and the beautiful scenery that I had never seen before. "Well, this place is not bad." He showed off to me proudly as if he had discovered a new continent.

Seeing my stupefied look, Lu Han took out a bundle of fairy sticks from the bag, ignited it and hurriedly stuffed a handful of them into my hand, while he kept shaking the remaining few sticks.He smiled so innocently that his jaw almost dropped to the ground.

"Yu Shen, let's go together." He grabbed my hand, afraid that I wouldn't know how to play with it, as if he wanted to teach me how to shake it.I was amused by his clumsy appearance, and my hands couldn't help dancing.

We finished all the fireworks on New Year’s Eve, and then Luhan and I sat on the ground side by side.That night, stars appeared in the sky of Beijing for the first time after more than a month. Not far away, I saw fireworks shining like the sun, illuminating the whole city.

Lu Han suddenly asked me: "Yu Shen, do you have any dreams?"

I thought for a while and replied, "I want to go to Bolivia. I heard that it is the closest place to the sky. What about you?" I turned my head to look at him. That was the first time I saw him so closely. And the dense eyelashes curled up in a perfect arc, and the clear eyes looked into the distance, smiling involuntarily.

"I want to be a singer, I want to sing."

It turned out that this was the secret buried in that guitar.

Lu Han had a band two years ago, and he was the leader of the band.The love between Zhi Xia and Lu Han developed at that time. The 15-year-old Zhi Xia looks pure and sweet, has a good voice, and became the lead singer of the band in one fell swoop.In those days, they were very happy, because they had the same dream in the beginning.

"Yu Shen, do you know? When I first met you, everyone said you were a weirdo. But, I don't believe it." He turned his head suddenly, and I seemed to see me in his eyes that hid stars. , "Now you are very much like Zhixia when you were 15 years old, clean and transparent, without the slightest impurity, as if everything in this world can't pollute you."

"But later, she changed. She became greedy, stingy, vain, and even addicted to money. But in the end, it's all my fault. I'm too arrogant, so I want to restore the old one again and again. She, that kind and simple Zhi Xia..."

I've been with Lu Han for so long, this is the first time he's so proactively talking to me about Zhi Xia, the bottom line in his heart.Once upon a time, he would be annoyed by me because of looking at her photo, but now it seems so insignificant when talking about it.

Then I also heard a lot of things I didn't know.

For example, Luhan used to have a wealthy family and excellent academic performance. He was the pride of his parents and a role model for children of the same age.In the winter of 2003, his father became a sensational economic prisoner, his old house was sealed off, and all his property was confiscated.After being stimulated, her mother fell into a slump and eventually passed away. His father also became addicted to alcohol and gambling because he couldn't stand the heavy blow.As for him, becoming bad is probably his best way to vent.

With a loud bang, gorgeous fireworks bloomed in the dark sky again. Although the fireworks were beautiful, they were fleeting, and in the end there was not even a single wreck left.The bell of the new year is ringing at this moment.

I chatted side by side with Luhan for a long time, and in the end he sent me home.When I was about to say goodbye to him, he suddenly stopped me, then lowered his head and branded a light kiss on my lips.I was stunned for a full minute before I realized that I had been kissed. There was still a warm touch on my lips, and two red clouds had already risen up on my cheeks.My heart trembled slightly, I swallowed and said, "Lu Han, you are..."

He probably realized that his behavior was a little disrespectful, so he immediately let go of the hand that was holding me, scratched his head embarrassingly and said, "I... that... I... can't help it... sorry..."

For a while, I suddenly wanted to cry, like a baby who has lost a precious thing, but when I saw Lu Han blushing for the first time, I finally laughed out loud: "In this case, Lu Han, you and I will live together in this life. That’s the end of the knot, you have to pay back what you owe me!”

When I was 17 years old, I dedicated my first kiss to this boy in front of me.

I swear, if he confesses to me, I will say yes.

"Luhan, I heard that there will be an end of the world in 2012, when the whole world will be turned into ruins, are you afraid?"

"Not afraid."

Because of you, I have nothing to fear.

That year, Luhan and Yu Shen were seventeen.

【We have to owe each other, otherwise why should we miss it】

◆【08-09】

【08】

"How could this happen at this stage?" The class teacher handed the report card to my mother, which showed my grades that had been declining since I was 17 years old.The teacher was very reserved, and didn't deliberately point out the relationship between me and Lu Han in front of my mother, "I didn't say that. Yu Shen's grades have declined very quickly in the past six months, and this has a great impact on her future. "

My mother was born in a scholarly family, and she is a well-educated person. She didn't criticize me but she knew it in her heart.She smiled apologetically at the teacher: "Teacher, I will go back and educate her about what you said, can you let me talk to that boy."

I bit my lip, thinking this was a disaster.But before I could say anything, my mother took me aside, dragged Lu Han to a quiet corner and chatted on my own.Let's hope it doesn't turn out too badly.

Later, I really experienced the feeling of being in heaven one second and falling into hell the next second.

Ever since my mother was called to talk at school, the class teacher replaced Lu Han from my side. She arranged a new deskmate for me, but Lu Han sat next to Lin Mu.She said it was my mother's request and she hoped I would obey.Since then, everything has changed, and the relationship between me and Luhan has changed from fire to ice, as if there is an invisible dividing line separating each other, but his life is over there.

I suddenly remembered a line of Li Jiawei's lyrics: I became a seldom-mentioned past in your world.

When I was in class, I could always sneak a glimpse of the small movements between Lu Han and Lin Shu from the corner of my eye.He often tells jokes to make her happy, Lin Mu's round eyes always smile into a crescent moon, he will bring her a hot breakfast, and he will go to the library with her.But these have never happened between us.

Luhan, you seem to be without me, nothing has changed.

But without you, everything has changed.

I began to write the word "Luhan" on the draft paper over and over again like a madman, sometimes even I would be surprised how I filled this blank paper.Perhaps, this is the so-called growth, to bury all the misses deep in the bottom of my heart without nutrients, and to harvest all the joys, anger, sorrows and joys into a sentence that is neither painful nor itchy.

This time, I understand that between me and him, like the love that was annihilated before it sprouted, we will always be strangers.

Luhan, I wish I never liked you.

May you have no contact with me in your future life journey.

From then on, each is safe and well, and this is the screening.

【09】

After the college entrance examination in June, the class raised funds to organize a breakup dinner.According to the schedule, we will go to the hotel for dinner first, and then go to KTV to sing.Fourteen men and women were squeezed into the dining table for ten people. They deliberately pressed Lu Han to my side, but I had nothing to say to him in the end.At this point, I'm even starting to wonder if that night